I want to say that at first I was easier,
But actually, I was very sick then when I changed to later.
But I'm in a hurry.
At present the unbroken bond between a mother and her daughter will be born soon So just listen and watch it and pay attention.
If you don't like the way I do it...
Both of you go here and push it out yourself!
See see...
Hey dear
Gosh, she's beautiful!
He changed our lives forever.
... if you only know
Mom and Dad have been waiting for a child for a long time.
They try everything so you can only imagine how many hopes and dreams are there for me,
their first birth. Even though I am a plant in a pot.
- Honey! - What?
I can't hear Jane. He doesn't make noise.
He is quite asleep.
Just like me is
Robert, you have to calm down down. Come back to sleep.
No no No... I'll check it out.
- No, please... - It turns out it's long to have a baby.
- I'm damned it won't let him suffocate. - Please do not.
You are crazy!
Ok ok... I'm coming too. I come.
-What are you doing? -I don't want to turn on overhead.
That was a very important moment for me.
And yes, me too, remember that.
Babies know more things that happen than you think.
And from that moment on I felt like a floodlight was on me,
which I never got used to.
Turn off the lights!
Sorry, sorry
To succeed in the first year is a pretty good achievement
although no one has ever given you atta-boy for that,
they really have to be.
And the other thing I learned that year is that if parents can go crazy, stick us to them,
they will.
Beloved
My mother is pregnant and ready to appear again.
Then I foolishly thought that when Brad was born
he will take some pressure from me Boys, am I wrong.
This is also a goo-goo period or not.
This is a little boring. So let's jump ahead, okay?
I hope our parents are here to see this.
Both parents and mother died.
I miss not having grandparents.
They miss not having parents anymore.
So how long will we be sitting here?
Long time.
My mother knows that one day she must let me go run free little one
But he doesn't want to today or in the near future.
Then the parental witness protection program began.
Honey, he has to go to school and I have to go to work
So we do this as a family or I'll take it myself.
How important is kindergarten
I can not remember. Can you?
not the point.
What's the point?
The point is... we can't protect it forever.
Why not?
This is not healthy
Healthier than not protecting it.
Honey, he... must be around kids.
He should start developing social skills.
- Why? - Oh... this is crazy. I took him in.
Come on! Let's go.
Atta girl.
Have you come?
No... I want him to remember you leaving.
Extortion is an interesting thing if you use it properly.
My mother has a black belt in it.
My mother wants to be a dancer.
But he will tell you about that later.
Let's just say the expectations are too high.
They hug us so tightly that you can almost hear the air escaping from our tiny little body.
- You are amazing. - You're brilliant, brilliant!
Isn't he brilliant? Yes!
We are terrible. Move.
Hey, honey... how are you feeling?
Come on, honey. Here, drink this.
Come on, make you feel better. Promise.
My parents love me more than life itself.
But that my mother who really would do it cut her right arm if I asked for it.
Not sure why
But you got the picture.
Let's go to good things. Let's go to where my life really starts, ok?
This is a very important day.
This is when suddenly something starts falling into place.
Our little girl... is an adult.
First day of high school.
Janie, the whole world is at your feet.
Dadà
Momà
I have to go.
Let your father and I share this moment with you.
I am Ms. Walcott and I will be your English teacher through the first year of your cruel secondary school
and I guarantee you will succeed through life experience
Now, I am quite easy to get along with as long as you follow some of my simple rules One, if you show respect, I will show you
and two, if there are questions, ask me
and three, if you feel overwhelmed and need someone to talk to, you can talk to me.
I know it's hard to believe
but I'm not so old that I can't relate to what you might experience.
So, let's open the book, huh? I want you to open page 424
in "Lit Language" à
The beauty of reading is that it's personal,
that's your interpretation.
That's what you think, that's what you feel,
that's what you see
and that's what makes it so magical.
And I hope if you don't learn anything from me
You learn to love words.
They will save you someday Trust me.
Good lunch!
Jane, right here!
I can't believe you're not in our class.
Who will you get?
Ms. Walcott. He is cool, anyway.
He is my counselor as well.
Your luck never ends.
We have Mr. Speavek's bone head That's a new child.
Oh, is he cool or what?
God! Jane, she's smiling at you!
Why does he smile at you, why not me?
Competition is poor quality.
What I can say honestly is not a problem for me.
Even though I have many other problems, is not one of them.
Hi, I'm Ned.
Elizabeth, Betsy, Claire, and Jane.
Nice to meet you.
Jane has a boyfriend, Jane has a boyfriend!
Leave me alone, you dweeb. I am not interested in.
You're an idiot then. He drooled positively.
- So? - So don't be hampered.
She's the sweetest guy I've ever seen here
except Todd Burkin, captain of the football team
who will I do after starting today.
But back to you, we need to jump start your hormones. You are far behind.
And that's where fingerpointing starts.
-Brad, stop it. I'm doing homework. -So?
-Mom! -What is it, honey?
I'm here first. I have to do my homework.
- Brad, turn off Nintendo. - Well, why?
- Your brother is studying. - He always gets his way.
You go take a shower for dinner.
A girl should be, so you will be better for me.
-Best... -You have become a beautiful girl.
Jane!
As you know, I don't care about my sister I don't even know why, but I think it's mandatory.
Janie, be better for your brother!
Why?
Need help with your homework?
Yes, that's Mathematics.
