Sathnam.
- Sathnam. - Yes?
Unbelievable, you jammy bastard.
Why, what...? - Samuel L. Jackson says yes.
You can see him on the 16th out in Los Angeles.
Samuel L. Jackson?
But, also, on the 17th, Simon Cowell's invited you
out to the X-Factor Mansion in the Cotswolds now.
Can't do both, so what's it to be? Mr Cool or Mr Cowell?
Aren't you two moving that week?
Exchanging contracts.
Mr Cowell. - OK.
You love Samuel L. Jackson.
Yeah, but I'd be gone for a week and I love someone else more.
He's picked the one that he thinks most people want to read about.
Ah.
He's going home this weekend to tell his parents about us.
Oh. - I know.
Hello, ladies.
- Everything alright? - Hi, Matt.
Do you think they suspect anything?
Absolutely nothing.
Er, London.
I'm from London.
I'm... I'm just out of practise.
Yeah, I'm from here, from Wolverhampton.
I can't remember.
It's somewhere near Jalandhar, I think.
Dick.
Mum? Dedi?
Sathnam?
Sathnam, Sathnam.
What time's your flight? I've got to get back.
Hm?
How many chapattis I give you?
Three.
OK, four.
I hope you're not buying that comic, Dedi.
Please tell me someone left it here. - Someone left it here.
Mm-hm. But you still read it.
What time's your flight this evening?
Flight is... - Everyone comes for lunch at one.
Small snack.
But I need to be at the airport by three.
Macha, you and Puli can come in our car, no? With us.
Right, what... what time's your flight?
Uh, 7:20.
What you gonna do at the airport for four hours?
Well, we'll be there, we say goodbye.
And your cousin Hardip is coming this afternoon.
Ah, Binds, how you doing? - Yeah, I'm alright.
Hi.
Sathnam, how you doing?
I'm good, thanks. You?
Oh, couldn't be better, yeah.
I took delivery of an M3 this week.
19-inch alloys, low mileage, heads-up display.
I heard, yeah.
Nice. Nice car. - Oh, superb.
Well, £180 grand a year before bonuses, you know.
What you driving?
You don't really need a car in London.
Hm, depends where you live.
Hi, Puli.
I'm buying a flat in Dalston, so it's pretty central.
You're buying a flat? - Well, how much are you earning?
Property's my thing. London in particular.
And you earn enough to buy a flat in Dalston on your own?
Puli.
Right, family photo.
Again?
Well, if you visited more often, we wouldn't need a photo.
Ready?
The proud parents with their offspring.
Only one single!
Mum, don't embarrass him!
Come on, Mum.
The suitcases are in shot.
Mum, what have you got in here?
Sathnam! Back in line! Face the front for India!
Come and stand by me!
I'm fine here! Just take the photo!
Come on. Smile.
- Cheese! - And one again.
Cheese!
- Who is it? - Sathnam?
Take it. OK, yeah. - Come on, Sat.
Ready?
- Three, two, one... - Cheese!
And there he goes.
Hi. Hi.
Oh, it's pretty mad.
Mum decided to invite the whole family
and now I can't get her on her own to speak to her.
But I will.
Erm, what about you? What you doing?
I'm showing Mum and Dad the flat. - Ah, nice.
Do they like it? - Love it.
Especially the garden. - Ah.
OK, speak later, yeah? - Bye.
So what's the postcode of this flat you're buying?
E8 or N16?
I'm not sure, I'll look it up.
Sorry, I've just got to...
I think my parents have an excess baggage problem.
Long haul's 23 kilo.
Absolutely ridiculous.
Oh, come on.
Seriously?
This patient, Mr Jagjit Sanghera
suffers from acute paranoid schizophrenia
and has been registered as severely mentally ill since 1979.
Communication is best done through his wife
who also controls his medication.
Fuck.
Mr Sanghera is visiting his family in India.
It is a short visit...
Sorry.
The door wasn't locked.
What's he doing?
I hope he's not taken everything out.
Mum's gonna go mental!
Oh, what are you doing?
I was... I was weighing the luggage.
No, no, I found this.
Yeah, yeah, this goes in with Dedi's medicines.
Oh, my God, I've taken these out twice already!
You know about this?
Sathnam, Dedi always takes a note like this when he travels.
It's fine. - What do you mean?
Now, out of here, come on.
Go and eat. Go downstairs.
What a mess.
Make sure the note goes back with the medicines.
Well, what did your brother and sisters say?
They just act like it's normal.
You must've spoken to them.
