Let's be honest with ourselves.
I think we always know this won't work.
Carter...
... I love you.
Very much.
In one way, I love you and I don't want to hurt you.
Carter, you have to say something.
We haven't stopped talking since the day we met.
Sorry. Do you...?
you. Your Sofia Bu uel.
Oh, God. We, like, you are the biggest fan ever.
I've seen sprawl, like, one million, zillion times. I own a DVD.
It's really sweet. thanks.
- Can I get your signature? - Well, yeah, sure.
Just writing, "For Todd.
You are a sad homo and I will never get with you."
OK. Yeah.
Thank you.
Listen to...
... I heard what you said.
But you have to hear me.
All I know is that I need space.
I don't know what will happen.
Maybe, in the end, who knows? Anyone knows.
But now, I want you to give me space.
Good. I want to do that. I want to give you all the space you need.
I'm just - I don't want you to break up with me.
- I have to go now. - Please, will you just -?
Don't you leave me here like this? Will you stay and talk a little?
I can't.
See you later.
You have one message heard.
The following message has never been heard.
It's Avi. I read your script last night.
You know, this should be a premium erotic soft ---
Hey.
What are you doing here?
I just came to get some...
And I want some...
Are you -? Are you crying?
Oh, a little. I just talked to my mother.
I think he's got a big, big problem.
He hasn't really shot on all cylinders.
No, he is sure that he is dying.
- Is he sick? - I don't think so.
The doctor cannot find something is wrong with him.
But hearing the sound was so scared and helpless, I just -
I feel very sorry for him.
After all, I will fly out there in the next few days and deal with it.
I have to go there.
- I'll go to Michigan. I'll stay with Grandma. - How about your work?
I wrote soft-core porn. I can do it from Michigan.
It doesn't really require extraordinary effort.
Besides that it will give me the opportunity to write that the thing that I have long wanted to write.
About Genghis Khan?
- No, that's another thing. - About your school?
Don't say it like that, because it sounds stupid.
You have said you will since you were 15.
The only way I'm really going to do it...
... is if I leave L.A., away from my life.
Wonder how Sofia's will feel that?
I think he will be happy. He just broke up with me.
Sofia dumped me.
Are you kidding me? When?
Half an hour ago. In traffic.
- Maybe this is just a - - No
It's over. She's gone.
Oh, damn it. Shit.
- Please continue together? - Unbelievable.
I just can't handle you acting like this is the end of the world.
I'm sorry, honey. Sorry.
It's just that she's so beautiful. He is very funny and nice, huh.
Oh, Carter, oh, God, I'm sorry.
dear, how are you? Are you okay?
No
I know this will sound like something you said...
... but that's true, you will be fine.
I mean, these things, you know, takes time.
Sometimes it's a very long time.
I mean, I'm still trying to forget Rodney Portchnik...
... and that is 12 classes.
Don't say that Portchnik Rodney's story, please.
I'm just saying that you will be fine.
Women are always interested in you, Carter, since you were little.
And one day when you don't expect it, you will meet a really great girl.
I don't want to meet a really great girl.
I don't want to meet anyone. I just want to be alone with my grandmother...
... and the cat.
You're really weird.
Will you be out tonight?
No Maybe. Why?
It's Friday night.
You will come out with Gabe Foley, no?
Shut up.
I have to live through you. I'm too young to have my own life.
Yes, we still don't talk about this.
Whatever. Like that.
Lucy? I'm in the kitchen.
How was your day?
Good. What's up?
None.
Well, something, actually. This is not a big problem, though.
Then can you wait? Because there are some things I have to do.
I went to see Dr. Bennett today.
Why?
I found kind of mediocre...
... a lump in the breast.
- Oh, God. - We don't know anything yet.
It's very possible that it can be anything. And even if it is something...
... it's still possible - It can only do anything.
Mom...
So your father will take me to Ann Arbor on Tuesday morning...
... for several tests.
- I have to come with you. - No
No L - I just want you to go to school.
Okay, we won't treat this like anything big until...
OK?
Yeah.
Lucy...
... everything will be fine.
Really.
Hi, Grandma.
Whoa, Grandma. Grandmother. It's me, it's Carter. It's your grandson.
Agnes is my mother, also your daughter. Hey.
I can't believe I'm still alive.
I can't believe I live to see your face again.
Thank you. I'm happy too...
... even though I might won't make it like that.
Do you think I can enter?
