1 00:02:00,654 --> 00:02:01,823 I wanna show you something. 2 00:02:09,030 --> 00:02:10,297 Unstable, and on the verge 3 00:02:10,298 --> 00:02:11,831 of a complete meltdown. 4 00:02:11,832 --> 00:02:14,734 That's the word from German environment Minister Matilda... 5 00:02:14,735 --> 00:02:17,238 Holy shit, that smells good! 6 00:02:20,807 --> 00:02:23,177 Oh, what happened? 7 00:02:23,678 --> 00:02:25,009 You okay? 8 00:02:25,280 --> 00:02:28,618 I think it's all right, I could use a band aid though. 9 00:02:30,019 --> 00:02:31,920 It looked good, at least. 10 00:02:32,921 --> 00:02:35,489 I guess we'll just have to make this salad night. 11 00:02:35,689 --> 00:02:38,826 You sure, it's not Thursday, think you can handle it? 12 00:02:39,227 --> 00:02:40,894 I can improvise. 13 00:02:41,295 --> 00:02:45,732 Oh chaos, everything is chaos, I say. 14 00:02:45,799 --> 00:02:50,235 Destruction and flames, and new torments, 15 00:02:50,236 --> 00:02:53,072 and new tormented souls I see around me, 16 00:02:53,074 --> 00:02:55,343 wherever I look and how so ever I turn, 17 00:02:55,344 --> 00:02:56,777 and wherever I gaze. 18 00:02:56,778 --> 00:02:57,578 Shh. 19 00:02:58,313 --> 00:02:59,347 What's this? 20 00:02:59,548 --> 00:03:01,582 Earthquake in Poland, I guess this nuclear 21 00:03:01,583 --> 00:03:03,284 plant's about to blow. 22 00:03:03,385 --> 00:03:05,053 Shit, now I feel like an ass. 23 00:03:05,054 --> 00:03:06,520 As you should. 24 00:03:06,521 --> 00:03:07,955 How was it? 25 00:03:07,956 --> 00:03:08,490 Huh? 26 00:03:08,490 --> 00:03:09,591 The lecture, how was it? 27 00:03:09,691 --> 00:03:10,591 Peruse. 28 00:03:11,626 --> 00:03:14,362 Very nice, your turn. 29 00:03:14,963 --> 00:03:19,167 Hmm, it was what it was, I didn't learn much. 30 00:03:20,569 --> 00:03:22,703 You don't need to learn anything, 31 00:03:22,704 --> 00:03:24,572 you know it all all ready. 32 00:03:24,773 --> 00:03:25,773 Ouch. 33 00:03:27,008 --> 00:03:30,811 No, oh, shit, that's not what I mean. 34 00:03:30,812 --> 00:03:31,879 Uh huh. 35 00:03:31,880 --> 00:03:32,714 No, really. 36 00:03:32,714 --> 00:03:33,648 Yup. 37 00:03:33,649 --> 00:03:34,982 I just mean you're smart. 38 00:03:34,983 --> 00:03:35,717 Sure. 39 00:03:35,818 --> 00:03:36,851 That's not what I... 40 00:03:36,951 --> 00:03:37,919 But that's not what... 41 00:03:37,920 --> 00:03:40,321 Stop, you know what I meant. 42 00:03:40,922 --> 00:03:42,823 Tell me again how smart I am. 43 00:03:43,858 --> 00:03:45,059 Why don't you shut up and grab me 44 00:03:45,059 --> 00:03:47,427 a boiled egg from the fridge, smart guy. 45 00:03:47,428 --> 00:03:49,363 Do you want an avocado? 46 00:03:51,232 --> 00:03:54,302 Hey, will you turn that off for a second. 47 00:03:57,338 --> 00:03:58,805 What's wrong? 48 00:03:58,806 --> 00:04:01,009 Nothing, nothing is wrong, at least I hope not. 49 00:04:02,211 --> 00:04:04,378 All my life, I've looked at words as though 50 00:04:04,379 --> 00:04:06,781 seeing them for the first time. 51 00:04:08,117 --> 00:04:10,985 I rehearsed this in my head all day. 52 00:04:12,687 --> 00:04:16,257 Oh, damn it, I had this all figured out in the car. 53 00:04:16,358 --> 00:04:17,358 Uh, here. 54 00:04:28,103 --> 00:04:33,474 Doubt thou the stars of fire, doubt that the sun does move, 55 00:04:34,410 --> 00:04:39,481 doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt my love. 56 00:04:40,983 --> 00:04:45,786 Calliope Garrard, will you marry me? 57 00:04:56,665 --> 00:05:01,069 I know it's not much, I wanted to get something bigger. 58 00:05:23,659 --> 00:05:26,262 Cali, look at me. 59 00:05:41,477 --> 00:05:42,477 I'm here. 60 00:05:49,486 --> 00:05:52,756 Oh, you're awake, how are we feeling? 61 00:05:54,558 --> 00:05:56,059 She needs water. 62 00:06:02,933 --> 00:06:05,268 Looks like we have had quite a night, 63 00:06:05,268 --> 00:06:06,836 haven't we Calliope? 64 00:06:14,244 --> 00:06:15,946 You wanna tell me what you remember? 65 00:06:17,747 --> 00:06:19,714 I just came home. 66 00:06:19,915 --> 00:06:20,915 Mmm hmm. 67 00:06:21,651 --> 00:06:23,486 And I cut my finger. 68 00:06:25,855 --> 00:06:26,855 And? 69 00:06:30,693 --> 00:06:36,164 Doubt the stars of fire, did you propose to me? 70 00:06:37,099 --> 00:06:39,602 So, was it a stroke or something? 71 00:06:41,471 --> 00:06:44,105 Well, Calliope experienced what we call a tonic clonic 72 00:06:44,106 --> 00:06:47,642 event, or what was referred to as a grand Mal seizure 73 00:06:47,643 --> 00:06:49,077 back in the middle ages. 74 00:06:49,078 --> 00:06:50,579 It can be triggered by a number of things, 75 00:06:50,581 --> 00:06:54,950 stress, malnutrition, flashing lights, 76 00:06:55,319 --> 00:06:58,123 were you watching television when this happened? 77 00:07:01,325 --> 00:07:02,525 Uh, yeah. 78 00:07:04,395 --> 00:07:08,030 Yeah, okay, tell me, can you remember having 79 00:07:08,031 --> 00:07:10,600 any strange feelings the moments preceding? 80 00:07:10,901 --> 00:07:14,705 Dizziness maybe, or a strong surge of emotions, 81 00:07:16,171 --> 00:07:19,241 altered vision, hearing, strange smells, 82 00:07:19,342 --> 00:07:21,845 overwhelming sense of deja vu, anything like that? 83 00:07:23,546 --> 00:07:25,114 I don't remember. 84 00:07:26,683 --> 00:07:31,954 Okay, well the seizure appears to have been idiopathic. 85 00:07:32,289 --> 00:07:33,423 What does that mean? 86 00:07:33,524 --> 00:07:35,491 It's a fancy word for we don't know. 87 00:07:35,792 --> 00:07:38,462 Now, is this the first time it's happened to you? 88 00:07:39,463 --> 00:07:40,464 I don't... 89 00:07:44,470 --> 00:07:55,142 I think, when I lived with Billy, or maybe before. 90 00:07:55,346 --> 00:07:56,079 Billy? 91 00:07:56,280 --> 00:07:57,715 And how long ago was that? 92 00:07:59,984 --> 00:08:04,255 I don't know, maybe 10 years ago, nine. 93 00:08:04,422 --> 00:08:05,622 Who's Billy? 94 00:08:05,823 --> 00:08:07,226 Was it just the one time? 95 00:08:11,062 --> 00:08:12,497 I was eighteen. 96 00:08:15,933 --> 00:08:17,802 I don't, I don't... 97 00:08:19,671 --> 00:08:23,907 Okay, well listen, I want you to relax, 98 00:08:25,075 --> 00:08:27,176 I'm gonna come back in and check on you in a little bit. 99 00:08:27,177 --> 00:08:29,746 We're gonna keep you overnight and run some tests, okay? 100 00:08:30,447 --> 00:08:31,515 Sure, okay. 101 00:08:43,561 --> 00:08:44,729 Who's Billy? 102 00:08:46,197 --> 00:08:50,901 Hey, you wanna know why they call me dead Billy? 103 00:08:56,541 --> 00:09:00,712 It was '67, '68 maybe, before the Ted offensive. 104 00:09:01,879 --> 00:09:04,315 They sent us into this village, north of... 105 00:09:05,216 --> 00:09:07,250 Everyone there was Cong, they said. 106 00:09:07,251 --> 00:09:10,621 There was this black guy, called him big Charles, 107 00:09:10,822 --> 00:09:13,624 huge motherfucker, but a sweetheart, you know. 108 00:09:13,925 --> 00:09:18,094 Big Charles sees this girl, maybe seven or eight, 109 00:09:18,095 --> 00:09:20,731 sitting in a road, out in front of the huts. 110 00:09:20,832 --> 00:09:24,802 She's crying, he has a candy bar or something in his pack, 111 00:09:25,770 --> 00:09:27,571 so he goes to her, to give her the candy, 112 00:09:27,672 --> 00:09:30,707 and she jumps up, throws something, grenade maybe, 113 00:09:30,708 --> 00:09:33,610 something, and Big Charles catches it one handed, 114 00:09:33,710 --> 00:09:35,544 and turns his big dumb eyes to me, 115 00:09:35,545 --> 00:09:37,447 and next thing I know I'm on my back, 116 00:09:37,448 --> 00:09:39,549 wearing his guts as a fucking necklace. 117 00:09:39,550 --> 00:09:42,385 I was standing five, 10 feet away maybe, 118 00:09:42,487 --> 00:09:44,020 and I didn't have a scratch on me. 119 00:09:44,121 --> 00:09:47,190 So everyone says later, Jesus Christ Billy, 120 00:09:47,191 --> 00:09:50,794 you should have been fucking dead, right? 121 00:09:50,995 --> 00:09:53,930 And I should have been, I mean, I know that, 122 00:09:53,931 --> 00:09:56,633 but I didn't even singe my God damn eyebrows. 