My dear Freddie
A few moments, I know the truth what I'll say to you.
I read this letter repeatedly on < br /> in mind, very often and...
I want to describe something but...
There's nothing I can find there...
I feel at the moment I'm...
really want to die. </ P>
Inside the Blue Ocean
LONDON
AROUND 1950
p>
I'm serious.
I'm not lying.
You're the most interesting girl I've ever met.
I survived from the British war. Everyone dies.
Survive!
I mix from fear and excitement...
Nothing like that.
Joy and fear.
We have done something important .
But they are all hurt.
My friends...
they are all dead .
Mrs. Page
Ny. Page
Can you come here, please? This is important. </ P>
Mr. Richard. </ P>
How much? </ P>
Twelve. </ P>
Give me the bowl...
Is there anything we can do?
There's nothing you can do.
Doesn't mean he's dying .?
Sebambat.
But he's trying to kill himself, isn't that right ?
It seems like that.
Will he recover?
The dose you take, can't even kill a child.
Listen to this suggestion.
Do you think he tried it again, Doctor?
I'm not a doctor.
But I thought maybe could try it again.
Is trying to commit suicide a crime?
Will that person go to jail?
People go to jail for various reasons.
- Should we contact the police? - Don't!
Stay in bed.
No, I feel weak and dizzy. </ P>
I'm very sorry. </ P>
For all the problems I've done. </ P>
You're sure it's okay
Yes.
Thank you.
... And Mr. Welch. Don't forget to retrieve your letter. </ P>
Thank you. </ P>
Ny. Elton...
Please don't say anything to Page about...
This ridiculous event...
I don't want him to worry. </ P>
Is that what you want? </ P>
Yes, please
That's what I want.
Stop! Give respect! </ P>
Back from Jerry's gift, I'm very fresh, sir. </ P>
Good Page, Let's celebrate with a drink. </ P >
Don't, look to the left. But...
Can I do it now, sir? </ P>
They are now the navy. </ P>
The 2000 distance is approaching at high speed. </ P>
- Get ready! - Of course, I'm ready.
Shoot! Shoot!
We're back on the ship! See if there are any survivors.
Alright, you two, Calm down.
Oh, I said...
Convincing them, for God's sake,
If you don't speak overnight war.
No need.
That's what is needed, the sound effect.
You are frozen. </ P>
Apakah menarik? Semoga begitu.
If it's cold, can you warm one another.
Drinks, gentlemen. The women are thirsty.
That's how it is. </ p >
I love you so much.
Hopefully blessed.
I can't make a hasty decision.
No.
Come on. Let's go home. </ P>
Yes...
Do the right thing. Return to your husband. </ P>
Father, I came to ask for your advice.
I gave it to you.
For support and...
From you, from your heart.
You have a husband.
Your main loyalty is for him.
Two more beds.
You have a strange idea about live married.
How can you see that?
With spirit power?
Don't talk about that, Hester.
We're talking about your mother.
It's not so bad.
It's just a little annoying.
- Mother? - No </ p >
Thank you.
Will you play tennis this year?
No. Since your father died...
... mom no longer enjoys tennis. </ P>
Are you playing? </ P>
Tennis?
Anything.
Sometimes I play cards.
Cards are just games, I mean sports.
I always think sports...
... the most useful thing for human activities.
That is the reality.
I should be more polite, ma'am
So I guess you don't play tennis.
From time to time.
I feel very difficult excited about that. </ p >
Beware of the word passion, Hester.
Always leads to something bad.
What words can replace it?
Enthusiastically.
Safer.
But it's much more boring. </ P>
The park looks beautiful. </ P>
Even within a year. </ P>
Yes, that is my pride. </ P>
Far safer than anyone else. Don't you think?
No, there's no mistaking it...
Oh, Tea?
This.
No, honey.
Hester will be serving. Right, honey?
If you want to.
You put the milk first.
You want me to serve the others?
No, I'm sure a little milk won't hurt me.
You are very good mother, ma'am.
Yes, even Hester expressed his admiration.
With passion.
Do you want a cake, ma'am?