Sorry, I can't help you there.
How did you get through it at school?
I don't.
What do you master?
Mmmm... English... Recess...
You're much smarter than I am at your age
You will do it well.
I don't think so.
What did you say this Saturday... both of us
only girls, do a little shopping, go to the movies
Only chillà
Isn't that an expression, just cold?
No... It hangs...
oh, hang
What are you saying?
I will say you are a bomb.
Oh, I'm da bomb. Oh, I'm da bomb. Big!
And at that time, I really meant all my little heart.
So, how do you like middle school?
It's okay.
What is it compared to? Dental surgery?
Bob, you just feel happy because you don't have to pass it again.
If your mind can go back that far, if you really remember.
That's very rude, you know, new child, new teacher.
Don't know where to go, new questions.
Brad, dinner!
Dear, we have to start planning your sixteen sweet party
Why? It's been months!
You never start too early planning a very important event.
Well I really don't want to party.
What? Everyone wants a sweet party of sixteen!
Everyone except me.
I don't know especially teenage girls
don't want to have a sweet party of sixteen.
You know, that's what every child must have.
Wait a minute, who are you?
Janice whom I have known all this time has never done anything expected of her.
Yes, what happened to 'the hell with community girls,
do we all know and love?
He becomes 'mutha'.
A 'mutha'?
Jane Fonda, meet Nancy Raegan.
Woo..Ouch! It's cold
That's... but accurate
How did you do it on the Mathematics test?
Hum... I think I'll issue C.
I'm very proud of you!
You are the only member of this family that has not failed in mathematics.
Thank you.
So, is there a funny guy at this school?
Mom, I'm just starting to go there.
S fine.
Do you have a boyfriend in middle school?
Yes.
When did you first have sex?
Excuse me?
I know you know the answer.
Yes I understand. I only tried to remember it. I am 21 years old.
You're a liar like that.
Yes, right.
Do you always want to have children?
Far back as I remember.
Why don't you keep dancing?
I'm not very good at that
Then I tried to be a writer, I don't have the passion for that.
What I really like is being a mother.
The best job in the world.
I'm kind of happy you're not good at anything Please help me, the next Math test, just exit B.
I will try
Thank you very much!
The task of your reading is will be 'Crime and Punishment'.
I'm kidding!
Good.
Sorry I'm late.
Paper work takes longer than I planned.
It's okay. Sit behind.
So as I said,
We will find something interesting for you to read.
Hi, I'm Taylor
Hi, I'm Jane
Hi Jane!
He is different, smarter, wiser
Maybe that's just because
he's not from here.
But maybe it's just him I don't know but I will go with the last one.
And I have to know
because Taylor will change my life.
Hi!
I don't mean to scare you.
You don't.
I'm a little left behind in what book, We need a number of assignments.
Do you think you can fill me up?
Sure
Good
You are my savior.
No, I won't go that far.
Hi what are you doing?
Oh, this is Taylor,
he just moved here
So I only helped him pursue his task.
This is Elizabeth, Betsy, and Claire.
Hi
Going to the movies tonight, do you want to come?
Oh I can't. I have to take care of my sister See you tomorrow.
Hey, is it okay if I come tonight?
We can discuss the rest.
Yes, around 8 o'clock?
Sure
Excuse me, this is bulletin night.
Answer the door.
- Hey - Hi, you two look good.
Oh, thank you.
Are you two dating?
I'm not the type, I'm wrong in height.
Hahaha, funny.
Hi, Brad.
What's this, Halloween?
Oh, I forgot to tell you there is a new girl in the school that came
so I can help him pursue class work.
-Hello. -Hi, I'm Taylor.
Hi, Taylor, I'm Janice, Jane's mother.
This is Jimmy and Beth. This is Taylor.
- Hi. - Hi, Taylor.
And who is on the couch in a comma...
staring at the screen is Brad.
Brad!
Robert, this is Taylor.
This is their Jane friend going to do homework together.
Large. Hi, Taylor.
Be your Taylor from around here.
Janice, we really don't have time.
Yes, right, we have a minute.
What did your parents do?
My parents divorced when I was 6 years old
and I live with my mother, she works full time for a telephone company.
Do you have a brother?
-Mother... -Jane, it's okay. I can accept it.
So anyone has a question?
Yes, how many pets?
Funny, very funny...
The number where we are in the fridge if you need us. Just in case.
- See you dear. - Goodbye, ma'am.
Goodbye honey.
- Goodbye, Sports! - See you Brad, it's not too late!
Brad, turn it off. I have a friend.
Who cares?
Play your computer 'coz next time I won't target so high.
Sorry, I thought he was adopted.
Yes, definitely rough...
But even having a jerk like a younger brother is better than not having it at all.
You go to middle school
full of fear and excitement
so many emotions that your body can barely handle everything goes past it And then it worsens only when you think it can't be more complicated Why do I not like my friends?
Why don't I like the others?
Why can't I be like a boy named Ned?
I'm in trouble.
Big, big problem.
I have a crush on a girl.
Hey, Jane!
Oh hey, you know Taylor right?
Yes.
- Hi. - How are you?
Good.
All right, see you later.
Boy, does he have a crush on you?
No, he doesn't.
Yes, right.
I don't blame him.
Does anyone have difficulty with "Wuthering height"?
Kate?
I think it's hard to read, because it's very sad.
