1 00:00:37,246 --> 00:00:42,468 The Pilgrim's Progress. From this World to That Which is to Come, 2 00:00:43,335 --> 00:00:46,214 Delivered Under the Similitude of a Dream. 3 00:00:48,632 --> 00:00:52,387 Wherein is Discovered, The Manner of His Setting Out, 4 00:00:52,928 --> 00:00:54,680 His Dangerous Journey 5 00:00:55,556 --> 00:00:58,560 And Safe Arrival at the Desired Country. 6 00:01:48,817 --> 00:01:52,412 As I walked through the wilderness of this world, 7 00:01:52,529 --> 00:01:55,954 I lighted on a certain place where was a den 8 00:01:57,159 --> 00:01:59,787 and I laid me down in that place to sleep. 9 00:02:00,704 --> 00:02:04,208 And as I slept, I dreamed a dream. 10 00:02:06,084 --> 00:02:09,429 I saw a man clothed with rags, 11 00:02:09,588 --> 00:02:14,389 standing in a certain place with his face from his own house 12 00:02:14,551 --> 00:02:18,852 book in his hand, and a great burden upon his back. 13 00:02:22,643 --> 00:02:24,862 All those years... 14 00:02:26,938 --> 00:02:28,940 living the life of someone... 15 00:02:30,692 --> 00:02:32,239 I didn't even know. 16 00:03:01,014 --> 00:03:05,690 Remember the story I used to tell you when you were a boy... 17 00:03:06,520 --> 00:03:08,113 about a young prince. 18 00:03:09,648 --> 00:03:11,696 A knight, 19 00:03:12,567 --> 00:03:15,286 sent by his father, the King of the East, 20 00:03:17,614 --> 00:03:19,161 west into Egypt... 21 00:03:23,578 --> 00:03:25,125 to find a pearl. 22 00:03:30,919 --> 00:03:34,014 A pearl from the depths of the sea. 23 00:03:44,474 --> 00:03:46,568 But when the prince arrived, 24 00:03:49,229 --> 00:03:53,075 the people poured him a cup that took away his memory. 25 00:03:55,902 --> 00:03:58,200 He forgot he was the son of the king. 26 00:04:04,703 --> 00:04:06,455 Forgot about the pearl... 27 00:04:13,086 --> 00:04:15,384 and fell into a deep sleep. 28 00:04:35,901 --> 00:04:38,780 The king didn't forget his son. 29 00:04:40,947 --> 00:04:43,370 He continued to send word... 30 00:04:47,871 --> 00:04:49,418 messengers... 31 00:04:54,836 --> 00:04:56,634 guides. 32 00:05:00,383 --> 00:05:03,603 But the prince... slept on. 33 00:08:43,565 --> 00:08:46,034 You see the palm trees? 34 00:08:47,027 --> 00:08:49,405 They tell you anything's possible. 35 00:08:53,074 --> 00:08:54,621 You can be anything... 36 00:08:56,703 --> 00:08:58,250 do anything... 37 00:09:00,582 --> 00:09:02,129 start over. 38 00:09:06,004 --> 00:09:07,551 You know? 39 00:09:10,216 --> 00:09:14,062 I'm asking for your permission to make this 40 00:09:14,220 --> 00:09:17,269 a dramatic scene for one second... 41 00:09:41,247 --> 00:09:42,794 My son... 42 00:09:51,049 --> 00:09:52,596 you are just like I am. 43 00:09:58,681 --> 00:10:00,524 Can't figure your life out? 44 00:10:04,896 --> 00:10:06,990 Can't put the pieces together? 45 00:10:13,404 --> 00:10:15,406 Just like me. 46 00:10:23,456 --> 00:10:25,083 A pilgrim on this earth. 47 00:10:29,379 --> 00:10:30,926 A stranger. 48 00:10:54,195 --> 00:10:55,947 Fragments... 49 00:10:59,159 --> 00:11:00,706 pieces... 50 00:11:02,996 --> 00:11:04,543 of a man. 51 00:11:16,426 --> 00:11:18,724 Where did I go wrong? 52 00:11:58,092 --> 00:12:00,390 What you wanna talk about? 53 00:12:03,097 --> 00:12:05,316 You have nice eyes. 54 00:12:05,808 --> 00:12:07,355 Aren't I lucky. 55 00:12:07,936 --> 00:12:09,654 Where do you live? 56 00:12:09,812 --> 00:12:11,359 Why do ya wanna know? 57 00:12:12,649 --> 00:12:14,492 I want to write you a letter. 58 00:12:18,947 --> 00:12:21,416 What are you gonna say in your letter? 59 00:12:26,287 --> 00:12:28,665 Maybe you better not say it. 60 00:13:11,332 --> 00:13:14,962 Let's live like nobody's ever done it before. 61 00:13:17,547 --> 00:13:18,594 Wicked. 62 00:13:18,756 --> 00:13:22,010 Once the soul was perfect and had wings... 63 00:13:22,176 --> 00:13:23,519 Brave. 64 00:13:23,678 --> 00:13:29,060 ... it could soar into heaven where only creatures with wings can be. 65 00:13:29,267 --> 00:13:33,067 But the soul lost its wings and fell to Earth. 66 00:13:33,229 --> 00:13:35,323 There it took an earthly body. 67 00:13:35,523 --> 00:13:38,367 And now, while it lives in this body, 68 00:13:38,526 --> 00:13:41,700 no outward sign of wings can be seen. 69 00:13:42,196 --> 00:13:44,995 Yet the roots of its wings are still there. 70 00:13:45,158 --> 00:13:48,833 And the nature of wings is to try to raise the earthbound body 71 00:13:48,995 --> 00:13:50,747 and soar with it into heaven. 72 00:13:50,913 --> 00:13:55,919 When we see a beautiful woman, or a man... 73 00:13:56,502 --> 00:14:01,804 the soul remembers the beauty it used to know in heaven. 74 00:14:02,425 --> 00:14:07,647 And wings begin to spout, and that makes the soul want to fly, 75 00:14:07,805 --> 00:14:10,433 but it cannot yet. It is still too weak. 76 00:14:10,600 --> 00:14:15,481 So the man keeps staring up into the sky like a young bird. 77 00:14:15,646 --> 00:14:18,195 He has lost all interest in the world... 78 00:14:18,941 --> 00:14:23,822 - Can I come over? - We just left each other. 79 00:14:23,988 --> 00:14:25,706 Are you alone? 80 00:14:27,450 --> 00:14:28,997 Of course. 