1
00:00:05,000 --> 00:00:28,000
soju77

2
00:00:29,237 --> 00:00:33,324
DNA, your natural ability, studies about your craft,

3
00:00:34,034 --> 00:00:37,746
the development of and devotion to the philosophy of aesthetics.

4
00:00:38,329 --> 00:00:39,247
Balls.

5
00:00:40,457 --> 00:00:43,793
Naked desire for fame, love, adoration,

6
00:00:43,877 --> 00:00:45,795
Attention, ladies,

7
00:00:45,879 --> 00:00:48,131
sex, money.

8
00:00:48,548 --> 00:00:51,342
Then, if you want to take all the way out to the end of the night,

9
00:00:51,426 --> 00:00:54,471
You'll need a furious fire in your belly

10
00:00:55,013 --> 00:00:56,639
that just does not stop burning.

11
00:00:57,432 --> 00:01:01,478
This is some of the elements that would be useful

12
00:01:02,228 --> 00:01:04,064
You have to come face to face

13
00:01:04,481 --> 00:01:07,317
with 80,000 screaming rock 'n' roll fans.

14
00:01:09,194 --> 00:01:13,073
Because it is the fans who are waiting for you to pull something out of your hat,

15
00:01:13,531 --> 00:01:16,493
out of thin air, something out of this world.

16
00:01:17,035 --> 00:01:19,954
Something that, before the faithful gathered here today,

17
00:01:20,038 --> 00:01:21,998
it is just rumor-fueled songs.

18
00:01:22,832 --> 00:01:24,793
Now, I come from the city boardwalk

19
00:01:24,876 --> 00:01:28,546
where everything is tinged with just a bit of a fraud.

20
00:01:33,343 --> 00:01:34,552
Me too.

21
00:01:35,595 --> 00:01:38,765
In 1972, I do not race-car-driving rebels.

22
00:01:38,848 --> 00:01:40,558
I do not every street corner punk.

23
00:01:40,850 --> 00:01:44,020
I was a guitar player in the streets of Asbury Park.

24
00:01:44,687 --> 00:01:47,941
But I hold four aces clean.

25
00:01:48,233 --> 00:01:52,195
I had a young child, I had a decade of hard-core experience bar Band

26
00:01:52,278 --> 00:01:53,446
already behind me.

27
00:01:53,738 --> 00:01:55,907
I had a great group of musicians and friends

28
00:01:55,990 --> 00:01:58,993
who really know the style I play, and I had a magic trick.

29
00:01:59,744 --> 00:02:02,872
Now I'm here tonight to give proof of life

30
00:02:03,748 --> 00:02:06,501
with that ever-elusive, never really believed,

31
00:02:06,584 --> 00:02:09,045
especially today, we are.

32
00:02:10,421 --> 00:02:12,090
That's my magic tricks.

33
00:02:12,173 --> 00:02:14,259
And like all good magic trick,

34
00:02:14,342 --> 00:02:16,010
starting with the setup.

35
00:04:02,450 --> 00:04:05,703
Now, I have never held a job fair â ???? â ???? in my entire life.

36
00:04:07,372 --> 00:04:09,457
I've never done any hard work.

37
00:04:10,166 --> 00:04:12,377
I have never worked nine to five.

38
00:04:13,086 --> 00:04:16,339
I've never worked five days a week until now.

39
00:04:24,013 --> 00:04:26,140
I do not like it.

40
00:04:26,891 --> 00:04:31,396
I have never seen the inside of a factory, however, it's all I've ever written about.

41
00:04:32,605 --> 00:04:34,732
Standing in front of you is a man

42
00:04:34,816 --> 00:04:38,403
which has become wild and absurd success

43
00:04:38,945 --> 00:04:42,532
write about something he has had ...

44
00:04:43,950 --> 00:04:46,160
absolutely no personal experience.

45
00:04:48,621 --> 00:04:50,623
I-- I made everything.

46
00:04:52,625 --> 00:04:53,918
That's how good I am.

47
00:05:01,634 --> 00:05:02,635
What now?

48
00:05:03,636 --> 00:05:07,181
I'm sure you're wondering how this great miracle happen?

49
00:05:08,057 --> 00:05:09,058
Well...

50
00:05:10,143 --> 00:05:11,311
at first...

51
00:05:12,061 --> 00:05:15,064
there is a great darkness over the water.

52
00:05:15,565 --> 00:05:19,402
As a child, there is Christmas, your birthday, summer vacation,

53
00:05:19,944 --> 00:05:23,614
but the rest of life is lifeless, sucking black hole.

54
00:05:24,615 --> 00:05:29,037
A lifeless, black holes suck homework, church,

55
00:05:29,120 --> 00:05:32,206
school, homework, church,

56
00:05:32,582 --> 00:05:35,752
school, homework, church,

57
00:05:35,835 --> 00:05:38,379
school, green beans,

58
00:05:38,713 --> 00:05:42,258
green beans, green beans damn.

59
00:05:44,635 --> 00:05:49,515
But then, in a blinding flash of light, holy,

60
00:05:49,974 --> 00:05:53,102
human and only children,

61
00:05:53,811 --> 00:05:55,772
just a kid from the sticks south.

62
00:05:56,522 --> 00:06:01,444
But, a new type of human .... And he divided the world into two.

63
00:06:01,861 --> 00:06:02,945
And suddenly ...

64
00:06:04,030 --> 00:06:05,615
there is a new world.

65
00:06:08,785 --> 00:06:10,453
That under your belt.

66
00:06:16,542 --> 00:06:17,835
And...

67
00:06:18,503 --> 00:06:19,587
above your heart.

68
00:06:20,463 --> 00:06:22,799
On a Sunday night in 1956,

69
00:06:22,882 --> 00:06:26,344
at 39 1/2 Institute Street, into a cold-water flat

70
00:06:26,427 --> 00:06:28,763
and into the mind of a child seven years.

71
00:06:29,013 --> 00:06:32,100
revolution has television!

72
00:06:32,642 --> 00:06:34,143
Right under the nose

73
00:06:34,477 --> 00:06:36,145
from the powers that be!

74
00:06:36,854 --> 00:06:39,774
That is, if they're going to know what really happened

75
00:06:39,857 --> 00:06:41,442
and major changes ...

76
00:06:42,193 --> 00:06:44,195
changes to come,

77
00:06:44,779 --> 00:06:47,615
they will shut this shit down.

78
00:06:48,950 --> 00:06:52,036
Or more likely to sign it quickly.

79
00:06:52,370 --> 00:06:57,250
Because we washed it, invisible, powerless, children,

80
00:06:57,333 --> 00:07:00,002
want more.

81
00:07:02,088 --> 00:07:03,381
Now more alive ...

82
00:07:04,382 --> 00:07:07,343
more love and sex more and more hope ...

83
00:07:07,927 --> 00:07:09,095
and more truth ...

84
00:07:09,720 --> 00:07:11,013
and more power.

85
00:07:12,056 --> 00:07:13,474
And more soul.

86
00:07:13,558 --> 00:07:17,186
And most of all, more rock 'n' roll.

87
00:07:24,068 --> 00:07:27,572
So I sat down with my mother, my mind a little seven-year-old on the fire,

88
00:07:28,030 --> 00:07:31,451
staring into the blue tube as a fun place.

89
00:07:32,410 --> 00:07:34,620
Fun, real type.

90
00:07:34,704 --> 00:07:37,498
The fun, life-affirming, hip-shaking,

91
00:07:37,582 --> 00:07:39,584
ass-shaking, guitar-playing,

92
00:07:39,667 --> 00:07:44,422
mind-and heart-changing, race-challenging, soul-lifting happiness

93
00:07:44,505 --> 00:07:46,466
of the existence of freer.

94
00:07:48,843 --> 00:07:53,806
A free existence burst into the homes of unsuspecting

95
00:07:54,182 --> 00:07:55,725
across America.

96
00:07:56,225 --> 00:07:57,894
As usual Sunday night.

97
00:07:59,270 --> 00:08:02,565
damn world has changed.

98
00:08:03,524 --> 00:08:05,067
In a heartbeat.

99
00:08:06,235 --> 00:08:10,364
In a sweaty, wet orgasm fun.

100
00:08:12,492 --> 00:08:14,118
And all you have to do

101
00:08:14,702 --> 00:08:16,162
to get a sense of it ...

102
00:08:17,330 --> 00:08:19,624
is the risk of being your true self.

103
00:08:22,919 --> 00:08:26,255
Because jin rock 'n' roll has been let out of the bottle

104
00:08:26,339 --> 00:08:28,716
and he told us that if you ...

105
00:08:32,678 --> 00:08:36,474
... My fellow citizens, these feelings, these freedoms,

106
00:08:37,016 --> 00:08:38,351
This pleasant ...

107
00:08:39,727 --> 00:08:41,062
is your birthright.

108
00:08:41,854 --> 00:08:45,274
I listen to, I believe, and I heard the call of the mighty

109
00:08:45,650 --> 00:08:46,943
to act.

110
00:08:47,944 --> 00:08:50,780
So I learned my new hero.

111
00:08:51,239 --> 00:08:55,117
I found out today he got the same two arms, two legs, two eyes I get.

112
00:08:55,409 --> 00:08:58,079
Yes, he's a human Adonis.

113
00:08:59,205 --> 00:09:00,373
And I ...

114
00:09:08,130 --> 00:09:09,757
... depressing creepy.

115
00:09:11,551 --> 00:09:13,844
But I will look for parts of it, okay?

116
00:09:13,928 --> 00:09:16,180
One thing he was that I did not have it tied up

117
00:09:16,264 --> 00:09:17,557
at the waist.

118
00:09:17,848 --> 00:09:19,350
That guitar!

119
00:09:20,101 --> 00:09:22,770
guitar, or as my father had christened it,

120
00:09:22,853 --> 00:09:24,730
"The guitar shit."

121
00:09:25,982 --> 00:09:28,693
But that damn guitar that's the key!

122
00:09:29,235 --> 00:09:31,862
It is a sword in the stone!

123
00:09:32,572 --> 00:09:35,575
It was the staff of truth!

124
00:09:36,284 --> 00:09:39,579
And they sell 'em in downtown Auto West

125
00:09:40,413 --> 00:09:41,998
for 25 bucks!

126
00:09:43,583 --> 00:09:46,544
So I begged and I pleaded with my mother

127
00:09:46,627 --> 00:09:49,338
just to hire me, because we can not afford to buy,

128
00:09:49,422 --> 00:09:52,717
the guitar of Mike Diehl Music School on South Street.

129
00:09:52,800 --> 00:09:56,012
One Saturday afternoon, I took it to the house.

130
00:09:57,388 --> 00:10:00,099
And I sat on the living room couch,

131
00:10:01,058 --> 00:10:04,186
I unlatched the case and alligator infested,

132
00:10:05,271 --> 00:10:08,065
and I slowly opened it,

133
00:10:10,401 --> 00:10:12,862
and the rise of the green velvet lining ...                             

134
00:10:13,738 --> 00:10:15,656
came the sweet smell of ...

135
00:10:16,449 --> 00:10:19,952
from cherry wood cocktail of power,

136
00:10:20,620 --> 00:10:23,164
pleasure, safety,

137
00:10:23,831 --> 00:10:26,959
dream and dream and dream.

138
00:10:27,668 --> 00:10:31,213
So I took lessons, dedication.

139
00:10:31,631 --> 00:10:35,134
I took lessons for two whole weeks ...

140
00:10:39,680 --> 00:10:40,681
and I stopped.

141
00:10:42,308 --> 00:10:43,809
It was too damn hard.

142
00:10:45,269 --> 00:10:48,606
Learn guitar, not only is it fucking loud,

143
00:10:48,939 --> 00:10:51,442
but the lessons are boring!

144
00:10:51,525 --> 00:10:55,529
I only gave three magic chords, please!

145
00:10:55,863 --> 00:10:57,531
And let me play ...

146
00:10:58,282 --> 00:10:59,367
and shout!

147
00:11:00,910 --> 00:11:04,955
But I was a child seven years old and my hands barely fit around the neck

148
00:11:05,039 --> 00:11:08,834
and I can not waste your hard-earned cash week after week my mother,

149
00:11:09,251 --> 00:11:13,756
so very long, I know. back that it would have to go.

150
00:11:14,799 --> 00:11:18,969
But the morning before I came back, I was tied up at one time.

151
00:11:21,013 --> 00:11:24,225
I took him out to the back yard where the kids neighbor,

152
00:11:25,518 --> 00:11:27,770
and I put on my first show.

153
00:11:29,313 --> 00:11:30,690
Whoo!

154
00:11:30,773 --> 00:11:33,859
I slapped it, I shake it, I shouted,

155
00:11:33,943 --> 00:11:35,903
I sing voodoo nonsense.

156
00:11:36,112 --> 00:11:38,155
I burned a hole in the grass,

157
00:11:38,572 --> 00:11:41,325
I shook my little ass seven years.

158
00:11:44,954 --> 00:11:48,374
Most importantly, I am posing with it!

159
00:11:49,458 --> 00:11:50,876
That dirt!

160
00:11:55,172 --> 00:12:00,261
I danced with that, I did everything but play it.

161
00:12:01,429 --> 00:12:02,972
I cant do that.

162
00:12:04,181 --> 00:12:07,226
I sucked so bad and the kids laugh and laugh and laugh

163
00:12:07,309 --> 00:12:08,644
my silly ass.

164
00:12:09,395 --> 00:12:11,731
And we brought it back that afternoon.                             

165
00:12:13,149 --> 00:12:16,026
But the ride back home with my mother in the car ...

166
00:12:16,652 --> 00:12:18,988
I sat in the backseat and I am calm.

167
00:12:19,780 --> 00:12:20,823
I think...

168
00:12:22,450 --> 00:12:25,578
I was a little disappointed in myself.

169
00:12:27,830 --> 00:12:29,415
But somewhere inside ...