- Through the door. - Okay.
- Where is the cat? - Dead.
- Can you cook? - A little.
I haven't eaten anything in three weeks.
- Really? - I have some pasta.
OK.
When I die...
... do you want this house?
- I'm sure it's not that simple. - It's my home.
I can give it to anyone I choose.
Well, then, thank you. I think we will see.
I'm starving.
- Hello? - Hey, I'm here.
Thank you God. Carter, this is the worst idea You've been in your life.
I know. You mentioned that several times.
- Okay, I'll come. - No, you don't.
Listen, let's try it, okay?
I still think this can be exactly what I need now.
Just kind of regroup and go inside -
Someone is calling for you.
- Hello? - Carter? Whether it's you?
- Avi? - I'm in the hills now.
- Damn, my service sucks. - How did you get this number?
I have a way. Your mother gave it to me.
Listen, we have an emergency. We have to talk now.
You gave him a number? Now I have to do this. I'll call again later.
I'm walking on the set.
Listen, character, Monica, is sexually compulsive, okay?
Because of a traumatic childhood, is stimulated by illicit sex.
This is the only way he can orgasm, that's it.
That's just a phase. You can handle it.
Grandma, will you hang up, please?
Where are you?
I'm out of town for a few days, okay? I can't talk now.
I will get you a new script Monday or Tuesday.
Listen, alright, it must have a scene...
... where hot police rookie has to go down ---
Hey, buddy. My grandmother is on the phone.
God.
Grandma, I'm not leaving you. I just arrived here three hours ago.
- I'll install an alarm. - No, I won't use an alarm.
- Why not? - Because I'll be back soon.
Thank you very much.
- Bozo. - Sorry?
The dog's name is Bozo.
Oh, hi.
Hey, Bozo.
You must be from a nursing home. Do you take care of Phyllis?
No, he really is my grandmother.
Your grandmother.
I don't know he has a child or grandchild.
Yeah, we can't go out visiting too often, so...
- Where are you from? - L.A.
Oh, Los Angeles. I was there once, for a long time.
- Yeah. Well, you know, it got a bad name. - Oh, I like it. I like it very much.
I'm Sarah.
Carter. Nice to meet you.
So, you can finally spend with grandma, huh? That is good.
Yeah. I think I might stay for a while, actually.
See if we can't imagine some arrangements where I sort of take care of him.
He's a handful.
I know. I'm a little worried about that.
- Well, don't worry. - Not?
This will sound strange, but my parents don't know that I smoke...
... so I want to know if you can't...
Do you have cigarettes for you now?
No
Maybe. Why?
Therefore I will take the hostage.
So...
This message is from the Kurtzman Radiology Center...
... call to confirm Sarah Hardwicke _ appointment for her tomorrow, Tuesday.
- Wake up with back pain, Your mattress might be a problem.
Wake up fresh and feel like new...
... our revolutionary comfort-adjusted mattress system.
This may be the biggest no-brainer in the history of mankind.
Devon runs a lazy finger around the edge of the wine glass...
... trying not to glance at at Trent's bulging his crotch.
"We must remain professional. Maybe we could just consider that one of the attorney-client privileges."
- Hello. - Hi.
Hi, Phyllis. How are you?
That's Mrs. Harding.
Hardwicke.
Who cares?
OK. Grandma, I got it. Thank you - Thank you.
I'm very sorry.
Yeah. Well, I made a few cookies.
Wow, thank you very much.
They look a bit like Newton's Pictures.
That's right. That is what they are. I'm not so much like making them...
... as wrapping them and putting them on a plate because I want to give an illusion...
- The truth is I'm a terrible baker. Bakess. - Yeah, well, thank you very much anyways.
Grandma will only really devour this. It's pretty annoying.
Well, actually, is the reason to come.
And this might sound a little weird...
... but it's a beautiful day and I have to walk the dog...
... that too, like, kind of the best thing I've ever written...
... because of having a naive ideal of things happening...
... where we will be the biggest love story ever told.
And I wrote it.
So I sat there reading this email...
... and there are some turbulence...
... and I began to have this massive panic attack.
Like what I've experienced.
And I think that happens...
... because I can't imagine ever feeling like that about other people.
Listen, I've never, in my life, received anything...
... like the type of letter you wrote him.
Never wrote one, either.
And you're lucky. You are lucky by the way...
... that has nothing to do this particular girl.
But you already know that.