81 00:14:29,160 --> 00:14:34,712 On my phone sheet, I got agent writers up my ass trying to get this job. 82 00:14:34,874 --> 00:14:39,095 I just want to sit next to you. 83 00:14:40,213 --> 00:14:43,342 Teddy thinks you're the guy for this. 84 00:14:44,675 --> 00:14:47,770 That means the assignment you didn't turn in, right, 85 00:14:47,929 --> 00:14:51,274 you don't have to worry about it. Here's what happens. That goes away. 86 00:14:52,266 --> 00:14:56,271 - What are you wearing? - A dress. 87 00:14:56,437 --> 00:14:59,190 - What's it made of? - How should I know? 88 00:15:00,400 --> 00:15:01,947 Cotton, I guess. 89 00:15:02,110 --> 00:15:04,989 We said there's no way you're gonna do it. 90 00:15:05,154 --> 00:15:08,749 So what'd we do? Said, double your quote. And he did it. 91 00:15:09,242 --> 00:15:12,917 And that, Chuck signed off of that. Teddy gets who he wants. 92 00:15:13,079 --> 00:15:15,173 The biggest comedy star wants you. 93 00:15:15,331 --> 00:15:19,757 5 years ago you came to me and wanted to write big movies in Hollywood. 94 00:15:20,837 --> 00:15:24,216 - I mean... - Okay, I don't want to see. 95 00:15:24,382 --> 00:15:28,558 Moments like this don't come along, okay? This is it. 96 00:15:37,728 --> 00:15:39,822 I see how you look at me. 97 00:15:45,153 --> 00:15:47,622 You think I could make you crazy? 98 00:15:51,576 --> 00:15:53,670 Crack you out of your shell? 99 00:16:02,420 --> 00:16:03,967 Make you suffer? 100 00:16:26,944 --> 00:16:33,202 I... think... you're... weak. 101 00:16:44,670 --> 00:16:46,217 You don't want love. 102 00:16:52,261 --> 00:16:54,935 You want a love experience. 103 00:17:12,281 --> 00:17:14,283 Am I bringing you back to life? 104 00:17:25,294 --> 00:17:26,796 Love and do what you like. 105 00:17:30,633 --> 00:17:32,180 A saint said that. 106 00:17:38,808 --> 00:17:40,810 Desire so deep. 107 00:17:43,104 --> 00:17:44,697 I'll throw my life away. 108 00:17:47,191 --> 00:17:49,569 Don't go back to being dead. 109 00:18:00,454 --> 00:18:02,127 What do you want? 110 00:18:29,859 --> 00:18:33,113 We're not leading the lives that we are meant for. 111 00:18:37,241 --> 00:18:39,744 We're meant for something else. 112 00:19:32,254 --> 00:19:35,224 My brother will translate. 113 00:19:52,108 --> 00:19:54,236 He looks around. 114 00:20:01,659 --> 00:20:04,412 He walks near the edge of the cliff. 115 00:20:25,099 --> 00:20:27,727 She says, like shadows. 116 00:20:39,405 --> 00:20:41,783 Where will I meet you? 117 00:20:57,590 --> 00:20:59,684 Which way should I go? 118 00:21:10,853 --> 00:21:12,855 Suppose it isn't there for me, 119 00:21:14,732 --> 00:21:16,279 in the end? 120 00:21:42,092 --> 00:21:43,639 How do I begin? 121 00:22:37,731 --> 00:22:39,574 Remember how you showed up? 122 00:22:40,985 --> 00:22:44,239 Your wrists were taped up like a tennis player's. 123 00:22:46,490 --> 00:22:49,539 You walked around like nothing had happened. 124 00:22:54,373 --> 00:22:58,298 You were always doing it, pretending everything was okay. 125 00:23:00,087 --> 00:23:01,714 But it wasn't. 126 00:23:14,560 --> 00:23:16,904 - That's my brother, Rick. - How are ya? 127 00:23:17,062 --> 00:23:20,282 What's goin' on, now? Anything. Same today? 128 00:23:21,191 --> 00:23:25,367 Don't know how many times I thought I'd die right here on the street. 129 00:23:26,614 --> 00:23:30,585 I picked him up and I had him in my car, and a cop pulled us over. 130 00:23:30,701 --> 00:23:36,128 I tell him, "I'm a Methodist minister and I'm looking after you, alright?" 131 00:23:36,290 --> 00:23:37,837 And I got off. 132 00:24:08,238 --> 00:24:13,460 I dreamed that we were caught in a huge tidal wave that engulfed the city. 133 00:24:16,914 --> 00:24:20,168 Any moment it seemed like we might be swept under. 134 00:24:23,545 --> 00:24:26,674 There was a door that I was afraid to go through. 135 00:24:29,218 --> 00:24:32,973 - I touched the knob... - If I stuck you with a fork. 136 00:24:34,974 --> 00:24:37,773 Just wanna feel somethin', man. 137 00:24:40,396 --> 00:24:42,319 Wish we could do some things. 138 00:24:44,108 --> 00:24:47,703 Like goin' out on the Snake River together. Remember? 139 00:24:50,406 --> 00:24:52,579 Think I'd end up here. 140 00:24:55,911 --> 00:24:57,458 Gracias. 141 00:25:05,421 --> 00:25:07,765 It's good of you to invite me out here. 142 00:25:09,925 --> 00:25:12,678 Show me what it's like to live a normal life. 143 00:25:21,395 --> 00:25:23,318 Somethin' wrong? 144 00:25:31,572 --> 00:25:33,119 What's up? 145 00:25:34,158 --> 00:25:37,412 I can tell when somethin's wrong, man. I know you. 146 00:25:56,055 --> 00:25:58,683 What do you wanna talk about? 147 00:26:03,270 --> 00:26:06,524 I'm the only brother you got left. You can tell me. 148 00:26:07,399 --> 00:26:08,946 I tell you stuff. 149 00:26:09,818 --> 00:26:11,912 I loved my brother then. 150 00:26:14,698 --> 00:26:16,245 I hated him, too. 151 00:26:18,702 --> 00:26:21,956 For destroying everything I'd been trying to do. 152 00:26:22,956 --> 00:26:25,334 To build us back up after Billy died. 153 00:26:28,921 --> 00:26:34,223 I remember when they were putting Billy in the ground, Dad went into hysterics. 154 00:26:35,761 --> 00:26:37,308 "My son!" 155 00:26:38,013 --> 00:26:39,560 Who fucking does that? 156 00:26:41,975 --> 00:26:44,194 They said he took his life. 157 00:26:45,896 --> 00:26:47,443 But they don't know. 158 00:26:51,693 --> 00:26:53,912 Oh, right now. Come on. 159 00:26:56,657 --> 00:26:58,204 I gotta feel something. 160 00:26:58,408 --> 00:26:59,955 Like a snake. 