170
00:12:30,583 --> 00:12:33,586
Somewhere inside, I know that for a while,

171
00:12:34,795 --> 00:12:36,338
briefly,

172
00:12:37,590 --> 00:12:39,884
in front of the kids in the back yard ...

173
00:12:42,052 --> 00:12:44,764
Um ... I smell blood.

174
00:13:48,911 --> 00:13:51,330
And it's bye-bye, New Jersey,

175
00:13:52,331 --> 00:13:57,211
I'll be the air!

176
00:14:16,605 --> 00:14:18,023
Now, everyone ...

177
00:14:18,524 --> 00:14:21,402
everyone has a love-hate relationship with their hometown.

178
00:14:22,903 --> 00:14:25,322
It's just built into the equation grows.

179
00:14:26,240 --> 00:14:27,283
If you take me.

180
00:14:28,492 --> 00:14:29,994
Saya Mr. Born to Run.

181
00:14:31,954 --> 00:14:34,081
I'm Mr. Guntur damn Road.

182
00:14:36,000 --> 00:14:37,668
I was born...

183
00:14:38,752 --> 00:14:40,754
to run, no place to stay.

184
00:14:42,840 --> 00:14:44,425
My house, New Jersey ...

185
00:14:50,055 --> 00:14:51,181
it was a death trap.

186
00:14:56,562 --> 00:14:58,564
This is suicide rap.

187
00:14:59,648 --> 00:15:02,151
Listen to the lyrics, right?

188
00:15:02,776 --> 00:15:05,029
I had to get out, I have to hit the highway,

189
00:15:05,112 --> 00:15:09,033
I'm a man walking paths, I got a white line fever in my veins.

190
00:15:09,575 --> 00:15:12,620
I will bring my girl and I had enough

191
00:15:13,621 --> 00:15:15,789
of filth that this place dishes out.

192
00:15:16,916 --> 00:15:20,210
I will run, run, run, and I ...

193
00:15:21,462 --> 00:15:23,088
well, I'm never coming back.

194
00:15:24,465 --> 00:15:26,634
Currently I live ten minutes away from my hometown.

195
00:15:35,935 --> 00:15:38,312
Tapi, eh ... "Born to Come Back" atau, eh ...

196
00:15:38,812 --> 00:15:41,440
Who would buy that nonsense?

197
00:15:41,857 --> 00:15:42,900
Nobody.

198
00:15:43,567 --> 00:15:45,402
Nobody, nobody.

199
00:15:51,492 --> 00:15:53,953
In our front yard, just a few feet from our patio

200
00:15:54,036 --> 00:15:56,205
grandest tree stand in the city.

201
00:15:56,830 --> 00:16:00,292
It is towering, beautiful copper beech tree.

202
00:16:00,876 --> 00:16:04,755
And on sunny days, I lived under its branches.

203
00:16:04,838 --> 00:16:09,760
Its root is a stronghold for army and stables for my horse.

204
00:16:10,552 --> 00:16:12,846
And I was the first on my block

205
00:16:13,514 --> 00:16:16,308
climb high to head it,

206
00:16:17,476 --> 00:16:19,478
to leave the world a ...

207
00:16:21,313 --> 00:16:23,273
I do not care for a lot already.

208
00:16:25,109 --> 00:16:27,736
And near the top, I have the wind in my face

209
00:16:27,820 --> 00:16:29,947
and I have all the space dream

210
00:16:30,823 --> 00:16:32,074
what do you want.

211
00:16:33,367 --> 00:16:36,036
On summer nights later, I would sit under the arm

212
00:16:36,120 --> 00:16:38,622
with my friends like the cavalry in the afternoon,

213
00:16:39,623 --> 00:16:41,750
just listen and listen ...

214
00:16:42,751 --> 00:16:45,212
for the evening bells of the ice cream,

215
00:16:46,714 --> 00:16:49,425
and the sound of my grandmother called me into bed.

216
00:16:51,260 --> 00:16:54,430
I stayed at the Randolph Street with my sister, Virginia,

217
00:16:54,513 --> 00:16:57,057
he is one year younger than me,

218
00:16:57,141 --> 00:17:00,602
my parents, Adele and Douglas, my grandparents, Fred and Alice,

219
00:17:00,686 --> 00:17:03,981
and my trusty dog ​​Saddle.

220
00:17:05,190 --> 00:17:09,403
We live spitting distance of the Catholic Church,

221
00:17:09,486 --> 00:17:11,822
priest rectory, convent nuns,

222
00:17:11,905 --> 00:17:14,950
St. Rose of Lima Grammar School, all of it

223
00:17:15,034 --> 00:17:17,244
just go throw the football,

224
00:17:17,786 --> 00:17:19,913
in a field of weeds.

225
00:17:19,997 --> 00:17:24,168
I actually grew up surrounded by God.

226
00:17:26,295 --> 00:17:28,464
Surrounded by God ...

227
00:17:29,840 --> 00:17:31,550
and my relatives.

228
00:17:32,509 --> 00:17:35,471
'Cause we have cousins ​​and aunts and uncles

229
00:17:35,554 --> 00:17:37,306
and grandparents

230
00:17:37,389 --> 00:17:39,683
and great-grandparents and great-grandparents,

231
00:17:39,767 --> 00:17:43,520
we all jammed into five small houses

232
00:17:43,604 --> 00:17:45,272
on two side streets.

233
00:17:45,355 --> 00:17:49,610
And when the church bells rang, the whole clan will crowd the road

234
00:17:50,319 --> 00:17:54,865
to stand witness to every wedding and every funeral

235
00:17:54,948 --> 00:17:57,576
who arrived as a state occasion

236
00:17:58,160 --> 00:17:59,745
in our little neighborhood.

237
00:18:01,747 --> 00:18:04,958
My sister and I, we will take the rice was thrown out of the wedding,

238
00:18:05,959 --> 00:18:09,713
pack in a small brown paper bag and take it home and keep it,

239
00:18:10,839 --> 00:18:13,717
and run around and throw it at the next wedding ...

240
00:18:14,426 --> 00:18:15,677
and next wedding ...

241
00:18:16,678 --> 00:18:18,222
and subsequent marriage.

242
00:18:19,723 --> 00:18:22,601
We also have a front row seat to watch the city

243
00:18:22,684 --> 00:18:26,271
Sunday suits them doing endless ...

244
00:18:27,606 --> 00:18:29,399
dark wooden box

245
00:18:30,317 --> 00:18:33,779
to sneak into the back of the funeral home that Freeman

246
00:18:34,113 --> 00:18:36,949
Long black Cadillac

247
00:18:37,908 --> 00:18:39,201
for short trips

248
00:18:39,868 --> 00:18:42,913
St. Rose Funeral hill in the suburbs.

249
00:18:43,580 --> 00:18:44,623
And there...

250
00:18:45,624 --> 00:18:47,918
all Catholic neighbors, all Zerillis,

251
00:18:48,001 --> 00:18:51,588
all McNicholases, all Springsteens who came before ...

252
00:18:52,840 --> 00:18:54,842
they are patiently waiting for us.

253
00:18:55,968 --> 00:18:57,386
On Sunday,

254
00:18:58,762 --> 00:19:01,140
as my mother tend to our grave,

255
00:19:01,223 --> 00:19:02,766
me and my sister ...

256
00:19:04,393 --> 00:19:07,437
we played hide and seek among the tombstones.

257
00:19:10,566 --> 00:19:11,817
Could.

258
00:19:12,943 --> 00:19:15,445
Now, when it rains in Freehold ...

259
00:19:16,697 --> 00:19:18,282
When it rains,

260
00:19:19,074 --> 00:19:22,661
moisture in the humid air blanketing the entire city

261
00:19:22,744 --> 00:19:27,708
with coffee powder smell wafting from the plant moist Nescafà ©

262
00:19:27,791 --> 00:19:29,459
on the east side of the city.

263
00:19:30,294 --> 00:19:31,879
Now, I do not like coffee,

264
00:19:33,881 --> 00:19:35,716
but I loved the smell of it.

265
00:19:37,134 --> 00:19:40,888
It was entertaining. It united our city,

266
00:19:41,471 --> 00:19:43,765
same as our carpets blowing factory,

267
00:19:44,349 --> 00:19:48,020
in general sensory experience. There is no place here.

268
00:19:48,103 --> 00:19:51,064
You can hear it, you could smell it.

269
00:19:52,232 --> 00:19:54,693
A place where people make a living

270
00:19:54,776 --> 00:19:57,237
and where they work and where they danced

271
00:19:57,321 --> 00:20:02,075
and where they enjoy the small pleasures and playing baseball and ...

272
00:20:03,160 --> 00:20:04,870
and suffer pain.

273
00:20:06,538 --> 00:20:08,498
Where they have their hearts broken

274
00:20:09,708 --> 00:20:11,376
and where they make love,

275
00:20:12,920 --> 00:20:14,296
have children ...

276
00:20:16,381 --> 00:20:17,841
where they died ...

277
00:20:20,177 --> 00:20:23,931
and drank himself drunk in the spring night.

278
00:20:25,849 --> 00:20:28,060
And where they do their best,

279
00:20:29,770 --> 00:20:31,063
the best they could,

280
00:20:33,065 --> 00:20:37,027
to resist the devil, outside and inside,

281
00:20:38,278 --> 00:20:40,030
who sought to destroy them ...

282
00:20:42,449 --> 00:20:44,910
and their homes, their families,

283
00:20:47,704 --> 00:20:49,164
and their city.

284
00:20:59,091 --> 00:21:02,386
Here, we live in the shadow of the tower,

285
00:21:02,469 --> 00:21:06,098
tilt blessed in the good graces of God, one and all.

286
00:21:07,182 --> 00:21:10,060
In the heart-stopping, pants-dropping,

287
00:21:10,519 --> 00:21:13,397
race-riots, odd-hating,

288
00:21:13,480 --> 00:21:16,566
soul-shaking, redneck,

289
00:21:17,859 --> 00:21:19,653
love-and-fear-making,

290
00:21:21,113 --> 00:21:22,948
city ​​heartbreaking ...

291
00:21:26,034 --> 00:21:28,036
from Freehold, New Jersey.

292
00:25:36,868 --> 00:25:39,579
My father worked as a child 16 years old flooring

293
00:25:39,663 --> 00:25:40,872
in a carpet factory.

294
00:25:40,956 --> 00:25:44,376
And then he went to war. When he came home, he married.

295
00:25:45,043 --> 00:25:47,337
They shut down the carpet factory, and he went to work

296
00:25:47,420 --> 00:25:49,548
on line Ford Motor plant in New Brunswick.

297
00:25:49,631 --> 00:25:52,384
Then he worked in a factory Nescafà © Freehold,

298
00:25:53,093 --> 00:25:55,095
worked in a plastics factory in the city.

299
00:25:55,178 --> 00:25:58,557
He is a truck driver, bus driver, drove a taxi.

300
00:25:58,932 --> 00:26:01,518
He stayed mostly at home, except for second homes,

301
00:26:01,601 --> 00:26:04,104
which is a small local bars in the city center.

302
00:26:05,105 --> 00:26:10,860
Now, for a child, is a stronghold Freehold bar in this great mystery.

303
00:26:12,153 --> 00:26:14,781
When you walk through the barroom door in my hometown,

304
00:26:14,864 --> 00:26:16,825
You entered the mystical realm of humans.

305
00:26:17,450 --> 00:26:20,954
On the rare nights that my mother would call my father back,

306
00:26:21,580 --> 00:26:24,249
we will slowly pass through the city until we pulled to a stop

307
00:26:24,332 --> 00:26:25,917
single lit outside of the door.

308
00:26:26,001 --> 00:26:28,878
He looked at me and said, "Go and father."

309
00:26:30,171 --> 00:26:33,008
It's good pleasure and fear.

310
00:26:33,758 --> 00:26:36,886
I am happy, because I have been licensed

311
00:26:36,970 --> 00:26:37,846
by my mother,

312
00:26:38,388 --> 00:26:40,807
law...

313
00:26:40,890 --> 00:26:42,934
... to go to the bar!

314
00:26:43,935 --> 00:26:45,061
I am a child!

315
00:26:46,313 --> 00:26:48,189
But it terrified me,

316
00:26:48,690 --> 00:26:50,358
due to the entrance of the bar

317
00:26:50,442 --> 00:26:56,948
enter a special room, private, and sacred father.

318
00:26:57,490 --> 00:27:02,412
He was not to be disturbed when he was down in the bar.

319
00:27:03,079 --> 00:27:05,665
Everyone knows it.

320
00:27:05,749 --> 00:27:07,208
So, I will walk.

321
00:27:07,584 --> 00:27:11,588
And I was waist-deep, and as Jack the beanstalk to climb some dark

322
00:27:11,671 --> 00:27:12,714
a land of giants,

323
00:27:12,797 --> 00:27:16,635
all I remember is a man who towered over me on their way out the door.

324
00:27:17,052 --> 00:27:19,346
Now, once you are in, to the left wall

325
00:27:19,429 --> 00:27:22,057
is the red leather booths line

326
00:27:22,140 --> 00:27:24,934
filled with drinkers husband and wife tag team.

327
00:27:25,185 --> 00:27:27,687
Now, they keep your hard-core,

328
00:27:27,771 --> 00:27:30,482
there night after night after night, okay?

329
00:27:30,565 --> 00:27:32,651
Now, to the right is the bar,

330
00:27:33,151 --> 00:27:37,447
rows of seats filled by barricades broad backs of the working class,

331
00:27:37,530 --> 00:27:41,618
clinking glasses, laughter was too loud, and very few women.

332
00:27:41,701 --> 00:27:46,081
I'll be standing there lost in the noise and hustle of crowds

333
00:27:46,164 --> 00:27:50,251
and I will drink in a faint smell of beer

334
00:27:50,335 --> 00:27:53,046
and liquor and aftershave.

335
00:27:53,129 --> 00:27:58,051
That, for children, the adult aroma.

336
00:27:58,510 --> 00:28:01,471
That aroma maturity.