Yeah, I mean, not... not...
I mean, Laura, I'm the youngest.
They don't always include me in stuff.
I went to Cambridge, I live here now. They stayed in Wolves.
It's like we're in two different worlds.
They watch Britain's Got Talent, for God's sake.
So do we sometimes.
Yeah, I mean...
I had to come and talk to you about this schizophrenia
my dad's had since before I was born, because...
I could have it, too.
What do you mean, you could have it, too?
It runs in families, doesn't it?
In fact, it's practically certain.
Come on, Sathnam. - Oh, don't laugh.
Don't, I'll show you, I can prove it.
Where's my phone?
I've got it here. - Darling.
Come here.
Come back to mine.
Come on.
Come on, let's get home.
OK, so I found this site which gives 15 symptoms
associated with schizophrenia. You tick the ones that apply.
Mm-hmm? - But here's the thing, though.
I score more than my dad.
I get eight dead certs.
First one up, hypochondria.
Yeah?
And I'm a hypochondriac, aren't I?
Yeah, yeah, that one's for definite.
Right, next.
I'm overly interested in religious themes. - Since when?
Er, what do you mean, since?
Mum thinks I'm the messiah.
She says I'm special in the eyes of God.
Laura, I had a topknot till I was 14. A symbol of devotion.
And I think you're gonna give me the next one.
I am preoccupied with sex. - Aren't we all?
I'm often mistakenly thought to be gay.
You are not serious. - I am a little, yes.
Sathnam. - But there's some...
I have been with you long enough to know that you are many things
but you are not mentally ill.
Having said that
what I find interesting
is how you have managed to make this all about yourself
when it already is about you.
I mean, if your dad has had this severe mental illness
for the whole of your life
have you really never noticed anything?
Well, I was just told he had diabetes and had to retire.
From what?
What was his job? What did he do?
I don't... I don't know.
I don't know. - You need to talk to someone.
Talk to your mum.
She's away now.
When she's back.
Yeah.
And in the meantime
why not try and talk to your brother and your sisters?
Hey. - Hey.
You OK? - Mm.
Hm.
I was just thinking about my dad.
You know, erm, what you said.
How can I not have known, you know? - Mm.
The thing is, with my dad
he's always had such an easy presence.
I mean, always.
You know, the only time I've ever seen him upset
was when my sister Puli got married.
And everyone cries at weddings, don't they?
As you will very soon find out.
Oh, come on.
Don't you try and back out now.
'Cause you said yes. You're stuck with me now.
And it was lovely you asked. - Good.
'Cause as soon as my parents are back from India
there's no waiting for the right moment.
I'm just... I'm just gonna say to Mum
'We're getting married and that's it.' - Right.
Go on.
This thing with your dad.
It's a big deal...
So...
Give it its due.
Deal with one thing at a time.
And just a question. - Mm-hmm?
When you do tell them, do you really want to hit them
straight off with, 'We're getting married'?
Maybe just introduce the idea of me first.
Yeah?
Can I just say that
that's why you're going to get that promotion.
Hm? - Yeah.
You just step back and see the bigger picture.
Thank you for this evening.
I know it's been difficult. I know I've been difficult.
But coming back to talk to you was a really good decision.
What? What?
You're the only person I know who can hand out praise
and pat yourself on the back at the same time.
Sathnam!
It's arrived.
You gonna come and see? - I'm gonna be in it later.
Oh!
Pretty discrete. You hardly even notice it.
Rosso Corsa.
What's all the fuss about?
Simon Cowell interview.
God, he's not here, is he? - No.
Apparently he's a car freak.
Sathnam's supposed to drive there in a Ferrari.
How vulgar.
It's fantastic.
Hi. - Hiya.
Oh, hello. - How are you?
Good. - You're so good doing this.
Hey.
- Sold your flat yet? - He rents.
Oh, this'll be the X-Factor office confirming ETA, no doubt.
Oh!
Hi, this is Sathnam Sanghera.
Sathnam? It's Auntie Jugi!
Your Auntie Jugi! Hiya!
Auntie Jugi, hi. - Can you see us?
I can see you! - Er, yeah.
Hang on, Auntie. One sec.
There we go. Sorry about that, Auntie. Hi.
Is that where you live? - Uh, no, no, no. I'm at work.
Ah, I thought I saw a kitchen.
Yeah, we have a kitchen in the office.
How are you? - Fine, I'm fine.
I'm just worried about your mum.
Why? What's... what's happened?
She is very upset, Sathnam. Very.
What? Why?