Anything else? Grant?
I think it's too much love and should have more stories Jane?
I think all the greatest stories have ever been written about love no matter what plot they pack...
Jane's right,
love is complicated
and with that sadness
is extraordinary beauty.
But what about next time,
I will give you something a little more fun to read Jane, what are you doing here?
Well, you're not in school yet and I called several times... I'm worried.
I want to come and see if you are okay.
Are you okay?
Yes I'm fine.
I just can't come to school for a while Taylor? Taylor, where are you?
You are not logged in now, You will be very sorry.
do you hear me? I'm yours mother for god...
Listen, you shouldn't come, ok? I will call you when I can.
Taylor!
At that time, I thank God for my mother.
Maybe the reason Taylor seems so is far more mature than all of us
because he was forced to grow faster than all of us.
Hey
Hummm, I wonder if maybe we can be together sometime,
movie or something.
Why can't I say huh?
My life will be much easier.
I like you, Ned,
but... I don't really want to be a girlfriend now.
It's okay. What about friends?
Good
Hey Jane. Why don't you talk?
What can I say to you?
Jane, what's wrong with you?
None
Hey Sport, want to pass salt?
Well, there is a problem with you Because you have trapped everyone lately.
I told you there was nothing wrong.
I wish I could tell him
that I have so many feelings flowing through me,
things I don't even understand.
But I can't tell him.
I don't even know how to say it.
- Can I be forgiven? - No, keep it and finish your dinner.
I'm not hungry.
You can go Jane. You are forgiven.
If I say one thing
don't weaken me and say something else.
Why do you always have to have the last word?
Not me.
Please enter.
I might have let you go to your room.
But I'm upset.
You haven't been yourself lately... I'm worried about you.
I know you did it. It's just a growing pain.
You know you can tell me anything.
You might find this hard to believe but I really experienced this myself once.
I'm your mother, I'm your friend, I just want to help you.
It's okay.
Don't worry
Your friend, Taylor is here. Are you for company?
Yes
You must have been blind not seeing me burning in Taylor's name.
But thank you god parents doesn't have a clue sometimes.
If a child is drunk or jazzed and falls in front of them they will convince themselves it's an inner ear problem.
Hi.
Are you okay?
No
I know my mother is having a hard time
take care of me and meeting needs
but
never gets better.
He blames me for divorce.
When he looks at me
he saw him
and he went crazy ME...
I can take a punch
if I know that one day it might stop.
You will be fine.
Does this make me gay?
No
This is just a crush on the innocent, a phase.
At least that's what I keep telling myself.
But I also know that is the first moment in my life that I once felt connected with someone.
What did you say I picked you up after school? we go somewhere...
Like where?
I don't know. Wherever you want.
Oh, I can't. I have a plan with Taylor.
Don't get me wrong, I really like Taylor...
But what happened to Elizabeth, Besty, and Claire?
You almost never see them again.
They are still my friends. I only...
have a new one.
I know I hurt my old friends but they will never be able to match Taylor.
I have to choose, and with the feelings I have for him He will definitely win.
I am very glad I moved here.
I also.
Do you think Taylor is very mature for his age?
Not really.
Mmmm, I think Jane has spent far too much time with her.
This is not healthy.
Why, they are friends.
Well he hasn't seen another friend... dating... he's almost 16 years old, for God's sake.
Can we talk about this next time?
He has to go out with a boy. He should give us a heart attack now.
Yes, fine. You are not will win me to your side.
I don't. Why?
Because I prefer that Jane never dating a boy as long as she lives.
You only...
You know what boys want.
What's your name again?
Final is near.
If you need help learning, just ask.
And I will stay late and help you. So, tell me I'm fine?
I love you too.
No matter how much they like Ms. Walcott Children are like Pavlovia dogs. When they hear the bell, they have to leave.
So my mom is out of town tonight, do you want to come?
Sure.
It would be better if you tell me before I make dinner that you won't go home for that.
What's the problem?
I cook all day for this family that is part of you.
You cook every night... Like I said, what's big?
Excuse me, what's big?
You only watch your tone with me, young woman.
Boys, you turn into smart donkeys.
You have never been like this when you were around your other friends.
What? Do you want to blame this on Taylor?
You know what you can't stand is I prefer to be with him...
than you.
What did I do there?
I still have time to go. He will never know.
I can just say I'm food poisoning
or cramps That's good... cramps.
Who am I kidding?
I want to be there, ready or not.
Are you sure you want to do this?
No
Do you want me to stop?
No
I am very afraid that I think I will get a heart attack...
I want him to stop...
No, I'm not... Yes I did...
No, I'm not...
It's quite difficult to have sex for the first time with anyone but when you do it with a girl...
You only asked for it.
Hey
Are you okay?
No
I think what happened was a mistake and that shouldn't happen.
Why?
I don't know, because it's not normal?
So what is normal?
I think...
going out with a boy?
And if you go with a girl You might be gay, which I don't think I am...
GOOD. First of all it doesn't make you gay.
And even if you are, what's the problem?
Everything
Good.
Back to your boring little friend.
Are you okay?
Can't you take me home? I feel unwell.
Yes. Sure.
... his own life and his own friends, he just doesn't want to be near his mother anymore.
Of course he doesn't want to be near you!
I mean, he's a teenager, isn't he blaming him?
Thank you for the kind words.
Janice, none of us want to be around here our mothers when we are teenagers.