337
00:28:02,430 --> 00:28:04,599
I want some of it, you know?

338
00:28:05,016 --> 00:28:09,062
Eventually, someone will see me and pulled me to my pop.

339
00:28:09,145 --> 00:28:11,606
Now, my view of the floor is the first thing I would see

340
00:28:11,690 --> 00:28:13,817
is a chrome bar stool legs.

341
00:28:13,900 --> 00:28:17,529
Then I would see black shoes, white socks, dark green work pants,

342
00:28:17,612 --> 00:28:19,072
Strong legs and thighs.

343
00:28:19,155 --> 00:28:22,951
My father, until the day he died, had a rhino legs and buttocks.

344
00:28:24,285 --> 00:28:27,789
And- and pants always look like they are stretched,

345
00:28:27,872 --> 00:28:31,918
extends over the legs and buttocks somehow. I do not know how.

346
00:28:32,836 --> 00:28:34,921
He always busting out, you know?

347
00:28:35,296 --> 00:28:38,299
Uh, then I will see his black belt Garrison work,

348
00:28:38,383 --> 00:28:40,093
green work shirt, and then his face.

349
00:28:40,176 --> 00:28:42,679
By the time I got there, his face flushed red,

350
00:28:43,430 --> 00:28:45,849
red as a tomato because she was Irish,

351
00:28:45,932 --> 00:28:49,227
and whatever he drank went straight to his face.

352
00:28:49,936 --> 00:28:54,274
OK? He could not hide when he comes home, you know? Uh ...

353
00:28:54,899 --> 00:28:57,736
And it's not just red, but it was like ...

354
00:28:57,902 --> 00:29:03,867
... it's, like, distorted, also became a kind of liquor mask, you know,

355
00:29:03,950 --> 00:29:07,120
by ... by Mr. Schlitz and-- and ...

356
00:29:07,871 --> 00:29:12,500
It was very strange for me as a kid, uh ...                             

357
00:29:15,044 --> 00:29:16,337
Day...

358
00:29:18,089 --> 00:29:19,966
Fuck, I do not know!

359
00:29:20,049 --> 00:29:23,887
But it was scary, and she would peek down her shoulders,

360
00:29:24,220 --> 00:29:27,348
down through the smoke and she would look at me like,

361
00:29:28,016 --> 00:29:30,477
"I've never seen you before in my life shit."

362
00:29:36,816 --> 00:29:40,028
I then utter the immortal words of which I was sent to deliver,

363
00:29:41,196 --> 00:29:42,906
"I want you to go home."

364
00:29:45,825 --> 00:29:50,121
I would hear, "Go outside. I'll be out."

365
00:29:50,580 --> 00:29:54,375
And I will follow my breadcrumb trail back out the barroom door,

366
00:29:54,709 --> 00:29:59,506
I'm going to jump into the back seat and I'll tell my mother ...

367
00:30:02,425 --> 00:30:05,470
"Um, he'll be out soon. He will come out right."

368
00:33:31,843 --> 00:33:35,221
Now, those who love us wanted but did not get,

369
00:33:36,180 --> 00:33:37,473
we imitate them.

370
00:33:38,850 --> 00:33:41,769
It's the only way we have in our power

371
00:33:43,479 --> 00:33:46,983
for the closeness and love that we need and want.

372
00:33:47,442 --> 00:33:49,861
So, when I was still a young man and looking for a voice

373
00:33:49,944 --> 00:33:53,948
to blend in with me, sing my songs, and to tell my story,

374
00:33:54,032 --> 00:33:56,075
well, I chose my father's voice.

375
00:33:58,578 --> 00:34:01,205
Because there is something sacred in it for me.

376
00:34:02,540 --> 00:34:05,001
When I went looking for something to wear,

377
00:34:05,460 --> 00:34:07,879
I dressed factory workers,

378
00:34:08,504 --> 00:34:10,590
because their clothes my father.

379
00:34:14,177 --> 00:34:17,013
And all we know about maturity is what we have seen

380
00:34:17,096 --> 00:34:18,306
and what we have learned

381
00:34:18,389 --> 00:34:22,477
from our ancestors, and my dad is my hero

382
00:34:23,895 --> 00:34:25,396
and my biggest enemy.

383
00:34:28,524 --> 00:34:31,819
Not long after he died, I had this dream.

384
00:34:31,903 --> 00:34:33,946
I'm on stage, I was in front of thousands of people

385
00:34:34,030 --> 00:34:37,075
and my father back from the dead, and he was sitting in the audience.

386
00:34:37,158 --> 00:34:40,203
And suddenly, I knelt down beside him in the hallway.

387
00:34:41,287 --> 00:34:45,166
And for a moment, we both watch the burning on stage.

388
00:34:51,798 --> 00:34:53,174
And then, my father, who for many years,

389
00:34:53,508 --> 00:34:56,344
he sat at that counter, affordable,

390
00:34:58,096 --> 00:34:59,555
in what I was too young

391
00:34:59,639 --> 00:35:02,809
and I was too stupid to understand is depression.

392
00:35:04,727 --> 00:35:06,896
Well, I knelt down beside him in the hallway ...

393
00:35:07,814 --> 00:35:09,398
and I brush her arm ...

394
00:35:11,317 --> 00:35:12,902
and I said, "Look, Dad,

395
00:35:13,820 --> 00:35:15,363
man on stage.

396
00:35:18,533 --> 00:35:20,076
That's how I see you. "

397
00:36:28,644 --> 00:36:31,439
Now, my mother is a different story altogether.

398
00:36:32,648 --> 00:36:35,776
I'm going to release you on suicide watch now.

399
00:36:39,113 --> 00:36:40,990
Snap out of it! Come on.

400
00:36:42,617 --> 00:36:44,577
Because my mother was a bright, happy.

401
00:36:44,660 --> 00:36:47,246
He will cheerfully make conversation with a broom handle.

402
00:36:47,622 --> 00:36:51,834
He believes that there is a good faith, a good heart, a good hope in all citizens.

403
00:36:52,126 --> 00:36:56,172
He gave the world more credit, perhaps, than it's worth,

404
00:36:56,255 --> 00:36:57,757
but that's how.

405
00:36:57,840 --> 00:36:59,926
Now, at school mornings-- I hate school.

406
00:37:00,009 --> 00:37:01,886
It's only Rock Star 101.

407
00:37:05,556 --> 00:37:07,558
If you do not hate school in my business,

408
00:37:07,642 --> 00:37:10,019
please keep fucking day you work, okay?

409
00:37:11,437 --> 00:37:14,732
Because it's a sign. This is a sign that, brother,

410
00:37:14,815 --> 00:37:17,860
You are going nowhere, man. Nowhere.

411
00:37:18,236 --> 00:37:20,947
You must have hatred in your heart

412
00:37:21,697 --> 00:37:24,116
to get to the top where I am, okay?

413
00:37:24,575 --> 00:37:27,411
You have to hate, right? Uh ...

414
00:37:27,870 --> 00:37:29,497
So, of course I hate getting up.

415
00:37:29,580 --> 00:37:32,583
And, uh, she has perfected this technique in the morning

416
00:37:32,667 --> 00:37:35,169
where he stood on my bed with a glass of ice water

417
00:37:35,253 --> 00:37:36,337
and gave me 30 seconds.

418
00:37:37,213 --> 00:37:39,840
You know, "Five, four, three, two ..."

419
00:37:39,924 --> 00:37:42,260
Boom! Niagara Falls.

420
00:37:42,760 --> 00:37:46,138
I'll get dressed, I'll fly down to breakfast,

421
00:37:46,222 --> 00:37:51,060
where I will celebrate daily in a large bowl Sugar Pops.

422
00:37:52,270 --> 00:37:53,729
A good product ...

423
00:37:54,981 --> 00:37:57,316
... with only one problem.

424
00:37:58,234 --> 00:38:00,695
They do not put enough sugar in their Sugar Pops.

425
00:38:01,362 --> 00:38:04,907
So I'm not satisfied until I was snowed more sugar

426
00:38:04,991 --> 00:38:08,619
on my Sugar Pops until they looked like the Himalayas.

427
00:38:08,995 --> 00:38:12,873
- And then ... Mmm! - "Well!"

428
00:38:13,249 --> 00:38:16,919
With a buzz and a kiss from my mother,                             

429
00:38:17,003 --> 00:38:18,296
I go

430
00:38:19,005 --> 00:38:22,633
with my sister, plodding on the road with our book bags

431
00:38:23,175 --> 00:38:25,928
as her high heels clicked lightly in the other direction

432
00:38:26,012 --> 00:38:28,973
Lawyers Title Insurance Company headed downtown.

433
00:38:29,056 --> 00:38:30,558
She was a legal secretary.

434
00:38:30,891 --> 00:38:33,477
It was the work he did since the day he got out of high school,

435
00:38:33,561 --> 00:38:35,021
50 years that followed.

436
00:38:35,104 --> 00:38:38,566
Go to work, do not miss a day, never sick,

437
00:38:38,649 --> 00:38:41,027
never down, never complained.

438
00:38:41,110 --> 00:38:43,279
Work seems not to be a burden to him,

439
00:38:43,362 --> 00:38:46,282
but it is a source of energy and social pleasure.

440
00:38:46,866 --> 00:38:49,910
Now, a couple of nights, I will meet my mother at closing time,

441
00:38:49,994 --> 00:38:52,872
and we will be the last to leave the office,

442
00:38:52,955 --> 00:38:55,541
and this is always a great honor for me.

443
00:38:56,167 --> 00:38:59,128
I'll have my mother to myself.

444
00:38:59,503 --> 00:39:02,006
And with empty buildings, high heel shoes will echo

445
00:39:02,089 --> 00:39:04,383
down the long linoleum hallway.

446
00:39:04,717 --> 00:39:08,554
And with neon lights out, a lawyer empty,

447
00:39:08,637 --> 00:39:12,725
empty secretary's desk, typewriter closed,

448
00:39:13,100 --> 00:39:18,481
still, the building was so still after all the noise of the day.

449
00:39:18,564 --> 00:39:22,234
You know, it's so-- It got so quiet, as if ...                             

450
00:39:23,194 --> 00:39:28,366
Modifiers is as if the building itself is at rest

451
00:39:28,991 --> 00:39:32,578
after a long day of service in the interests of our city.

452
00:39:33,788 --> 00:39:35,831
And then suddenly, we're going through the front door

453
00:39:35,915 --> 00:39:37,166
and exit on Main Street

454
00:39:37,249 --> 00:39:40,586
the five o'clock rush hour, and he will walk together,

455
00:39:41,003 --> 00:39:45,549
sculpture, and I will walk beside the ...

456
00:39:46,550 --> 00:39:49,261
trying to keep and I'll, you know, looking at her.

457
00:39:49,345 --> 00:39:52,681
And, uh, it was a sight that I never, never forgotten.

458
00:39:53,516 --> 00:39:55,851
My mom was walking home from work.                             

459
00:39:56,644 --> 00:39:57,853
It has some ...

460
00:40:02,233 --> 00:40:04,443
only some lasting impact on me.

461
00:40:05,403 --> 00:40:06,445
You know? Uh ...

462
00:40:07,154 --> 00:40:10,574
She-- He always has a very ethnic features.

463
00:40:10,658 --> 00:40:11,575
He has...

464
00:40:12,118 --> 00:40:15,121
coal-black hair, olive skin Italy, and when he was young,

465
00:40:15,204 --> 00:40:18,082
he was wearing a very fashionable red lipstick

466
00:40:18,582 --> 00:40:19,792
in the '50s.

467
00:40:20,334 --> 00:40:23,421
And he would look at me with the view that, for me,

468
00:40:23,754 --> 00:40:26,966
Mary as a gift, you know?

469
00:40:27,049 --> 00:40:30,928
Make me understand, for the first time, what it was like

470
00:40:31,929 --> 00:40:34,390
feel proud of someone you love,

471
00:40:35,516 --> 00:40:37,226
and who loves you back.

472
00:40:38,644 --> 00:40:41,647
You know, he let the city know that we are good-looking,

473
00:40:41,730 --> 00:40:45,109
responsible members of the burgh's dirt-dog,

474
00:40:45,192 --> 00:40:47,194
pull our own weight individuals

475
00:40:47,278 --> 00:40:50,489
do what must be done day by day.

476
00:40:50,573 --> 00:40:53,659
We have a place here that we have been getting!

477
00:40:54,535 --> 00:40:58,956
And we have reason to open our eyes to rest every day

478
00:40:59,039 --> 00:41:02,084
and breathe in the life of a stable and good.

479
00:41:04,545 --> 00:41:08,549
Now, my mother is the truth, consistency, good humor,

480
00:41:08,924 --> 00:41:13,512
professionalism, grace, kindness, optimism, decency,

481
00:41:13,888 --> 00:41:16,307
fairness, pride in yourself,

482
00:41:16,390 --> 00:41:19,810
responsibility, love, faith in your family,                             

483
00:41:20,311 --> 00:41:23,981
commitment, joy in your work, and never-say-die of thirst

484
00:41:24,064 --> 00:41:27,109
for life, for life and living.

485
00:41:27,860 --> 00:41:31,113
And most importantly, to dance.

486
00:41:31,947 --> 00:41:36,744
My mother and two sisters dancing machine, okay?

487
00:41:37,244 --> 00:41:40,456
They grew up in '40 with big bands and swing bands

488
00:41:40,539 --> 00:41:43,584
and they-- they learned to jitterbug and-- and ...

489
00:41:47,046 --> 00:41:49,465
It's in their bones, you know?

490
00:41:49,882 --> 00:41:53,552
My mother was seven years into Alzheimer's.

491
00:41:55,221 --> 00:41:56,764
And he's 93.

492
00:41:57,640 --> 00:42:01,894
But the dancing and the desire and need for dancing is something that ...

493
00:42:02,144 --> 00:42:03,771
has not left it.

494
00:42:04,855 --> 00:42:08,317
Continue to be a primal important part of who he is.