123 00:09:56,634 --> 00:09:59,836 So about a month later, we're in this little bar in Saigon, 124 00:09:59,837 --> 00:10:03,006 and this guy Norman, big Navajo guy, 125 00:10:03,007 --> 00:10:05,141 he's trying to get me laid, all those guys, 126 00:10:05,142 --> 00:10:07,178 they thought I was a virgin. 127 00:10:07,779 --> 00:10:11,281 Norm decides he can't have that in his unit, 128 00:10:11,282 --> 00:10:14,618 so he's talking to this slope whore, 129 00:10:14,619 --> 00:10:17,454 but she don't speak English, it's all just GI, GI, 130 00:10:17,456 --> 00:10:20,792 blowie, blowie, fuckie, fuckie, that sort of thing, 131 00:10:20,793 --> 00:10:24,195 so he's telling her this story about how I should be dead, 132 00:10:24,196 --> 00:10:27,364 and she lights all up like a Christmas tree, 133 00:10:27,365 --> 00:10:29,667 because yeah, she knew that word, dead. 134 00:10:29,668 --> 00:10:33,404 So, she just looks at me with these big eyes, 135 00:10:33,405 --> 00:10:37,274 and she just shrugs and says, "Blowie?" 136 00:10:37,275 --> 00:10:39,644 He gives her five bucks, he takes to me this little room 137 00:10:39,645 --> 00:10:41,212 in the back, and sucks me off. 138 00:10:41,413 --> 00:10:44,348 Took me thirty seconds, but I swear I damn near 139 00:10:44,348 --> 00:10:47,851 blew a hole in the back of her skull. 140 00:10:47,852 --> 00:10:51,788 Anyway, I've been Dead Billy ever since. 141 00:11:15,614 --> 00:11:17,548 Cali, come on, this isn't funny, just open the door, 142 00:11:17,549 --> 00:11:18,484 I know you're in there. 143 00:11:21,987 --> 00:11:25,390 Cali, I just wanna see you, open the door! 144 00:11:28,194 --> 00:11:30,431 Come on, I'm gonna stay here all day, until... 145 00:11:33,933 --> 00:11:35,500 Oh God, what did you let him do to you. 146 00:11:36,803 --> 00:11:38,836 I told you I ran away from home for a while, 147 00:11:38,837 --> 00:11:39,705 when I was a kid. 148 00:11:39,806 --> 00:11:42,709 Yeah, but you never mentioned this Billy. 149 00:11:45,545 --> 00:11:46,545 Who was he? 150 00:11:48,782 --> 00:11:50,684 Just this guy, a vet. 151 00:11:53,085 --> 00:11:53,920 From the Gulf? 152 00:11:56,454 --> 00:11:57,289 Vietnam. 153 00:11:57,290 --> 00:11:59,291 Jesus, how old was he? 154 00:12:00,525 --> 00:12:02,427 And you lived with him? 155 00:12:04,997 --> 00:12:09,199 Was it, was it a sexual thing? 156 00:12:09,301 --> 00:12:09,801 Roy... 157 00:12:10,002 --> 00:12:11,503 Come on, were you fucking the guy? 158 00:12:11,504 --> 00:12:12,738 What do you think? 159 00:12:18,176 --> 00:12:21,414 I don't think I need to apologise to you. 160 00:12:24,883 --> 00:12:26,785 Are you okay? 161 00:16:29,664 --> 00:16:31,765 Developing in Germany, showing a frightening 162 00:16:31,766 --> 00:16:34,334 new discovery at the Kumps Nuclear Plant, 163 00:16:34,335 --> 00:16:36,403 just days after the earthquake in Poland 164 00:16:36,404 --> 00:16:39,473 sent the reactor into complete meltdown. 165 00:16:39,674 --> 00:16:42,576 German officials have now released data that shows 166 00:16:42,577 --> 00:16:45,479 radiation levels around Kunps have spiked 167 00:16:45,480 --> 00:16:48,515 to levels much higher than initial reports suggested. 168 00:16:48,616 --> 00:16:51,718 Reports from both the German environmental authorities, 169 00:16:51,719 --> 00:16:55,055 and the UN health organisation, show that total 170 00:16:55,056 --> 00:16:58,625 air release of iodine 131 and Cecil 137... 171 00:16:58,626 --> 00:17:00,595 Hey, look at me. 172 00:18:08,964 --> 00:18:10,832 Well, this is kinda fucked up. 173 00:18:13,035 --> 00:18:15,503 There's nothing to discourage the appetite 174 00:18:15,504 --> 00:18:18,274 for divinity in the heart of man. 175 00:18:19,208 --> 00:18:21,776 That's Kabu, my dear. 176 00:18:21,777 --> 00:18:22,744 Lucian. 177 00:18:23,045 --> 00:18:24,045 Hmm? 178 00:18:27,416 --> 00:18:34,087 Muse, I thought you were staying with your mother. 179 00:18:35,124 --> 00:18:36,959 It's Tuesday, Daddy. 180 00:18:41,397 --> 00:18:42,564 Well then... 181 00:18:44,033 --> 00:18:45,934 Well sit Muse, join us. 182 00:18:53,342 --> 00:18:54,576 Would you like some coffee? 183 00:18:55,777 --> 00:18:57,878 I don't know, I should get to school. 184 00:18:57,879 --> 00:18:59,215 Nonsense, sit. 185 00:19:15,032 --> 00:19:19,301 Cali, this is Ashley, she's my graduate student. 186 00:19:20,703 --> 00:19:21,704 Hey, sure. 187 00:19:23,106 --> 00:19:24,640 I gotta get to class. 188 00:19:24,641 --> 00:19:25,641 Sit! 189 00:19:29,912 --> 00:19:30,912 Okay. 190 00:19:33,816 --> 00:19:38,487 Ashley, this is my daughter Cali, my muse. 191 00:19:46,363 --> 00:19:50,733 Ashley is quite the star in our humble little bailiwick. 192 00:19:51,768 --> 00:19:54,703 She's doing her thesis on the age of reason, 193 00:19:54,705 --> 00:19:57,070 very provocative stuff. 194 00:20:02,245 --> 00:20:04,446 I'm doing this third way feminist view of it. 195 00:20:05,747 --> 00:20:07,816 You know, breaking down the relationship 196 00:20:07,817 --> 00:20:09,518 between the mostly male existentialist... 197 00:20:09,519 --> 00:20:11,220 I'm sorry but this is bullshit. 198 00:20:11,521 --> 00:20:12,321 Cali. 199 00:20:12,722 --> 00:20:15,224 Not your thesis, sorry, it sounds very, 200 00:20:15,225 --> 00:20:18,394 you know, interesting, or whatever, I gotta go. 201 00:20:18,395 --> 00:20:24,231 Cali, I'm afraid you're being a child. 202 00:20:27,904 --> 00:20:32,574 Don't feel bad, I know he's very charming. 203 00:21:02,873 --> 00:21:06,277 You buy it, or you stop playing with it. 204 00:22:00,598 --> 00:22:03,368 You wouldn't like it, it's all full of words and stuff. 205 00:22:05,936 --> 00:22:08,137 Made of Athens air we part, give, 206 00:22:08,138 --> 00:22:10,207 oh, give me back my heart. 207 00:22:10,809 --> 00:22:11,809 It's Byron. 208 00:22:14,179 --> 00:22:16,815 Good for you, you're a smart one. 209 00:22:20,851 --> 00:22:24,355 This lad was known as Nicholas the Galant, 210 00:22:25,489 --> 00:22:28,459 making love in secret was his talent. 211 00:22:33,864 --> 00:22:35,132 That's Trosser. 212 00:22:37,100 --> 00:22:39,869 So how does a useless truant like you quote Byron, 213 00:22:39,870 --> 00:22:41,272 what's your deal? 214 00:22:42,673 --> 00:22:44,708 Like you said, I'm a smart one. 215 00:22:45,910 --> 00:22:47,012 Yeah, I can tell. 216 00:22:49,481 --> 00:22:50,748 You know, I ain't your daddy, 217 00:22:50,749 --> 00:22:53,052 but aren't you supposed to be in school? 218 00:22:54,353 --> 00:22:55,653 I'll go when they can teach me something 219 00:22:55,654 --> 00:22:57,355 they haven't learned in their ignominious 220 00:22:57,356 --> 00:22:59,490 little community college educations. 221 00:23:05,964 --> 00:23:10,733 Jesus Christ, how old are you? 222 00:23:11,770 --> 00:23:12,770 18. 223 00:23:15,740 --> 00:23:18,876 Uh huh, what's your name? 224 00:23:20,579 --> 00:23:21,646 What do you care? 225 00:23:22,647 --> 00:23:23,816 What's your name? 226 00:23:29,720 --> 00:23:36,491 Cali, Calliope really, but only my dad calls me that. 227 00:23:37,094 --> 00:23:40,430 It's kind of a faggy name, is your daddy a fag. 228 00:23:42,531 --> 00:23:43,401 Hardly. 229 00:23:45,536 --> 00:23:51,171 Calliope, the muse. 230 00:23:52,209 --> 00:23:54,512 Yeah, he's the only one who calls me that too. 231 00:23:55,614 --> 00:23:57,316 Ah, I get it, issues. 232 00:24:02,787 --> 00:24:03,787 Here. 233 00:24:17,571 --> 00:24:20,707 Take it, it will make daddy happy. 234 00:24:24,643 --> 00:24:26,377 I don't have issues. 235 00:24:27,079 --> 00:24:29,014 We all have issues, sweetie. 236 00:24:29,615 --> 00:24:30,883 So what are yours? 237 00:24:34,520 --> 00:24:35,720 What do you think? 238 00:24:35,821 --> 00:24:37,223 You're like a vet, right? 239 00:24:38,723 --> 00:24:40,592 So you've probably killed people. 240 00:24:42,193 --> 00:24:43,862 That's none of your business. 241 00:24:45,263 --> 00:24:47,766 I'm sorry, I thought we were talking about issues. 242 00:24:48,467 --> 00:24:50,369 You don't back off, do you? 243 00:24:51,570 --> 00:24:52,370 Nope. 244 00:24:58,943 --> 00:25:03,380 I'm Billy, yeah, I killed people. 