This is different.
- How do you do it? - I don't know I just hope he's still a baby Why?
So he needs you? It hurts.
I mean, you have to be happy about it He's a person with his own ideas and dreams and goals.
Oh, I don't.
Oh look on the bright side, you still have to suffocate Brad.
She's a boy.
He won't need his mother until he gets his first apartment
and need someone to decorate for him.
You can laugh all you want but he's sick and I can't help him.
and he doesn't want to talk to me.
Well, maybe he needs to sort out things himself, and then he will talk to you.
Yes, give him time
I mean and take comfort in reality that you are the millionth mother to go through the same thing this week.
And to think I'm used to enjoying this lunch.
Checking
Hi
Hi.
Can we talk?
What about?
About us.
I'm afraid of Taylor, I'm sorry.
- I want another opportunity. - There is no us Jane.
I want to be with people who believe they want to be with me.
Come on Jane, come with me, okay?
- Whatever Jane is, it will be fine. - No, it won't.
You only need to be self-controlled.
I can't.
In a few moments, you will feel better with anything that makes you sad.
You will see, things will change.
I don't want to feel better.
And when something happens it doesn't change.
Do you want to talk about it?
Well, you want to know what pisses me off?
I slept with someone for the first time.
It can be traumatic for everyone.
No, I think it was more traumatic for me.
We broke up.
Is that what you want to do?
No.
But that's what I do because I am a coward.
No you don't.
In our first sexual experience
we sometimes invest wisely and sometimes foolishly
and that doesn't matter
because ultimately the investment is the same
but if you want to be with them
You must tell them.
I did it.
They have moved.
But if you don't try again you will never forgive yourself.
My advice for you is...
I will write to them
and I will tell them why you did what you did and how you really feel.
It's a shame you have to eat.
I'm not hungry.
I know I know I know I sound like a broken record but...
I just tried to help.
Can't you tell me what happened?
I just want to be left alone.
Pleaseà
good
Taylor my life changed when I met you Only I am too stupid to see it.
Actually I'm scared and I'm sorry for that.
You took my breath and it scared me.
I'm not afraid anymore and I want another opportunity.
Hey Jane
Hey
What is happening?
None
What happened to your friend, Taylor?
I haven't seen you with him lately.
He isn't there.
I think he has a new friend, huh?
I have to go.
I want to like them again but boys, they make it difficult.
Now, will everyone behave?
me. Not sure about him.
Don't press your luck, Brad, that's really a bad idea.
You want to live to see your fifteenth birthday, right, Sport?
Goodbye now.
Goodbye child.
What?
- Hi - Hi
I got your letter.
Can we talk privately?
Yes
No, I should know this will be difficult for you.
For anyone
and I'm sorry I consider it so personal.
I am injured.
but then I get your letter, that's... beautiful.
I think you are dating someone else.
There has never been anyone else.
Whose brother is in the same class Little brother of our former friend Jane
know the most disgusting thing about Jane.
Say, say it!
Someone saw Jane and Taylor kissing.
Shut up!
I swear.
I will get it.
Hello
Yes here it is
What?
Who is this?
But... is this some kind of joke? Where...
Who is this? Where did you hear something like that? Hello?
When I say it's a phase, it's not phase.
I'm gay, with or without Taylor.
I know that for a long time.
But what my mother didn't know was that I was exactly what I meant.
Whether he likes it or not.
What kind of person will do something like that?
That might be just a small child making a joke phone call.
No no no no no there is no child slander, that...
Relax, this is just gossip. No, nothing.
- Why does anyone say something like that? - I don't know Why does someone call a stranger and say "Your sixteen-year-old child is lesbian".
Oh, people are very sick.
Maybe... hum...
Maybe... he's learning how to kiss.
What?
Girls do that, don't they?
They practice. Maybe that's what he did.
We have to ask him.
Why do we have to make him sad with this ferocious lie?
We have to protect it.
Whoever calls us...
maybe start calling friends.
Please enter.
- Hi - Hi
dear, we need to talk.
yes
We got a telephone call
Very annoying phone calls
And...
We know it's not true, but... we feel we have to talk to you about that
because, um...
We feel we must warn you.
What do I warn about?
What?
We don't know who is calling, baby, but...
They say that...
You are a lesbian.
They say someone has seen you kiss Taylor...
We know it's just fierce gossip.
You can tell by the way he says it, the thought comes out of the question.
I'm frozen with fear, I want to be very bad to tell the truth
but I was very afraid of losing my parents.
I can't speak.
Is that possible...
that you kiss Taylor,
that... you...
practice with him?
Yes... that's what we did.
That won't happen again
Alright...
We don't mean to make you angry, honey, but...
there are some truly evil people in this world.
Don't worry about that, baby.
We love you. Goodnight Sweetheart.
Sweet dreams.
Good evening.
I used the word "coward" before
but I never really understood what it meant until then.
I am embarrassed by my feelings because of what others think I made myself sick.
Come in, baby.
You don't look good.
Ok... tell me what happened?
My mother got this anonymous phone call said they saw me kissing a girl
And I told him that was not true.
Okay, you lost me.
It sounds like you have no problem.
I lied to him.
I kiss a girl,
I sleep with a girl,
but the way... he talks about it...
I know if I tell him the truth, that he will hate me.
I think I'm gay Jimmy.
It's okay.