495
00:42:08,400 --> 00:42:11,987
This is beyond language. This is more powerful than memory.

496
00:42:12,655 --> 00:42:16,742
And when he came in the door, we make sure there was music.

497
00:42:18,244 --> 00:42:20,621
He wants to dance, you know?

498
00:42:21,622 --> 00:42:24,500
Uh, these things are the embodiment of my mother.

499
00:42:24,583 --> 00:42:25,793
Their hearts.

500
00:42:25,876 --> 00:42:30,673
He was taken and he was carrying on as if they had never been,

501
00:42:32,091 --> 00:42:33,551
never leave it.

502
00:47:03,278 --> 00:47:06,198
There is nothing like being young and leave the premises.

503
00:47:07,115 --> 00:47:09,785
It is a feeling, oh,

504
00:47:10,536 --> 00:47:11,578
I love.

505
00:47:12,079 --> 00:47:14,289
Maybe that's why I became a musician.

506
00:47:15,082 --> 00:47:16,250
A ...

507
00:47:17,167 --> 00:47:19,378
Sleep late, stay up late.

508
00:47:20,254 --> 00:47:22,089
And you do a lot left.

509
00:47:23,423 --> 00:47:25,717
Freehold night I left for the last time,

510
00:47:26,802 --> 00:47:29,346
I laid on the couch, perched high above the load

511
00:47:29,429 --> 00:47:30,764
of junk furniture band

512
00:47:30,848 --> 00:47:34,560
on the back of a flatbed truck open on a beautiful summer evening.

513
00:47:35,018 --> 00:47:36,937
I was 19 years old.

514
00:47:37,229 --> 00:47:41,441
Ooh ... that feels pretty good.

515
00:47:41,525 --> 00:47:44,903
Gentle sea breeze of the beach that reaches all the way inland.

516
00:47:44,987 --> 00:47:46,738
And as we pull through the city,

517
00:47:46,822 --> 00:47:48,490
for the last,

518
00:47:49,366 --> 00:47:51,285
we were stopped by the police ...

519
00:47:53,245 --> 00:47:57,332
... that tells us that there are laws against moving after dark.

520
00:48:01,253 --> 00:48:05,340
What the hell?

521
00:48:06,049 --> 00:48:08,343
Who would know that?

522
00:48:08,760 --> 00:48:10,888
Do not move your dirt after dark?

523
00:48:11,722 --> 00:48:14,892
What are we running, antiques this big Freehold?

524
00:48:16,018 --> 00:48:17,603
Sunset,

525
00:48:19,062 --> 00:48:21,440
they will bust your ass in Freehold, son.                             

526
00:48:22,733 --> 00:48:24,902
Anyway, they, uh ... They sent us on our way.

527
00:48:24,985 --> 00:48:27,070
Glad to be rid of hippies town, I guess.

528
00:48:27,154 --> 00:48:28,864
And so, I lay on my sofa

529
00:48:28,947 --> 00:48:30,866
and I watch the tree branches rush over me

530
00:48:30,949 --> 00:48:34,077
and the stars rolling in the night sky, and I remember

531
00:48:34,453 --> 00:48:36,246
I feel absolutely wonderful.

532
00:48:36,580 --> 00:48:38,665
I have nothing, no parents.

533
00:48:38,749 --> 00:48:41,960
They have moved with my sister Pam

534
00:48:42,544 --> 00:48:45,047
to California in 1969.

535
00:48:45,756 --> 00:48:49,301
sister Virginia, a great soul that he is,

536
00:48:49,384 --> 00:48:52,304
she became pregnant and had a baby at 18.

537
00:48:52,387 --> 00:48:55,891
He left high school, married competitive bull rider

538
00:48:56,850 --> 00:48:59,269
and they moved to the wilds of southern New Jersey,

539
00:48:59,353 --> 00:49:01,563
because that is where the cowboy life.

540
00:49:01,647 --> 00:49:03,023
I am not kidding.

541
00:49:03,106 --> 00:49:05,901
Actual joke is, 50 years later,

542
00:49:05,984 --> 00:49:08,862
they are still together and they still go to the rodeo.

543
00:49:12,282 --> 00:49:16,161
Well, I had no money and no family and realistic future.

544
00:49:16,244 --> 00:49:20,916
But yet, I remember laying on the couch with a summer breeze flowing over me

545
00:49:20,999 --> 00:49:26,463
and, you know, it-- smell of saltwater in the air

546
00:49:26,546 --> 00:49:28,757
from the beach come and think ...

547
00:49:29,758 --> 00:49:31,218
I'm just happy.

548
00:49:31,843 --> 00:49:33,011
I feel happy.

549
00:49:33,512 --> 00:49:37,474
I got it all, you know? Maybe I am, you know?

550
00:49:38,225 --> 00:49:41,853
Perhaps there is nothing like that moment in your life to be young and ...

551
00:49:42,312 --> 00:49:45,023
leaving the place, all the young freedom.

552
00:49:45,565 --> 00:49:49,069
You feel-- finally become untethered from everything I've ever known:

553
00:49:49,152 --> 00:49:51,655
the life you've lived, your past, your parents,

554
00:49:51,738 --> 00:49:54,992
Your world is familiar and that you have loved and hated.

555
00:49:55,242 --> 00:49:58,120
You put your life before you as a blank page.

556
00:49:58,537 --> 00:50:00,664
It's one thing I miss about getting older,                             

557
00:50:00,747 --> 00:50:05,293
I miss the beauty of the blank page.

558
00:50:06,253 --> 00:50:08,171
So much of life ahead of you.

559
00:50:08,714 --> 00:50:12,342
promise, its possibilities, mystery, his adventure.

560
00:50:13,093 --> 00:50:14,553
It was a blank page ...

561
00:50:16,054 --> 00:50:17,389
just lay there.

562
00:50:20,100 --> 00:50:21,810
Dare you to write on it.

563
00:55:51,056 --> 00:55:53,975
So ... So, my 20 year old

564
00:55:54,434 --> 00:55:56,186
and I stayed and played at the Jersey Shore

565
00:55:56,269 --> 00:55:58,021
and I'm waiting to be discovered.

566
00:55:58,938 --> 00:56:01,483
Now, I have confidence.

567
00:56:02,192 --> 00:56:03,651
I've been around a bit.

568
00:56:04,611 --> 00:56:05,862
And without a doubt,

569
00:56:06,404 --> 00:56:08,740
I'm definitely the best thing I've ever seen.

570
00:56:10,825 --> 00:56:14,079
I've played in front of every audience imaginable.

571
00:56:14,621 --> 00:56:16,664
I have been playing exhibition firefighters,

572
00:56:16,915 --> 00:56:20,877
midnight madness, opening supermarkets, drive-in movies,

573
00:56:21,169 --> 00:56:24,339
uh, in front of the concession stand in between films.

574
00:56:24,756 --> 00:56:27,008
I have been playing beach parties, club officers,

575
00:56:27,092 --> 00:56:28,676
pizza parlors, coffee shops,

576
00:56:28,760 --> 00:56:32,389
bowling alley, trailer parks, roller rinks, VFW hall,

577
00:56:32,514 --> 00:56:36,267
CYO canteen, Elks Lodge, YMCA gymnasium,

578
00:56:36,351 --> 00:56:40,397
Hockey arenas, fairs, carnivals, high school dances, weddings,

579
00:56:40,688 --> 00:56:43,483
fraternity party, bar mitzvah ...

580
00:56:43,566 --> 00:56:47,278
... soul revues, battle of the bands,

581
00:56:47,362 --> 00:56:51,783
Sing Sing prison, and Marlboro Psychiatric Hospital.

582
00:56:58,873 --> 00:57:02,794
Send me a murderer and maniac and let me entertain them, okay?

583
00:57:03,211 --> 00:57:05,964
That's what I did. That's all right.

584
00:57:06,047 --> 00:57:08,425
That was all before I was 23 years old.

585
00:57:08,508 --> 00:57:10,552
I'm frustrated. I listen to the radio

586
00:57:10,635 --> 00:57:13,096
and I thought, "I'm as good as him.

587
00:57:13,179 --> 00:57:14,764
I'm better than him.

588
00:57:15,056 --> 00:57:16,474
So why not me? "

589
00:57:17,183 --> 00:57:23,148
Since I live in a remote shit, okay?

590
00:57:23,898 --> 00:57:26,943
Let me explain this to you. I live in a secluded.

591
00:57:27,026 --> 00:57:31,197
There are people here, and no one comes here.

592
00:57:32,365 --> 00:57:33,867
This cemetery.

593
00:57:34,701 --> 00:57:40,290
No Jersey, Jersey, Jersey Shore, Jersey Almighty dirt.

594
00:57:44,043 --> 00:57:45,920
I found it.

595
00:57:55,054 --> 00:57:56,347
Before me...

596
00:57:57,599 --> 00:57:59,559
Jersey is Jeserkhistan.

597
00:58:00,894 --> 00:58:02,562
Jeserkhistan!

598
00:58:03,396 --> 00:58:07,650
One thing small -stan that nobody knows a damn thing about.

599
00:58:07,901 --> 00:58:08,776
You know?

600
00:58:08,860 --> 00:58:13,156
And New York is a million miles away

601
00:58:13,239 --> 00:58:16,201
of Jersey Shore. In my small town as a child,

602
00:58:16,284 --> 00:58:20,288
we know there are people who have been to New York City.

603
00:58:22,332 --> 00:58:25,627
Jesus Christ, it was-- it was just one hour!

604
00:58:27,295 --> 00:58:31,090
But no, you might as well say you're going to the damn moon.

605
00:58:32,258 --> 00:58:35,470
"Hey, we're going to the Moon, you want to go?" "No, no, no.

606
00:58:35,845 --> 00:58:37,931
No, New York. Not..."

607
00:58:38,014 --> 00:58:38,932
Our province.

608
00:58:39,015 --> 00:58:42,644
Everyone is afraid of the big city.

609
00:58:43,102 --> 00:58:45,939
And there was no internet, no ET, or MTV,

610
00:58:46,022 --> 00:58:48,691
or cable TV, or satellite, or ...

611
00:58:48,775 --> 00:58:52,987
This is before the people and all the butt crack of Anyplace, USA ...

612
00:58:53,738 --> 00:58:55,573
can be seen all over the world,

613
00:58:55,657 --> 00:58:59,577
uh, should they choose, in the press of a button, in the next instant.

614
00:58:59,953 --> 00:59:02,247
So who will come to Jersey Shore

615
00:59:03,081 --> 00:59:06,042
to find the next big thing in 1971?

616
00:59:10,046 --> 00:59:11,130
You are right.

617
00:59:16,261 --> 00:59:17,428
No-damn-body.

618
00:59:19,389 --> 00:59:21,599
All we hear there is a sound ...

619
00:59:23,017 --> 00:59:24,310
clap with one hand.

620
00:59:24,978 --> 00:59:26,521
It will not happen.

621
00:59:26,604 --> 00:59:27,647
I've got one shot.

622
00:59:27,730 --> 00:59:29,774
My girlfriend at the time, has been a big help.

623
00:59:29,857 --> 00:59:32,860
Bring a man who had a successful recording band

624
00:59:33,403 --> 00:59:36,614
to the Student Prince, our club in Asbury Park,

625
00:59:36,906 --> 00:59:38,408
to find us.

626
00:59:38,491 --> 00:59:42,245
We woke up on a small stage in a club that fits 150 people.

627
00:59:42,328 --> 00:59:43,746
It was about half full.

628
00:59:44,080 --> 00:59:45,623
And we play for these people

629
00:59:45,707 --> 00:59:48,501
like we were at Madison Square Garden.

630
00:59:48,793 --> 00:59:51,588
All that we have, throughout the night.

631
00:59:52,547 --> 00:59:56,843
We played five sets, from 21:00 to 03:00

632
00:59:58,052 --> 01:00:00,888
At the end of the night, I was drenched to the bones.

633
01:00:00,972 --> 01:00:04,017
I came down from the stage, this guy walked up to me.

634
01:00:04,100 --> 01:00:06,477
He looked at his eyes, shook my hand and said,

635
01:00:06,561 --> 01:00:09,772
"You guys are the best unsigned bands that I've ever seen."

636
01:00:11,482 --> 01:00:13,735
Then he slept with my boyfriend and left town.

637
01:00:21,826 --> 01:00:23,328
That was the end of the story.

638
01:00:26,748 --> 01:00:28,041
It is a sad end.

639
01:00:28,124 --> 01:00:30,710
I mean, I don't-- But that was enough for me.

640
01:00:32,211 --> 01:00:34,297
I hung out with people ...

641
01:00:35,340 --> 01:00:39,010
and I said, "Sirs, we would have to leave

642
01:00:39,260 --> 01:00:43,139
the boundaries of Jersey Shore

643
01:00:43,806 --> 01:00:46,434
and venturing into the unknown ...

644
01:00:47,644 --> 01:00:49,354
if we want to see,

645
01:00:50,063 --> 01:00:53,524
heard by anyone or found. "

646
01:00:54,108 --> 01:00:57,654
I found the manager manufacturer, surfboard from West Coast--

647
01:00:57,737 --> 01:01:01,074
he moved East-- named Virgil Carl "Tinker" West.

648
01:01:01,532 --> 01:01:05,912
Now, together, him, Mad Dog Lopez, and my own

649
01:01:05,995 --> 01:01:08,247
we live in a surfboard factory.

650
01:01:08,831 --> 01:01:13,086
In the critical area of ​​industrial Wanamassa, New Jersey.

651
01:01:13,795 --> 01:01:17,465
Tinker said he had some contact rock 'n' roll was left in San Francisco.

652
01:01:17,548 --> 01:01:21,135
So we all got excited, and he said if we can get there,

653
01:01:21,594 --> 01:01:23,054
something that might happen.

654
01:01:23,137 --> 01:01:27,433
So we're saving all our money until we have $ 100.

655
01:01:27,517 --> 01:01:28,685
All right?