Someone told her you're going out with a white girl!
Someone said you had been seen being all deewana with a gori in London.
I have never seen your mum so upset.
Christ. - Sorry?
Yeah, er...
So, um, what do you want me to say?
'Cause she asked me to phone, you know.
Well...
It's...
It's not true, obviously, I'm not with a gori or anybody.
I'm not with anyone, Auntie.
Auntie, I'll call you back. I've got a meeting.
Give me 10 minutes. I'll get right back to you.
Thank you.
Laura... - Just popping round the shop.
Laura.
You just told someone I don't exist.
No... - What do you mean, no?
It was my auntie. I was ambushed.
I had to say that.
Otherwise it'd spread like wildfire
and it can't... it can't happen that way.
It just can't.
Those were just words. - Not to me.
I've said, I've told you I'm gonna tell my mum and I am.
When did your parents get back?
The day before yesterday. - And you didn't tell me?
It's delicate. That's all.
It's about doing it right. Yeah?
I have 54 first cousins and so far all of them have...
Married a Sikh girl or a Sikh boy. I know this.
Yeah, and I'm the one who's going to break ranks.
I'll be the first, Laura.
I mean, it's possible and probable I'll be disowned.
What, so, you'll never tell them about me because...
you can't.
You'll just live two separate lives.
You're wrong.
You are so wrong.
I'm gonna drive up and tell them now.
And I mean right now!
Enough is enough.
Sathnam?
Mum...
Jugi wants to thank you.
And now you've come to see me.
There's...
She looks like Cheryl Cole. So pretty.
So...
Huh? Shall I arrange for it?
Yes, huna?
Yes, yes, you leave it to me, I'll fix it.
What are you reading about, Dedi?
What's in the paper? What's it say?
I'm reading about America.
I am reading about the Prime Minister of America.
Isn't it?
There are two governments.
One there and one here
and they both work very closely.
Don't they?
You mean the American and British governments?
Mm-hmm. - Yeah.
Do you understand the words and letters in English, Dedi?
Can you actually read any of it?
Oh, that's great. I wish Mum would learn to read English.
It's important.
We have a Sathnam alert.
Sathnam.
Sathnam Sanghera.
Sathnam.
Can I tell you something?
Yeah, yeah, sure.
Your mum tells me not to talk about this with you.
It's fine, I won't say anything.
When the sun rises...
But everything is OK because I can raise the sun.
Yeah. - I can raise the sun.
And I have worked it out myself.
His outpatient appointment for tomorrow.
Nothing special. Regular check-up.
No need to come.
Would you like to follow me to Dr Dutta's office?
Yeah.
It's the last door on the left.
Come in.
Hi.
Mum, Mum, just sit down.
I have not seen you before.
Your sisters and brother, yes, but not you.
I live in London.
I just wanted to know a bit more about my father's, erm, condition.
Yes, no problem, no problem.
OK, one for the heart, blood pressure, diabetes.
Ah, and these are for his mental health problems.
Your father is on Quetiapine.
And a monthly injection of Modecate.
Injections?
Your father is not so reliable when it comes to taking his medicines
so it's just a backup to ensure he doesn't deteriorate beyond a certain point.
Jagjit...
And, erm, I can make the sun rise
and both the countries are friends, I know that.
Thank you very much.
Are you alright?
Yeah.
I've just never seen him so animated.
At home, he just, you know, reads the newspaper
or watches the Shopping Channel, I mean, obsessively.
He may think it's talking to him or about him.
But if he's becoming delusional, let's nip it in the bud.
We'll increase his dose. - Don't... don't do it on my say-so.
Ah, please, I've been monitoring him for some time.
I think it'll be good to increase a little.
With his agreement, of course.
Jagjit...
You're taking two, huna?
So to keep you well, we will keep it the same
but we'll just double the dosage.
Thank you very much. Thank you.
You should know that your father is only doing as well as he is
because of your mother.
She enables him to remain at home.
Although, and I say this with some pride
Indian families cope because the entire family rallies around.
I promise you, 95 out of 100 people like your father
would be in a nursing home by now, and a closed unit, at that.
Try not to worry.
Continuity is everything.
It's change that causes the problems.
Change can throw him off balance.
But, well, since we have seen no aggression for many years and...
What, aggression? What do you mean, aggression?
No, I mean, he's... - Please, remember what I said.
Let us not be at loggerheads. - Oh, he's used to people arguing.
But not you with me.
So...
- Jagjit... - Not to worry.
Thank you.
Yeah, he was admitted to hospital last night.