161 00:27:03,914 --> 00:27:05,461 Swallowed him. 162 00:27:06,625 --> 00:27:08,172 Come on, feel it. 163 00:27:16,009 --> 00:27:17,682 Blind. 164 00:27:22,015 --> 00:27:23,062 Deaf. 165 00:27:34,778 --> 00:27:36,325 Grasping. 166 00:27:37,114 --> 00:27:39,833 I just wanted to twist a cane. 167 00:27:43,996 --> 00:27:45,748 Strike out, break free. 168 00:27:47,791 --> 00:27:49,293 Didn't have the guts. 169 00:28:00,053 --> 00:28:01,976 He's just an old fool. 170 00:28:06,435 --> 00:28:08,813 Just let him die with his blinders on. 171 00:28:29,291 --> 00:28:31,134 Redeem my life. 172 00:28:35,505 --> 00:28:37,052 Justify it. 173 00:28:37,216 --> 00:28:42,393 Ah, look at the fierce one. The fierceness in his eyes. The rage! 174 00:28:42,554 --> 00:28:44,852 ...inflicted upon myself... 175 00:28:46,725 --> 00:28:48,272 Oh Billy. 176 00:28:51,521 --> 00:28:53,068 I died. 177 00:28:55,067 --> 00:28:56,614 In a different way. 178 00:29:03,325 --> 00:29:05,748 I know you don't love me. 179 00:29:11,208 --> 00:29:12,926 I know things. 180 00:29:13,085 --> 00:29:16,089 - Say it. - Serious information. 181 00:29:19,675 --> 00:29:21,348 I've blinded you. 182 00:29:23,762 --> 00:29:25,309 My life has... 183 00:29:25,472 --> 00:29:28,726 I did every lousy, crappy job that they wanted me to do. 184 00:29:28,892 --> 00:29:33,068 But because I stumbled down the road like a drunk... 185 00:29:36,191 --> 00:29:38,660 that doesn't mean it's the wrong one. 186 00:29:55,627 --> 00:29:58,096 I turned you upside down. 187 00:30:04,011 --> 00:30:05,558 My son. 188 00:30:13,729 --> 00:30:16,699 The light's gone out of your eyes. 189 00:30:19,693 --> 00:30:21,240 Womanizer. 190 00:30:26,825 --> 00:30:28,372 Cut off. 191 00:31:19,503 --> 00:31:21,505 Life. 192 00:31:27,052 --> 00:31:28,599 A goddess. 193 00:32:40,625 --> 00:32:42,172 Angela... 194 00:32:45,797 --> 00:32:47,344 Frita... 195 00:32:47,507 --> 00:32:52,138 Music is very important. Helps me to fall in love. 196 00:32:52,888 --> 00:32:54,731 I fall in love 20 times a day. 197 00:32:54,890 --> 00:32:58,815 Your face was very familiar to me, but I didn't know from where. You're fantastic. 198 00:32:58,977 --> 00:33:00,149 Thank you. 199 00:33:00,312 --> 00:33:05,534 Listening to music on headsets, unaware you are staring at them like a dirty ol' man. 200 00:33:06,401 --> 00:33:08,699 Myself, I didn't wanna get a divorce. 201 00:33:08,862 --> 00:33:13,208 I never stopped loving them. But the way I loved them changed. 202 00:33:14,242 --> 00:33:15,494 They are like flavors. 203 00:33:15,660 --> 00:33:20,712 Sometimes you want raspberry, then after a while you want some strawberry. 204 00:33:20,874 --> 00:33:23,878 - It's Abrasive. - Oh, you are such a governor. 205 00:33:31,092 --> 00:33:32,935 - What's your name? - Helen. 206 00:33:35,222 --> 00:33:36,769 What's your name? 207 00:33:37,432 --> 00:33:38,479 Rick. 208 00:33:38,600 --> 00:33:40,318 Do you know anybody here? 209 00:33:40,685 --> 00:33:43,063 No. Does that surprise you? 210 00:33:51,446 --> 00:33:53,369 - I know a guy. - I know a guy... 211 00:33:54,199 --> 00:33:58,579 - ...like future space. - You're at a party, it's alright. 212 00:34:18,431 --> 00:34:20,809 You know who'd be hot? Cleopatra. 213 00:34:20,976 --> 00:34:23,775 If her nose had been this much shorter, 214 00:34:23,937 --> 00:34:26,031 it would've changed the world. 215 00:34:47,168 --> 00:34:48,715 The Pearl. 216 00:34:52,716 --> 00:34:54,263 Somewhere in the sea. 217 00:35:00,348 --> 00:35:01,895 A chaos. 218 00:35:07,897 --> 00:35:09,444 Hungry. 219 00:35:11,484 --> 00:35:13,612 Longing for something other... 220 00:35:17,824 --> 00:35:19,667 without knowing what it is. 221 00:35:29,127 --> 00:35:31,926 What about pink? Do you like pink? 222 00:35:33,465 --> 00:35:39,973 - I love the company of women. - It's pretty. Did it take long? 223 00:35:40,138 --> 00:35:43,108 It seemed they knew something. 224 00:35:43,266 --> 00:35:45,189 Some men don't like pink. 225 00:35:45,352 --> 00:35:49,778 - But closer. - Now you tell me something. 226 00:35:51,900 --> 00:35:53,743 To the mystery. 227 00:36:04,996 --> 00:36:07,624 Treat this world as it deserves. 228 00:36:10,043 --> 00:36:11,886 There are no principles... 229 00:36:13,296 --> 00:36:14,843 just circumstances. 230 00:36:22,222 --> 00:36:23,769 Nobody's home. 231 00:36:23,932 --> 00:36:27,436 Smoke machines in an empty sea. 232 00:36:27,602 --> 00:36:29,195 I got women in Tennessee. 233 00:36:29,354 --> 00:36:33,655 What can run but never walk, some word have I found but never talk. 234 00:36:33,775 --> 00:36:35,869 Gonna take me out to see... 235 00:36:54,921 --> 00:36:56,468 Get up. 236 00:37:07,892 --> 00:37:09,610 Find it. 237 00:37:11,438 --> 00:37:16,410 There's a ketamine party we're having next week. Have you ever heard of that? 238 00:37:16,526 --> 00:37:22,124 You're here for 20 seconds and then, wham, you're out. You're in another room. 239 00:37:22,282 --> 00:37:25,832 Your wife. You're in another one. You oughtta do that. 240 00:37:25,994 --> 00:37:29,715 Have you been to Sarajevo? I have prayed, man, 241 00:37:29,873 --> 00:37:35,801 for God to take my arm, take both arms. I felt so useless. 242 00:37:35,962 --> 00:37:37,714 What's your name? 243 00:38:13,374 --> 00:38:15,217 Dear friend. 244 00:38:17,629 --> 00:38:19,848 I wonder where I was in all that time. 245 00:38:23,134 --> 00:38:24,681 A sleepwalker. 