Sometimes it's easier not to tell the truth
Don't be too hard on yourself.
I don't know what to do. EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE EEEEEEE level E they they they they they they they they they they they they they they they they they they they they they they they they they they they EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE their EEEEEE 00: 43: 51,941 -> 00:43 : 54,086 You are the only gay person I have ever known.
Don't worry.
That happened to all of us.
The first time someone suspects or calls us names.
This is a "don't ask-don't tell" moment.
What if my parents know?
If people know? They will all hate me.
dear, I'm black and I'm gay.
They hate me more than they hate you.
Now what are you doing?
You get thick skin.
I have had one since I was a baby. Because I have to have it.
I don't take it personally anymore.
Because I know it's based on on ignorance and fear
and it's not even about me, really, it's about them.
I don't want to hurt my mother.
But I don't know how long I can keep this a secret.
You will know when the time is right.
Maybe that will be fine.
And you have been friends with my mother for a long time and she accepted you
Yes, but you are the baby.
Mother and daughter about as complex as she got Jimmy please don't tell me mother what I told you.
Not a word.
I'm really glad Jimmy is in the world.
It's okay Jane, keep going.
- Hey lesbos! - Punk!
We will revive children's hours.
Now stop all this nonsense from you.
Open your bookkeeping
So what are you doing this weekend?
I went with Jeff and his friend parents, played mini golf.
Jane, how about you?
- I'll see Taylor. - I prefer if you don't see the girl.
She's not a girl.
He's a dyke!
- Jane! - Stop it! Jane!
Get off! Down!
-Jane, go to your own room! -Why? He started it!
Why doesn't he go to his room?
Because I'm not a dyke!
- Go to your room! - Go to your room, right now!
Come on! Come on!
You can't just attack your sister like that!
You can't do that!
That's now and never, and I prefer it never It's out of control and I have to do something.
So I take my deepest breath I've been taken in my whole life.
She's younger than you!
Next time he says something, you just let it roll your back.
-This is just gossip. -It's not just gossip!
I lied to you two
because I'm afraid afraid you will hate me,
afraid you will send me away.
I kiss Taylor and I think I fell in love with him.
But...
She's a girl.
- You don't know what you say. - Yes, I understand.
But it's okay, because...
Taylor is a very kind person.
That's not the point.
Why is it wrong for me to care for someone and for someone who cares about me?
Because it's not true!
You... You don't have a clue.
If you say that you are gayà
You don't understand what that means!
I don't care anymore!
This is what I feel
What do you feel?
How do you know what you feel?
You are a 16 year old child.
Look, this is just a phase,
and it will stop here.
This is not just the phase!
I'm gay!
If you can see it through my eyes to have someone you care about, cares about you
and they make you feel is not alone in this world.
Does it really matter who that person is?
Of course it's important.
Why?
And since when did you hate gay people.
Jimmy has been your friend forever, and he's gay.
He is not my child!
I expect an emergency room
knee skinned, braces, heartbreak, not this...
This is not part of my plan.
Yes, I know, it's not part of my plan either.
What terrible things did I do as a mother?
No, you are a great mother. This is not about you.
We have to do something, Bobbie?
The world is not a tolerant place.
His life can be destroyed.
I know...
She's not a baby anymore.
Yes, he is
she's my darling
she's my son You know he's my child too.
Listen, I think we should stay calm here.
What are you saying? That is okay for him to be gay?
No, that's not what I said.
Don't you think I want to take her to the island.
Have grandchildren, just like you do?
I don't want my child to be gay.
But she's our daughter and we have to find a way to help him through this.
I won't help him through it.
I will not help him become a lesbian.
I didn't ask you to do that!
Not what I said.
But we can't pretend this doesn't happen.
We can't turn our backs on him.
or let this separate us.
What will we do?
Jane told us that she was gay last night.
I know.
Do you know?
How do you know?
He came here a few days ago and told me.
Did he tell you?
Why don't you tell me?
Because it's the decision to tell you, not mine.
But you are my friend.
You should have told me.
He is afraid of losing you.
Fear that you hate it.
He must tell you when he is ready.
I have to do something.
Like what?
You are friends with me.
You love me and I'm gay.
Why can't you do that with Jane?
Because I don't want him to have it as hard as life you have.
This is not your place to judge my life!
or anyone else
Jimmy!
Oh come on.
I'm not blind. I've been there.
I have seen it, I have seen how cruel people have been to you, how they have ridiculed you.
So your only concern should be not being one of those people.
This is my life, this is who I am,
and Jane should be able to be who she is too even if it's not what you want.
No!
As long as he is my responsibility I have a voice in this matter.
Janice, don't be like this
or you will regret it until your day dies.
Then it will be my choice.
Jane will really be better off using our time together if you say something during one of our sessions.
Like what?
Like why do you think you are here?
Because my mother said I had to come, and to silence me I came.
Sharing with you is not part of the agreement.
Why are you so angry at your mother?
Oh, I don't know Because he's a fanatic.
Now that's good, that's the beginning.
Very?
where is it now?
I'm really dead, Beth.
Therapy doesn't change anything.
I tried to keep it away from Taylor but I can't lock it up
and Jimmy doesn't help.
He is by Jane's side, of course.
What?
None.
What is Beth?
I don't know.
You're always so liberal minded I think you overreact.
This may only be a phase he will go through.