Yes, Battenberg Cake. This pleasure I can never refuse. </ P>
Is there anything you can't refuse, Hester? </ P>
Yes, insensitivity. </ P>
I can never forgive him.
Honey, I will up to pack.
I want to go home early to town.
I hope we go to London soon. </ P>
No, that's not it. </ P>
I'll meet you at Jackie Jackson's house. </ P>
- You will back soon? - I'll go as fast as I can, Freddy.
Oh, honey...
Dear...
- Me love you... - me too.
Who are you calling "dear"...?
I seem to know who it is.
How long has it been? </ P>
- William. - Sudah berapa lama ini terjadi?
A few months ago.
I understand...
I'll meet you in the car, after saying goodbye to my mother.
I don't want to disappoint him. </ P>
At least my honor is maintained. </ P>
William...
Does everything need to be brought to your room, Mr. William? </ P >
Yes, Linconson. I will take the rest during the day.
Have a nice day, sir. William. </ P>
Do you realize what you are doing? </ P>
Yes, William, I realize
This is only a small affair. </ P>
No I love him.
This madness has nothing to do with love,
Only... physical attraction.
Share I'm different.
Lower me here, Flinton.
I won't divorce you.
Will...
I will make it as difficult as possible for you.
You sound exactly like my father.
What do you mean?
Your tone of voice...
Combined anger and mock sacred.
It's hard to hear from Rebecca
but when I hear you you hurt!
I'm sorry, William, I don't want to scream like that.
How can you destroy all for this small thing?
I don't think it's easy.
Is it difficult to continue all this?
Yes, William, I can.
Do I need to have dinner with you?
No need.
I won't divorce you.
I don't want to see you again.
You can call me at 10:45,
You can bring Ny . Collyer...
Kemanapun yang dia mau.
Good morning, Mrs. Elton. </ P>
Still sorting letters? </ P>
This takes time. Especially in the morning. </ P>
Residents can take
the letter, when going to work.
You're right, Mrs. Elton. </ P>
This is part of the service. </ P>
Get on. </ P>
This is the second floor. </ P>
Slightly high. </ P>
Your letter, Miss. Page. Ms. Page? </ P>
Yes? </ P>
Letter. </ P>
Ow, yes. </ P>
Thank you. </ P>
I will make it comfortable at night.
Good evening, Madam. Elton. </ P>
How are you, Hess? </ P>
It seems I ran Marathon 93 towards the West. </ P>
Lots of work! Cool!
Jackie Jackson gave me a ride.
The ride makes things easier.
Astaga. Aku akan membuat suasananya nyaman.
- Is your weekend fun? - Not bad.
Win all matches. I fight Jackie...
He's very fun!
Then the rain starts to fall, so golf... ends.
How many wins total?
Um... Seven. </ p >
May I have some, to pay the rent?
Damn... I'll give you three.
But I need the rest for lunch.
Looking for work. A South American.
The DFC and the leadership seem to like it.
A South American?
p>
A man meets in golf.
You know you haven't looked at me since I entered.
I know how you look, Freddie.
I doing something wrong, right?
Geez...
Is there something special today?
Just a bottle of Clarrot
I'm sorry.
Come on!
I'm sorry.
There's nothing I can say again, right?
No.
You can't. </ p >
You still love me?
Yes.
I still love you.
I need a cigarette.
Freddie, return it to me.
This is directed at me.
I hope you don't read it.
This is intended for me.
Forgive me.
Freddie!
Freddie...
William. <
How do you know I'm here?
The owner called me.
Sorry, but, I'm worried about you.
Alright, Mrs. Elton. Thank you! </ P>
How did he find you? </ P>
It's in the phone book. </ P>
It doesn't take much effort. </ P>
I'm glad you came. </ P>
No need. </ P>
My way is actually selfish. </ P>
I'm happy to be able to think about it. </ P>
You're all right what?
You should be in bed.
Let me check.
Your tongue.
Not bad. You can live a long time. </ P>
Are you a doctor? </ P>
No. </ P>
Then what are you? </ P>
Just call him... Generous. </ P>
A little respect doesn't hurt. </ P>
I pay respect to the person who deserves. </ P>
Besides that, I'm an ordinary person. <
I don't think he passed the health test.