246 00:38:31,100 --> 00:38:33,819 In love with the world, in love with love. 247 00:38:41,402 --> 00:38:43,951 The world's a swamp. 248 00:38:45,573 --> 00:38:47,246 You have to fly over it. 249 00:38:48,910 --> 00:38:50,628 Fly... 250 00:38:54,457 --> 00:38:56,004 High up... 251 00:38:58,962 --> 00:39:00,885 where everything is just... 252 00:39:02,173 --> 00:39:03,720 a speck. 253 00:39:29,117 --> 00:39:30,664 You changed. 254 00:39:36,749 --> 00:39:38,342 The world absorbed you. 255 00:39:44,507 --> 00:39:46,054 More and more. 256 00:39:55,310 --> 00:39:58,029 I regret that it turned out the way it did. 257 00:39:58,897 --> 00:40:01,946 You always wanted to get away. I wanted a mate. 258 00:40:03,359 --> 00:40:04,906 I couldn't have you. 259 00:40:08,740 --> 00:40:10,583 Just didn't wanna be alone. 260 00:40:29,427 --> 00:40:31,976 Are you sorry that you brought me here? 261 00:40:37,185 --> 00:40:38,732 Are you sorry you came? 262 00:40:40,521 --> 00:40:45,197 Do you remember how happy we were? Different these days. 263 00:40:47,695 --> 00:40:49,368 What's going on with you? 264 00:40:51,991 --> 00:40:56,497 You used to sing in the morning coming down the stairs. 265 00:40:58,623 --> 00:41:01,752 I meant to make you happy. I wanted nothing else. 266 00:41:03,044 --> 00:41:05,672 But then you began to be angry with me... 267 00:41:07,048 --> 00:41:08,641 just for little things. 268 00:41:12,178 --> 00:41:16,524 I don't wanna accuse you, but you turned more unkind toward me. 269 00:41:19,894 --> 00:41:21,441 Almost cruel. 270 00:41:33,658 --> 00:41:36,537 Just don't threaten me with leaving, okay? 271 00:41:36,703 --> 00:41:38,376 Just do what you wanna do! 272 00:41:42,166 --> 00:41:43,759 Just go! 273 00:42:08,234 --> 00:42:10,407 Stay. 274 00:42:16,242 --> 00:42:17,789 I want you. 275 00:42:22,206 --> 00:42:23,753 Hold you. 276 00:42:25,960 --> 00:42:28,509 Have you. Mine. 277 00:42:29,338 --> 00:42:32,342 Are you sorry we didn't have babies? 278 00:42:36,804 --> 00:42:38,351 I am. 279 00:42:45,271 --> 00:42:47,194 Got started so late. 280 00:43:22,058 --> 00:43:27,030 You wanted me to help you through the dangers of a young man's life. 281 00:43:27,855 --> 00:43:29,402 Ambition. 282 00:43:31,234 --> 00:43:32,781 Fear. 283 00:43:36,531 --> 00:43:39,660 When was the last time you took these boots off? 284 00:43:46,833 --> 00:43:50,007 I think you were afraid of going astray. 285 00:43:53,714 --> 00:43:56,513 I couldn't help you stay on the right path. 286 00:44:01,389 --> 00:44:04,359 Your head was turned in the wrong direction. 287 00:44:05,226 --> 00:44:07,524 Can you move all your fingers? 288 00:44:08,896 --> 00:44:11,365 Yeah, they look a little bit bruised. 289 00:44:32,879 --> 00:44:37,350 You never really wanted to be totally inside our marriage. 290 00:44:41,596 --> 00:44:43,189 Nor outside it, either. 291 00:44:50,438 --> 00:44:53,237 You were sincere in the promises you made. 292 00:44:59,864 --> 00:45:05,246 Still... they didn't come from your heart. 293 00:45:41,697 --> 00:45:44,075 I was afraid when I was young. 294 00:45:50,706 --> 00:45:52,253 Afraid of life. 295 00:45:55,211 --> 00:45:56,758 Who pays for it. 296 00:45:59,632 --> 00:46:01,726 I'm sorry you had to pay as well. 297 00:46:24,073 --> 00:46:25,825 My hope. 298 00:46:46,554 --> 00:46:48,227 You gave me peace. 299 00:46:51,434 --> 00:46:53,903 You gave me what the world can't give. 300 00:46:54,061 --> 00:46:56,905 (string music: "Solveig's Song" by E. Grieg) 301 00:46:57,064 --> 00:46:58,611 Mercy. 302 00:46:59,483 --> 00:47:01,030 Love. 303 00:47:02,820 --> 00:47:04,493 Joy. 304 00:47:08,659 --> 00:47:10,206 All else is cloud. 305 00:47:13,247 --> 00:47:14,794 Mist. 306 00:47:20,004 --> 00:47:21,551 Be with me. 307 00:47:25,384 --> 00:47:26,931 Always. 308 00:48:10,763 --> 00:48:13,437 You're still the love of my life. 309 00:48:18,437 --> 00:48:19,984 Should I tell you that? 310 00:49:00,187 --> 00:49:03,691 Drinking is bad. But feelings are worse. 311 00:49:03,858 --> 00:49:07,533 Sober girls are the worst, but so are really drunk ones. 312 00:49:07,653 --> 00:49:10,748 The sweet spot is one xanie, four white wines. 313 00:49:17,288 --> 00:49:21,839 If you're not first in line, you're smelling somebody else's brown eye. 314 00:49:22,001 --> 00:49:23,548 Balls deep. 315 00:49:25,379 --> 00:49:29,009 Living my life is like playing Call of Duty on easy. 316 00:49:29,175 --> 00:49:31,143 I just go around and fuck shit up. 317 00:49:31,302 --> 00:49:34,272 Why don't we take "yes" for an answer. 318 00:49:37,475 --> 00:49:41,446 Let me tell you about you. 319 00:49:44,440 --> 00:49:47,489 You worked long and hard to get to this moment. 320 00:49:49,236 --> 00:49:50,783 Mountain air. 321 00:49:52,156 --> 00:49:54,204 Freedom. What are you gonna do? 322 00:49:56,660 --> 00:50:00,210 Crawl back down because you don't like the altitude? 323 00:50:02,291 --> 00:50:04,669 You have an incomparable opportunity. 324 00:50:07,087 --> 00:50:08,839 I told you about you. 325 00:50:09,507 --> 00:50:11,509 Now let me tell you about me. 326 00:50:12,510 --> 00:50:14,057 I wanna make you rich. 327 00:50:17,056 --> 00:50:19,935 Is there anyone you wanna sit in a room with? 328 00:50:20,601 --> 00:50:25,323 Is there anyone you wanna know? You wanna climb your stairs, or theirs? 