245 00:25:10,823 --> 00:25:11,723 How many? 246 00:25:19,465 --> 00:25:20,866 I like you Cali. 247 00:25:25,538 --> 00:25:30,509 I don't believe you, I don't think you killed anybody. 248 00:26:01,173 --> 00:26:04,044 Stop by the next time you want to escape the ignominy. 249 00:26:19,992 --> 00:26:20,992 See ya. 250 00:28:35,763 --> 00:28:37,465 So what you doing here, Cali? 251 00:28:41,636 --> 00:28:44,672 Was that you playing, when I walked up? 252 00:29:14,769 --> 00:29:19,540 You ain't 18, ain't no fucking way you're 18. 253 00:29:28,581 --> 00:29:31,952 Hey Billy, ain't no fucking way she 18. 254 00:29:38,560 --> 00:29:39,727 Mind your business. 255 00:29:41,428 --> 00:29:43,697 Anyway, ever tell you guys the story about 256 00:29:43,698 --> 00:29:45,165 how I got the name Dead Billy? 257 00:29:45,166 --> 00:29:49,236 Only everyday Bill, it's different every God damn time. 258 00:29:58,212 --> 00:30:01,615 Ah, I'm not very good, but I like the... 259 00:30:15,430 --> 00:30:19,701 Need any help girl, just call, let me know. 260 00:30:38,185 --> 00:30:40,622 I think maybe, this isn't a great idea. 261 00:30:45,828 --> 00:30:47,463 I'm old enough to be your father. 262 00:30:50,632 --> 00:30:51,734 But you're not... 263 00:30:55,237 --> 00:30:56,237 My father. 264 00:31:03,178 --> 00:31:04,679 Hey, look at me. 265 00:31:07,582 --> 00:31:08,583 You're sure? 266 00:31:09,785 --> 00:31:10,785 Yeah. 267 00:31:18,928 --> 00:31:20,263 But I better go. 268 00:31:39,314 --> 00:31:44,485 So, I told them that the play was about a rabid populous. 269 00:31:44,953 --> 00:31:49,323 And they looked at me with these longing, wilful, 270 00:31:49,324 --> 00:31:52,659 naive stares that only a college freshman could have, 271 00:31:52,660 --> 00:31:55,662 hoping that I was not writing another tirade 272 00:31:55,663 --> 00:31:58,100 about an impotent generation. 273 00:31:59,567 --> 00:32:00,902 And of course I told them I was. 274 00:32:02,971 --> 00:32:06,741 Their heads dropped, it was cute, in a way. 275 00:32:17,986 --> 00:32:20,422 Your shirt's inside out, yup. 276 00:32:34,103 --> 00:32:35,504 Where were you? 277 00:32:41,010 --> 00:32:43,448 You are not going to drink out of that carton. 278 00:32:48,683 --> 00:32:50,219 Still haven't answered my question. 279 00:32:51,920 --> 00:32:53,321 I was at dads. 280 00:32:53,822 --> 00:32:58,291 Uh huh, and how was dad? 281 00:33:11,875 --> 00:33:15,477 What is that, what the fuck. 282 00:33:25,388 --> 00:33:30,391 Holy shit, uh Jesus Christ, come in. 283 00:33:34,098 --> 00:33:36,599 Shit, sorry, sit. 284 00:33:40,938 --> 00:33:44,640 Jesus, how are you Cali? 285 00:33:44,708 --> 00:33:45,708 I'm good. 286 00:33:48,645 --> 00:33:52,648 Oh, congratulations, who's the guy. 287 00:33:53,183 --> 00:33:54,317 His name is Roy. 288 00:33:54,317 --> 00:33:58,287 Good name, a grown up name, if you know what I mean. 289 00:34:01,490 --> 00:34:04,460 What does he do, where did you meet him, tell me everything? 290 00:34:05,261 --> 00:34:07,629 Okay, let's see, he's a post grad, 291 00:34:07,631 --> 00:34:10,233 at the University, comparative lit. 292 00:34:10,234 --> 00:34:11,668 Sounds fancy. 293 00:34:12,269 --> 00:34:14,805 Well, we met at a lecture, he was... 294 00:34:16,106 --> 00:34:21,176 Geez, this sounds horrible, but he was my TA. 295 00:34:24,514 --> 00:34:26,383 So you're still going to school? 296 00:34:26,984 --> 00:34:28,651 Got my bachelors last fall, 297 00:34:28,652 --> 00:34:30,987 and I just started the masters program. 298 00:34:30,988 --> 00:34:32,455 Comparatives, what's it... 299 00:34:32,456 --> 00:34:33,657 English education. 300 00:34:34,658 --> 00:34:38,294 That's great, really, that's great. 301 00:34:38,495 --> 00:34:40,128 I knew as you soon as you got your GED, 302 00:34:40,129 --> 00:34:41,931 everything would fall in place for you. 303 00:34:42,832 --> 00:34:45,635 Seriously, the best congrats. 304 00:34:46,770 --> 00:34:47,770 Thanks. 305 00:34:50,207 --> 00:34:53,676 So, what brings you by? 306 00:34:57,948 --> 00:35:04,784 I was, you're going to hate this. 307 00:35:07,656 --> 00:35:08,523 Fuck. 308 00:35:08,924 --> 00:35:09,858 Selena... 309 00:35:10,059 --> 00:35:11,059 No Cali. 310 00:35:15,832 --> 00:35:17,367 Calliope, look at me. 311 00:35:19,403 --> 00:35:22,040 This isn't some bullshit about closure, is it? 312 00:35:26,376 --> 00:35:28,578 I've been having seizures again. 313 00:35:29,779 --> 00:35:34,583 Oh, geez, okay Calliope, you don't need to be talking 314 00:35:34,584 --> 00:35:35,418 to me, you need to... 315 00:35:35,419 --> 00:35:36,885 No, I've all ready been to a doctor, 316 00:35:36,886 --> 00:35:38,488 that's not why I'm here. 317 00:35:41,558 --> 00:35:42,758 Okay, um. 318 00:35:47,564 --> 00:35:50,066 You see it, right? 319 00:35:50,135 --> 00:35:51,437 Of course I do, what... 320 00:35:53,938 --> 00:35:55,505 You see that, right? 321 00:35:55,506 --> 00:35:56,973 Yeah, but... 322 00:35:56,974 --> 00:35:58,276 What do you see? 323 00:36:01,146 --> 00:36:06,849 Please, Selena, I'm just trying to explain. 324 00:36:06,851 --> 00:36:14,855 I see, well, a little statue of, I don't know, 325 00:36:14,891 --> 00:36:16,626 is it Athena, or something? 326 00:36:18,628 --> 00:36:21,797 Calliope, the muse. 327 00:36:25,303 --> 00:36:31,105 Okay, Calliope, and a glass. 328 00:36:33,144 --> 00:36:34,579 What colour is the glass? 329 00:36:35,280 --> 00:36:36,114 This is... 330 00:36:36,115 --> 00:36:36,714 Please. 331 00:36:36,815 --> 00:36:39,215 It's amber, okay, now you have to 332 00:36:39,216 --> 00:36:40,551 tell me what this is all about. 333 00:36:41,852 --> 00:36:43,789 Billy gave me that statue, 334 00:36:45,556 --> 00:36:47,558 and that glass is from his house. 335 00:36:48,959 --> 00:36:50,127 When you got me out of there, 336 00:36:50,128 --> 00:36:52,228 I didn't take anything with me, did I? 337 00:36:52,229 --> 00:36:53,998 No, of course not. 338 00:36:59,205 --> 00:37:03,107 I just found this at my house. 339 00:37:06,778 --> 00:37:10,315 And that, is that a seizure. 340 00:37:15,087 --> 00:37:22,058 I was hoping, I thought maybe you could tell me where he is. 341 00:37:24,095 --> 00:37:25,696 Absolutely not. 342 00:37:27,265 --> 00:37:30,099 No way in hell, Jesus Christ Cali, 343 00:37:30,100 --> 00:37:32,303 you were like my one success story. 344 00:37:33,904 --> 00:37:35,605 Do you remember what you were 345 00:37:35,606 --> 00:37:37,107 like when you got out of there? 346 00:37:37,108 --> 00:37:41,344 I do, 80 pounds, at most, somebody would slam a door, 347 00:37:41,345 --> 00:37:42,612 you'd nearly jump out of your skin. 348 00:37:42,613 --> 00:37:44,482 You remember that, do you? 349 00:37:45,783 --> 00:37:47,183 Look at me. 350 00:37:54,259 --> 00:37:55,526 Calliope, stop! 351 00:38:00,765 --> 00:38:01,765 Why? 352 00:38:03,334 --> 00:38:09,105 I don't want to talk to him Selena, or see him. 353 00:38:11,610 --> 00:38:14,280 I just need to know where he is. 354 00:38:16,482 --> 00:38:17,617 I don't believe you. 355 00:38:19,751 --> 00:38:23,489 I've seen this way too many times before, no. 356 00:38:24,556 --> 00:38:26,657 I'm sorry, but no. 357 00:38:39,738 --> 00:38:41,038 Cali, wait. 358 00:38:41,139 --> 00:38:42,508 I wanna show you something. 359 00:38:43,409 --> 00:38:47,110 Okay, what? 360 00:39:06,164 --> 00:39:07,366 You feeling it? 361 00:39:19,045 --> 00:39:23,049 40 seconds, maybe less, that's all you got baby. 362 00:39:24,251 --> 00:39:27,487 You right with God and everything, hmm? 363 00:39:29,356 --> 00:39:31,924 You're seeing spots, hmm? 364 00:39:33,560 --> 00:39:36,895 Tiny little explosions like firecrackers, 365 00:39:36,896 --> 00:39:40,065 way in the back of your corneas, 366 00:39:40,166 --> 00:39:44,103 visions narrowing down, tiny little pinprick. 367 00:39:46,972 --> 00:39:48,708 Want me to countdown for you? 368 00:39:50,343 --> 00:39:56,212 30, 29, 28, 27, 26, enough? 