I have to sound so young to you.
Yeah, well, screw, buddy.
Come on. I did not mean it.
I know what you mean.
You know, I'm proud of being a great listener...
... but every time I meet new people, I find I keep talking.
What is that?
Maybe you aren't really a great listener.
Maybe you're not like a good listener.
No, no, that's not it. I'm a good listener.
Yeah, but that's the thing. I heard myself talking about it.
Nelson's career. Lucy painting.
Like them my own interests and my own achievements, but they don't.
And I found myself wondering, "Where am I? Who am I?"
Let me ask you this.
Like, what exactly did you do with your days?
You see, now, it's just so predictable.
There is a perception that because I have no job or I am not at school...
... that I was sitting around doing nothing, which is ridiculous.
Almost every day I don't have five seconds for myself.
I drive people around or deal with home or make food.
Not to mention I'm on, like, 15 boards.
Sorry. I don't think that...
Yeah, I know you don't, but my family doesn't, you know?
I can feel them all just secretly judging. Especially Lucy.
No matter what I do, l -
It feels like I'm just disappointing him.
Well, he's a teenager. You are his mother.
I mean, it would be weird if he didn't feel like that, right?
I don't know. Sorry, I thought about this and became sensitive.
But maybe I can do more.
God, I just don't want to look back at my life...
... and wondering what part of it is mine.
OK.
- Yeah. - So -
What is really fun. thanks.
Yeah, you're welcome. I mean, it's really great to talk to you.
- Yeah, alright. - Okay.
- Damn. - What?
I'm the last weird word.
- Yes? - Yeah.
Okay, well, I'll go inside.
You just shouted something at me when I walked away.
- That will be big. - Perfect.
- Great. - Okay.
You will be fine.
I don't know. Do you want to do this again? Like tomorrow or...
Oh, l - Sorry, I can't tomorrow. I have an appointment.
OK. OK. Don't worry about that.
- Wednesday? - Yeah. That will be amazing.
I will come.
- OK. Well, I guess - - Carter.
"Awesome"? That... .
Mom, I can't talk about this anymore. Too backward.
And I really don't want to fight with you now.
This is not a fight. This is not a fight. That's not even a big problem.
I just said basically he was alone there.
You can bring it to a film.
Do you have an idea how will the paralysis be heard?
Will redefine paralyzed. Serious. Are you ready to make history?
He might have a point, honey.
This can be a little awkward. What do we know about this person?
Forget it. Forget it.
I thought maybe, maybe, just something that's fun for someone sometime...
... but I can't handle you two ganging up on me.
This happened because we were all really scared.
So I will tell you the same thing I said to him.
Whatever we find out tomorrow, we deal with together.
Now, your daughter would like to apologize...
... and he said, if you really want him...
... he will go across the street now and ask Crazy's grandson to date.
She's a sweet kid. I feel bad for him.
He is sad.
I will be with you every second.
What?
Well, I just want to know.
Have you ever been worried that you would be stuck in one of these positions?
Yes, I did.
Ready to sleep?
Do you know yoga improves circulation...
... promoting health and well-being and also reducing anxiety?
Yes, I've read that.
Well, maybe you can try it.
Hey, do you know what?
Sorry if I looked a little disturbed lately.
It's cool.
Good night, muffins.
Did you get a pill?
Yes, this is some pretty serious sedation you got here.
Are you sure safe will take all of this at once?
I love it.
Who changed the sheets?
me.
Who's Sofia?
How do you know about that?
Oh, you kind of muttered in your sleep.
What did you do in my room when I was sleeping?
That's a very good question.
Well, he is my girlfriend...
... and he doesn't want to with me anymore.
He is zaftig?
Yeah. Spectacular, actually.
That is very important.
I'm Sofia.
I really fell in love with you.
See you later.
Hey. How are you?
- Yes? - Do you know where you are?
I'm just grouping.
- I can give you a ride home if you want. - No, I'm fine.
You have to keep going. It's healthy.
Actually, what do you know?
My mom and I kind of got into this fight that night.
I mean, it's not really fighting, it's just...
He wants me to maybe ask you if you want...
... to go see a movie or something.
And I told him that it would be really embarrassing.
This will be the last thing you want to do.
I mean, some creepy girls accosting you like you're a kind of charity.
This really came out wrong.
Your parents, they are usually pretty cool about letting you go out on school night?
Not really.
Do you think if you took me to the cinema...