329 00:50:28,150 --> 00:50:29,697 Never get your shot. 330 00:50:34,114 --> 00:50:35,661 Your time on Earth. 331 00:50:40,955 --> 00:50:42,798 All you need to do is say yes. 332 00:50:48,754 --> 00:50:50,301 Nod. 333 00:50:51,423 --> 00:50:52,970 Wink. 334 00:50:57,137 --> 00:50:58,730 Where else will you go? 335 00:51:03,852 --> 00:51:05,854 It'll be the same there. 336 00:51:14,071 --> 00:51:16,824 Don't get your head too far up your own ass. 337 00:51:16,949 --> 00:51:20,328 Once people envied and respected me. 338 00:51:20,494 --> 00:51:22,041 They called me in. 339 00:51:22,997 --> 00:51:24,544 Give me your ID's. 340 00:51:25,124 --> 00:51:28,549 Give me your... give me your pass to open the doors. 341 00:51:28,711 --> 00:51:30,258 They have a checklist. 342 00:51:33,716 --> 00:51:37,812 They didn't count the pros and cons... 343 00:51:42,182 --> 00:51:44,810 I gave my life up for you kids. 344 00:51:44,977 --> 00:51:49,858 It wasn't a noble sacrifice. It was what we were supposed to do. 345 00:51:50,024 --> 00:51:52,118 It was the way I was raised. 346 00:52:07,791 --> 00:52:10,635 Try starving once! I've tried it. I've done it! 347 00:52:10,794 --> 00:52:15,174 Now it's all over. Now it's leaving me. Now it's going away from me. 348 00:52:16,634 --> 00:52:21,390 You think when you reach a certain age things will start making sense. 349 00:52:24,433 --> 00:52:28,108 Then you find out you're just as lost as you were before. 350 00:52:32,983 --> 00:52:35,657 I suppose that's what damnation is. 351 00:52:40,157 --> 00:52:44,333 The pieces of your life never to come together. 352 00:52:48,415 --> 00:52:51,009 Just splashed out there. 353 00:53:03,722 --> 00:53:09,320 His goods are in peace. But when a stronger than he shall come upon you... 354 00:53:09,978 --> 00:53:12,197 This was a vision, 355 00:53:12,690 --> 00:53:15,364 nice and clear as a mountain stream. 356 00:53:17,403 --> 00:53:19,872 The mind revealing itself to itself. 357 00:53:24,243 --> 00:53:29,124 In my vision I was on the verandah of a vast estate, 358 00:53:29,289 --> 00:53:32,634 a palazzo of some fantastic proportion. 359 00:53:38,966 --> 00:53:45,019 There seemed to emanate from it a light from within this gleaming, radiant marble. 360 00:53:59,611 --> 00:54:01,454 That's good, that's good. 361 00:54:01,613 --> 00:54:03,035 Tuck. Relax your mouth. 362 00:54:06,076 --> 00:54:09,501 Who is responsible for this clothing? Who is it? 363 00:54:09,663 --> 00:54:13,588 - Can you step out of the wind? - Stop smiling. 364 00:54:14,293 --> 00:54:17,012 And don't move too fast. 365 00:54:20,048 --> 00:54:23,052 They didn't take eighty. Doesn't matter. 366 00:54:23,886 --> 00:54:25,433 I had a dream. 367 00:54:26,638 --> 00:54:28,811 Don't stare at me like this. 368 00:54:29,016 --> 00:54:31,644 I met a woman from another world. 369 00:54:34,813 --> 00:54:36,815 I was taken up above the earth. 370 00:54:40,235 --> 00:54:41,782 I shook with fear. 371 00:54:44,782 --> 00:54:46,329 Wonder. 372 00:54:50,454 --> 00:54:53,799 Lean into her. Put your breasts against her back. 373 00:54:53,957 --> 00:54:57,632 Don't look sweet. Don't look scared. You like this, Helen. 374 00:54:58,545 --> 00:55:00,092 Who are you? 375 00:55:01,548 --> 00:55:06,805 Look into the camera. Fucking make it hard. You're a dirty, fucking bitch. 376 00:55:06,970 --> 00:55:12,318 Work those muscles. You're a 1975 housewife who takes steroids and fucks girls. 377 00:55:13,852 --> 00:55:15,399 I travel. 378 00:55:17,731 --> 00:55:19,278 A wanderer. 379 00:55:21,610 --> 00:55:23,157 A stranger. 380 00:55:29,535 --> 00:55:31,082 Like you. 381 00:55:32,830 --> 00:55:35,504 Stop, take your hands off your hip. 382 00:55:35,666 --> 00:55:37,213 Hit her hard, pop. 383 00:55:39,795 --> 00:55:43,425 I keep thinking I can make a new start. 384 00:55:43,590 --> 00:55:45,718 Helen? 2 weeks. 385 00:55:56,103 --> 00:55:58,197 Can you swim? 386 00:56:31,763 --> 00:56:33,731 Higher. 387 00:57:03,712 --> 00:57:05,635 Is this a friendship we have? 388 00:57:16,475 --> 00:57:19,479 I don't wanna wreak havoc in men's lives anymore. 389 00:58:20,163 --> 00:58:22,461 Oh... life. 390 00:58:33,677 --> 00:58:35,805 What do you want from me? 391 00:58:43,353 --> 00:58:45,026 To weave a spell over you? 392 00:58:52,571 --> 00:58:54,118 To make you dream? 393 00:59:01,997 --> 00:59:03,590 Dreams are nice. 394 00:59:08,128 --> 00:59:10,005 But you can't live in them. 395 00:59:50,962 --> 00:59:54,887 There's somewhere else we need to get to. 396 00:59:59,054 --> 01:00:00,601 I know it. 397 01:01:02,159 --> 01:01:04,002 It comes to me now. 398 01:01:07,747 --> 01:01:10,125 How tenderly you touched my face... 399 01:01:14,796 --> 01:01:16,719 when you were four years old. 400 01:01:21,303 --> 01:01:23,226 And I'd bounce you on my knee. 401 01:01:36,985 --> 01:01:38,532 So much I was given. 402 01:01:41,198 --> 01:01:43,621 So much I left behind. 403 01:01:54,044 --> 01:01:55,591 Remember. 404 01:01:59,007 --> 01:02:00,554 The pearl. 405 01:02:06,014 --> 01:02:07,561 Whispering. 406 01:02:09,935 --> 01:02:11,482 Beckoning. 407 01:02:16,066 --> 01:02:17,613 Each man, 408 01:02:18,193 --> 01:02:19,740 each woman. 409 01:02:24,824 --> 01:02:26,371 A guide. 410 01:02:27,244 --> 01:02:28,791 A God. 411 01:02:31,331 --> 01:02:34,676 ...except I got better math and science scores... 