Oh, I pray that. Gosh, what if it doesn't? What should I do?
Then it's not, and you accept it.
She's your son Janice, Whatever happens, you accept it.
What if I can't.
Then you won't do it be a very good mother.
Excuse me?
This comes from someone who has no relationship at all, who can't do it?
How good for that You judge me from afar.
You ask for my opinion, so don't attack me because you're angry at Jane.
Maybe you should see it why does this bother you so much.
Sorry, you don't know anything about this.
Do you know what? Why don't you just take it _ humble nonsense and sell it elsewhere.
So, how is the treatment?
Damn.
Do you have to go again?
Yes. My mother thinks it will change me.
Heh. Believe me, if that's true, a lot of them will flock to the therapist.
I mean... life will be easier if we are straight.
But who wants to be easy, right? Who wants to match this print? We are pioneers unique to ourselves.
-We are special. -Yes. We are special.
We can't even go anywhere.
There is no safe place.
Yes we can.
Can you get out of the house Friday night?
I will even if I have to throw myself out of my window.
There can't be many gay people here this city, that can't be humane.
Oh, we are everywhere in every city. We only learn how to hide it better than others.
- Where have you been? - It's 4 o'clock in the morning.
I'm out. Let's just leave it alone.
No, we won't stop there.
You are punished for a month.
We will take you to school, we will pick you up from school.
We will set our alarm on the hour if we have to.
That is what we have reduced.
You can't do that.
- Oh yes, we can. - Now go to your room.
Acting is a strange thing.
No one wins
But you don't know that when you do it...
Jane, we have to talk about this.
What needs to be discussed?
My mother can't see me, you're disappointed in me, what else can be talked about?
Alright, I'll talk about it.
You have to understand.
It's not just pain that grows normally.
This decision can inform the rest of your life.
That's why your mother and I are very upset about this.
I understand that
But this is also not easy for me.
And parents should love their children no matter what.
Janie, I will always love you, no matter what.
It doesn't feel like that to me.
- Sorry. - It is okay.
I just want to tell you that I'm still your friend.
It doesn't matter who you sleep.
I can't believe he based you for a whole month.
Isn't therapy enough for punishment?
Only if you have to go.
This won't work Jane.
What?
Us
I mean, I like you very much, but...
This is getting out of hand.
That's not feasible.
But why do we have to let others decide what is best for us?
Jane, I have more relationships than you
and I think I'm not bound.
It's easy for me to have it.
Because it doesn't have it.
But I love you.
No, you don't.
You hardly know me.
You only think so because I was the first.
You will solve it
You will forget meà
It's better like this.
What happened?
I'm gay and everyone hates me.
They don't hate you, they are children.
What did they do? Did someone say something to you?
Taylor just broke up with me.
He never cared about me in the first place.
That's not true! Of course, he did it!
No, he didn't do it.
That's just a wish for him. He said it himself.
I'm sorry I just want to die You don't understand.
Yes I understand.
The first girl I met dumped me too.
What did you just say?
I swear I thought I only heard you say you were dating a girl.
I did it.
No way!
Yes.
I'm still dating girls, Janeà
I'm gay.
God!
But no one knows
so I will appreciate it if you don't tell anyone.
I swear.
I know this seems like finally the world but not.
When I was 16 years old
I fell in love.
His name is Barbara and I think
I will spend all my breaks with him.
But we don't even know what life is then
We haven't been with anyone we don't have anything to do. How do we know something?
And when he dumped me to date a soccer star.
I think I'll die too.
What are you doing?
I'm not dead but I need time to forget it.
I finally did it and we became friends.
We are still.
When did you know...
I mean really know that you are gay?
That is not the phase?
Almost from the beginning.
Not that I don't like mena
It's just that I feel connect with women in different ways.
A way that I never felt with a man
even though I tried repeatedly
to please my mother to please others
be like them.
but I'm not like them. I am me
How long can you forget Barbara?
A few years.
I'm kidding!
But this will take time.
An open heart is easy hurt and difficult to repair.
I have to pick up Brad at Jeff after dinner.
I'm leaving.
Good
Jane, what's wrong?
Aside from the fact that I live with gestapo?
You will be happy to know that Taylor broke up with me today
because of you.
Dear, it will be alright Maybe that will end this nonsense.
That's not bullshit for me.
God, Janice.
He is hurt. Can you just be his mom for a while?
Don't worry about yourself...
what I should do.
This is not about you, you know?
No, it's not. And maybe You have to pay attention to yourself
the fact that your daughter will destroy her life.
I will tell you what I am worried about.
I am concerned about that fact My daughter is heartbroken.
That's what I'm worried about.
I am not sorry about my feelings
but believe it or not
I'm sorry for tearing up my parents.
If adults can only remember their first love maybe they won't think we're wrong.
Where have you been?
Outside.
Have you been drinking?
Yes.
What do you think?
You are grounded, again.
Why?
Because you are 16 years old
and as long as you are in this house, You will do what we say
or I will lock you up!
Where is your little girlfriend?
Just leave Elisabeth.
Who will make me?
I will.
That's right, you embankment now, right?
Stop this crap, stop it. Stop it!
Anyone who says this is the best years of your life, is a liar.
Hello, Mr. Anderson.
I'm sorry I came as fast as I could.
I'm glad you are here.
We cannot tolerate violence any kind around here.
That's why I suspended Jane. Now I'm sorry.