369 00:40:18,170 --> 00:40:20,307 That's what it's like to die. 370 00:40:36,226 --> 00:40:41,194 That guy, Starkey's friend, 371 00:40:44,030 --> 00:40:49,300 that dude you were talking to at the VFW, what was his name? 372 00:40:52,604 --> 00:40:54,753 His name Calliope, what was it? 373 00:40:57,043 --> 00:41:03,245 I don't, I don't know. 374 00:41:07,920 --> 00:41:09,020 I think he liked you. 375 00:41:17,330 --> 00:41:19,067 You can go out with him, if you want to. 376 00:41:22,435 --> 00:41:24,337 I mean, if you really want to. 377 00:42:00,940 --> 00:42:01,740 Hello. 378 00:42:01,741 --> 00:42:03,809 Hey, I was thinking about stopping by 379 00:42:03,811 --> 00:42:07,013 that new vegan Thai place on my way home, you want anything? 380 00:42:07,014 --> 00:42:09,248 Yeah, pad Thai. 381 00:42:09,483 --> 00:42:11,552 Tofu, egg noodles, right? 382 00:42:12,753 --> 00:42:13,520 Yeah. 383 00:42:14,021 --> 00:42:16,589 And a ton of hot stuff, I got it. 384 00:42:17,458 --> 00:42:19,060 You want a Thai iced tea? 385 00:42:21,228 --> 00:42:22,796 Hey, you okay? 386 00:42:24,432 --> 00:42:32,102 Um, no, just banged my elbow on the gear shift. 387 00:42:32,405 --> 00:42:34,641 No iced tea, thanks though. 388 00:42:36,243 --> 00:42:38,978 Okay, you home? 389 00:42:38,980 --> 00:42:41,481 I'll be home in a few, I'm just out 390 00:42:41,482 --> 00:42:42,883 running a couple errands. 391 00:42:43,384 --> 00:42:44,719 You doing okay? 392 00:42:45,820 --> 00:42:47,520 Yeah, yeah, just... 393 00:42:48,957 --> 00:42:51,257 Um, shit. 394 00:42:51,292 --> 00:42:52,360 You okay? 395 00:42:52,561 --> 00:42:55,363 No, the batteries crapping out, I'll see you in a bit. 396 00:42:56,164 --> 00:42:57,366 Mmm, okay. 397 00:43:27,795 --> 00:43:29,865 There's nothing I can say to stop you, is there? 398 00:43:36,136 --> 00:43:39,040 And you know that this is really stupid, right? 399 00:43:43,243 --> 00:43:45,979 I don't know where he is, after... 400 00:43:48,284 --> 00:43:52,121 You know, he just sort of dropped off our radar. 401 00:43:54,022 --> 00:43:55,491 You'll have to trust me on that. 402 00:43:57,626 --> 00:43:58,626 Okay. 403 00:44:09,437 --> 00:44:11,941 You need to know that this could get me fired. 404 00:44:25,687 --> 00:44:30,258 Alissa Kononen, she's a stand up comic out of Brooklyn. 405 00:44:31,025 --> 00:44:32,961 After you left, I did a quick search. 406 00:44:34,062 --> 00:44:38,065 She's on the road right now, she's doing clubs 407 00:44:38,066 --> 00:44:39,800 all across the country. 408 00:44:40,935 --> 00:44:43,837 I don't have her number, but if you're up for a drive, 409 00:44:43,838 --> 00:44:47,408 she's performing down in the Springs, this Saturday. 410 00:44:48,209 --> 00:44:50,046 Maybe you could catch her after the show. 411 00:44:55,184 --> 00:44:56,486 She's his daughter. 412 00:45:03,258 --> 00:45:09,829 Calliope, this cannot come back on me, okay? 413 00:45:12,367 --> 00:45:13,368 Of course. 414 00:45:18,874 --> 00:45:20,376 Take care of yourself. 415 00:45:32,287 --> 00:45:33,956 Yeah, okay, I get. 416 00:45:36,992 --> 00:45:38,828 No, I understand, I... 417 00:45:41,130 --> 00:45:42,464 I do Kay, but... 418 00:45:47,069 --> 00:45:49,238 Can't you just put her on the pho... 419 00:45:50,339 --> 00:45:54,443 All right, well at least tell her happy birthday. 420 00:46:25,607 --> 00:46:26,507 Morning. 421 00:46:32,682 --> 00:46:34,284 Is it epilepsy? 422 00:46:36,152 --> 00:46:39,321 Epilepsy's a fairly useless term, but no I don't think so. 423 00:46:39,521 --> 00:46:40,521 Looky here. 424 00:46:41,657 --> 00:46:44,959 Not a tumour, don't worry, it appears to be a small lesion, 425 00:46:44,960 --> 00:46:46,897 about the size of your pinky nail. 426 00:46:49,198 --> 00:46:52,135 And it appears to have been there for some time. 427 00:46:54,536 --> 00:46:57,906 Tell me, Calliope, have you been seeing things, 428 00:46:58,007 --> 00:47:00,243 or hearing voices, or anything like that? 429 00:47:03,913 --> 00:47:05,880 You know, there's no percentage in not being 430 00:47:05,881 --> 00:47:07,317 honest about this, Calliope. 431 00:47:12,022 --> 00:47:16,158 Okay, well first thing, no more TV. 432 00:47:16,259 --> 00:47:18,561 Not until we get this taken care of. 433 00:47:19,162 --> 00:47:21,064 What are the options? 434 00:47:22,733 --> 00:47:27,803 Well, considering the seizures and hallucinations, 435 00:47:28,071 --> 00:47:30,572 and whatnot, I'd say we're pretty well past the 436 00:47:30,573 --> 00:47:31,574 wait and see stage. 437 00:47:31,975 --> 00:47:35,210 Now, I doubt this is cancer, but we'll need to do 438 00:47:35,211 --> 00:47:36,846 a biopsy to rule it out. 439 00:47:37,547 --> 00:47:39,815 In the meantime, no TV, try not to drive, 440 00:47:39,816 --> 00:47:41,586 blah, blah, blah, you know the drill. 441 00:47:51,527 --> 00:47:54,229 Don't worry, this is nothing. 442 00:47:54,530 --> 00:47:57,267 It's a little pit stop, that's all. 443 00:47:58,701 --> 00:48:00,571 Congratulations, by the way. 444 00:48:17,988 --> 00:48:19,254 It's okay Billy. 445 00:48:19,256 --> 00:48:21,324 What the fuck do you know about it? 446 00:48:21,625 --> 00:48:24,461 Shit, fuck, I'm sorry Cali. 447 00:48:26,063 --> 00:48:26,963 I love you. 448 00:49:00,063 --> 00:49:03,398 We have rotted wood all underneath the sink here. 449 00:49:03,399 --> 00:49:04,367 I found this. 450 00:49:07,938 --> 00:49:12,240 Under the bed, Billy drew this? 451 00:49:15,278 --> 00:49:16,178 No. 452 00:49:21,751 --> 00:49:23,186 That was somebody else. 453 00:49:25,455 --> 00:49:27,458 Calliope, you need to talk to me. 454 00:49:28,860 --> 00:49:30,293 Roy, not right now. 455 00:49:30,394 --> 00:49:32,997 No, I've had enough of this. 456 00:49:34,465 --> 00:49:36,600 Do you understand what this is like? 457 00:49:37,401 --> 00:49:39,202 Do you get it, at all? 458 00:49:39,603 --> 00:49:42,105 I'm trying so hard, Cali, 459 00:49:42,106 --> 00:49:44,140 to not think you're just a fucking liar, 460 00:49:44,141 --> 00:49:46,910 and everything you've told me about yourself is 461 00:49:46,911 --> 00:49:49,779 a fucking lie, and the life we've been building together, 462 00:49:49,780 --> 00:49:50,780 is a fucking lie. 463 00:49:50,781 --> 00:49:51,415 Roy... 464 00:49:51,516 --> 00:49:53,416 Are you a fucking liar, Cali? 465 00:49:53,817 --> 00:49:54,751 Talk to me! 466 00:49:54,752 --> 00:49:56,853 Roy, you're hurting me! 467 00:50:01,226 --> 00:50:03,695 Calliope, fuck, I am... 468 00:50:07,664 --> 00:50:12,102 It's your birthday next month, 18, wow. 469 00:50:12,669 --> 00:50:16,339 We should do something, have a party. 470 00:50:17,741 --> 00:50:20,376 Oh wait I forgot, that will never work, 471 00:50:20,377 --> 00:50:21,813 you don't have any friends. 472 00:50:24,348 --> 00:50:25,348 Mom. 473 00:50:25,649 --> 00:50:28,051 You know, in a month, you're gonna be an adult, 474 00:50:28,052 --> 00:50:29,953 and then you can do whatever the hell you want, 475 00:50:30,154 --> 00:50:32,388 but while you're here, in my house... 476 00:50:32,389 --> 00:50:32,889 Mom. 477 00:50:32,890 --> 00:50:33,958 You will do exactly... 478 00:50:34,159 --> 00:50:35,525 Just stop it. 479 00:50:35,627 --> 00:50:36,127 What? 480 00:50:36,130 --> 00:50:40,398 Just stop with the whole concerned parent thing. 481 00:50:41,499 --> 00:50:43,268 You don't do it very well. 482 00:50:48,740 --> 00:50:50,308 You're really something else, 483 00:50:51,109 --> 00:50:52,809 after everything I have done... 484 00:50:56,348 --> 00:50:57,716 You wanna go back to him? 485 00:50:59,217 --> 00:51:00,284 Dad? 486 00:51:00,385 --> 00:51:03,254 You know who I mean, where were you? 487 00:51:03,255 --> 00:51:04,956 I told you. 488 00:51:05,358 --> 00:51:09,627 Yeah, your dads, should I call him? 489 00:51:16,569 --> 00:51:18,202 Oh, I don't think I'm supposed to have any of that. 490 00:51:18,203 --> 00:51:19,237 I made it weak. 491 00:51:34,887 --> 00:51:36,489 So, tell me about Billy. 492 00:51:53,138 --> 00:51:56,773 She was gorgeous, I mean, 493 00:51:56,975 --> 00:51:58,912 not movie gorgeous or anything, just... 494 00:52:02,580 --> 00:52:04,315 First thing I thought when I saw her, 495 00:52:04,316 --> 00:52:07,518 was how tired she was, that nobody that young 496 00:52:07,519 --> 00:52:09,386 should be so God damn tired. 