412 01:02:39,422 --> 01:02:41,049 You live in exile. 413 01:02:43,635 --> 01:02:45,478 Stranger in a strange land. 414 01:03:02,529 --> 01:03:04,076 A Pilgrim, 415 01:03:06,408 --> 01:03:07,955 A knight. 416 01:03:20,922 --> 01:03:22,469 Find your way... 417 01:03:26,094 --> 01:03:27,641 from darkness... 418 01:03:29,472 --> 01:03:31,019 to light. 419 01:03:43,778 --> 01:03:46,497 You wanna give him a high-five? 420 01:03:57,709 --> 01:03:58,756 Thank you. 421 01:03:58,918 --> 01:04:03,890 - How long will you be here? - A week, Sara's got folks here. 422 01:04:04,924 --> 01:04:07,473 Have you been out here before? 423 01:04:09,971 --> 01:04:13,976 You told me that sometimes you felt like a spy. 424 01:04:17,062 --> 01:04:19,281 Always had to pretend. 425 01:04:31,242 --> 01:04:32,789 You were afraid. 426 01:04:54,599 --> 01:04:58,570 You would hide behind the rocking chair before he came home 427 01:04:58,728 --> 01:05:00,401 and you'd get real stiff. 428 01:05:05,193 --> 01:05:06,866 I hope you have children. 429 01:05:10,407 --> 01:05:16,255 You're always wondering, are they too cold, are they warm enough? 430 01:05:17,372 --> 01:05:20,046 Instead of worrying about yourselves. 431 01:05:32,637 --> 01:05:36,392 - Don't fucking move. - Check him for his wallet. 432 01:05:36,558 --> 01:05:38,105 Come on. 433 01:05:39,686 --> 01:05:43,111 Got 20, 40, 60. Couple hundred. 434 01:05:46,067 --> 01:05:48,820 Take the TV? You can't tow that down the street. 435 01:05:48,987 --> 01:05:52,241 How come you ain't got nothin' in this house, man! 436 01:05:58,788 --> 01:06:02,543 - Keep looking. - What kind of jacket is that? Take it off. 437 01:06:02,709 --> 01:06:05,212 Take it off. Whoa, careful. 438 01:06:47,879 --> 01:06:49,722 I've spent 30 years. 439 01:06:51,174 --> 01:06:52,721 Not living life. 440 01:06:54,052 --> 01:06:55,804 But ruining it. 441 01:06:57,305 --> 01:06:59,683 For myself. And others. 442 01:07:04,229 --> 01:07:05,776 I can't remember... 443 01:07:07,649 --> 01:07:09,947 A man I wanted to be. 444 01:07:35,510 --> 01:07:37,183 What mood am I in? 445 01:07:40,431 --> 01:07:41,978 Tell me... 446 01:07:45,979 --> 01:07:47,526 What do I think of you? 447 01:07:51,609 --> 01:07:53,907 No one cares about reality anymore. 448 01:08:23,224 --> 01:08:25,067 What's your story? 449 01:08:26,102 --> 01:08:27,695 What's yours? 450 01:08:30,231 --> 01:08:31,778 I'm an Aussie. 451 01:08:33,276 --> 01:08:34,823 Australian. 452 01:08:36,237 --> 01:08:39,081 Yeah. You've been there, down under? 453 01:08:40,491 --> 01:08:42,038 What's your name? 454 01:08:43,703 --> 01:08:45,376 What's your name? 455 01:08:45,538 --> 01:08:48,838 Whatever you want it to be. You pick. 456 01:08:57,467 --> 01:09:01,472 You have a darkness on you. 457 01:09:04,223 --> 01:09:05,725 A little shadow. 458 01:09:31,292 --> 01:09:34,341 You live in a little fantasy world, don't you? 459 01:09:35,213 --> 01:09:36,760 Don't you? 460 01:09:36,923 --> 01:09:39,642 Yes. Because it's so much more fun. 461 01:09:40,218 --> 01:09:41,765 Do you enjoy yours? 462 01:09:41,928 --> 01:09:47,276 Uh-huh. Changes every day. I can be whatever I want to be. 463 01:09:49,936 --> 01:09:53,566 Don't forget that. You can be whoever you want to be. 464 01:10:00,154 --> 01:10:01,701 You can be an asshole. 465 01:10:02,824 --> 01:10:07,079 You can be a saint, you can be a... you can be a God. 466 01:10:08,079 --> 01:10:11,424 I'll tell you, but don't tell anyone, it's a secret. 467 01:10:19,841 --> 01:10:22,560 We're like clouds, aren't we? 468 01:10:26,264 --> 01:10:28,187 Coming and going. 469 01:10:34,564 --> 01:10:36,783 There's no such thing as forever. 470 01:10:45,283 --> 01:10:47,377 The highs don't add up. 471 01:10:50,580 --> 01:10:53,675 You liked that, didn't you? 472 01:11:05,303 --> 01:11:06,850 Free. 473 01:11:12,393 --> 01:11:13,940 Wake up. 474 01:11:48,012 --> 01:11:51,687 Love danger. Like living on the edge like this. 475 01:11:51,849 --> 01:11:54,568 It's crazy, it's scary. What if I get busted? 476 01:11:54,727 --> 01:11:58,732 Look at you with your little eyes looking at me. 477 01:11:58,898 --> 01:12:03,199 Sometimes I think I know so much more about the world than other people. 478 01:12:03,361 --> 01:12:09,619 You see, I took drugs once, and it kind of opened up this window for me. 479 01:12:09,784 --> 01:12:11,707 I call it the Window of Truth. 480 01:12:11,869 --> 01:12:14,042 Real life's so hard to find. 481 01:12:14,205 --> 01:12:17,379 ...I saw the world in a different way... 482 01:12:18,376 --> 01:12:19,923 Where is it? 483 01:12:20,962 --> 01:12:23,511 ...I see things other people do not... 484 01:12:24,298 --> 01:12:26,596 I think you had that experience, too. 485 01:12:26,759 --> 01:12:28,306 How do you get there? 486 01:12:35,142 --> 01:12:38,817 Get out of the big cloud of dust everybody's kicking up. 487 01:12:45,152 --> 01:12:47,246 The only way out is in. 488 01:12:56,163 --> 01:12:57,710 Breathe. 489 01:13:03,129 --> 01:13:05,097 Your mind's a theater. 490 01:13:11,137 --> 01:13:12,684 I say, try it all. 491 01:13:19,896 --> 01:13:21,443 Why not? 492 01:13:28,779 --> 01:13:30,873 Then I fell back asleep. 493 01:13:32,116 --> 01:13:33,663 Sing for me. 494 01:13:36,329 --> 01:13:37,876 Dream another dream. 