You're right.
So what happened?
I have to be careful with my words.
A suicide attempt is a crime, right?
Yes...
And I talked to the judge.
You're talking to your husband.
Why didn't you say when you returned to London?
The last time I met with you, you say...
You don't want to know anything about me anymore.
Finally, my qku meets, I'm not aware of what I'm saying.
- Did he abandon you? - No
He just returned from Sunningdale.
Do you want to still play?
I don't I've been to Sunningdale again.
I'm sure you still like golf.
What did you do to practice?
Sometimes I play tennis with David. </ p >
Yes he has been very depressed since...
General's death?
All friends of the general are moody.
This helps the game.
Has he ever cheated on you?
No.
He still love you?
Just like 10 months ago.
And you still love him?
Yes, William, I still love him.
What is the problem of money? </ P>
Sit down, Will. </ P>
Nice to meet you again. </ P>
I'm glad you're still wearing it. </ P>
Yes....
Do you want to...
... divorce me, if that's what you want.
You're very kind, Will
Can I help you?
No.
I am very happy to find you.
- Are you having trouble finding me? < br /> - No
For some reason, I think...
My ignorance... can hurt your price.
Are you really trying to kill yourself?
I'm losing control and my mind is disturbed
Are there legal terms for that?
Yes...
And what disturbs your mind? </ P>
Anger...
Hatred, shame...
Myself... and my life.
- Are you still angry? - With Page?
- Both of us. - Yes <
He betrayed my friendship, and you betrayed my trust.
But anger and emotion...
Change with regret.
You said his feelings haven't changed. </ P>
Not yet. </ P>
But zero minus zero remains zero. </ P>
How long have you found out? </ P >
From the beginning.
How can you love someone
Who can't give anything?
Ow... But he gave me something.
- From time to time... - What?
Himself.
For someone like me,
whose work studies human nature...
I'm very inexperienced about this. </ P>
Me too, Will. Me too. </ P>
Regret always comes later. </ P>
You see, I was taught that problems like this are more appropriate for men who love.
I hope you know that I can help.
I will try it.
This is a tragedy.
Tragedy is not the right words .
It might be sad, but...
That sounds weird.
What is it because I can't give a child...
What it will make a difference?
For whom?
Lots of fun things first!
Thank you.
Just because I forgot my wife's birthday?
Gosh!
If all the men forget his wife's birthday,
When he returns home... with a suicide note...
The list will extend from here to Sekland!
Can I get the letter?
- Why? - That's mine!
And it was addressed to me!
God, this is the end.
Marrying the first man you asked for...
And falling in love with the guy who is watching him.
Freddie, you two need to talk.
I better go.
I have plenty of time to talk to him! You're here.
Freddie...
Go home with me , please
That's good and indifferent with his actions.
Did you see that?
Suicide can be done by this little letter. Right? </ P>
I know I'll die! </ P>
Just accepting, it's not your fault. </ P>
That's right, Freddie, I can't be you
And I can't stop being who I am.
I won't experience feeling guilty about it.
It's impossible ! I won't do it!
Nobody accuses you!
Don't you read what I wrote? I don't blame you!
I'm the one who wants his wife to divorce, you don't.
Overcoming obstacles.
I never gave myself a big bill.
You know exactly what you got.
Yes. I know I have to choose it, and I choose it! </ P>
Oh my God! </ P>
I hate being interrogated from people's emotions...
So I have to avoid it, from my whole life...
Everything always happens to me, Always!
I always say I don't really love you , from the way you love me.
This is not my fault!
Let me give you an example.
Jack and Jill.
Jack loves Jill Jill loves Jack. </ P>
But Jack doesn't love Jill as much as Jill loves Jack. </ P>
Jack never asks to be loved. </ P >
What about Jill?
It's a Jill problem.
I can't be Romeo all the time.
Come on, you two. Come in and drink. </ P>
Do you have coins? </ P>
- What? - Do you have coins? </ P>
For fuel, inside case...
If it's late for dinner.
Freddie, baby...
Can you go home with me, please?
No, I don't want to.
You stop, talk to beg.
No. </ p >
I promise.
I swear, won't force you to stay.