656
01:01:28,768 --> 01:01:31,562
And then I, Danny Federici, Mad Dog Lopez,

657
01:01:31,646 --> 01:01:33,815
Little Vinnie Roslin, our bass player,

658
01:01:33,898 --> 01:01:36,275
rigged out Danny station wagon to drive.

659
01:01:36,359 --> 01:01:39,445
Placing the mattress in the back for the driver to spell each other

660
01:01:39,529 --> 01:01:41,239
and sleep on the way out there.

661
01:01:41,322 --> 01:01:44,826
We cheated the old '40s this Tinker flatbed to carry our equipment

662
01:01:44,909 --> 01:01:48,246
and we have three days to make it across the country

663
01:01:48,329 --> 01:01:52,375
for New Year's Eve gig at Big Sur, California.

664
01:01:52,458 --> 01:01:54,419
Now, three days means

665
01:01:54,794 --> 01:01:57,797
they are going to be a thousand miles.

666
01:01:58,423 --> 01:02:01,634
You can make it, but you can not stop.

667
01:02:02,593 --> 01:02:05,596
You stop for gas and for other things.

668
01:02:05,972 --> 01:02:11,185
You driving, driving, driving, driving, 72 hours a day.

669
01:02:11,269 --> 01:02:14,522
Someone driving all the time around the clock.

670
01:02:15,064 --> 01:02:16,858
Now, of course, we lost Danny

671
01:02:16,941 --> 01:02:20,027
and all of a station wagon full of drivers                             

672
01:02:20,486 --> 01:02:23,448
di Nashville, Tennessee.

673
01:02:23,531 --> 01:02:25,658
Now, there is no mobile phone.

674
01:02:27,326 --> 01:02:28,786
young people, take time.

675
01:02:38,713 --> 01:02:39,964
Let's try.

676
01:02:41,257 --> 01:02:43,634
Imagine a world without mobile phones.

677
01:02:44,802 --> 01:02:46,512
When you lose someone

678
01:02:46,888 --> 01:02:49,265
in a world without mobile phones ...

679
01:02:51,017 --> 01:02:52,643
oh, they are fucking gone.

680
01:02:57,774 --> 01:02:59,484
No device.

681
01:02:59,734 --> 01:03:02,779
You can not relate to them. They're gone!

682
01:03:03,196 --> 01:03:04,405
Of your life!

683
01:03:07,533 --> 01:03:08,534
Into the ether.

684
01:03:10,620 --> 01:03:13,873
So now, it's just a Tinker and me, this Tinker dog,

685
01:03:14,290 --> 01:03:15,917
thousands of miles to go,

686
01:03:16,000 --> 01:03:19,754
and we had some problems. One is I do not have a license.

687
01:03:20,129 --> 01:03:23,758
The second problem is I do not have a clue about how to drive.

688
01:03:24,550 --> 01:03:26,761
And by that, I mean that man

689
01:03:27,178 --> 01:03:30,473
that would be very, very long time to write "Racing in the Street" ...

690
01:03:40,191 --> 01:03:41,692
That's how good I am.

691
01:03:43,903 --> 01:03:48,241
Because, at 21, I had never driven the damn block.

692
01:03:49,951 --> 01:03:51,327
Around 1:00 or 2:00,

693
01:03:51,410 --> 01:03:54,539
Tinker's glasses on, and he said, "I'm cooking.

694
01:03:54,622 --> 01:03:57,166
I need to get some sleep. Now it's your turn to drive. "

695
01:03:57,250 --> 01:03:59,377
I went, "Tink, I can not drive."

696
01:03:59,794 --> 01:04:02,171
He said, "Springsteen, nothing to it.

697
01:04:02,547 --> 01:04:05,466
Idiot around the world do, okay? "

698
01:04:06,509 --> 01:04:09,262
He pulled me into the parking lot. He put me behind the wheel.

699
01:04:09,345 --> 01:04:11,389
I started grinding my teeth, pumping the clutch,

700
01:04:11,472 --> 01:04:15,685
jerking the truck the whole lot-- this manual transmissions in the 1940s.

701
01:04:15,768 --> 01:04:18,271
I can not get past the first tooth!

702
01:04:19,856 --> 01:04:22,650
After a while Tinker said, "It will not work,

703
01:04:22,733 --> 01:04:24,360
but I have another idea. "

704
01:04:24,443 --> 01:04:26,070
He got in the driver's seat.

705
01:04:26,153 --> 01:04:29,115
He slipped in the clutch. He smoothly shifted to first.

706
01:04:29,198 --> 01:04:30,825
She ease out the clutch.

707
01:04:30,908 --> 01:04:33,411
He will be trucks that occur in a small sweet roll,

708
01:04:33,661 --> 01:04:36,163
looked at me and said, "Now let us switch seats."

709
01:04:37,748 --> 01:04:39,375
And that's what we did.

710
01:04:40,418 --> 01:04:44,088
I was fine in the second, third, and fourth and I could put it in between the lines

711
01:04:44,171 --> 01:04:48,092
as long as I do not have to stop or go near the first tooth.

712
01:04:48,926 --> 01:04:52,388
If I had to do one of those things, I have to wake up Mr. West.

713
01:04:52,763 --> 01:04:55,933
OK? Now, do not care

714
01:04:56,392 --> 01:04:58,185
because he wakes up,

715
01:04:58,269 --> 01:05:00,897
because people who can not drive to drive!

716
01:05:03,983 --> 01:05:06,027
You will not sleep through it!

717
01:05:07,445 --> 01:05:08,863
So...

718
01:05:08,946 --> 01:05:12,074
You will be surprised how far you can go all over this great country

719
01:05:12,158 --> 01:05:14,285
without having to stop. You know that ...

720
01:05:14,952 --> 01:05:18,623
it's a long way between things out there,

721
01:05:18,998 --> 01:05:20,917
and, man, I drove my part

722
01:05:21,417 --> 01:05:23,085
2,000 thousand ...

723
01:05:24,253 --> 01:05:26,380
in second gear, third, and fourth.

724
01:05:30,092 --> 01:05:31,928
Without killing anyone.

725
01:05:34,847 --> 01:05:38,684
Uh ... And we made the right time, you know, but, uh ...

726
01:05:39,226 --> 01:05:40,061
that trip was ...

727
01:05:42,396 --> 01:05:44,899
... is where I see the United States in full

728
01:05:44,982 --> 01:05:49,111
and as a young man, I was overwhelmed by the size and beauty, and ...

729
01:05:49,195 --> 01:05:51,530
This is a short piece of a book about ...

730
01:05:52,823 --> 01:05:55,409
ride across the country for the first time.

731
01:05:59,997 --> 01:06:01,582
beautiful country.

732
01:06:01,791 --> 01:06:06,921
And I felt great joy at the wheel as we crossed the western desert at dawn.

733
01:06:07,755 --> 01:06:11,175
The blue, purple, dark valley.

734
01:06:11,968 --> 01:06:13,970
Pale yellow morning sky

735
01:06:14,845 --> 01:06:16,847
with all shades pulled out,

736
01:06:17,848 --> 01:06:20,184
leaving only a black silhouette of the mountains

737
01:06:21,978 --> 01:06:23,521
in your rearview mirror.

738
01:06:24,939 --> 01:06:27,400
Then, with the sun rising in the east of our backs,

739
01:06:27,483 --> 01:06:30,987
red and browns of the plains and hills

740
01:06:31,737 --> 01:06:34,532
come to life slowly in front of us.

741
01:06:38,452 --> 01:06:42,957
turn your palms on the wheel of the white sauce is aridity.

742
01:06:43,249 --> 01:06:46,502
Morning wake up the earth into this muted colors.

743
01:06:46,585 --> 01:06:49,255
And then came the flat light of the midday sun

744
01:06:49,588 --> 01:06:52,800
and everything stands revealed as pure horizon.

745
01:06:53,968 --> 01:06:57,388
only sky, sky, sky, and the sky.

746
01:06:57,972 --> 01:07:00,391
Lose to the two-lane asphalt

747
01:07:01,684 --> 01:07:04,562
and disappeared into nothing.

748
01:07:06,105 --> 01:07:07,648
My favorite things.

749
01:07:09,400 --> 01:07:12,653
Then at night with burning red sun in your eyes

750
01:07:12,737 --> 01:07:15,906
and dropping gold into the hills west in front of you.

751
01:07:16,615 --> 01:07:18,576
All felt like home to me.

752
01:07:19,952 --> 01:07:23,205
And I fell in love with the timeless desert.

753
01:11:25,447 --> 01:11:27,408
So it's-- it in 1980.

754
01:11:27,533 --> 01:11:30,953
I am only 30 years old, I was in another cross-country trip with a friend of mine

755
01:11:31,036 --> 01:11:33,497
and we stopped outside of Phoenix to gas up.

756
01:11:33,580 --> 01:11:35,874
Go into the small-town pharmacy,

757
01:11:35,958 --> 01:11:38,210
I was rummaging through the shelves of paperback books,

758
01:11:38,294 --> 01:11:41,130
I found a book called Born on the Fourth of July

759
01:11:41,338 --> 01:11:44,174
by a Vietnam veteran Ron Kovic.

760
01:11:44,258 --> 01:11:46,719
Now, the book is a testimony of the experience

761
01:11:46,802 --> 01:11:50,055
that he had as infantry combat in Southeast Asia.

762
01:11:50,556 --> 01:11:51,932
One or two weeks later,

763
01:11:52,725 --> 01:11:56,854
I bunked at the outside of the usual motel Sunset Marquis in Los Angeles.

764
01:11:57,354 --> 01:12:00,774
Uh For the uninformed, it kind of upscale,

765
01:12:00,858 --> 01:12:03,694
lowlife hanging rock star, right?

766
01:12:03,777 --> 01:12:05,529
Uh, small world theory.

767
01:12:06,030 --> 01:12:08,324
Small world theory proves itself once again.

768
01:12:08,407 --> 01:12:10,409
I've seen a young man with shoulder-length hair

769
01:12:10,492 --> 01:12:13,287
sitting in a wheelchair at the edge of the pool for a few days.

770
01:12:13,662 --> 01:12:18,834
So, one afternoon he rolled up to me and said, "Hi, I'm Ron Kovic.

771
01:12:18,917 --> 01:12:21,462
I wrote a book called Born on the Fourth of July. "

772
01:12:21,920 --> 01:12:26,091
I said, "Oh my God. I just-- I just read it. And modifier it devastated me."

773
01:12:26,633 --> 01:12:30,846
He spent the afternoon talking to me about a lot of the soldiers returned

774
01:12:30,929 --> 01:12:33,265
who are struggling with various problems,

775
01:12:33,349 --> 01:12:38,145
and he wanted to know if I'm going to take a drive with him to the vet in the center of Venice ...

776
01:12:38,896 --> 01:12:41,607
satisfy some veteran Southern California.

777
01:12:42,066 --> 01:12:44,777
So I said, "Sure." The next day, we headed out there,

778
01:12:44,860 --> 01:12:48,572
and I am usually pretty easy with people, but once we were in the center,                             

779
01:12:49,490 --> 01:12:53,369
I do not know how to respond to what I see. Uh ...

780
01:12:54,203 --> 01:12:58,040
Speaking of my own life for these people seemed reckless.

781
01:12:58,123 --> 01:12:58,957
You know?

782
01:12:59,041 --> 01:13:02,669
There are homeless people and drug problems and post-traumatic stress and ...

783
01:13:03,253 --> 01:13:06,173
Young people my age are dealing with a life-changing ...

784
01:13:07,299 --> 01:13:08,675
physical injuries.

785
01:13:08,759 --> 01:13:11,929
And it made me think about my own friends from back home.

786
01:13:12,513 --> 01:13:13,847
Walter CICHON.

787
01:13:14,473 --> 01:13:18,477
Walter CICHON is the greatest front man of rock 'n' roll

788
01:13:18,560 --> 01:13:21,897
at the Jersey Shore in the '60s bar band.

789
01:13:22,314 --> 01:13:24,358
He was in a group called The Motif,

790
01:13:24,441 --> 01:13:28,946
and he was the first real rock star I have ever laid my eyes.

791
01:13:29,530 --> 01:13:32,741
He only had it in his bones. He had it in his blood.

792
01:13:32,825 --> 01:13:35,327
It was the way he carried himself.

793
01:13:35,411 --> 01:13:39,665
On stage, he just was lethal.

794
01:13:39,748 --> 01:13:44,128
He was crude and sexual and dangerous,

795
01:13:44,211 --> 01:13:48,841
and in our little area it teaches us, by the way he lived,

796
01:13:49,425 --> 01:13:52,344
You can live your life the way you choose.

797
01:13:52,428 --> 01:13:54,304
You can see the way you want to see,

798
01:13:54,388 --> 01:13:56,432
You can play the music you want to play,

799
01:13:56,515 --> 01:13:58,475
You can be who you want to be,

800
01:13:58,559 --> 01:14:00,769
and you can tell anyone who does not like it

801
01:14:00,853 --> 01:14:02,604
to go fuck themselves.

802
01:14:02,688 --> 01:14:04,523
Walter has ...

803
01:14:05,607 --> 01:14:07,818
guitar-playing brother, Raymond.

804
01:14:08,861 --> 01:14:10,112
Raymond ...

805
01:14:10,487 --> 01:14:12,906
high, high, awkward guy is kind of sweet,

806
01:14:12,990 --> 01:14:16,827
one of the great people who just are not comfortable with his size.

807
01:14:17,369 --> 01:14:21,039
You know, uh, he's always, like, "Ooh. Ooh."

808
01:14:21,123 --> 01:14:25,294
Knocked into the dirt wherever he is. And wherever it is,

809
01:14:25,627 --> 01:14:29,548
there simply is not enough room for Raymond, for several reasons.

810
01:14:30,048 --> 01:14:31,133
And, uh ...