495 01:13:59,393 --> 01:14:02,522 ...who laid the foundations of the earth, 496 01:14:02,688 --> 01:14:05,237 that it should not be removed for ever. 497 01:14:05,399 --> 01:14:10,371 The waters stood above the mountains. At thy rebuke they fled, 498 01:14:10,529 --> 01:14:13,248 at the voice of thy thunder they hasted away. 499 01:14:13,407 --> 01:14:18,288 They go down by the valleys unto the place which thou hast founded for them. 500 01:14:19,455 --> 01:14:22,254 He causeth the grass to grow for the cattle 501 01:14:23,751 --> 01:14:29,804 and herb for the service of man that he may bring forth food out of the earth... 502 01:14:43,354 --> 01:14:47,734 Very loving and enchanting. Most affectionate. 503 01:14:48,401 --> 01:14:49,948 Real nice to get along. 504 01:14:50,111 --> 01:14:51,909 Very beautiful. 505 01:14:52,071 --> 01:14:57,999 I like your outfit, too, especially the boots. Now they're a touch of class. 506 01:14:58,160 --> 01:15:00,504 Are you a religious man? 507 01:15:00,663 --> 01:15:04,418 - You have a cross around your neck. - Absolutely. 508 01:15:04,583 --> 01:15:09,180 Oh, even though I'm in darkness, I believe in the light. 509 01:15:11,841 --> 01:15:14,469 I was instructed from some information 510 01:15:14,635 --> 01:15:17,730 to be no part of the world nor of the things in it. 511 01:15:17,888 --> 01:15:22,359 But my eyes are now simple, and I'm carnal when I see beautiful women 512 01:15:22,518 --> 01:15:26,193 and big cars and lots of money, and I wanna be a part of it. 513 01:15:31,402 --> 01:15:34,997 I mean, who needs a bed this big? Pretty good, huh? 514 01:15:35,156 --> 01:15:36,703 Look at you, 515 01:15:36,866 --> 01:15:41,588 hanging out there with your girls and your money. Are you feeling happy? 516 01:15:41,746 --> 01:15:43,498 - Yes. - It makes you happy'? 517 01:15:43,664 --> 01:15:48,545 - It depends who owns the money. - It's my new fur. He bought it for me. 518 01:15:49,962 --> 01:15:51,760 This man is in love with me. 519 01:15:51,922 --> 01:15:53,640 Just some other girl. 520 01:15:53,799 --> 01:15:55,346 - Hi, how are you? - Hi. 521 01:16:10,191 --> 01:16:12,660 And the world held up a mirror. 522 01:16:14,653 --> 01:16:16,200 Here. 523 01:16:17,656 --> 01:16:19,329 Take the things you want. 524 01:16:25,664 --> 01:16:27,337 They can be yours. 525 01:16:42,848 --> 01:16:44,395 Why do you hold back? 526 01:16:51,065 --> 01:16:53,488 I thought you were dead. 527 01:16:53,651 --> 01:16:57,952 - I can't believe I actually met Elvis. - You never know in this town. 528 01:16:58,072 --> 01:17:01,702 That's my move. Do you think I'll be as famous as Elvis? 529 01:17:20,261 --> 01:17:22,013 What a fool am I? 530 01:17:22,179 --> 01:17:25,399 Just to lie in a stinking dungeon. 531 01:17:27,351 --> 01:17:29,570 When I may as well walk at liberty. 532 01:17:30,855 --> 01:17:34,826 I have a key in my bosom called promise. 533 01:17:37,069 --> 01:17:38,662 And will I am persuaded, 534 01:17:39,530 --> 01:17:42,374 open any lock in Doubting Castle. 535 01:17:44,201 --> 01:17:46,670 Though in this dark and dismal state, 536 01:17:47,788 --> 01:17:51,418 he hath turned the shadow of death into the morning, 537 01:19:03,113 --> 01:19:04,660 Go. 538 01:19:11,538 --> 01:19:13,336 Where? 539 01:19:28,514 --> 01:19:30,141 Find it. 540 01:19:47,825 --> 01:19:49,372 How do I reach you? 541 01:19:57,084 --> 01:19:58,631 Find my way there? 542 01:20:42,838 --> 01:20:44,511 Are you afraid? 543 01:21:27,424 --> 01:21:29,722 Sweetheart, my love, 544 01:21:29,885 --> 01:21:33,640 I don't feel guilty that I've fallen in love with you. 545 01:21:38,435 --> 01:21:39,982 I'm glad. 546 01:21:41,563 --> 01:21:43,611 Grateful I still can. 547 01:21:53,409 --> 01:21:56,959 You're afraid you're making me break my vows. 548 01:22:01,834 --> 01:22:04,633 But the vow comes out of the love behind it. 549 01:22:09,216 --> 01:22:11,685 Love's so rare that when you find it 550 01:22:13,637 --> 01:22:15,184 you can't doubt it. 551 01:22:17,933 --> 01:22:19,480 Let it go. 552 01:22:48,297 --> 01:22:52,473 I remember when I came down out of the mountains 553 01:22:52,593 --> 01:22:56,268 and I was conditioned with being absolutely clear. 554 01:22:56,430 --> 01:22:57,977 Absolutely... 555 01:22:59,183 --> 01:23:02,528 if not enlightened, at least wiser than I had been. 556 01:23:03,562 --> 01:23:08,614 You have to kneel in a certain way and you have to bow at the appropriate time. 557 01:23:08,775 --> 01:23:13,451 And it's all beautifully timed, even the sound of when they announce... 558 01:23:28,962 --> 01:23:33,058 We walked 250 miles over the mountains, 559 01:23:33,217 --> 01:23:35,561 into Tibet area. 560 01:23:36,303 --> 01:23:40,353 And every... couple days, 561 01:23:40,516 --> 01:23:42,063 every 20 miles or so, 562 01:23:42,893 --> 01:23:46,818 you knew you were going back in history, in time... 563 01:23:50,400 --> 01:23:53,404 But don't forget their life is so circumscribed. 564 01:23:53,570 --> 01:23:59,168 If you're living in a cave eating nettles, it's not so difficult to keep life simple. 565 01:23:59,785 --> 01:24:05,508 You don't have honking horns and your wife running in saying "You screwed up!" 566 01:24:05,666 --> 01:24:11,173 The distractions are very few, and that's the great attraction of the monk's life. 567 01:24:12,714 --> 01:24:16,389 Teaching now... I only teach one thing. 568 01:24:18,345 --> 01:24:20,643 I just teach this moment. 