I won't talk at all, if you don't want I'm talking.
Believe me, Freddie. I swear.
Freddie, be aware! He gives his words, for God's sake
Can I get my things in his apartment? </ P>
I'll take the rest, when I can. </ P>
Sorry, Jackie. </ P>
He knows me very well.
You gave him your words.
He knows very well that I don't intend to look after him.
That's why he didn't come.
I just want to be with him even longer.
The rain has stopped.
How long have you known him?
6 years.
He talks a lot.
Especially when he's drunk.
And what he says makes sense. </ P>
Really? </ P>
Freddie is very familiar with me. </ P>
So I know everything the situation.
Really?
We can't love each other,
But there are other things that are just as important.
Maybe more important.
As spiritual values.
You have the same expression with my father,
When he talks about things are physical.
And then, he suggests I go...
to think about it...
You missed it.
I will package Freddie's stuff my place until he calms down.
Give suggestions if he wants to go back home.
Who knows?
Maybe you can do this.
Thank you, Jackie.
You will be fine.
I'll be fine.
It's like cookies.
That's cabbage.
That's like a barrel.
Rocks.
I'm joking.
Of course.
Don't be too mature.
Don't be childish, too.
Listen, childish like me...
Save someone like you!
Why do you have to mention it? </ P>
It doesn't make sense. </ P>
Nobody questions your courage. </ P>
Just your mind. </ P>
My mind?
There's nothing wrong with my mind!
Parable.
What do you mean by that?
You're smart, you think about it.
What do you mean?
Parable. Acronyms.
From what you know
Where are you?
Looking for freshness!
Miss Page! I brought this and other letters.
What, shipping again? </ P>
From Quinn, the owner of the company funeral. Stay on the road. </ P>
Be Hugh and Gailla. </ P>
Miss Koller. A name like Russian Books. </ P>
That's mine. </ P>
I'm sorry
That's for me. </ P>
And Mr. Page? </ P>
Not my husband. </ P>
But I prefer to remain to be Ny Page. </ P>
Alright. </ P>
I have a house with honor, I don't want any problems.
Of course, Mrs. Elton. </ P>
People need
untuk menjaga rahasia mereka.
I don't agree but don't curse.
Thank you, Mrs. Elton.
That's very good.
Forgive me?
What are you thinking about?
So how do you get the impression?
I do it for money.
Hello, Liz.
What is Freddie and Jackie is back?
Yes, they are here.
I can talk to Freddie?
I'll call
- Yes? - Honey, I'm Hester.
Don't hang up.
I didn't see. I promise.
Just wondering what about your job?
Have you met that guy?
Yes, he might have something for me. </ P>
Good! </ P>
Very good. </ P>
I'll get direction. </ P>
When?
Next week.
As soon as that...
- Yes - Freddie...
Did you live with Liz and Jackie until you leave?
There's no need to tell me, if you don't want to.
Look, Freddie. I want you did one last thing for me. </ P>
Can you come and take your own things? </ P>
Just to say goodbye. That's all </ p >
I'm sure not too difficult for you.
It's a surprise. No driver?
No, I decided to drive myself.
I think it's better.
I'm worried about you.
Come in. Cold.
- Where is he? Drink. </ P>
With friends. </ P>
What happened to you, Hester? </ P>
Cinta, Will. Itu saja.
And that's what caused you to attempt suicide?
No.
I caused it myself.
Love causes all kinds of things.
What do they say about love?
Entertaining us like the sun after the rain...
"Lust is like the sun after a storm."
Humans cannot live as before,
No, when you find something else...
Primitive? </ P>
We can call it " naturally "?
This is very clear, Hester. won't last?
Will...
Do you think I can honestly say you... the truth that I feel to Freddie.
Loss is not everything in life, but...
Freddie... for me....
Is... alive.
And death.
So...
Explain that if you can.
His life stopped in 1940.
He loved 1940.
He was never happy after the war.
He once told me, he was jealous of you.
A brilliant lawyer.
That sounds too spontaneous to be honest. </ p >
No... He really mean it.
He said, he was jealous of you for another reason besides your career.
I realized then , at that time...
I don't have the strength to reject it.