811
01:14:31,717 --> 01:14:35,095
But the strange thing was he always dressed impeccably

812
01:14:35,179 --> 01:14:40,184
with a pastel shirt, long pointed collars, sharkskin pants, nylon socks,

813
01:14:40,559 --> 01:14:44,104
shiny, pointy-toed shoes, slicked-back hair black

814
01:14:44,188 --> 01:14:47,858
with small curls will fall when he played guitar.

815
01:14:47,941 --> 01:14:50,360
Hey, Raymond is my guitar hero.

816
01:14:50,652 --> 01:14:53,071
He's just a shoe salesman day.

817
01:14:53,780 --> 01:14:56,992
And, uh, Walter, I think, worked construction.

818
01:14:57,075 --> 01:14:58,952
They are just a little older than us,

819
01:14:59,036 --> 01:15:02,539
never had a national hit record, never did any great travel,

820
01:15:02,831 --> 01:15:04,500
but they were gods to me.

821
01:15:05,584 --> 01:15:06,585
And...

822
01:15:07,252 --> 01:15:09,755
I spent hours standing in front of their band,

823
01:15:09,838 --> 01:15:13,342
learning, learning, learning, class is in session.

824
01:15:14,176 --> 01:15:16,345
Night after night, watching Ray fingers fly

825
01:15:16,553 --> 01:15:18,931
more fretboard, and Walter will scare ...

826
01:15:21,225 --> 01:15:23,143
dirt than half the crowd.

827
01:15:23,894 --> 01:15:25,103
Oh man.

828
01:15:26,355 --> 01:15:29,858
They are important for my development as a young musician.

829
01:15:30,317 --> 01:15:35,322
I learned a lot from the Walter and Ray.                             

830
01:15:35,739 --> 01:15:37,032
And my dream,

831
01:15:37,533 --> 01:15:40,494
I dream I just want to play as Ray

832
01:15:40,577 --> 01:15:41,787
and walk like Walter.

833
01:15:42,162 --> 01:15:43,413
And then there was Bart Haynes.

834
01:15:43,497 --> 01:15:47,834
Bart Haynes was the drummer of my first band, The Castiles.

835
01:15:48,293 --> 01:15:51,588
He was the first real drummer I have ever played with.

836
01:15:51,672 --> 01:15:53,549
He was a cute kid abysmal,

837
01:15:53,632 --> 01:15:57,761
classic class clown, is good, a good drummer ...

838
01:15:58,178 --> 01:16:02,641
with a strange quirk-- can not play "Wipe Out" by The Surfaris.

839
01:16:04,726 --> 01:16:08,605
It may not seem so important to you right now, I understand.

840
01:16:09,690 --> 01:16:12,234
But in those days,

841
01:16:12,818 --> 01:16:15,696
Your skills, your courage,

842
01:16:16,029 --> 01:16:21,410
yourself as a drummer and as a human being

843
01:16:23,120 --> 01:16:27,583
tested in front of your friends after a night

844
01:16:27,666 --> 01:16:30,168
by your performance of "Wipe Out."

845
01:16:30,752 --> 01:16:34,214
Now, Bart can play every other damn thing,

846
01:16:34,298 --> 01:16:36,300
but when it comes to "Wipe Out" ...

847
01:16:40,679 --> 01:16:42,973
beyond its capabilities!

848
01:16:44,474 --> 01:16:45,809
It was tragic.

849
01:16:47,561 --> 01:16:49,354
You know, uh ...

850
01:16:50,355 --> 01:16:52,441
One day he fell ...

851
01:16:52,983 --> 01:16:56,278
rose from the drum stool, he joined the Marines, and ...

852
01:16:57,487 --> 01:16:59,990
Walter and Bart ...

853
01:17:00,073 --> 01:17:05,829
... they were both killed in battle in 1967 and '68.

854
01:17:06,580 --> 01:17:09,625
Bart is the first youth of our hometown                             

855
01:17:10,334 --> 01:17:12,377
to give his life in Vietnam.

856
01:17:12,753 --> 01:17:18,634
So, I really do not know what to say to people that I met in Venice.

857
01:17:18,717 --> 01:17:22,220
I sat there for most of the afternoon and I just listened.

858
01:17:23,180 --> 01:17:27,267
Then in 1982, I wrote a story and I record my soldiers.

859
01:17:27,351 --> 01:17:29,770
It is a protest song, GI blues.

860
01:17:30,270 --> 01:17:33,148
The verses are simply accounting events.

861
01:17:33,940 --> 01:17:38,487
Chorus is a declaration of your birth ...

862
01:17:38,987 --> 01:17:41,782
and the right for all the blood and confusion

863
01:17:41,865 --> 01:17:45,118
and pride and shame and mercy ...

864
01:17:47,079 --> 01:17:48,955
that comes with the birth.

865
01:17:50,040 --> 01:17:54,461
In 1969, Mad Dog, Little Vinnie, and my own,

866
01:17:55,212 --> 01:17:59,633
we are all prepared on the same day.

867
01:18:00,133 --> 01:18:01,218
The three of us.

868
01:18:01,301 --> 01:18:05,597
We ride together one early Monday morning from the Selective Service Office

869
01:18:05,681 --> 01:18:10,060
on the bus may unhappiest ever pulled out of Asbury Park,

870
01:18:10,143 --> 01:18:12,229
because we were on the way

871
01:18:12,312 --> 01:18:16,108
with what we believe will be our funeral.

872
01:18:16,942 --> 01:18:20,278
We have seen already, up very close.

873
01:18:22,739 --> 01:18:28,078
When we got to the Draft Council of Newark, we did everything we could not go.

874
01:18:28,453 --> 01:18:31,039
And we succeed, the three of us.

875
01:18:31,123 --> 01:18:32,666
When I went to Washington,

876
01:18:32,749 --> 01:18:35,544
and I had the opportunity to visit Walter and Bart,

877
01:18:35,877 --> 01:18:40,298
I'm glad that Mad Dog Little Vinnie,

878
01:18:41,216 --> 01:18:45,637
in this case, my name is not up on ... on the wall.

879
01:18:45,721 --> 01:18:50,142
But it was in 1969, and thousands and thousands of young men to come

880
01:18:50,809 --> 01:18:54,479
will be called, simply sacrificed,

881
01:18:54,563 --> 01:18:57,566
just to save face for the powers that be                             

882
01:18:57,983 --> 01:18:59,860
who, at the time, already know.

883
01:19:00,944 --> 01:19:02,821
They knew it was a lost cause.

884
01:19:06,241 --> 01:19:08,577
And still, thousands of ...

885
01:19:09,745 --> 01:19:11,329
boys younger.

886
01:19:13,039 --> 01:19:14,040
So, uh ...

887
01:19:18,420 --> 01:19:21,590
So I sometimes wonder who go in my place.

888
01:19:22,716 --> 01:19:24,468
Because someone did.

889
01:24:12,756 --> 01:24:13,673
Now...

890
01:24:14,549 --> 01:24:19,304
a 'n' roll a real rock band evolved from a common place and time.

891
01:24:19,763 --> 01:24:24,559
The band came out from the cities, from the town, from the environment.

892
01:24:25,268 --> 01:24:28,354
And they come at a certain moment, you know?

893
01:24:28,855 --> 01:24:32,150
The band is all about what happens when musicians

894
01:24:32,650 --> 01:24:34,819
originating from the same streets,

895
01:24:35,236 --> 01:24:42,202
with the same passion and influence, go looking for lightning and thunder!

896
01:24:42,285 --> 01:24:44,370
They came together as a whole

897
01:24:44,454 --> 01:24:47,082
which is greater than the sum of its parts.

898
01:24:47,165 --> 01:24:50,376
They may not be the best player. That's not necessary.

899
01:24:50,460 --> 01:24:54,130
They need to be the right players and when they play together,

900
01:24:54,214 --> 01:24:57,967
if any fellowship of the soul

901
01:24:58,551 --> 01:25:02,597
and natural brotherhood and fraternity manifests itself,

902
01:25:02,680 --> 01:25:05,767
and search, the search begins.

903
01:25:05,850 --> 01:25:07,977
You find something,

904
01:25:08,269 --> 01:25:10,188
adventure undertaken.

905
01:25:10,730 --> 01:25:12,607
And you ride shotgun.

906
01:25:14,025 --> 01:25:19,656
In a real band, the principles of mathematics to get standing on their heads.

907
01:25:20,281 --> 01:25:22,325
And one plus one equals three.

908
01:25:34,045 --> 01:25:37,090
Now one plus one equals two, that happens every day.

909
01:25:37,382 --> 01:25:40,677
It's not magic. That grind.

910
01:25:41,052 --> 01:25:42,971
That's when you wake up, one,

911
01:25:43,054 --> 01:25:46,015
go to work, one, go to bed ...

912
01:25:46,766 --> 01:25:48,852
Two.

913
01:25:49,435 --> 01:25:52,522
Two, genius, two.

914
01:25:53,690 --> 01:25:58,361
But when one plus one equals three, that's when your life changes

915
01:25:58,945 --> 01:26:00,780
and you see everything new.

916
01:26:01,614 --> 01:26:05,243
And these are the days when you are visited by a vision ...

917
01:26:06,035 --> 01:26:08,580
when the world around you bring down the spirit,

918
01:26:08,663 --> 01:26:10,957
and you feel blessed to live.

919
01:26:12,542 --> 01:26:15,420
This is an important equation of love.

920
01:26:15,503 --> 01:26:18,923
There is no love without one plus one equals three.

921
01:26:19,007 --> 01:26:21,509
This is an important equation of art.

922
01:26:21,593 --> 01:26:23,970
This is an important equation of rock 'n' roll.

923
01:26:24,053 --> 01:26:28,141
That's the reason the universe would not fully understood.

924
01:26:28,224 --> 01:26:33,188
That's the reason "Louie Louie" will not be fully understood.

925
01:26:35,440 --> 01:26:38,026
And that's the true reason rock 'n' roll

926
01:26:38,109 --> 01:26:41,988
and true rock 'n' roll band will never die.

927
01:28:18,209 --> 01:28:21,879
Now, Gary, Danny Little Steven, Mighty Max, Professor Roy,

928
01:28:21,963 --> 01:28:26,634
Nils Lofgren, Patti Scialfa, who is one of my plus one equals ...

929
01:28:26,718 --> 01:28:30,221
- Three! - Excellent, grasshopper.

930
01:28:32,098 --> 01:28:34,642
But none of my audience's imagination

931
01:28:34,726 --> 01:28:36,644
or their hearts like Clarence.

932
01:28:42,066 --> 01:28:43,359
Clarence is ...

933
01:28:44,068 --> 01:28:46,988
Clarence is a figure out of the rock 'n' roll story books,

934
01:28:47,071 --> 01:28:50,325
and together, we tell a story that is bigger than ...

935
01:28:50,950 --> 01:28:53,411
whatever I write in my songs.

936
01:28:53,494 --> 01:28:57,040
It is a story in which, not only did the Scooter and the Big Man

937
01:28:57,123 --> 01:28:58,708
Bust the city in half ...

938
01:28:59,584 --> 01:29:01,377
but we remade the city.

939
01:29:02,337 --> 01:29:05,048
We remade the city, shaping it into the kind of place

940
01:29:05,131 --> 01:29:09,802
where our friendship and our love for each other

941
01:29:11,220 --> 01:29:13,556
never as a matter of course.

942
01:29:15,099 --> 01:29:18,019
The first night I saw Clarence, he came walking out of the shadows

943
01:29:18,102 --> 01:29:19,312
toward the stage,

944
01:29:19,395 --> 01:29:24,192
nodded to me, get up, stand up on my right side for the first time.

945
01:29:24,442 --> 01:29:26,486
He takes his saxophone.

946
01:29:27,445 --> 01:29:29,072
And when he played ...

947
01:29:36,412 --> 01:29:39,665
While he was playing, he whispered in my ear story.

948
01:29:42,585 --> 01:29:44,962
And then we whisper into your ear.

949
01:29:47,548 --> 01:29:50,718
And we bring together for a long time ...

950
01:29:53,179 --> 01:29:54,931
a very good time.

951
01:29:57,475 --> 01:29:59,936
The Big Man is great.

952
01:30:01,145 --> 01:30:02,897
Everything about him.

953
01:30:03,398 --> 01:30:06,984
his personality, his size, his laugh ...

954
01:30:07,568 --> 01:30:09,779
His saxophone sound.

955
01:30:10,613 --> 01:30:14,158
When I first heard it, I thought it was the greatest sound I've ever heard.

956
01:30:15,618 --> 01:30:16,869
And that is.

957
01:30:18,371 --> 01:30:23,334
and his heart problem, they were great.

958
01:30:27,380 --> 01:30:29,924
But it is the element of my life.

959
01:30:32,218 --> 01:30:34,720
And losing him like losing the rain.

960
01:30:53,739 --> 01:30:55,992
If my mystical ...

961
01:30:56,742 --> 01:30:59,620
If I mystical, I guess Clarence and my friendship

962
01:30:59,704 --> 01:31:03,082
would lead me to believe that we-- we stand together

963
01:31:03,166 --> 01:31:04,709
at other times older.

964
01:31:05,918 --> 01:31:07,003
You know, in the, uh ...

965
01:31:07,503 --> 01:31:08,880
in another life.

966
01:31:10,089 --> 01:31:11,632
Along other rivers.

967
01:31:13,885 --> 01:31:15,678
In other ancient cities.

968
01:31:16,804 --> 01:31:18,347
In other fields ...

969
01:31:19,390 --> 01:31:21,225
working side by side,

970
01:31:22,643 --> 01:31:24,187
at sunset,

971
01:31:25,521 --> 01:31:28,191
doing our modest version of the Lord's work.

972
01:31:34,572 --> 01:31:36,824
I'll see you in the next life, Big Man.

973
01:32:30,294 --> 01:32:33,714
Ladies and gentlemen, let's hear it for the greatest people you will ever see.

974
01:32:36,300 --> 01:32:41,138
Clarence "Big Man" Clemons!

975
01:32:46,185 --> 01:32:48,145
And legendary ...

976
01:32:50,815 --> 01:32:54,527
- E ... - Street Band!