569 01:24:22,558 --> 01:24:25,027 Pay attention to this moment. 570 01:24:27,729 --> 01:24:29,572 And everything is there... 571 01:24:32,234 --> 01:24:33,736 perfect... 572 01:24:36,238 --> 01:24:37,785 and complete. 573 01:24:40,867 --> 01:24:42,414 Just as it is. 574 01:25:10,355 --> 01:25:12,323 You're so quiet. 575 01:25:14,484 --> 01:25:16,703 You keep everything to yourself. 576 01:25:23,493 --> 01:25:25,040 You have love in you. 577 01:25:27,039 --> 01:25:28,586 I know it. 578 01:25:36,256 --> 01:25:37,803 When I'm with you... 579 01:25:39,134 --> 01:25:41,182 I forget everything else. 580 01:25:46,725 --> 01:25:48,693 My husband... 581 01:25:49,811 --> 01:25:51,358 my life as I knew it. 582 01:25:52,272 --> 01:25:58,575 Thumb, first finger, third finger, left, fourth finger, third finger, 583 01:25:58,737 --> 01:26:05,837 second finger, thumb, right hand, thumb, first finger, second finger, thumb... 584 01:26:08,121 --> 01:26:09,668 Have I found you? 585 01:26:22,969 --> 01:26:24,516 Can it be? 586 01:27:19,776 --> 01:27:21,323 Answer me. 587 01:27:32,164 --> 01:27:33,711 So this is what we are. 588 01:27:36,710 --> 01:27:38,257 A fire. 589 01:28:07,491 --> 01:28:09,038 Come with me. 590 01:28:19,044 --> 01:28:20,591 Away. 591 01:29:17,435 --> 01:29:18,982 Open your mouth. 592 01:29:41,293 --> 01:29:43,637 I wanna go away with you. 593 01:29:56,099 --> 01:29:57,646 Marry you. 594 01:30:43,063 --> 01:30:45,532 Save what you can of your life. 595 01:30:47,692 --> 01:30:49,239 Look at me. 596 01:30:53,365 --> 01:30:56,414 Dan't lose it all just because you've lost a part. 597 01:31:53,383 --> 01:31:56,011 I found out I was pregnant. 598 01:32:01,057 --> 01:32:02,650 Nate came back. 599 01:32:10,650 --> 01:32:13,654 And I wasn't sure if it was my husband's... 600 01:32:18,658 --> 01:32:20,205 or if it was yours. 601 01:32:36,509 --> 01:32:39,183 ...to distract me right now 602 01:32:39,345 --> 01:32:41,598 but I wanted to tel! you, to... 603 01:32:42,348 --> 01:32:45,443 acknowledge that it was... 604 01:32:49,355 --> 01:32:50,902 I wake up and... 605 01:32:52,817 --> 01:32:55,866 I forget about it for a few minutes and then... 606 01:32:59,657 --> 01:33:01,534 and then I remember. 607 01:33:09,042 --> 01:33:14,139 She's like "I had four of them. You have to get over it and stop crying." 608 01:33:45,954 --> 01:33:47,877 What are we now? 609 01:34:37,463 --> 01:34:39,010 Forgive me. 610 01:36:22,402 --> 01:36:26,452 There's so much love inside us. 611 01:36:31,744 --> 01:36:33,291 That never gets out. 612 01:36:58,813 --> 01:37:00,486 Have mercy on me. 613 01:37:03,401 --> 01:37:05,699 According to your unfailing love, 614 01:37:08,990 --> 01:37:11,209 your great compassion, 615 01:37:13,077 --> 01:37:15,830 blot out my transgressions. 616 01:37:39,562 --> 01:37:41,109 My son. 617 01:37:44,442 --> 01:37:45,989 I know you. 618 01:37:52,283 --> 01:37:54,206 I know you have a soul. 619 01:38:15,139 --> 01:38:17,483 Seems you're alone. 620 01:38:19,143 --> 01:38:20,690 You're not. 621 01:38:22,397 --> 01:38:26,652 Even now, He's taking your hand and guiding you 622 01:38:26,818 --> 01:38:28,365 by a way you cannot see. 623 01:38:30,363 --> 01:38:34,664 If you are unhappy, you shouldn't take it as a mark of God's disfavor. 624 01:38:36,327 --> 01:38:40,958 Just the contrary. Might be the very sign He loves you. 625 01:38:41,124 --> 01:38:45,800 He shows His love not by helping you avoid suffering, 626 01:38:45,962 --> 01:38:49,182 by sending you suffering, 627 01:38:51,968 --> 01:38:53,515 by keeping you there. 628 01:38:57,473 --> 01:39:01,068 To suffer binds you to something higher than yourself, 629 01:39:01,227 --> 01:39:03,275 higher than your own will. 630 01:39:03,438 --> 01:39:05,281 Takes you from the world 631 01:39:06,107 --> 01:39:09,361 to find what lies beyond it. 632 01:39:13,698 --> 01:39:18,750 We are not only to endure patiently the troubles He sends, 633 01:39:18,911 --> 01:39:20,913 we are to regard them as gifts. 634 01:39:25,042 --> 01:39:28,262 As gifts more precious 635 01:39:28,379 --> 01:39:31,223 than the happiness we wish for ourselves. 636 01:39:49,400 --> 01:39:51,323 Just left you behind. 637 01:39:55,948 --> 01:39:57,666 To get burned up. 638 01:41:09,146 --> 01:41:10,693 How do I begin? 639 01:42:02,241 --> 01:42:03,743 Father. 640 01:42:10,082 --> 01:42:11,629 Give me courage. 641 01:42:16,797 --> 01:42:18,344 Strength. 642 01:42:21,344 --> 01:42:23,096 I'm proud of you. 643 01:42:24,388 --> 01:42:25,935 You've done well. 644 01:42:29,810 --> 01:42:31,608 Better than me. 645 01:42:33,856 --> 01:42:36,234 Which is the way it's supposed to be. 646 01:44:29,263 --> 01:44:32,233 Find the light you know in the east. 647 01:44:34,810 --> 01:44:36,483 As a child. 648 01:44:42,026 --> 01:44:43,573 The moon. 649 01:44:45,112 --> 01:44:46,659 The stars. 650 01:44:53,454 --> 01:44:55,377 They serve you. 651 01:44:58,375 --> 01:45:00,377 They guide you on your way. 652 01:45:07,718 --> 01:45:10,221 The light in the eyes of others. 653 01:45:17,019 --> 01:45:18,566 The pearl. 654 01:46:01,146 --> 01:46:02,693 Wake up. 655 01:46:23,043 --> 01:46:24,590 Turn. 656 01:46:34,346 --> 01:46:35,893 Look. 657 01:46:41,103 --> 01:46:42,650 Come out. 658 01:47:30,319 --> 01:47:31,866 My son. 659 01:47:41,497 --> 01:47:43,044 Remember. 660 01:50:32,751 --> 01:50:34,298 Begin.