497 00:52:09,787 --> 00:52:15,789 She had these deep sunk eyes, that just dug in 498 00:52:15,790 --> 00:52:18,561 like corkscrews, and this thin little mouth, 499 00:52:18,597 --> 00:52:22,734 that I thought, I don't know, I kind of thought, 500 00:52:22,735 --> 00:52:24,270 I just wanted to kiss. 501 00:52:25,638 --> 00:52:27,606 I always wanna fuck the girls when I see them. 502 00:52:28,006 --> 00:52:29,308 I can't seem to help it. 503 00:52:31,509 --> 00:52:33,545 My eyes are words straight to my prick, 504 00:52:34,846 --> 00:52:36,281 doesn't matter who they are. 505 00:52:37,382 --> 00:52:38,982 The first thing I think when I see them is 506 00:52:38,983 --> 00:52:42,387 how I wanna get them naked, I wanna get them under me. 507 00:52:43,988 --> 00:52:46,424 And I wanna fuck the God damn shit out of them. 508 00:52:47,425 --> 00:52:50,227 But with her, all I wanted was, 509 00:52:52,298 --> 00:52:53,967 I just kind of wanted that kiss. 510 00:52:55,568 --> 00:52:57,203 All I thought about for days. 511 00:52:59,205 --> 00:53:00,807 I should've left it there, I guess. 512 00:53:04,008 --> 00:53:05,411 I thought she could make me normal, 513 00:53:06,779 --> 00:53:08,446 I've never been with a normal girl before, 514 00:53:08,447 --> 00:53:11,117 but I thought, I don't know, maybe she could do it. 515 00:53:12,218 --> 00:53:14,020 Maybe I could love her normal. 516 00:53:16,255 --> 00:53:17,591 And then when she was gone, 517 00:53:19,292 --> 00:53:22,328 I felt like my chest was this big black cave. 518 00:53:23,829 --> 00:53:27,132 I was 17 God damn years old, and I felt like it was over. 519 00:53:28,034 --> 00:53:29,034 I was dead. 520 00:53:31,871 --> 00:53:34,307 I guess maybe that's why they call me Dead Billy. 521 00:53:34,908 --> 00:53:36,344 I know what you're thinking, 522 00:53:38,644 --> 00:53:40,881 I know what you wanna do, don't think I don't. 523 00:53:46,719 --> 00:53:47,987 It's okay, you know. 524 00:53:49,088 --> 00:53:50,223 Hey, look at me. 525 00:54:01,000 --> 00:54:02,100 It's okay. 526 00:54:18,418 --> 00:54:26,955 It's okay Cali, it's okay, it's okay. 527 00:54:28,195 --> 00:54:30,463 It's okay, it's okay. 528 00:54:38,838 --> 00:54:39,907 How long were you? 529 00:54:42,742 --> 00:54:43,944 I don't remember. 530 00:54:55,921 --> 00:54:58,492 Come on, I'm not paying by the hour here. 531 00:55:06,965 --> 00:55:10,969 A long time, I think they took me away. 532 00:55:12,539 --> 00:55:13,439 Who? 533 00:55:14,140 --> 00:55:17,910 A social worker, my mom. 534 00:55:21,047 --> 00:55:23,218 I think I was 17 when they got me out. 535 00:55:25,652 --> 00:55:28,488 You know it wasn't your fault, right? 536 00:55:31,758 --> 00:55:34,961 Calliope, you were just a kid. 537 00:55:36,830 --> 00:55:38,698 It wasn't your fault. 538 00:55:52,913 --> 00:55:54,348 You're lovely. 539 00:55:54,349 --> 00:55:55,315 Calliope. 540 00:55:55,615 --> 00:56:00,050 Roy, listen... 541 00:56:01,555 --> 00:56:03,056 Listen to me. 542 00:56:07,794 --> 00:56:09,529 I wanted to be there. 543 00:56:14,701 --> 00:56:17,603 I'm not exactly who you think I am. 544 00:56:17,605 --> 00:56:22,708 Please, don't do this, I love you. 545 00:56:26,314 --> 00:56:27,748 I love you too. 546 00:56:33,120 --> 00:56:35,723 So, what about the drawing? 547 00:56:36,857 --> 00:56:37,758 It doesn't matter. 548 00:56:37,758 --> 00:56:38,693 Calliope! 549 00:56:38,694 --> 00:56:46,195 Look, I have to go somewhere, 550 00:56:47,602 --> 00:56:49,270 to talk to somebody. 551 00:56:50,406 --> 00:56:51,306 Him? 552 00:56:54,610 --> 00:56:57,346 I don't know, maybe, I hope not. 553 00:57:00,716 --> 00:57:02,251 I wanna go with you. 554 00:57:07,622 --> 00:57:08,822 I'm sorry. 555 00:57:09,223 --> 00:57:11,392 I don't understand this. 556 00:57:12,727 --> 00:57:13,761 Do you still... 557 00:57:18,299 --> 00:57:19,535 Do you still want him? 558 00:57:40,388 --> 00:57:43,023 I want the best environment for her too, I do. 559 00:57:44,024 --> 00:57:46,494 What am I doing, how do you know that? 560 00:57:47,495 --> 00:57:50,263 That's what I used to do Kay, I'm trying to be a father now, 561 00:57:50,264 --> 00:57:52,666 I'm trying to be a member of a family, 562 00:57:52,967 --> 00:57:54,701 and that's what you said... 563 00:57:54,702 --> 00:57:56,470 Bill, you better get your ass in here before... 564 00:57:56,471 --> 00:57:57,804 That's all you talk about now. 565 00:57:57,806 --> 00:58:01,641 I want to, I'd learned that. 566 00:58:02,378 --> 00:58:05,212 No, that's what this is, I know that, I know the legal. 567 00:58:05,213 --> 00:58:09,017 God damn it Kay, she's my fucking kid too. 568 00:58:13,489 --> 00:58:15,659 Yeah, well, I'm not the one who's being a cunt about it! 569 00:58:19,259 --> 00:58:21,397 Gotta listen to him shout like that all the time? 570 00:58:26,000 --> 00:58:28,770 Don't fucking Bogart, okay, this shit ain't cheap! 571 00:58:36,578 --> 00:58:37,478 Billy? 572 00:58:38,980 --> 00:58:40,683 You having a flashback Bill? 573 00:58:57,032 --> 00:58:58,032 Billy. 574 00:59:00,802 --> 00:59:01,836 Don't! 575 00:59:28,163 --> 00:59:29,163 Get out! 576 01:00:36,965 --> 01:00:37,934 Look at me. 577 01:00:54,517 --> 01:00:55,618 Cali, look at me. 578 01:01:04,694 --> 01:01:05,929 What about your mom? 579 01:01:12,134 --> 01:01:16,972 I got room, you know, if you need a place, anything, 580 01:01:16,973 --> 01:01:19,309 you know, no strings, or nothing. 581 01:01:21,110 --> 01:01:22,945 I don't know, maybe. 582 01:01:26,249 --> 01:01:28,952 I'd really like to draw you. 583 01:01:32,992 --> 01:01:35,093 What, I can draw. 584 01:02:53,236 --> 01:02:54,036 Billy? 585 01:03:12,089 --> 01:03:13,757 I'm sorry I scared you. 586 01:03:15,993 --> 01:03:20,928 It's okay, what happened? 587 01:03:22,933 --> 01:03:24,434 What did she say to you? 588 01:03:25,035 --> 01:03:26,604 Don't leave, okay? 589 01:03:29,172 --> 01:03:29,972 What? 590 01:03:34,611 --> 01:03:36,547 You can kill me if you want to, 591 01:03:39,017 --> 01:03:44,587 slit my throat in my sleep or something, just don't leave. 592 01:03:46,324 --> 01:03:48,728 I'm not going to kill you Billy, Jesus. 593 01:03:56,434 --> 01:04:01,704 And I'm not going anywhere, you're stuck with me. 594 01:04:06,376 --> 01:04:09,413 Lovers and mad men have such seething brains. 595 01:04:18,089 --> 01:04:20,925 Such shaping fantasies that apprehend, 596 01:04:22,827 --> 01:04:25,664 more than quarries, it never comprehends. 597 01:04:32,570 --> 01:04:35,739 I live in this neighbourhood, and on the side of my house, 598 01:04:35,740 --> 01:04:37,507 is all these Morning Glories. 599 01:04:37,608 --> 01:04:40,310 Which is awesome, if you go running at 7:00 in the morning, 600 01:04:40,311 --> 01:04:43,280 I don't, but if you did, you would see... 601 01:04:47,753 --> 01:04:49,688 The morning glories were just out, 602 01:04:50,089 --> 01:04:51,890 like they haven't gotten used to the weather. 603 01:04:51,991 --> 01:04:53,225 What you want? 604 01:04:56,261 --> 01:04:58,130 It's a two drink minimum, lady. 605 01:04:59,231 --> 01:05:01,633 A glass of zen, I guess. 606 01:05:04,937 --> 01:05:06,570 All right guys, we got a lot of show. 607 01:05:06,571 --> 01:05:08,172 I'm Sarah Katie, thank you very much. 608 01:05:22,121 --> 01:05:24,155 Did you come to party? 609 01:05:24,156 --> 01:05:28,327 I fucking came to party 610 01:05:29,228 --> 01:05:31,730 All right, bitches right! 611 01:05:32,998 --> 01:05:35,234 We got two more bitches for you tonight, 612 01:05:36,035 --> 01:05:38,137 come in here, tell some jokes, make you laugh. 613 01:05:38,638 --> 01:05:42,006 This next bitch comes all the way from New York, 614 01:05:42,307 --> 01:05:46,277 fucking City, and if you ask me, 615 01:05:46,378 --> 01:05:50,281 she is pretty full of herself, so give it up for 616 01:05:50,282 --> 01:05:54,017 the bitch, Melissa Kononen! 617 01:06:04,296 --> 01:06:07,931 Yeah, bitches, right. 