977
01:32:55,695 --> 01:32:56,654
There he is!

978
01:33:18,926 --> 01:33:23,472
Okay, okay, she is the queen of my heart!

979
01:33:24,807 --> 01:33:27,184
He is my beauty lit up!

980
01:33:27,560 --> 01:33:30,021
- Patricia! - My Jersey gadis.

981
01:33:30,396 --> 01:33:31,939
He is a great songwriter.

982
01:33:32,023 --> 01:33:34,442
He is one of the most beautiful sound I've ever heard.

983
01:33:34,525 --> 01:33:37,862
She's smart, tough ... but fragile.

984
01:33:39,280 --> 01:33:40,698
Do not forget that part.

985
01:33:40,781 --> 01:33:43,909
If we love people in the company that reflects the best of us,

986
01:33:43,993 --> 01:33:46,245
That is the light that he shines on me.

987
01:33:46,537 --> 01:33:49,790
In 1984 one night, I was hanging out at the Stone Pony

988
01:33:49,874 --> 01:33:54,879
and this beautiful redhead appeared, sat down with the band Sunday night home.

989
01:33:55,379 --> 01:33:58,549
And that was the night I fell in love with the sound of Patti.

990
01:33:58,633 --> 01:34:01,093
He went on stage, this blaze of red.

991
01:34:01,177 --> 01:34:04,972
She performed a great version of the hit song The exciters' 'Tell him.'

992
01:34:05,348 --> 01:34:12,063
So the first line of the first song I ever heard that Patti is ...

993
01:34:19,487 --> 01:34:22,531
She did. Ladies and gentlemen, Patti Scialfa.

994
01:34:36,295 --> 01:34:37,380
thanks.

995
01:39:14,281 --> 01:39:15,783
Yes, believe ...

996
01:39:17,076 --> 01:39:19,703
Trust in a relationship is a fragile thing.

997
01:39:20,955 --> 01:39:23,916
Uh ... Always be a little complicated for me

998
01:39:23,999 --> 01:39:26,377
because trust takes letting others

999
01:39:27,544 --> 01:39:31,548
to see ourselves as real as we have the courage to reveal.

1000
01:39:32,758 --> 01:39:34,051
But, I mean, uh ...

1001
01:39:34,885 --> 01:39:37,429
I do not want to see my real self. Why should...?

1002
01:39:38,305 --> 01:39:41,809
- Why would anyone want to? - You know? But...

1003
01:39:41,892 --> 01:39:45,646
But it means allowing others to see behind the many masks,

1004
01:39:46,313 --> 01:39:49,108
masks we wear, to overcome that fear.

1005
01:39:49,984 --> 01:39:52,987
Or rather, to learn how to love and how to believe in spite of it.

1006
01:39:53,737 --> 01:39:55,447
That takes a bit of courage ...

1007
01:39:56,115 --> 01:39:57,908
and a very strong partner.

1008
01:39:58,867 --> 01:40:00,953
Because in this life, you make your choice,

1009
01:40:01,036 --> 01:40:02,204
You take your position,

1010
01:40:02,287 --> 01:40:05,541
and you wake up from the spell of immortality young

1011
01:40:05,624 --> 01:40:08,419
where it feels like the road will last forever.

1012
01:40:09,837 --> 01:40:15,634
And you walk with your partner selected by the clock is ticking.

1013
01:40:16,635 --> 01:40:21,473
And you realize that life is finite, that you have so much time.

1014
01:40:22,057 --> 01:40:23,475
And together ...

1015
01:40:24,184 --> 01:40:27,771
You name things that will give your life at that time its meaning,

1016
01:40:29,064 --> 01:40:32,735
its purpose, its fullness, it is reality.

1017
01:40:33,944 --> 01:40:36,947
And this is what you build together. This is...

1018
01:40:38,198 --> 01:40:40,284
what you love consists of.

1019
01:40:41,160 --> 01:40:42,911
This is what you ...

1020
01:40:44,329 --> 01:40:46,373
This is your life, you know?

1021
01:40:47,332 --> 01:40:50,586
And these are things that you can hold

1022
01:40:51,253 --> 01:40:52,880
when the storm comes,

1023
01:40:54,298 --> 01:40:55,466
because they will.

1024
01:45:28,447 --> 01:45:30,198
Patti Scialfa!

1025
01:45:31,867 --> 01:45:33,577
Dia badass a!

1026
01:45:44,755 --> 01:45:47,132
Will add this song to set our night.

1027
01:45:48,050 --> 01:45:52,804
Well, these are the last days of the first pregnancy Patti.

1028
01:45:53,555 --> 01:45:58,477
I received a surprise visit from my dad at my house in LA.

1029
01:45:58,560 --> 01:46:01,438
You know, he had driven 500 miles, without notice,

1030
01:46:02,022 --> 01:46:03,523
to knock on my door.

1031
01:46:04,608 --> 01:46:05,859
That's his style.

1032
01:46:06,485 --> 01:46:08,487
So at 11:00 am, we sat

1033
01:46:08,570 --> 01:46:11,907
in the sunlit dining room and we are nursing a beer in the morning.

1034
01:46:13,241 --> 01:46:15,327
That's his style.

1035
01:46:15,410 --> 01:46:17,746
It's my dad breakfast champion.

1036
01:46:18,789 --> 01:46:24,294
When my father, never a man to talk, right, exclaiming,

1037
01:46:25,045 --> 01:46:26,630
"You've been very good to us."

1038
01:46:27,798 --> 01:46:31,551
And I nodded that I had, you know? And, uh ...

1039
01:46:33,178 --> 01:46:36,098
And then he said, "and I was not very good for you."

1040
01:46:39,059 --> 01:46:41,728
And the room just ...

1041
01:46:44,815 --> 01:46:46,942
well, stand still ...

1042
01:46:48,110 --> 01:46:52,239
as a shock to me, unacknowledgeable being recognized.

1043
01:46:52,322 --> 01:46:53,156
If I...

1044
01:46:54,199 --> 01:46:57,160
If I did not know better, I would swear an apology ...

1045
01:46:58,120 --> 01:47:00,080
of some sort is being made.

1046
01:47:01,081 --> 01:47:02,249
And that is.

1047
01:47:03,333 --> 01:47:06,503
Here, in the last days, before I ...

1048
01:47:07,838 --> 01:47:11,299
to become a father, my father visited me ...

1049
01:47:12,717 --> 01:47:15,220
to warn me about the mistakes he made,

1050
01:47:16,054 --> 01:47:19,057
and to warn me not to make them with my own children.

1051
01:47:20,559 --> 01:47:24,020
To free them from the chains of our sins,

1052
01:47:24,104 --> 01:47:27,399
My father and I and our fathers before.                             

1053
01:47:28,733 --> 01:47:30,444
That they may be free ...

1054
01:47:31,153 --> 01:47:34,364
to make their own choices and to live their own lives.

1055
01:47:36,241 --> 01:47:41,329
We are a ghost or we are fathers in the lives of our children.

1056
01:47:42,247 --> 01:47:46,084
We both lay our fault, we load them

1057
01:47:46,543 --> 01:47:47,961
and we haunt them.

1058
01:47:49,129 --> 01:47:52,632
Or we help them in place under the old burdens,

1059
01:47:52,966 --> 01:47:57,554
and we freed them from the chains of our own flawed behavior.

1060
01:47:58,763 --> 01:48:02,559
And like ancestors, we walk with them,

1061
01:48:03,268 --> 01:48:06,062
and we help them to find their own way

1062
01:48:06,688 --> 01:48:08,440
and some transcendence.

1063
01:48:09,608 --> 01:48:11,026
My father ...

1064
01:48:12,611 --> 01:48:16,364
on that day was petitioned me

1065
01:48:17,240 --> 01:48:20,285
to the role of ancestors in my life

1066
01:48:20,368 --> 01:48:24,706
after becoming a ghost for a very long time.

1067
01:48:25,957 --> 01:48:30,754
He wanted me to write a new ending to our relationship,

1068
01:48:31,046 --> 01:48:34,841
and he wanted me ready for a new start

1069
01:48:35,759 --> 01:48:37,969
that I would experience.

1070
01:48:42,599 --> 01:48:45,519
It was the greatest moment of my life with my father.

1071
01:48:46,353 --> 01:48:48,188
And that's all I needed.

1072
01:48:56,321 --> 01:48:58,198
Ya.

1073
01:52:47,802 --> 01:52:48,887
All right.

1074
01:52:49,888 --> 01:52:52,599
I never believed that people come to my shows

1075
01:52:52,682 --> 01:52:55,477
or for rock shows in general to be told anything.

1076
01:52:57,896 --> 01:52:58,730
But...

1077
01:52:59,481 --> 01:53:02,108
I believe that they came to be reminded of things,

1078
01:53:02,192 --> 01:53:04,986
reminded of who they are at their most encouraging,

1079
01:53:05,069 --> 01:53:07,322
in their deepest when life feels full.

1080
01:53:07,864 --> 01:53:10,408
This is a good place to connect with your heart and your spirit.

1081
01:53:10,492 --> 01:53:12,285
It's great to be among the crowd,

1082
01:53:12,869 --> 01:53:15,622
reminded of who we are and who we can collectively.

1083
01:53:15,705 --> 01:53:17,916
Music do things pretty well.

1084
01:53:18,458 --> 01:53:21,669
Sometimes, they can come in very handy.

1085
01:53:22,587 --> 01:53:24,964
And especially today, when some warned

1086
01:53:25,548 --> 01:53:28,426
of who we are and who we can is not a bad thing.

1087
01:53:28,510 --> 01:53:29,552
You know?

1088
01:53:36,810 --> 01:53:40,730
I-- I refer back to the weekend of March for Our Lives

1089
01:53:40,814 --> 01:53:43,233
when we look at all the young people in Washington,

1090
01:53:43,316 --> 01:53:45,318
and citizens across the country,

1091
01:53:45,401 --> 01:53:48,029
remind us of what faith in America

1092
01:53:48,112 --> 01:53:50,698
and what real faith in American democracy

1093
01:53:51,241 --> 01:53:53,201
and how sacred it.

1094
01:54:00,416 --> 01:54:01,543
You know...

1095
01:54:02,752 --> 01:54:07,298
weekend, you only see what actually looks and feels like.

1096
01:54:07,882 --> 01:54:09,467
It only encourages

1097
01:54:10,093 --> 01:54:12,428
to see all the people out on the street

1098
01:54:12,512 --> 01:54:16,599
and all the passion of true life in the service of something good.

1099
01:54:17,517 --> 01:54:19,185
To see it still there,

1100
01:54:20,186 --> 01:54:22,939
in the center of the heartbeat of our country ...

1101
01:54:24,148 --> 01:54:25,233
and...

1102
01:54:26,901 --> 01:54:29,946
regardless of what we have been through. And it was a good day, you know?

1103
01:54:30,029 --> 01:54:31,239
That is only...

1104
01:54:31,948 --> 01:54:33,741
it was just a good day.

1105
01:54:34,784 --> 01:54:36,744
But it is a necessary day.

1106
01:54:37,370 --> 01:54:40,790
Since this is the moment when we also saw people lined up,

1107
01:54:40,874 --> 01:54:46,045
and in the highest offices of our land, who wanted to speak with our dark angel,

1108
01:54:46,379 --> 01:54:50,091
you want to call the ugliest and most divisive specter

1109
01:54:50,174 --> 01:54:53,928
America's past. And they want to destroy the idea

1110
01:54:54,012 --> 01:54:56,764
of America for all. It was their intention.

1111
01:54:57,307 --> 01:54:59,517
That which we have seen, in anger

1112
01:54:59,601 --> 01:55:01,978
broken families on the border,

1113
01:55:02,061 --> 01:55:07,191
and hateful parade in the streets of America this year.

1114
01:55:07,567 --> 01:55:13,364
Things I never thought I would see again in my life.

1115
01:55:13,448 --> 01:55:17,327
Things that I thought was dead and gone ...

1116
01:55:18,036 --> 01:55:21,331
forever, in the ash heap of history.

1117
01:55:22,123 --> 01:55:23,249
You know...

1118
01:55:24,626 --> 01:55:26,920
We have come too far and worked too hard,

1119
01:55:27,003 --> 01:55:30,590
Too many people are either paying too high a price,

1120
01:55:31,132 --> 01:55:35,678
paid with their lives, to allow this to happen now.

1121
01:55:36,846 --> 01:55:38,723
You know...

1122
01:55:39,641 --> 01:55:42,936
There has been too much hard work done,

1123
01:55:43,853 --> 01:55:45,146
and sacrifice.

1124
01:55:46,940 --> 01:55:48,858
There is a wonderful quote by Dr. king

1125
01:55:48,942 --> 01:55:51,027
who said, "The arc of the moral universe is long,

1126
01:55:51,110 --> 01:55:52,737
but bent toward justice. "

1127
01:55:53,488 --> 01:55:57,533
It is important to believe in the word and to bring themselves

1128
01:55:58,117 --> 01:56:01,454
and to act accordingly, to live with compassion.

1129
01:56:02,455 --> 01:56:05,166
And have faith that what we see now,

1130
01:56:05,750 --> 01:56:07,627
The chapters are hard ...

1131
01:56:08,544 --> 01:56:11,464
in a long, long, ongoing battle

1132
01:56:12,465 --> 01:56:14,175
for the soul of the nation.

1133
02:05:24,934 --> 02:05:28,437
I always-- I always thought I was a typical American,

1134
02:05:28,521 --> 02:05:31,857
and so I fought all my life, and I learned and I play

1135
02:05:31,941 --> 02:05:33,734
and my work,

1136
02:05:33,817 --> 02:05:37,404
Because I wanted to hear and I want to know the whole story of America.

1137
02:05:38,489 --> 02:05:41,825
I wanted to know my story and your story.

1138
02:05:42,743 --> 02:05:45,538
I feel like I need to understand as much as I can

1139
02:05:45,621 --> 02:05:47,581
to understand myself.