... friendly, they might make an exception?
I don't know.
Alright. Find out. Get back to me.
What is that?
That's possible...
... I think maybe...
... I might stop the toilet above.
Maybe? What is a variable?
Water flows from above.
Carpets are all wet.
Well, I will see. First, I just have to stop by my room and kill myself.
I think I have to tell Paige alone.
I think it's not too scary if it comes from me...
... and he saw that I was fine.
I think you're right.
But I want you to know Lucy.
It's better like that.
So he left, "Find out. Get back to me."
Which isn't exactly the same, whatever...
... but it clearly shows that he might, you know -
- Interested? - Yeah. Type, right?
I mean, even if it is, it will still be the most awkward -
- Do it. - You think?
Yeah. You have to do it. And what do you know?
Like, seriously, You have to take me with you.
Alright. Someone better tell me what happened here.
I really want ice cream. I have been thinking about it all day.
Who wants to come with me?
Wait, but what -?
Do you want me to go buy ice cream?
Do you know what? You two go ahead.
Lucy and I will take Bozo for a walk. Come on. Everything is gonna be OK.
Does it hurt?
No
Chemotherapy can be rough, and they say there is nausea.
And that can make me tired.
Are you afraid?
Yes, sometimes.
Not now, though. I feel strong now.
You don't look so tough.
I took $ 20 from your wallet.
Really? When?
Some time ago. Last February.
Are you serious?
Yeah.
I've been wanting to tell you for a while.
I feel bad about it. Sorry.
Well, just curious, what do you need $ 20 for?
That's stupid.
I want to start saving money, You know, for the future.
But I have no money...
... so I need a foundation.
Right. Well, at least You are financially responsible.
I told you because besides that, I don't have any secrets from you.
- It's okay to keep a few things for yourself. - Yeah, but I don't.
Like, I always tell the truth because you always tell the truth.
Right?
Right.
If you say everything will be fine, I believe in you.
And I know you're telling the truth because you won't lie to me.
Maybe for someone else...
... like, maybe for Lucy or maybe Dad...
... but not for me.
I just need to know.
Will you be okay?
Hey.
What happened?
You look good. You look better than you do the other day.
- So, what's the name? - Sorry?
- Your girl wrote all the letters for. - Oh, Sofia.
- Is he your first love? - Yeah.
Well, there is someone in middle school...
... but I used to have this tendency to project girls...
... my fantasy from what I think they should be like.
It has nothing to do with what they really like.
This will only take me forever find out.
Usually four to five months.
But Sofia is different?
Yeah. Well, you know.
No. Actually, that is pretty much the same agreement.
Well...
Come on. There is something you want to show.
This is interesting. Do you know where we will go?
I feel like we are going to run to Deliverance.
Love here.
I have a whole science fiction scenario successful...
... where I pretend that since there is no proof of modern life...
... that I can walk out of this forest...
... and other times and different places.
I like that.
My husband has an affair.
I knew a while ago and I did nothing.
I told myself it's because of the girls and...
I only have a very comfortable life. It's very clean.
I'm smart, you know?
And the thing is, he's really a nice guy. I mean, he makes a good living and...
Anyway, be careful, I guess. I do not know.
Which should sound pretty empty for you.
I won't even start knowing how to have an opinion about that.
The problem is, I just don't...
I just don't love him.
Not like you love him. Unlike such love...
... which one is sick when it's good...
... especially when it's good, you know?
The more I get from it and the more I talk to you, you know...
... I'm not so sure true love is good.
You know, I really want just to hug you now.
Is that weird?
Hey, Lucy doesn't know anything about Nelson's -
- Sarah. - Right.
Leave without saying.
You know, he asked me about taking you to the movies on special school nights.
We don't usually let him go out on weekdays.
It's responsible.
I'm making an exception.
I'm guessing tomorrow You might have...
Yeah. Another promise.
Hey, look, I don't know when I will be able to do this again.
Maybe a few days, maybe it will take longer. I have many things that arise.
Alright.
- But I have to go to the shop. - I will go.
- OK. - Great, yeah.
I've never been to New York before. I like it.
And I remember that I was sitting alone Wing in America from Met.
I was in the room where they had all the paintings...
... from the Hudson River Valley School.
I just suddenly had a feeling like I was awake.
Finally, awake for my life. Like me exactly where I think it will be.
And later on...
... l'm sitting in the car outside the school waiting for Paige.