618 01:06:07,966 --> 01:06:09,634 Right, right, right. 619 01:06:16,808 --> 01:06:19,410 Hey guys, so I'm Melissa Kononen, 620 01:06:19,811 --> 01:06:22,746 and I'm gonna ask you how you're doing, 621 01:06:22,746 --> 01:06:24,915 but please, do not applaud, you can boo, 622 01:06:24,916 --> 01:06:27,717 you can do whatever you want, please, 623 01:06:27,718 --> 01:06:29,019 just do what is in your heart. 624 01:06:29,421 --> 01:06:30,689 How are you guys doing? 625 01:06:35,294 --> 01:06:36,928 Uh, that's a little like... 626 01:06:37,029 --> 01:06:39,598 It's not like aah, yeah, that's like a medium. 627 01:06:40,099 --> 01:06:42,267 So, if you ask me, you probably don't give a fuck, 628 01:06:42,268 --> 01:06:44,435 but I'm going to tell you, I'm doing awful. 629 01:06:44,836 --> 01:06:48,006 I woke up with a cold, and I'm delirious at this point, 630 01:06:48,007 --> 01:06:51,242 and to be honest, I'm kind of loving it right now, 631 01:06:51,243 --> 01:06:53,578 having this cold, because it's my own little portable 632 01:06:53,579 --> 01:06:55,714 disease, that I get to take with me everywhere, 633 01:06:55,915 --> 01:06:58,682 it's all mine, not yours, it's mine, 634 01:06:58,683 --> 01:07:00,151 my disease, mine, mine, mine! 635 01:07:00,152 --> 01:07:01,652 And I get to sleep with it in the night, 636 01:07:01,653 --> 01:07:04,155 I'm like oh, it's my cold, oh disease, you're okay, 637 01:07:04,157 --> 01:07:06,627 you're mine, oh I get to cuddle with you. 638 01:07:08,028 --> 01:07:11,163 I had vegan chilli earlier, and it gave me heartburn. 639 01:07:11,664 --> 01:07:15,033 And I didn't like it, you know what else I hate? 640 01:07:15,034 --> 01:07:17,304 I hate it when nice dudes refuse to call women cunts. 641 01:07:19,305 --> 01:07:21,606 You know, specifically this woman, because um, 642 01:07:21,707 --> 01:07:24,177 if you don't call me a cunt, I'm gonna find someone else 643 01:07:24,178 --> 01:07:26,245 who will, and they will probably suck. 644 01:07:26,246 --> 01:07:27,480 You're weird! 645 01:07:27,981 --> 01:07:29,782 Oh, great, woo! 646 01:07:30,515 --> 01:07:32,383 Like this guy right here, he fits the description, 647 01:07:32,484 --> 01:07:33,318 how you doing man? 648 01:07:33,319 --> 01:07:34,485 Tell a joke all ready. 649 01:07:34,686 --> 01:07:35,721 What's your name? 650 01:07:37,022 --> 01:07:38,289 Come on, what's your name? 651 01:07:38,491 --> 01:07:40,091 Um, Dave. 652 01:07:40,593 --> 01:07:43,763 Oh, Dave, that's your real voice? 653 01:07:44,164 --> 01:07:45,932 When you're not putting a voice on, 654 01:07:45,933 --> 01:07:50,335 you're like ugh, um, Dave, hey um Dave. 655 01:07:50,436 --> 01:07:52,137 So, call me a fucking cunt right now. 656 01:07:52,738 --> 01:07:58,342 Call me a fucking cunt, do it, we're all waiting! 657 01:07:59,143 --> 01:08:01,646 We're all waiting for you um Dave, 658 01:08:01,714 --> 01:08:04,417 we're all waiting for you to call me a fucking cunt, 659 01:08:05,218 --> 01:08:07,253 so call me a fucking cunt! 660 01:08:08,054 --> 01:08:10,490 I heard you earlier, come on, do it. 661 01:08:10,991 --> 01:08:13,192 Don't worry about her, she won't mind, 662 01:08:13,194 --> 01:08:16,662 she likes it, she likes when you call her a cunt, 663 01:08:16,663 --> 01:08:17,930 so why don't you do it to me man? 664 01:08:17,931 --> 01:08:20,366 Call me a fucking cunt, no? 665 01:08:20,767 --> 01:08:24,505 All right, fine, whatever, just being a pussy. 666 01:08:25,406 --> 01:08:27,072 See all you nice guys out there, please, 667 01:08:27,073 --> 01:08:29,843 just do me a favour, call me a fucking cunt, 668 01:08:30,344 --> 01:08:32,412 when I'm being a fucking cunt. 669 01:08:32,513 --> 01:08:34,848 So I can stop hearing it from abusive assholes. 670 01:08:35,949 --> 01:08:40,153 Okay, nope, you know what I also don't understand? 671 01:08:40,153 --> 01:08:42,154 What's really wrong with fucking your cousin. 672 01:09:20,990 --> 01:09:21,893 Four sugars! 673 01:09:22,163 --> 01:09:23,129 Sorry. 674 01:09:25,430 --> 01:09:27,066 Jesus Cali, how many times I have to... 675 01:09:27,067 --> 01:09:28,069 I'm sorry, Billy. 676 01:09:28,903 --> 01:09:30,773 What the fuck is wrong with you anyway? 677 01:09:46,887 --> 01:09:48,388 You, go, go! 678 01:10:15,082 --> 01:10:18,884 No, he's 66 years old, but he drinks pee. 679 01:10:18,885 --> 01:10:21,054 The thing is, so I don't know, just looking at him, 680 01:10:21,055 --> 01:10:22,889 makes me wonder if it works because, 681 01:10:23,090 --> 01:10:27,460 they say it helps your body diagnose sicknesses, 682 01:10:27,762 --> 01:10:30,933 if you don't drink caffeine, or alcohol, or eat meat... 683 01:10:39,307 --> 01:10:43,478 Hi, how you doing, oh wow look at this, that is my face. 684 01:10:44,512 --> 01:10:46,381 Cunt face, there you are. 685 01:10:48,916 --> 01:10:49,651 Thank you. 686 01:10:49,652 --> 01:10:50,653 Use protection. 687 01:10:54,256 --> 01:10:55,556 Well, that was shit. 688 01:10:55,657 --> 01:10:56,723 It was precious. 689 01:10:56,824 --> 01:10:58,059 Oh, fuck you. 690 01:10:58,993 --> 01:11:00,161 Got another one. 691 01:11:00,661 --> 01:11:01,861 Lovely. 692 01:11:02,063 --> 01:11:03,665 Water, no ice, please. 693 01:11:08,903 --> 01:11:09,903 Hi. 694 01:11:14,075 --> 01:11:15,510 You were really good. 695 01:11:27,021 --> 01:11:28,323 Can I have that? 696 01:11:33,661 --> 01:11:34,561 Mmm. 697 01:11:42,170 --> 01:11:43,370 Fuck you Alyssa. 698 01:11:52,447 --> 01:11:53,581 Do I know you? 699 01:11:56,484 --> 01:12:02,652 Um, kind of. 700 01:12:04,526 --> 01:12:05,826 Oh, fuck. 701 01:12:09,864 --> 01:12:11,499 None of this is real by the way, 702 01:12:12,400 --> 01:12:14,636 but actually, it is all real. 703 01:12:29,885 --> 01:12:31,185 Yo, this your ride? 704 01:12:31,386 --> 01:12:32,253 Yeah. 705 01:12:33,154 --> 01:12:35,458 Toss me the keys, I wanna show you something. 706 01:12:43,431 --> 01:12:49,302 So, I assume it's no coincidence, you showing up here? 707 01:12:50,839 --> 01:12:51,839 No. 708 01:13:02,718 --> 01:13:05,421 Oh fuck yeah, this is my jam! 709 01:13:43,258 --> 01:13:44,360 Fucking cunt! 710 01:13:47,863 --> 01:13:49,032 What the fuck? 711 01:13:50,599 --> 01:13:51,766 Alyssa? 712 01:13:52,168 --> 01:13:52,968 What? 713 01:13:54,203 --> 01:13:55,971 What was it you wanted to show me? 714 01:13:56,072 --> 01:13:56,773 What? 715 01:13:57,374 --> 01:14:00,409 What was it you wanted to show me? 716 01:14:00,910 --> 01:14:04,147 Oh, honey, let's get fucked up first! 717 01:14:36,111 --> 01:14:37,111 Come on. 718 01:18:38,256 --> 01:18:41,926 Hey, look at me, are you okay? 719 01:18:54,572 --> 01:18:59,143 Once every three or four months, but we'd never do anything, 720 01:18:59,145 --> 01:19:03,648 he'd just stand there, and look. 721 01:19:04,817 --> 01:19:07,919 When I was younger, I pretended like I was asleep, 722 01:19:08,119 --> 01:19:10,154 like I knew it was creepy or whatever, 723 01:19:10,155 --> 01:19:13,557 but I didn't know why, and then when I got a little older 724 01:19:13,558 --> 01:19:16,961 I would stare right back at him, never told him to leave. 725 01:19:17,262 --> 01:19:21,466 And he'd still just, you know, stand there. 726 01:19:22,067 --> 01:19:23,535 Anyway, I told my mom. 727 01:19:24,636 --> 01:19:30,407 Yeah, a few years ago, she called me a lying little bitch. 728 01:19:31,309 --> 01:19:33,044 Billy was never so bad. 729 01:19:35,147 --> 01:19:36,749 At least he didn't stare. 730 01:19:38,050 --> 01:19:41,853 You know, he tried to kill himself after you left, right? 731 01:19:42,054 --> 01:19:44,290 He said he was gonna go jump off a bridge. 732 01:19:45,391 --> 01:19:46,992 And that was about the time he started 733 01:19:46,993 --> 01:19:50,261 calling me all the fucking time, and leaving these, 734 01:19:50,362 --> 01:19:54,366 like, long ass messages, and sometimes he'd cry. 735 01:19:55,634 --> 01:19:59,104 Then, you know, I mean, he called me to tell me 736 01:19:59,105 --> 01:20:03,175 that you came back, after that, he didn't call me anymore. 737 01:20:04,711 --> 01:20:06,314 Did you find him sexy or something? 