1140
02:05:48,290 --> 02:05:50,334
You know? Who am I? And...

1141
02:05:51,627 --> 02:05:54,046
where I come from and what it means.

1142
02:05:54,880 --> 02:05:58,300
What does it mean for my family? Where would I?

1143
02:05:59,426 --> 02:06:01,762
Where we will be together as a people?                             

1144
02:06:02,346 --> 02:06:05,474
And- and what it means to be an American?

1145
02:06:05,975 --> 02:06:11,689
And become part of the story in this place and at this time.

1146
02:06:12,815 --> 02:06:16,193
I want to be able to celebrate and honor the beauty,

1147
02:06:17,570 --> 02:06:18,779
strength.

1148
02:06:19,697 --> 02:06:21,949
And I want to be a critical voice

1149
02:06:22,032 --> 02:06:24,910
when I think that that is referred to.

1150
02:06:25,536 --> 02:06:26,954
But most of all,

1151
02:06:27,037 --> 02:06:31,000
More than anything, I want to be able to tell a good story for you.

1152
02:06:32,418 --> 02:06:34,920
That young promise to myself.

1153
02:06:35,588 --> 02:06:37,756
And this is the promise of my youth to you.

1154
02:06:38,215 --> 02:06:40,426
From when I was very young,

1155
02:06:41,176 --> 02:06:43,262
I take very seriously my delight.

1156
02:06:43,345 --> 02:06:45,180
You know?

1157
02:06:45,264 --> 02:06:47,975
And this is what I pursue as my ministry.

1158
02:06:48,058 --> 02:06:51,937
I still believe that. This is what I presented to you

1159
02:06:52,021 --> 02:06:55,524
many years as a long prayer and my noisy,

1160
02:06:55,608 --> 02:06:58,986
as my magic tricks.

1161
02:07:04,950 --> 02:07:06,201
I want...

1162
02:07:06,952 --> 02:07:10,414
I want to rock your soul!

1163
02:07:10,914 --> 02:07:14,960
And you take it home and spread it and ...

1164
02:07:15,544 --> 02:07:20,549
I want sung and modified by you and your people and your children,

1165
02:07:20,633 --> 02:07:21,967
should they be interested.

1166
02:07:22,885 --> 02:07:25,429
I want to be something that you can call

1167
02:07:25,512 --> 02:07:27,181
when things are good.

1168
02:07:28,140 --> 02:07:29,016
And, uh ...

1169
02:07:29,975 --> 02:07:31,894
and when things are not so good.

1170
02:07:32,811 --> 02:07:36,523
You know, that might strengthen, helping to make sense ...

1171
02:07:37,149 --> 02:07:40,569
Your story and your life the way you strengthen me and help me

1172
02:07:40,653 --> 02:07:43,614
to make sense of my life. You provide me with a purpose,

1173
02:07:44,239 --> 02:07:47,868
with meaning and with a great amount of joy.

1174
02:07:48,369 --> 02:07:49,828
I hope I've done it for you

1175
02:07:49,912 --> 02:07:52,373
and that I've become a good traveling companion.

1176
02:07:56,960 --> 02:08:01,548
Remember that the future is not yet written.

1177
02:08:02,049 --> 02:08:07,680
So, when things look dark, do as the mighty mother I would insist,

1178
02:08:08,097 --> 02:08:11,975
lace your dancing shoes and start working.

1179
02:10:12,763 --> 02:10:14,640
There's a joke here somewhere.

1180
02:10:15,849 --> 02:10:17,935
When I find out, I'll tell you.

1181
02:15:48,849 --> 02:15:50,142
Whoo!

1182
02:16:12,789 --> 02:16:14,082
thanks.

1183
02:16:14,416 --> 02:16:15,667
Please...

1184
02:16:16,251 --> 02:16:19,045
sit.

1185
02:16:19,713 --> 02:16:23,592
It was a beautiful autumn evening November. It was during the writing of my book.

1186
02:16:23,967 --> 02:16:26,678
I drove back to my neighborhood where I grew up,

1187
02:16:27,554 --> 02:16:28,889
look, uh ...

1188
02:16:31,850 --> 02:16:33,560
I still do not have a fucking clue.

1189
02:16:33,643 --> 02:16:35,353
All right?

1190
02:16:35,437 --> 02:16:36,771
But, uh ...

1191
02:16:37,689 --> 02:16:39,774
All I know is the streets are dead empty

1192
02:16:39,858 --> 02:16:44,529
and the whole place looked like it had been locked since 1955.

1193
02:16:45,447 --> 02:16:47,782
Church corner and I still did not change,

1194
02:16:47,866 --> 02:16:50,118
no weddings, no funerals. I...

1195
02:16:50,577 --> 02:16:53,455
slowly rolled another 50 yards on my block

1196
02:16:53,538 --> 02:16:56,208
to visit my large trees, and it was gone.

1197
02:16:57,584 --> 02:17:02,005
It was cut to the road since the last time I passed.

1198
02:17:02,797 --> 02:17:06,176
So I got out of the car and I looked down and there was ...

1199
02:17:06,927 --> 02:17:11,097
musty earth square which holds the remaining snakes from the roots

1200
02:17:11,181 --> 02:17:13,058
on the edge of the parking lot.

1201
02:17:13,516 --> 02:17:16,728
So I reached down and I picked up a handful of dirt

1202
02:17:17,103 --> 02:17:19,522
and I just kind of ran through my hands.

1203
02:17:20,774 --> 02:17:23,151
And my heart sank as ...

1204
02:17:24,110 --> 02:17:26,947
such as children who have suffered some losses can be fixed.

1205
02:17:27,030 --> 02:17:28,448
You know, like some ...

1206
02:17:29,824 --> 02:17:32,827
some part of me away.

1207
02:17:34,913 --> 02:17:36,206
A ...

1208
02:17:38,416 --> 02:17:40,835
I do not know. I guess I ...

1209
02:17:43,338 --> 02:17:46,091
It's just that existed long before me.

1210
02:17:46,174 --> 02:17:49,177
I suspect this is going to be there long after I'm gone.

1211
02:17:49,261 --> 02:17:51,054
And I like it.

1212
02:17:51,846 --> 02:17:53,723
Modifiers was immortal.

1213
02:17:54,307 --> 02:17:58,687
It was at the center of our street and it is rooted

1214
02:17:59,854 --> 02:18:03,817
Our environment is so long.

1215
02:18:04,734 --> 02:18:07,821
So I sat there for a while just to condemn county.

1216
02:18:08,655 --> 02:18:11,157
And listen to the night comes,

1217
02:18:11,241 --> 02:18:14,244
and I looked again and I realized it was missing, but some ...

1218
02:18:15,245 --> 02:18:17,497
some important part of it is still there,

1219
02:18:17,580 --> 02:18:20,166
and the air space above the roots.

1220
02:18:20,792 --> 02:18:25,005
I can still feel the life and soul and light

1221
02:18:25,964 --> 02:18:28,174
My childhood friend there.

1222
02:18:29,467 --> 02:18:32,429
Only the leaves, branches and trunks of enormous

1223
02:18:32,512 --> 02:18:36,599
now described, shot through,

1224
02:18:37,392 --> 02:18:40,103
by the stars at night and the sky.

1225
02:18:41,271 --> 02:18:45,483
But the great tree of life I can not end or be removed so easily

1226
02:18:46,234 --> 02:18:48,361
from this place, because it's history,

1227
02:18:49,154 --> 02:18:50,488
and historical things.

1228
02:18:51,531 --> 02:18:53,450
footprint was too big.

1229
02:18:53,533 --> 02:18:57,495
It was too old and was too strong, and it's been there too long ...

1230
02:18:58,413 --> 02:19:00,415
should be done away with so easily.

1231
02:19:00,498 --> 02:19:02,125
It has stood witness

1232
02:19:02,959 --> 02:19:07,881
for all that has happened in the small streets under the arm.

1233
02:19:08,590 --> 02:19:09,883
All joy ...

1234
02:19:11,134 --> 02:19:12,677
and all heartbroken.

1235
02:19:14,304 --> 02:19:15,764
And all life.

1236
02:19:18,308 --> 02:19:23,396
And we live in a ghost, always trying to reach us ...

1237
02:19:25,732 --> 02:19:27,400
of that shadow world.

1238
02:19:28,360 --> 02:19:30,570
They were with us every step of the way.

1239
02:19:31,780 --> 02:19:34,282
You know, still his father who had died with me every day.

1240
02:19:34,366 --> 02:19:36,785
I miss him, and if I have a craving ...

1241
02:19:38,286 --> 02:19:39,746
Oh man...

1242
02:19:41,748 --> 02:19:44,167
I wish he could be here to see this.

1243
02:19:47,962 --> 02:19:50,882
But I visit with him every night.

1244
02:19:52,050 --> 02:19:55,011
A little. That is something that is full of grace.

1245
02:19:55,095 --> 02:19:56,930
And Clarence, I can ...

1246
02:19:57,931 --> 02:20:01,226
I could see and Clarence bit every night.

1247
02:20:02,602 --> 02:20:03,895
Then Danny ...

1248
02:20:04,562 --> 02:20:05,605
walter,

1249
02:20:06,731 --> 02:20:07,774
Bart.

1250
02:20:07,857 --> 02:20:10,568
my own family, so many of them go ...

1251
02:20:11,361 --> 02:20:15,240
of these houses are now filled by foreigners, but the soul ...

1252
02:20:15,907 --> 02:20:17,742
soul is stubborn.

1253
02:20:18,993 --> 02:20:21,204
It did not disappear so quickly.

1254
02:20:21,287 --> 02:20:22,956
The soul remains.

1255
02:20:24,040 --> 02:20:26,042
They remain here in the air,

1256
02:20:26,668 --> 02:20:28,211
in an empty room,

1257
02:20:28,920 --> 02:20:30,296
dusty roots,

1258
02:20:31,089 --> 02:20:33,675
on the sidewalk as I know every single inch

1259
02:20:33,758 --> 02:20:35,635
like I know my own body

1260
02:20:36,261 --> 02:20:37,429
as a child ...

1261
02:20:39,514 --> 02:20:41,766
and in the songs we sing.

1262
02:20:44,853 --> 02:20:47,772
You know ... That's why we sing.

1263
02:20:49,566 --> 02:20:52,527
We sang for us and for the blood of our people.

1264
02:20:54,404 --> 02:20:57,532
Because it's all we have at the end of the day.

1265
02:21:01,703 --> 02:21:03,121
Each other, and ...

1266
02:21:03,746 --> 02:21:06,207
maybe that's what I was looking for when I go there.

1267
02:21:06,291 --> 02:21:08,042
I just want to communicate ...

1268
02:21:09,043 --> 02:21:10,628
with the old spirit,

1269
02:21:11,713 --> 02:21:13,465
standing in front of them,

1270
02:21:14,007 --> 02:21:15,925
feel their hands on me ...

1271
02:21:23,516 --> 02:21:24,893
one more time.

1272
02:21:28,646 --> 02:21:32,233
Anyway, once again, I stood in the shadow of my old church, you know?

1273
02:21:32,317 --> 02:21:34,611
You know what they say about Catholics?

1274
02:21:35,778 --> 02:21:38,865
Yes, there is no exit.

1275
02:21:38,948 --> 02:21:42,577
No, no. You know, once they get you, they got you.

1276
02:21:42,660 --> 02:21:45,497
Asshole gets you when the gettin 'was good.

1277
02:21:46,080 --> 02:21:49,042
They are doing their hard work and they do it well.

1278
02:21:50,835 --> 02:21:54,839
'Cause the words were very strange but all too familiar blessing

1279
02:21:54,923 --> 02:21:57,800
come back to me that night.

1280
02:21:58,468 --> 02:22:01,095
And I want to tell you, these are the words that as a child,

1281
02:22:01,179 --> 02:22:04,599
I murmured these things, I singsonged them,

1282
02:22:04,682 --> 02:22:08,895
I ... shout them, bored out of my fucking mind

1283
02:22:08,978 --> 02:22:11,898
the endless drone before class

1284
02:22:11,981 --> 02:22:15,568
every damn day.

1285
02:22:15,652 --> 02:22:19,489
Every day, a green blazer, a green tie, green pants,

1286
02:22:19,572 --> 02:22:23,993
green socks all the students did not want St. Rose.

1287
02:22:28,081 --> 02:22:29,165
You know?

1288
02:22:29,666 --> 02:22:31,626
But for some reason fucking

1289
02:22:32,669 --> 02:22:35,880
as I sat there in my path that night,

1290
02:22:37,465 --> 02:22:41,177
You know, grieving, mourning my old tree,

1291
02:22:42,136 --> 02:22:44,889
and once again surrounded by God,

1292
02:22:46,516 --> 02:22:49,894
those were the words that came back to me and they are different flows.

1293
02:22:52,939 --> 02:22:56,442
The "Our Father in heaven, hallowed be your name,

1294
02:22:56,776 --> 02:22:58,319
Thy kingdom come,

1295
02:22:59,612 --> 02:23:01,823
Thy will be done on Earth

1296
02:23:02,574 --> 02:23:04,033
like in Heaven.

1297
02:23:05,243 --> 02:23:07,161
Give us today.

1298
02:23:07,996 --> 02:23:10,582
Just give us today, and forgive us

1299
02:23:11,583 --> 02:23:14,127
our sins, our sins,

1300
02:23:14,210 --> 02:23:17,547
as we can forgive those who trespass against us.

1301
02:23:17,964 --> 02:23:21,676
Lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil,

1302
02:23:22,093 --> 02:23:23,386
we all,

1303
02:23:24,804 --> 02:23:26,806
forever. Amen. "

1304
02:23:35,315 --> 02:23:40,111
May God bless you, your family, and everyone you love.

1305
02:23:40,737 --> 02:23:42,739
And thank you for coming this evening.                             

1306
02:27:56,868 --> 02:27:59,871
thanks.

1307
02:27:56,868 --> 02:27:59,871
thanks.