I understand.
I apologize for the problem Jane caused.
You don't need to apologize for me.
Someone has to do it. Come on, let's go!
Come on!
-Let's go me! -What? Will you hit me too?
Hey, lesbo, if you are with me, you don't need to be dyed!
Right, man.
Why do you care about what they say? You are just like them.
Jane!
-Jane, come here! -Come on!
I won't even ask you
to explain what you did, because there is no explanation.
Jane, you can't solve the problem this way.
Why not? Elizabeth started it. He made fun of Taylor and me.
Do you blame him? What you do is not normal.
Jimmy is normal. Walcott is normal.
What did you say?
Nothing, I accidentally mentioned his name. I only mean Jimmy.
You say that Walcott is normal.
Is Ms. Walcott gay?
Jane, is your teacher gay?
Yes, but that doesn't matter.
Of course it's important!
He has influence on you.
He misused it.
He is the only good thing in that damned school.
Oh, we'll see!
No, please don't hurt Miss Walcott! Help mom!
Please don't say anything! I will die!
-Janice, Janice don't do this! -Not!
No, pleaseà
Why is he doing this?
It's okay.
Janie, come on. Come on.
Ms. Walcott?
yes
-I'm Janice Tyler, Jane's mother. -That's good to meet you.
Stay away from my daughter.
Well, that will be difficult. I am the teacher.
You are gay and you influence it.
Unless you want me to go to the school board which I prepared perfectly.
Just stay away from my daughter.
Jane?
Your father and I have decided we have to do something about your behavior.
We try to talk to you, punish you and therapy doesn't work at all.
So... We have decided we should send you to boarding school.
I'm not leaving!
I like the school I entered.
This is not your choice.
This is not what we want to do.
Well, I will run away.
They can't watch me 24 hours a day.
Maybe you prefer to be bound outside.
I don't care Do what you have to do.
Jane! Jane!
Let him go.
How can we get here?
-You know how we got here. -No I'm not!
I don't want to send him away.
I won't let you make this my mistake.
Jane, what are you doing here?
Enter, enter, enter.
Are you okay?
-Lynn? What is that...? -Honey, this is Jane.
Hi Jane. I've heard a lot about you.
Do you want tea or something?
Do you want tea?
No thanks.
Well I'll go back to sleep. I have to get up early.
Nice to meet you, stay there.
Come here.
What is happening?
I'm very sorry.
I didn't mean to hurt you.
Oh dear, you didn't do it.
This will be fine.
That won't happen.
My parents sent me away. They kicked me out.
They hate me.
Everyone hates me.
I don't know what to do I have no place to go.
I just want to disappear.
I don't want to live anymore.
This will be fine, I swear.
This will be okà
I know that I am the last person you expected and the last person you want to see
but Jane ran off tonight and she came to my house.
Is he there, now?
-Yes -Do you give us your address so we can come pick him up?
No, first, you will listen to for what I have to say to you.
And after that you can do it whatever you need to do.
I know you think it's not my place to say anything to you about your daughter.
But someone has to talk I understand I can destroy you
but I also understand Jane's pain.
The pain of having people hate you is not based on you
but based on what I think we have very little control.
Now that's where you are and I don't agree.
Look, you've made your choice, and frankly,
it's none of my business.
I just don't think so must teach young girls
and supports alternative lifestyles
just because they are yours.
Don't understand, Jane...
And women like Jane easily influenced.
That they respect their teacher.
They want to be like them.
Let me finish what I have to say to you
and after that, if you want to go to the school board, be it.
But for the time being
your child you are born suffers and he does not need to be like that.
Jane escaped because tonight she thinks you hate her.
And I know what it's like.
This is terrible.
And no child has to go through it.
Jane is a good person.
And being gay doesn't make it worse.
He is still the same person You admired two weeks ago.
I still admire my daughter.
I just want to protect it from people like you.
Janice, let him talk.
Jane's only crime is that she loves the different you do
and you don't need to understand it
or even agree with him.
But unless you try
You will lose him... forever.
I appreciate your attention, but I think we know our daughter is better than you.
Very?
Now did you know that your daughter came to my house tonight
think that suicide is one of the choices.
Can I just talk to Jane?
Of course, I will wait there.
Hi.
Ms. Walcott came tonight
and tell us something I have never considered it before.
He said that if I continue to behave
the way I behave
that I will permanently lose you.
I'm your mother and I love you and I don't want to lose you.
When you first told us
I think
what I have done is wrong as a mother
and
I think
what people will say what I will tell my friends.
But my first reaction
is that I don't want your life there is something harder than it should be.
The world is not a good place
and I think I have the same dream every mother has with their little girl.
That you will meet a good man.
You will fall in love.
You will get married.
Lambing...
That is your dream I know that.
Can I ask questions?
Yes.
When was the first time you felt...
A lesbian?
It's okay, you can say it without becoming one.
God, you are sometimes tiring.
Sorry.
I guess
I always know that I am different.
I don't feel part of things.
I'm not sure when that becomes clear.
Maybe last year
But I guess it's always inside me.
What's the hardest part of it?
That your people care about will hate you.
I can never hate you.
I don't think I will change and I know you want me, so...
What do we do?
I don't know Try harder.
I will if you want.
I don't know ... if I will accept it.
and frankly...
I don't know if I can understand what you are doing, but...
We will take it day after day.