738 01:20:11,050 --> 01:20:14,318 Yeah, I did. 739 01:20:18,156 --> 01:20:22,727 Oh, that's weird, what do you even know about him? 740 01:20:25,663 --> 01:20:28,266 He said he fought in Vietnam. 741 01:20:29,634 --> 01:20:30,534 Really? 742 01:20:31,471 --> 01:20:35,308 He said he was in Danang for a year. 743 01:20:37,575 --> 01:20:40,611 Billy said a lot of things. 744 01:20:43,015 --> 01:20:48,986 He told my mom that he made a fortune selling rare coins. 745 01:20:51,323 --> 01:20:56,094 He told me that he was a rough Necker in California, 746 01:20:57,096 --> 01:21:02,832 and that he shat, shot, I'm sorry, 747 01:21:02,835 --> 01:21:06,137 he shot a guy in the back of the head, 748 01:21:06,338 --> 01:21:09,340 because the guy broke into his apartment, 749 01:21:09,541 --> 01:21:13,545 and was trying to stab him in the kidney. 750 01:21:14,513 --> 01:21:18,249 And he said that he went to that guys grave to piss on it, 751 01:21:18,251 --> 01:21:22,189 but it was Memorial Day, and there were like... 752 01:21:23,323 --> 01:21:26,726 There were all these people around, 753 01:21:28,394 --> 01:21:32,263 so he settled for just spitting on it. 754 01:21:34,767 --> 01:21:38,337 He didn't tell you that story, did he? 755 01:21:47,146 --> 01:21:49,016 What are you doing here, little Cali? 756 01:21:51,684 --> 01:21:53,020 I need to find him. 757 01:21:56,156 --> 01:21:57,156 Why? 758 01:22:01,194 --> 01:22:06,897 He's dead, I mean, probably, right? 759 01:22:11,004 --> 01:22:13,907 I mean, you wanna know what I think? 760 01:22:15,442 --> 01:22:18,778 You probably don't, but I'm gonna tell you anyway. 761 01:22:18,979 --> 01:22:20,948 I think that you miss him. 762 01:22:23,784 --> 01:22:27,854 I think that you love him. 763 01:22:28,556 --> 01:22:29,256 I... 764 01:22:33,294 --> 01:22:35,664 You don't know what he did to me. 765 01:22:37,130 --> 01:22:38,766 What he did to you. 766 01:22:43,703 --> 01:22:47,774 Come on, I was gonna show you something, come on. 767 01:23:18,105 --> 01:23:19,472 See this tree here? 768 01:23:20,473 --> 01:23:26,944 My mom, she hated Billy, and then when I told her 769 01:23:26,946 --> 01:23:32,050 about my step dad, you know, just staring, 770 01:23:34,422 --> 01:23:37,625 she hated him too, but not at first. 771 01:23:40,828 --> 01:23:42,531 She didn't believe me at first. 772 01:23:44,032 --> 01:23:51,902 Then she thought about it, and my step dad dropped dead 773 01:23:51,938 --> 01:23:53,906 one day, while mowing the lawn. 774 01:23:54,607 --> 01:24:00,176 I was away, she was alone. 775 01:24:01,214 --> 01:24:05,385 I told her about what he did to me and then I left her. 776 01:24:07,021 --> 01:24:10,057 I was gone when she drove out here, 777 01:24:10,058 --> 01:24:12,361 and she sat at the base of this tree. 778 01:24:14,528 --> 01:24:16,631 She had my step dad's pistol. 779 01:24:19,733 --> 01:24:23,936 Billy wasn't serious, but she was. 780 01:24:45,894 --> 01:24:47,530 What did you do to him Cali? 781 01:24:49,431 --> 01:24:50,231 What? 782 01:24:51,633 --> 01:24:53,702 What did you do to him? 783 01:24:54,935 --> 01:24:56,736 I mean, you went back right? 784 01:24:56,937 --> 01:25:01,073 And my mom was dead, and I thought he and I could, 785 01:25:01,074 --> 01:25:03,643 I don't know, I don't know, work on things maybe. 786 01:25:03,644 --> 01:25:06,847 He was the only fucking family that I had left. 787 01:25:07,448 --> 01:25:08,615 What the fuck. 788 01:25:19,161 --> 01:25:19,961 Stop! 789 01:25:45,987 --> 01:25:47,256 Cali, look at me. 790 01:25:53,528 --> 01:25:55,365 You can go out with him, if you want to. 791 01:26:06,874 --> 01:26:08,609 I mean, if you really want to. 792 01:26:09,810 --> 01:26:10,877 Should I call him? 793 01:26:10,878 --> 01:26:12,112 Mom, shut... 794 01:26:12,113 --> 01:26:13,782 What the hell is wrong with you? 795 01:26:15,183 --> 01:26:20,453 Him, and then this man, is that who you wanna be? 796 01:26:56,892 --> 01:26:58,528 You wanna go back to him? 797 01:26:59,429 --> 01:27:06,433 Okay, go ahead, I'm not gonna stop you, go, go, go! 798 01:27:46,442 --> 01:27:47,410 You okay? 799 01:27:53,749 --> 01:27:54,549 No. 800 01:28:13,003 --> 01:28:15,839 So, do you wanna talk about it? 801 01:28:34,224 --> 01:28:36,428 You know what I used to do when I first started? 802 01:28:39,395 --> 01:28:41,965 I just shut my eyes, and go away somewhere. 803 01:28:45,201 --> 01:28:47,671 Some place where I could be anybody other than me. 804 01:28:49,472 --> 01:28:54,943 Not like a movie star or anything, just a wife, maybe. 805 01:28:56,912 --> 01:28:57,812 And a mom. 806 01:29:00,950 --> 01:29:02,918 I'd see myself in a suburb somewhere, 807 01:29:03,519 --> 01:29:07,590 working from home as a graphic designer, interior decorator. 808 01:29:09,959 --> 01:29:15,696 I used to draw, I was pretty good at it. 809 01:29:20,804 --> 01:29:25,139 Anyway, something like that. 810 01:29:27,311 --> 01:29:33,182 I'd have three kids, twin boys, and a little girl. 811 01:29:35,217 --> 01:29:39,520 Her name would be Emma Rose, and the boys would 812 01:29:39,521 --> 01:29:42,390 be called Jack and Joshua. 813 01:29:45,961 --> 01:29:50,732 My husband would work in real estate, David, 814 01:29:51,302 --> 01:29:55,905 but I'd call him Dee, a handsome guy, 815 01:29:57,774 --> 01:30:05,945 sort of soft, skinny with a little pot-belly, weak eyes. 816 01:30:10,454 --> 01:30:12,557 I always had a thing for guys in glasses. 817 01:30:16,827 --> 01:30:19,563 He'd come home early from work sometimes, 818 01:30:21,433 --> 01:30:23,035 and we'd take the kids out to dinner. 819 01:30:24,936 --> 01:30:27,804 Nothing fancy, Chuck E Cheese, 820 01:30:27,805 --> 01:30:29,174 wherever the kids wanted to go. 821 01:30:32,477 --> 01:30:35,648 Our five year anniversary, he'd take me to this little, 822 01:30:38,450 --> 01:30:40,718 this little bed and breakfast up in the mountains, 823 01:30:41,618 --> 01:30:44,855 and we'd wander the streets, and window shop. 824 01:30:46,156 --> 01:30:50,225 Afterwards, go back up to the hotel room 825 01:30:50,226 --> 01:30:52,764 and make love for hours, by candlelight. 826 01:30:56,167 --> 01:30:58,002 He'd always be gentle. 827 01:31:02,574 --> 01:31:07,710 In the morning, he'd give me this little pair 828 01:31:07,744 --> 01:31:09,847 of diamond stud earrings. 829 01:31:13,351 --> 01:31:15,720 All he could afford without taking out a loan, 830 01:31:16,421 --> 01:31:22,457 so nothing all that special, but nice, lovely. 831 01:31:24,962 --> 01:31:27,964 Our life would be lovely. 832 01:31:36,508 --> 01:31:40,678 So that's what I think about when the men would be doing, 833 01:31:43,080 --> 01:31:46,183 you know, what they'd be doing. 834 01:31:49,854 --> 01:31:56,825 And it helped, for a while, for a while I thought 835 01:31:56,827 --> 01:31:58,729 it may even still be possible. 836 01:32:02,600 --> 01:32:06,603 He could still be out there, my Dee, 837 01:32:08,940 --> 01:32:10,843 and maybe we could still meet. 838 01:32:12,810 --> 01:32:17,414 And he could give me my lovely little life somewhere, 839 01:32:17,415 --> 01:32:19,217 where I could be somebody else. 840 01:32:23,755 --> 01:32:25,523 This is it, I'd say. 841 01:32:27,391 --> 01:32:33,463 This guy, this hundred bucks, I'm done, I'm getting out. 842 01:32:40,839 --> 01:32:42,773 Now I can barely remember what he was 843 01:32:42,774 --> 01:32:49,177 supposed to look like, my Dee. 844 01:33:01,058 --> 01:33:06,029 He left this out here, he didn't want you to see it. 845 01:33:09,066 --> 01:33:11,670 He told me to be gone before you woke up. 846 01:33:19,444 --> 01:33:21,515 He's never gonna get any better, Cali. 847 01:33:25,718 --> 01:33:32,288 Cali, none of this is ever going to get any better. 848 01:34:47,933 --> 01:34:49,367 Ma'am, can you hear me? 849 01:34:49,868 --> 01:34:51,404 Nod if you understand. 850 01:34:57,944 --> 01:35:01,315 Need you to follow my fingers without moving your head. 851 01:35:10,523 --> 01:35:13,594 Was it, I don't know, was it a stroke or something? 