That's terrible.
Yeah, so I just felt I couldn't bring us up now.
You know, 'cause the doctor said at times like this
the only reason my dad's not being transferred to a secure unit
is because his family life is stable.
Right.
I mean, you do see that, don't you?
Of course I do. Yeah, of course.
OK.
Listen, do you want me to call Greg and get the interview rearranged?
What time does your dad get out of hospital?
What do you mean, out of hosp...?
Yeah, yeah, you should.
Oh, my God.
You've lied to me. - Yeah, no...
Look, Laura, listen.
Sathnam...
The editor's coming back to London.
Sorry.
Is it really urgent? - Very.
Important?
Sathnam, fuck off.
She's on her way to Lisbon.
For the travel pages.
Who else is on that piece? Is Matt on that?
Sathnam, quick word.
Now, Laura has asked us to withhold her contact details from you.
Now I've no idea what's going on between you two
but we're all professionals, alright?
Matt's out in Lisbon, too, isn't he?
Matt's over there.
Sathnam...
Sathnam, listen, mate. There's lots to concentrate on, yeah?
You've got your interview with Simon Cowell...
Sathnam!
- Laura, come on. - Your stuff's down there.
Changing the locks?
Take your stuff and go.
What about our new flat?
You love that place. We've just put a deposit down.
Yeah, you've lost that, too.
Take your bags and go.
I don't want to.
Laura!
What?
What exactly do you want to say to me, Sathnam?
Right, yeah. Absolutely nothing.
Oh, this is... I can't...
My dad's illiterate but I went to Cambridge!
I got a First! Big deal!
If it makes you so much better than them, what are you hiding from?
'Cause that's what you're doing!
Let's pretend my dad was never ill
and let's keep the peasants up in Wolverhampton
while I have another life down here!
Which, incredibly, given you don't know the basic facts about your own family
includes a job where you're paid to ask strangers about their lives.
Brilliant.
Also, just imagine your reaction if it was me telling you
I can't introduce you to my family because you're Punjabi!
That's not the same. That is not the same!
It's a bit the same, Sathnam! - Not at all, actually
because Sikhs believe all human beings
even though they appear different, are one, we are all one, Laura!
Then what's the fucking problem?
Laura!
"It's Happening Again" by Agnes Obel
I'm not with a gori or anybody, I'm not with anyone.
If it makes you so much better, then what are you hiding from?
This patient, Mr Jagjit Sanghera
suffers from acute paranoid schizophrenia.
Let's pretend my dad was never ill.
You know about this?
These are for his mental health problems.
Let's keep the peasants up in Wolverhampton
while I have another life down here!
He may think it's talking to him.
Well, since we have seen no aggression for many years.
What do you mean, aggression?
Given you don't know the basic facts about your own family...
But everything is OK because I can raise the sun.
And I have worked it out myself.
Have you really never noticed anything?
Sathnam.
- Theek hai.
Sathnam, again.
Dedi.
Can I ask about when you first came to this country?
When you... when you first came here, when you were young.
You were younger than me, weren't you?
I used to ride a bike.
Did you?
I used to go everywhere on it.
I went to... I went everywhere on the bike.
'Everywhere.' - Mum.
He can't ride a bike. - I can, I can.
You didn't have a bike!
When was that?
When I first came to this country in...
1986.
Leh, 1986.
It was 1979. - I rode a bike.
I was the strongest man in this country.
And I used to... lift weights.
Why you asking him all these questions, hey?
Week in, week out, I ask strangers about their lives
and I don't know the first thing about my own family.
And it turns out it's your story, Mum.
Yours and Dedi's, yeah. How you've coped.
That's the story I need to hear.
I used to ride a bike.
I mean, I... I don't even know how old you were
when you first met Dedi.
You know, when your marriage was arranged.
Hm.
15.
Maybe 16.
And did you know he was ill?
What did you know?
Look, I don't want you to start worrying about all this.
Mum, I worry about what I don't know.
OK?
And then... and then, they what?
Showed you a photo?
Photo.
So you didn't even know what he looked like?
I told you about Sikh girl.
I have a number for her now. She's a doctor.
Mum, Mum... - Doctore.
Mum, this is about you, not me.
OK?
Go on.
He just sat there.
And what happened after that?
Mum? What about afterwards? After the wedding?
We were sent to Southall to live with Auntie Sharanjit
and Uncle Mohinder.
So what year was it?
- 1666. - 1666.
And where did it start? - In the bakery.
The bakery, very good.
So, er, who have you interviewed lately, Sathnam?