He came out. He tells all about the day...
... and jump in the car and I have that feeling again.
Like, "Here it is. This is exactly where I think to be, here with him."
So I think I just hope that I can respect everything more.
I just want to be like a lot of people when maybe I can have, you know?
I mean, I want to go back to New York City and sit alone in the Met.
Maybe more than anything If I were the kind of person...
... who will only eat candy here in the middle of the shop.
Well, then you have to.
I think I have to really tell you a little about what happened to me.
Okay, but then I want to tell you something.
Okay, you go first.
Alright, well, I'll just say...
... I think your husband is out of mind.
So...
What are you going to say?
None. It really doesn't really matter.
First the message is outrageous.
Hi, honey, it's me.
We need to talk about long-term plans, like when you will go home.
I-- I don't think it's healthy. Call me. See you later.
Sir?
Oh, my God, you have to go there.
What?
It's me. I need to show something.
It's pretty important.
- You all dress up. - Yeah. For our date, remember?
- Tonight, a cool guy from across the street? - Yeah, I just think...
... with everything that happened, You might not want to do that.
Look, when I'm scared about something in my life...
... I want to do research on the Internet. Over the past few days...
... I've learned everything I can about the whole situation.
Really?
Most likely they will want to do a mastectomy.
They say that it can be very difficult for a woman's soul...
... so we will only really be careful. Support.
Then, about three weeks later, he will start chemotherapy.
Do they really say that?
Yeah, but today many people do chemotherapy and definitely some radiation.
All of this does not frighten the dirt from you?
Well, of course not.
But because I'm not a breast surgeon or an oncologist...
... there isn't a whole lot that I can do that tonight.
So I think we can get something to eat first.
Carter, do you enjoy pizza? They have beautiful pizza.
Yeah, I'm on pizza.
- I am very similar to you when I was your age. - Very feminine?
precocious.
I like him sometimes.
Are you kidding me? He is phenomenal. I hired a presentation DVD -
Oh, and the day I read online and he was seen with Colin Farrell.
I'll go to the bathroom.
Master yourself. You are a man.
You are not weak. You are not sad. Overcome it and continue.
I know you.
Not really, I know what you are talking about.
Yeah. I built a car?
The Camaro?
Lmpressive. Tres impressive.
Well, basically, I rebuilt the mosque. Restored it.
It costs a lot of money.
My money doesn't really exist, then Orange Julius.
So, you, like, what? Only all depends on it?
Oh, not really.
Lucy's mom forced them to take me to the movies...
... because I feel is really depressed lately.
Anyways, we have to go because they still have to buy food...
... and amuse me with humorous anecdotes and shows.
Well, enjoy your movies and food. Nice to meet you...
... dude. Whatever your name is.
Okay, so I want you to say something to me.
You live in the suburbs of Michigan.
You go to high school on average. I want to hear about soccer.
I want you to tell me, like, garage band and night party.
The John Hughes stuff.
Who?
I'm very old.
You don't go to high school?
Well, I go to this private, kind of progressive school at L.A., you know?
Overprivileged, lots of drugs.
I don't know. I never really felt like that classic that experience that I always wanted.
For example, there is no soccer team.
Well, not exactly the '50s here, either.
I mean, maybe it won't be fast-track L. A....
... but, you know, we are not really naive.
- We do something. - Like what?
- What is it like? - Yeah, what is it like?
- Let's look at the film Colin Farrell. - Let's not.
What is with you and that person?
I have plenty of time, Paige.
- Really? - Fully.
Well, I'll go to bed now.
OK.
Thank you for paying for everything tonight.
Yeah. Good night.
Oh, Carter?
Will you marry me?
Yes.
To listen to your message, press 1.
You have two saved messages.
- This is my room. - Yeah.
Take a sweater.
Why?
So I think I'm dating the quarterback football team.
I don't know, don't get a more Breakfast Club than that?
Are you serious?
We don't really date. We are just kind...
... gathered a lot.
His name is Gabe.
And I'm going to him. I just... . I do not know.
- Remember people at the mall? - Eric.
That's his best friend and they do everything together.
But they are completely different.
Gabe is really confident.
Maybe even arrogant.
Do you kiss him?
Yeah. Sort of.
Not really, though.
Define "kissing."
Why not?
My father cheated on me.
And strangely that I really wasn't angry with him.
I mean, I am...
... but I'm angry at my mother.