There is no power at all.
Why don't you talk to me months?
That won't make a difference.
So I won't make a difference?
That's not what I mean.
Ah, Honorable Judge!
How many Christians lately?
Have you heard recently about "A small accident"?
Have you ever forgotten birthday?
No. You are not forgetful. </ P>
Freddie, you are drunk. Enter inside. </ P>
Yes, Gordtalina! </ P>
See how I got scolded?
But you've never been scolded like this.
"Am I outrageous?"
"Yes, Freddie, it's too much."
Why don't you come back again? I'll get my pride back? </ P>
You know when we enter. </ P>
I'll let you burn in the window for you!
It's over My lord.
The answer to that question is yes.
Please, Will, don't.
Hester, didn't you see what did I offer you?
And don't you see how it's difficult for me to reject it?
Is there nothing more can i say?
No.
But, see what will happen in the future.
Our future?
Not...
... Future.
This is a birthday present, accept it.
Will... Thank you.
Sonnet!
Thank you, I always like it.
Mrs. Page, do you have a minute?
Of course , what's wrong?
When you get out, Can you...
Kala.
Alright, I'm here Frank...
I can handle everything if you are near me.
I will always be here, Frank.
You're a handsome devil!
He is very charming, isn't he?
Yes, charming.
By the way, I don't want to repeat nonsense this morning.
Do you hear me? </ P>
Sometimes it's hard to make a choice...
... And you walk between the Devil in the deep blue sea. <
Listen...
It's all bullshit if only talking about love.
Do you know what true love is?
When I clean someone's ass...
... and change the sheets, if he pees...
... And let them keep that pride...
So you two can continue together.
Suicide... anyone is inappropriate.
Freddie, let me in. </ P>
Freddie, don't be like children. Let me enter. </ P>
Amerika Selatan memberikan penawaran kepadaku.
What offer?
As a testing pilot.
But you said hundreds of times you won't come back.
You told me that you I don't have courage anymore.
I know what I'm saying.
But I accept it too
Don't worry about my judgment...
... When I go through it, I'll be like it used to be.
Where is South America?
Rio.
Rio! </ P>
When do we leave? </ P>
Not "us." </ P>
I go alone. </ P>
This is what I want to say to you.
Why, Freddie?
Today...
That letter...
Attempted suicide...
What do we do with each other.
You can't bring people...
Jika berupaya... bunuh diri.
No matter how much he loves him.
Do you think if you leave, can I overcome this?
That's a risk we have to take.
You scared me, Freddy.
This is all my level.
I don't want to hurt you.
I didn't say this, I just acted honest.
I'm leaving now.
Freddie, stay with me tonight.
Only for tonight.
No. You started telling me...
I... I feel embarrassed.
We are both confused.
Don't be cruel. </ p >
How can you be so cruel?
- It's over, Hess. - No, it's not over.
Not true.
This ends. </ P>
It's over now. </ P>
Maaf, Hess.
Don't look at me like that, You know the thing that depends on me.
Everything here.
You have to go back.
I I won't talk.
I'm not going to argue.
But please, don't leave me alone tonight.
Not tonight.
Please don't leave me alone tonight.
You look very elegant.
These are old clothes. just the past?
A little past. But shoes must be cleaned. </ P>
Yes. </ P>
Don't put shoes on the table. </ P>
That's bad luck. </ P>
That's what he said. </ P>
Really? </ P>
Have you had breakfast? </ P>
Only black coffee
No need for that. </ P >
When exactly are you going to Rio?
Thursday. I told you.
Yes.
Of course. Do you go by boat?
No, by plane.
From London, West Africa... .
Across... the ocean.
Sounds interesting.
By the way...
Regarding the lease...
Maybe my clothes... before stopping...
... 30 to 40 pounds...
Enough to pay the rent.
What will you do Hest?
I'm not sure.
I have to do a divorce.
Fix some things. </ p >
A good idea.
It's never too late to start from scratch, right?
That's what they say.
Yes. That's what they say.
Goodbye, Hest.
Goodbye, Freddie.
I'll miss you.
Thank you. For everything.
Thank you.
Take good care of yourself.
You too.