Er, Salman Rushdie. - Who?
Bring your nanaji to the table.
Erm, Carlos Slim Helú. - What?
Sounds like a dish.
He's the second richest man in the world.
- Oh, I'm doing Simon Cowell tomorrow. - Oh.
- Wow! - Simon Cowell?
Dedi OK? Is he eating?
Has he sat back at the table yet?
Hey, you know what, Mum's got her Sat Nav on a hot date later.
- Yeah? - Yeah.
Little bro has a date with a doctor. - Hey!
Yeah, geriatrics doctor.
- What, a geriatric? - Well, we hope not.
She looks like Alesha Dixon. - Mum!
Sathnam, I've ironed your jeans.
- Oi, hoi! - Oh, yes. Nice.
Yeah, thanks.
"Wake Me Up Before You Go-Go" by Wham!
Hey, do you remember with Michael Jackson's "Liberian Girl"?
How you thought it was "Librarian Girl"!
Yeah, yeah, yeah, with that Swahili bit at the beginning.
And you thought it was the librarian saying, 'Put your pens away!'
Oh, yeah!
Well, at least I didn't think Walsall was the capital of Poland
and that The Famous Five books were written by 'Grid Blyton'
Noddy Goes To Toyland by 'Grid Blyton'.
It was the way her signature looked on the book covers.
How she did her E.
"Club Tropicana" by Wham!
Remember this? - Oh!
Do you remember this? It's "Club Tropicana."
You remember.
Puli, do you remember this?
Of course she does, it was her favourite!
Eh? - Yo!
We haven't seen you this much in ages.
Eh, it's good. It's nice.
Steady on.
Oi.
I went with Dedi to see his doctor at the clinic the other day.
Dr Dutte? - Yeah.
Good man. - Yeah.
Why don't we ever talk about Dedi's schizophrenia?
What's there to talk about?
Well, Dr Dutte mentioned aggression.
What are you saying?
When was the last time you saw Dedi be aggressive?
Never. You didn't ever.
He's the kindest, gentlest man.
I'm not saying he isn't and he's on medication now.
He's been on medication since before you were born.
Why are you bringing this up now?
Bindi, I didn't know this till two days ago.
Of course you knew. - I didn't.
You knew. - I didn't.
Listen, you're off doing important stuff down in London.
Well, what's that supposed to mean?
You're there, we're here, Dedi's Dedi.
Nothing's new.
Why make a big deal when things are OK?
Look, Dedi's happy, he's got Mum.
He takes his medicine, it is what it is and always has been.
And if anything needs doing, we rally round.
Mummy, I need a toilet.
If you want something to worry about, have kids.
Come on then. Come on.
Rajah, you're wanted.
Yeah, coming.
So, uh, what time you meeting your geriatric doctor?
Oh, come on, don't start that again.
You wanna fight, yeah?
Oh, thank you.
Hi.
Just trying to decide what to...
Hi. Are you...?
Hi. - Kiran. Sorry I'm late.
Er, Sathnam. Oh, yeah. No problem.
Can I get you a drink? - Er...
Decaf, triple venti, non-fat-free, Splenda, extra hot, stirred
no-foam, caramel macchiato with whipped cream and extra caramel?
I'll just have an Americano, please.
Fat milk, thanks. - Fat milk.
Hi, an Americano and a flat white, please.
Thanks. - Here we are.
My mum ironed them.
Something my brother very much enjoys.
Look at these chairs.
So do you... do you have siblings?
Er, just the one. I'm the eldest of two.
Oh, youngest of four.
And, erm, where did you study medicine?
At Trinity College, Oxford. - Cool.
English at Cambridge. - Ah.
First.
Yeah... And are your parents doctors?
Mm-mm. My mum's a seamstress.
No. Where?
Ah, my mum worked at GGED.
No! - Yeah, yeah.
I mean, I worked there too as a kid with my brother and sisters.
Doing up buttons, clipping threads.
There doing 14 hours a day. - What!
Child labour.
Weekends, every holiday.
If you ever need anything wrapped in cellophane
just call Sathnam.
Er, so what does your dad do?
Mine's a bus driver.
Sorry, it's...
Erm...
Mine has a severe mental illness.
Oh, that must be really difficult.
But you and your siblings help support the family.
I mean, that's admirable. - No, no.
I mainly used my wages to buy George Michael records.
I'm sure you helped a bit.
No, I seem to have convinced myself there was nothing wrong with my dad
so no help needed, which is... is interesting.