Well, that seems unfair.
I know. I just -
I can't end up like him. I mean, he...
... cold and shallow.
I mean, he's obsessed with making his life...
... more like Barrel Crate and a catalog.
I don't understand how he just doesn't scream...
... every time he sees himself in -
I mean, especially now -
Why did you say this to me?
I don't know.
Sorry.
Your mother said you were a painter?
I'm not a painter. I only do it sometimes.
This kind of calms me down if I panic.
Helping me with my problem.
And what is your problem?
I'm afraid to kiss Gabe Foley.
You will get more than that, believe me.
When you are in time, with the right person, you will be fine.
Hey, so my mom doesn't really know anything about my dad.
Right. thanks.
Grandma. Grandmother. Hey, you don't need to do that, okay?
I will clean it as soon as I use this stove.
Will you leave me?
What does that mean?
- My cell phone? - Yes.
Okay, well, maybe my boss.
Most likely, he called to say that I no longer had a job.
Are you in resurfacing pools?
What? I'm a writer.
What did you write?
I write children's books.
That's good. I love children.
That's not true. Past.
Now I hate them. But maybe I can read one of your books.
I didn't bring anything here with me, so it would be difficult to do that.
Too bad. I would love to have read something that you wrote before I died.
Grandma.
... is affixed to the telephone in the living room.
Do you want to see it?
That will be the deli guy.
Well, it's relieved. This soup you make is disgusting.
- Oh, thank you. - Sorry.
- Thanks. - Thanks.
It's been four days. Not that I am tracking.
I just thought maybe...
I know Lucy said.
I know he will.
So I won't... So I will not...
Lucy said nothing.
I'm sick.
I'm quite sick.
I have breast cancer.
Tomorrow morning, l -
Tomorrow morning, I have to go to the hospital...
... and they have to cut - Oh, shit.
And they have to cut -
Oh, damn it.
Damn it!
Hey, look at me. I want you to look at me.
I'm here, and I promise, You will be fine.
I know.
I don't mean...
I didnt -
Pandy thinks is in a perfect relationship.
Then one day, the child who belonged to threw him out on the road.
He has been replaced...
... by Colin Farrell.
- Jesus. - What's up?
Hey. You can just enter my room.
- It's the last one on the left. - Who is this?
Phyllis and I will have a sudden conversation.
Let's go in there.
Grandma let me explain something to you.
OK? Look at me, look at me.
It's okay for you to answer the front door if you don't wear clothes.
It's nothing for you to do something that involves other people...
... when you don't dress.
I wear a sweater.
Listen to me. Get with the program.
Nice to meet you.
So I came here because I like having a problem.
And you - That night in the field, You really kind of helped.
- I want to know if maybe you can... - Yeah. Absolutely.
OK.
This will sound...
Okay, whatever.
Apparently, Gabe can't wait for me to find the courage to connect with him...
... so he decided to connect with my best friend.
And that's been terrible at school.
I mean, drama, a lot of meaning seems to be in the parking lot.
Anyway, there's a party tonight...
... and I think to go with him and now...
I mean, I haven't talked to him.
- Go. - Really?
Yes, you have to go. Look fantastic. Be nice to everyone.
Have a great time. You do it, you are a rock star.
Come with me.
Don't get carried away.
Seriously, I walk in with you. You are old, smart, mysterious.
I'm mysterious.
I really kiss your ass now. Come on.
I mean, it will be very cold.
And I will be indebted to you for, like...
... remaining time.
It's like a dream I have. But I'm naked except my shoes.
Ladies and gentlemen, Lucy is beautiful who is amazing Hardwicke.
Tonight she is wearing a designer dress and is escorted by this person.
- Hey, how are you? - Howard Portchnik.
- What did you say your name for? - Howard Portchnik.
- Portchnik. And your father? - Rodney Portchnik.
- Is he here? - In Bermuda, actually.
I don't think I will have this party if he is.
- Have fun, kids, still amazing. - Okay.
What is that?
I think, like a million years ago, my mother had something for that person father.
Oh, God. You are here. That's so cool from you.
And you...?
I'm my best friend. Yeah. I do not... . Do I know you?
I don't know.
Oh, my goodness, Madison is here.
Come on, I have so much I have to tell you. It's crazy to be crazy.
- Go. Go away, it's okay. - You are sure?
This is crazy. I will be around.
We drink so much.
Whoa, hey, you're here. I mean -
I'm really a party.