One hour ago I didn't think I had a mother.
But now I think I might meet him For the first time.
Thank you for not telling anyone about Ms. Walcott.
You're welcome.
What?
Well because you still have trouble accepting this
I want you to come to a meeting with me.
This is for parents with gay children.
This is called PFLAG.
What name is that?
This stands for parents, friends, and lesbian and gay families.
Ah... and what will we do there?
-Well it! -Coming, don't pull me!
Hi, welcome to PFLAG!
I'm Dorothy, and my son is gay.
This is my mother, Janice and her daughter is a lesbian.
That's me.
It's hard to say at first
but you will immediately say it to everyone.
Oh really?
When did that happen?
First I think it's me.
Then I think... what people will think
about me?
What kind of mother am I?
Then when
I almost lost my child because
my ignorance.
I found him again,
and who he is
exactly who he is always meant to be.
Good child.
me...
My child, forgive me What I realized
none of these,
has something to do with us.
This is their life And we, as parents, must let them live their lives.
as they wish.
Not according to our wishes.
Thank you.
ring the bell?
I got it.
Oh thank you!
Thank you!
Oh, don't even think about that.
He is my friend.
No more, no less.
She's still a dyke, mother.
And he's still your sister, So take care of your mouth!
Just go to hell!
Can I ask for tomato sauce, please? Thank you.
I'm very proud of you!
Don't.
You know they have a saying in AA
to act as if
as if you... understand or
accept something.
When you really don't
and that's what I did
acts as
because it still damages my heart.
- Do you want to say something? - Not.
Thank you.
But you can't protect me forever.
No, but when I can I hope you will let me
What happened to you?
Someone called me gay.
Crazy, because I'm not a homo.
I beat the nonsense from them.
At that time if I am straight, I will marry Ned right away.
Are you okay about Taylor moving back east?
Yes, thank you.
Isn't this great?
Daddy, don't think I'm all suddenly like sports because I'm gay!
How about fishing?
Suppose golf is not possible!
So what do lesbians want to do?
The same thing you did.
Can we go home now?
Yes, sure.
-Hai! -Hi!
Wow, I'm glad to see you guys.
Who would have thought this was fun?
You lose a small part that you rarely see less, and you still want to blow up your brain.
- Can I go to Jeff's house now? - Go, go!
Praise God.
-You have fun? -Oh yeah, tell the father. Time of our lives
Can I talk to you for a while?
Sure.
I appreciate everything you do trying to be a part of my life
and to show that you love me even though I'm gay.
But you don't have to try too hard.
- Sorry. - Sorry.
Hi, Janice, glad you are here. How is Jane?
He is kind, thank you.
And you?
I tried.
My name is Lorraine and my daughter is lesbianà
I'm Susan, and my son is style
My name is Janice, and...
It's okay, let's start meeting now.
What do you want?
I won't hurt you.
Then what do you want?
I bought you this.
Why did you give me a present?
I've never been kind for you in my whole life.
I know, but I've never been good to you too so I thought I would try it.
I'm the one who told people that you are gay.
I know
- That's a trick, isn't it? - Not.
I don't understand.
There's a saying...
kill them with kindness
and in a few years, You will know what that means.
Why can't I eat at Jeff's house?
Because we have to have more family dinners
- Why? - Because we are good at punishment.
Because we're family, son.
That's in the eye of the beholder.
Keep it up and you will see your room.
How does the PFLAG meeting take place, Janice?
Good... Good morning
You have this gay rally next week.
- But I don't know, I think it's a kind of field trip. - Great, great!
Good for you.
Well I don't think I'm going to leave, I mean, I'm getting better
but I just don't think I'm ready screaming from the roof yet.
One step forward, one step back
Jane?
Can I enter?
Listen, I do the best I can, and sometimes it smells,
I will get better, I promise When?
I will go to the meeting, I admit you are gay,
I think I did it very well.
But everything is private, is still safe.
You don't really accept me unless you do it in the open.
Forgive me I can't.
I will be as fast as I can.
We are united, as brothers and sisters, in the struggle for what all humans deserve equality, rights, dignity.
The things that other people just took were given to them...
Under the law, all men and women are created equal in the eyes of my Lord.
Gods who are inclusive, not exclusive in the world we imagine,
not in the world of fences and walls, things that make people come out because they are different but in a world that loves.
We ask from the world what we expect from it, is not what gives us if it is wrong
Those are things we still strive for.
We show, protest.
Hi, Jane!
You're not supposed to here, someone might see you.
It's time for us to do it.
Sorry, your mother is not here.
He will come.
What if he doesn't?
Where is Janice? They want us on the stage to talk.
He doesn't come Oh, I'm sorry, Jane.
It's okay.
I need 3 or 4 times before I come.
Now you're here, this is the beginning.
We will see you later.
[ladies and gentlemen, PFLAG mother]
Hi, I'm Dorothy, and my son is gay.
I'm Lorraine, and my daughter is a lesbian,
I love him, and I am proud to be his mother.
I'm Carl, my daughter is lesbian I am Danci, and my child is gayà
Hi, I'm Rick, my daughter is lesbian, I'm very proud of her.
The amazing thing about change is that everyone can do it,
even the people you most expect from it.
My mother was really the person she was destined for.
I am very proud of how well he grew up.
This is dedicated to Matthew Shepard... and for all men & women who love differently.