852 01:35:39,419 --> 01:35:40,853 I see no evidence of a concussion, 853 01:35:41,454 --> 01:35:43,791 or any other lasting damage, so you're free to go. 854 01:35:48,928 --> 01:35:51,465 Do you have someone who can come pick you up? 855 01:35:58,905 --> 01:36:02,409 So, there's nothing more you can tell us, Ma'am? 856 01:36:06,046 --> 01:36:10,217 Ma'am, you're sure there's nothing more you can tell us? 857 01:36:32,005 --> 01:36:36,940 Cali, I'm here to help you. 858 01:36:39,814 --> 01:36:41,215 Do you understand? 859 01:36:47,453 --> 01:36:48,688 Your mom's on her way. 860 01:36:51,926 --> 01:36:52,926 Not her. 861 01:36:55,195 --> 01:36:56,964 It isn't up to you Cali. 862 01:37:01,468 --> 01:37:03,338 What are you gonna do with him? 863 01:37:09,109 --> 01:37:10,745 He's going to jail. 864 01:37:37,537 --> 01:37:40,440 Ma'am, if this was your boyfriend, 865 01:37:42,208 --> 01:37:44,878 we have resources that we can help you with. 866 01:37:59,326 --> 01:38:00,260 Hello. 867 01:38:02,696 --> 01:38:03,496 Hi. 868 01:38:05,766 --> 01:38:06,567 What? 869 01:38:11,438 --> 01:38:18,073 I'm.. I'm sorry. 870 01:38:21,716 --> 01:38:25,587 It's not your fault, I should have known better. 871 01:38:27,088 --> 01:38:30,291 I don't know what the fuck I was thinking. 872 01:38:32,760 --> 01:38:33,760 I, um... 873 01:38:34,629 --> 01:38:35,430 What? 874 01:38:42,737 --> 01:38:43,672 Can I still... 875 01:38:49,276 --> 01:38:50,645 Can I come to your place? 876 01:38:54,883 --> 01:38:57,253 Didn't you all ready leave him once? 877 01:39:01,789 --> 01:39:03,524 I'm sorry, I thought... 878 01:39:05,360 --> 01:39:07,662 I don't know, I don't know what I thought. 879 01:39:08,363 --> 01:39:12,499 I don't need this shit, okay, good luck. 880 01:39:39,461 --> 01:39:40,461 Roy. 881 01:39:43,165 --> 01:39:45,000 We're sorry, you have reached a number 882 01:39:45,001 --> 01:39:48,203 that has been disconnected or is no longer in service. 883 01:39:48,504 --> 01:39:51,206 If you feel you have reached this recording in error, 884 01:39:51,307 --> 01:39:54,177 please check the number or try your call again. 885 01:39:55,878 --> 01:39:56,846 We're sorry... 886 01:40:11,592 --> 01:40:15,363 # I've got something for you 887 01:40:18,699 --> 01:40:22,103 # Oh, don't turn me down 888 01:40:25,840 --> 01:40:29,609 # Leave me cold and blue 889 01:40:29,610 --> 01:40:33,380 # Don't break my heart # 890 01:40:33,381 --> 01:40:34,550 Cali, look at me. 891 01:40:41,089 --> 01:40:41,589 We didn't. 892 01:40:41,590 --> 01:40:42,490 I know. 893 01:41:06,515 --> 01:41:07,985 You're beautiful, you know that? 894 01:41:41,417 --> 01:41:43,787 You need to know that there was never anyone else but me. 895 01:42:04,841 --> 01:42:05,841 I love you. 896 01:42:09,346 --> 01:42:10,580 I love you too. 897 01:42:26,863 --> 01:42:27,663 Roy? 898 01:42:55,892 --> 01:43:00,762 I've been thinking, and if you want, 899 01:43:01,431 --> 01:43:04,302 we could, you know, have him over some night. 900 01:43:06,903 --> 01:43:08,471 I mean, only if you want. 901 01:43:11,741 --> 01:43:17,144 You two, obviously, I mean... 902 01:43:20,150 --> 01:43:21,351 It could be hot, right? 903 01:43:23,320 --> 01:43:25,854 Oh fuck it, look, if you want, 904 01:43:25,856 --> 01:43:30,627 we'll have him over, and you know, you two can do whatever. 905 01:43:32,729 --> 01:43:36,899 You were cool with Selena, I can be cool with this. 906 01:43:40,737 --> 01:43:46,306 If you want, I could be way cool. 907 01:43:49,279 --> 01:43:51,648 Jesus, not too much, okay? 908 01:43:53,450 --> 01:43:55,553 You only need a pinch to bring out the flavour. 909 01:43:57,454 --> 01:43:58,521 Anyway, Cali. 910 01:45:18,537 --> 01:45:20,172 So what's next Cali? 911 01:45:22,106 --> 01:45:25,709 Calliope, okay, you know what, 912 01:45:26,311 --> 01:45:28,145 you can give me the silent treatment, if you want, 913 01:45:28,146 --> 01:45:30,715 that's fine, I'm gonna call him. 914 01:45:32,116 --> 01:45:34,986 You know what else, I'm gonna tell him he can 915 01:45:34,987 --> 01:45:36,456 fuck you for a 100 bucks. 916 01:45:41,893 --> 01:45:43,995 50, if he lets me watch. 917 01:46:22,200 --> 01:46:23,302 Look at me Cali. 918 01:46:33,745 --> 01:46:35,145 Look at me. 919 01:46:45,324 --> 01:46:46,324 Look at me! 920 01:46:58,202 --> 01:46:59,202 Morning. 921 01:47:08,847 --> 01:47:10,650 You're a lying little bitch. 922 01:47:41,647 --> 01:47:42,647 You... 923 01:47:44,717 --> 01:47:47,919 Oh my God, oh my God. 924 01:48:11,110 --> 01:48:14,779 Oh my God, oh my God, shit. 925 01:48:19,218 --> 01:48:20,885 I gotta call somebody! 926 01:48:28,728 --> 01:48:30,430 Now, say you're sorry. 927 01:48:37,369 --> 01:48:38,270 I'm sorry. 928 01:48:42,074 --> 01:48:47,408 Good, I forgive you. 929 01:49:25,651 --> 01:49:26,819 It's good to see you. 930 01:49:32,792 --> 01:49:37,328 You remember, remember that song I wrote for you. 931 01:49:37,329 --> 01:49:38,364 How did that go? 932 01:49:43,269 --> 01:49:46,906 # Your stars are fire, you stop the sun 933 01:49:46,907 --> 01:49:48,841 # The truth of me may be a liar 934 01:49:48,842 --> 01:49:51,413 # But never doubt my love # 935 01:49:54,915 --> 01:49:59,550 You know, I never wanted... 936 01:50:02,956 --> 01:50:07,059 I'm sorry, I'm fucking this up, God damn it. 937 01:50:10,897 --> 01:50:14,934 You know, I've always known it was wrong, 938 01:50:15,236 --> 01:50:16,537 the whole you and me thing. 939 01:50:17,338 --> 01:50:19,507 I didn't want it to be, it was. 940 01:50:21,075 --> 01:50:30,545 But it was, I just, I wanted you so much. 941 01:50:32,619 --> 01:50:35,489 And I really wanted it to be different this time, 942 01:50:36,990 --> 01:50:39,060 I thought that maybe you could, 943 01:50:40,894 --> 01:50:42,296 you were my chance to... 944 01:50:44,698 --> 01:50:46,733 Ah shit, I don't know. 945 01:50:48,736 --> 01:50:53,706 So, I guess maybe, I made things worse. 946 01:50:56,544 --> 01:50:58,645 I told myself all the usual things, 947 01:50:58,646 --> 01:51:02,615 how you were mature, you were an old soul, 948 01:51:02,616 --> 01:51:04,752 whatever the fuck, you were a kid. 949 01:51:06,788 --> 01:51:10,023 I should never have... 950 01:51:13,928 --> 01:51:21,499 So anyway, I guess, I think I sort of took it out on you. 951 01:51:25,773 --> 01:51:32,276 But I did love you, I do love you, you... 952 01:51:35,882 --> 01:51:40,452 Jesus Christ Cali, you were the best thing that 953 01:51:40,453 --> 01:51:43,989 ever happened to me, and I fucked it up. 954 01:51:48,294 --> 01:51:53,863 No, no you didn't. 955 01:52:02,476 --> 01:52:06,313 # When you're through with me 956 01:52:08,482 --> 01:52:11,819 # When your heart aches 957 01:52:14,856 --> 01:52:18,092 # When your head spins 958 01:52:20,995 --> 01:52:23,998 # When you tempt me 959 01:52:27,669 --> 01:52:30,772 # When you finish me 960 01:52:34,109 --> 01:52:36,945 # When you cut me 961 01:52:40,515 --> 01:52:43,418 # When you kill me 962 01:52:46,821 --> 01:52:49,689 # When you forgive me # 963 01:52:49,690 --> 01:52:50,490 We did. 964 01:52:53,160 --> 01:52:56,731 # When you want to hold me 965 01:52:59,801 --> 01:53:02,469 # If you bury me 966 01:53:06,208 --> 01:53:08,944 # If you lose me 967 01:53:13,481 --> 01:53:16,584 # Don't say the word 968 01:53:19,187 --> 01:53:22,524 # Don't waste your time 969 01:53:25,527 --> 01:53:28,363 # Don't expect me 970 01:53:31,700 --> 01:53:34,803 # Just get rid of me 971 01:53:38,174 --> 01:53:42,345 # Just break me # 972 01:53:48,251 --> 01:53:49,251 Okay. 973 01:53:55,591 --> 01:53:56,891 I'm gonna get your nose. 974 01:53:57,292 --> 01:53:59,795 No, I'll bite your nose off. 975 01:54:10,572 --> 01:54:11,572 No hands. 976 01:54:16,211 --> 01:54:17,680 I have something for you. 977 01:54:19,547 --> 01:54:20,883 Uh huh, what? 978 01:55:00,656 --> 01:55:03,006 Now that the stars are on fire, 979 01:55:05,660 --> 01:55:07,596 thou that the sun doth move. 980 01:55:10,732 --> 01:55:17,003 Doubt truth to be a liar, but never doubt my love. 981 01:55:36,960 --> 01:55:43,563 I'm sorry Billy, but I've gotta go.