- So how do you do it? - I am fine. Actually, I'm really good.
Oh, that's good.
If you need someone to talk to or maybe just...
I don't know. But I'm pretty much around anytime -
Yeah, great. We have to keep going, Lucy.
There are some seniors from Carver we want you to meet. So hot and funny.
Great.
This person is a complete bastard.
I could be a jerk.
Mom, you won't believe where I stand.
Carter. It's Sofia.
Are you there?
Yeah. Hi. Hey, how are you?
God, I miss you.
So much happened. I don't even know where to start.
I just feel my whole life is, like, crashing in.
I cry all the time...
... and you are the only person you can talk to when I flip out like this.
My friends.
How are you?
Carter?
Are you a sad homo trying to scam Lucy?
I will have to call you back.
You think you can step into the hood, the game throws my girl...
... drink my son's drink, and hope not to throw it straight away?
- What? - Are you deaf and stupid? I said -
Don't - Don't repeat all of that, please.
Okay, I think the answer is your question...
... depends on whether you have, like, learning disabilities...
... or you are just an average fool.
- All right. - Okay. Above average fool.
- Don't take it. - What is that, homo?
- Bring him, Gabe. - What the hell?
- This person is my best friend. - You're a complete jerk.
No, you don't. I think we all understand...
... that I am not a complete jerk in this situation.
- This is your mistake. - Do you close -?
Not me, not this person, is the name.
She's amazing.
She's beautiful and smart and amazing...
... and you failed.
What is wrong with you? What's wrong with me?
How can I let you drive my car?
Come on.
You know, it was the first time in my entire life that I had been punched.
How for you?
Pain.
I'm not a fan.
Something wants to tell you.
I actually never talked about it hard.
OK.
Something that happened when I, like, 11.
I have a friend Ethan.
Ethan and I do everything together.
It's not really strange to be friends with boys when you're 11.
Anyway...
... I went to his house one day.
And we are new, like...
... hanging out and, like, playing.
Doing children's items. I do not know.
I don't think his parents are at home.
Does it feel like Truth or Dare?
But, like, a game.
I mean, there are clothes taken from...
I'm not really even unsure, like, what--
It's okay.
I panicked. And then he panics.
And he's really defensive, saying, like...
Like that my fault went that far.
The next day at school he must have told someone...
... because it's everyone -
I'm so insulted.
Teachers are involved, and parents -
Lucy, Lucy, that kind of thing, which happens to children all the time.
Really. That. It's just not a big problem.
Although, hey, I know it feels like that.
Like, after that, my mother and I....
... we never talk about it. At all.
And I don't know, it's just always it seems like he's embarrassed.
That I, like, is obscene or something -
You're not obscene. You did nothing wrong.
- Then how could he let me feel like that? - Well, you have to stop blaming your mother.
Hates him for this - you have to let him go.
If he isn't there for me when I really need it, why should I - l?
Because he will die.
Sorry. I shouldn't say that.
What is f -?
What is really difficult for me to say.
What, are you trying to scare me? Congratulations.
I'm trying to wake you up.
There's a big damn world out there. It's messy and it's messed up...
... and never, ever, the thing you expected.
You may be afraid...
... but you can't let fear to turn you into a jerk.
Not when it comes to people who really love you.
People who need you.
So, I think we're done, right?
Yeah. We are done.
I can't - I'm not - I don't want to start...
Don't come closer. Please.
OK.
I'm just wondering if you're OK.
Everything hurts.
That's my fault. I know it. I am responsible.
But you need to hear this, Carter.
You will never touch my daughter again.
- You can't see it. - Wait, I'm sorry.
- I am - - You have to go.
- What's wrong with you? - I know.
I mean, if you - If you don't want to talk to me, fine, whatever.
But don't send Phyllis out to make an excuse for you, say you don't enter
Where do I feel that you are leaving? I'm the only person you know here.
- Right? - Pretty much.
It feels like a week. I mean, five days.
I don't know. I want to call you, I just don't have your cellphone number.
I don't know. I just thought that you might...
... like, mad at me. - Hey, I don't.
I'm not mad at you.
So you regret kissing me?
Lucy, I can't. Okay? I can't see anymore.
I just - I'm not that person.
Okay, then I guess - Who is?
Actually, when you think about it...
... you will find that you already know.
Mama.
I'm not feeling well.
I think I need -
- Nelson Hardwicke office. - Hi, this is Lucy. I need my father.
Lucy, she's not here. He stepped out to ---
Mom, we will try to stand up now. Okay?
I'll take you to the hospital, but I need you to help.
I can't do this alone. You are ready?
You experience what we call a neutropenic fever.
Your white blood cell count drops too low...
... your body cannot defend itself.
I talked to Hoffman in Ann Arbor.
We will put you on a drug called Neulasta.
I'm very sorry I wasn't -
- What happened to him? - Are you okay.
I'll take soda. Do you want something?
No, I'm fine.
- Of course I do. You teach. - I can't help it.
- Hello? - Hey, Sof. Sofia, it's me.
Who?
Carter.
- Who? - Carter Webb.
Oh, Carter, baby.
Hey, this is just a really bad time.
What?
Listen, I'm on this at SoHo and everyone is wasted.
And I'm wasted too. It's New Year's Eve, you know?
No It's not. It's October.
Well, it feels like New Year's Eve.
Listen, honey, I really want to talk to you, you know?
But let me try a little later. Okay? Okay.
Yeah, okay. No I just, you know...
I'm kind of...
Hello?
What is wrong with you?
Can't get it together.
I'm 26 years old.
I'm healthy. I can. I've had every opportunity.
My friend will marry and have children...
... and I'm just so far away.
Why did you come here?
I tried to write this about growing up on L.A.
How long have you been trying?
Oh, 11 years, giving or taking.
Too long. You don't try hard enough.
Paige falls asleep. He wants to stay...
... but I just feel like living alone.
OK.
We have to talk.
I'm not really sure where we go from here.
Maybe you should start by telling me why you're angry with me.
Difficult even -
I mean...
... I've been on it for so long...
... that I think I might be angry with you for almost everything.
I mean, nothing.
You know, they are nothing but CAT scans before chemotherapy last week.
They say that surgery seems to be very successful.
There are no cancer cells that they can see...
... so all this garbage that I have to go through is to be sure.
But I know I'll be fine.
And I wasn't before.
I'm really scared.
I don't want to miss the part where I really know you.
Listen, I don't know what happened next, one. I do not know.
I'll just love you.
And I will continue to hope that you let me into your life.
And I will make a mistake, of course...
... but I will always be there for you.
There is one thing that you have to do for me.
What?
You must stop smoking.
- OK. - Okay?
- I will. - Okay.
You have to sleep, Mother.
Dear Sarah.
I have tried writing this letter for a while.
The type you said you would never be accepted.
My type has worked on my life.
I remember 13 years, sitting in my room all night...
... listen to the same song repeatedly.
I think that if I can write something beautiful, something honest...
... maybe I can make someone love me.
I have taken a lot to give.
I never tried too hard. I always avoid responsibility.
I came here because I was running away. I want to be alone.
Instead, I met you.
I met you, and you didn't take anything to give.
I hope you get all the moments you deserve.
I hope you return to New York and sit on the Met...
... in a room with paintings from the Hudson River.
And I hope when you do it, You take Lucy with you...
... because I know he will like it.
Sorry if I have made your life more complicated.
I'm sorry for many things, but most of all...
... Sorry, I never got a chance told you no matter what happened next...
... I will never be anything, but thank you for every time I spend with you.
And even though I keep groping the right words...
... all I really want to say is thank you.
Grandma.
Do you want to take a walk or what?
I can't. I have to -
I have to go back inside.
OK.
I'll see you around.
Goodbye, Sarah.
Waiting.
You know, I have to have the last word.
You're welcome.
Stumped?
Yeah, I guess. I'm very close.
For what?
Being finished.
Now, what happened?
I just feel like it's missing something at the end.
Do you have an idea for me?
What about?
my grandmother. He died.
- Sorry. Is she beautiful? - Yeah. He is great.
- Do you spend a lot of time with him? - Towards the end.
That's good.
That's a very good thing to write about.
No, I have no idea.
That's very disappointing.
That would be really cool if I could just enter...
... and give a perfect nugget genius, and then walk away.
That's what a decent waiter must have done.
- Sorry. Satisfied with refill? - Okay.
I'm Carter.
Janey. Very nice to meet you.
Yeah. You, too.
You know, if you're not too busy...
... I wonder maybe doing you want to read the scene I'm working on?
It's really rude, but I think I can really use fresh eyes.
OK. But I have to warn you, I'm really a difficult critic.
Great.