I lied to myself as well as to others, erm, Kiran.
I lie all the time, I lie to everyone, I lie to my parents.
I lie to my girlfriend.
Mum, you know what we were talking about the other day?
The station is that road. You've gone wrong.
It is back there.
Yes, I'm taking you all the way there, Mum.
I'm taking you to the hospital. - What?!
No! - Yes.
What about your interview? - I'm not due there till two.
But this is one of the best cars in the world.
So, door to door service with style, Mum.
So if it's OK with you, I just thought
maybe we could talk some more about those early days.
Yes, yes! - I have to have water!
I'll get you some.
Mum, how did you find out that Dedi, you know...?
Mum... Mum...
Mum...
Hey, stranger.
Hello, Sathnam. Long time, no see!
How are you? You're looking well!
And I hear you're on your way to interview Mr X-Factor.
I am, yes. - You've met everyone. Go now.
When you come back for your mother
if you want, we are happy to talk about Mum and Dad and the early days.
Well, not happy, but it's no problem.
Your mum texted and asked.
You have a very important meeting.
I'll see you in a bit.
Go back!
He cancels you just like that?
How rude!
Mind, he does what he wants, doesn't he?
He's very full to the brim of himself.
The way he talks to Louis. I don't like him.
To be honest, Auntie, I'd rather be here talking to you.
I'm a little concerned about you eating all this.
Indian food is the best for building strength.
And we can talk while we eat.
Oh. - It's fine, leave her be.
Er, OK.
No, no, no, I'm alright.
Erm...
Oh, popular. - Ah.
They're all old ones.
Auntie, do you mind if I record this?
Erm...
Mum got as far as telling me about the wedding.
- Oh, yes. - Yes, very good.
So, what happened after that?
We helped them up and they came home with us.
So my dad was ill when he first arrived in England.
Ill? No, he was not ill when he came here.
No, not ill at all.
He was, er, as strong as an ox.
Oh, and what a weightlifter he was.
He said he did weightlifting. - Oh.
He was really very strong.
He would eat half a packet of butter with each meal.
Ah, at least half a pack.
So Dad was happy when he arrived? - Yes, very happy.
Happy, happy.
We work hard, play hard, and he is like everyone else.
Never fighting or anything, nothing.
That's not entirely true.
Soon after he arrived, he becomes... strange.
Yes, he was different.
He... he gets upset over nothing.
Nothing at all.
And after the wedding
then it's worse, much worse.
Now he's in fights all the time.
Hurting himself, getting sacked from every job.
And, of course, he takes it out on your mother.
It was, er, around then that some people
started saying he'd gone mad.
Who said that?
We never said that and we never would.
They were right, though, weren't they?
What do you mean?
Auntie, something went wrong with his mind.
He became ill.
Yes, well, everything got better when you arrived.
No, it was nothing to do with me.
Yes, when you were born.
When you arrived, from then he got better.
You changed everything.
It was the medicine that made him better.
The medication he was on. It was nothing to do with me.
Well, you should also know...
a lot of people think maybe your mum does something.
No, I have to say this.
- Does something? - Yes.
My mother, your grandmother
she says she has done something to 'akugi. '
Like what?
Like magic. Black magic.
Like a witch.
We think she cast spells on your father.
Mum is the only reason my dad survived.
Why do Indians always need to blame someone?
It's an illness. Just an illness.
- This illness you speak of... - Schizophrenia.
Ah, yes, er, it affects young people?
That's when it often sets in, yes.
And it runs in the family? - It can, yes.
So, is that what your sister has?
Is that what Puli has, too?
It is, yeah.
Hi. - Sathnam.
Yeah, good. - You never come in!
Hey, shush! - Oh, hello.
How are you? - OK.
Is Puli in? - Yes, of course.
Oh, Puli!
Can we talk?
Sorry.
I find it easier to write things down.
Here.
Do you want me to read it?
'Sathnam's been asking Mum the same questions I asked once.
He wants to know what happened.
He's like me, very like me.
We might've been the same if things were different.
I was clever, too, but as soon as I started to get ill
I slowed down.
And once I was on medication, I...' - No.
Just the first bit. - No, it's so true.
Yeah. - I was cleverer than you.
You are cleverer.
Er, I've been, er...
very wrapped up in myself.
Er, in my work and in my life in London.
Too... too wrapped up in...
And I want to be a better brother.
Uh, yeah.
You know how spice capsules separate
and are on their own?
I'm apart.
I punch pillows sometimes.
I can't help thinking my life could've gone a different way.
Yeah, it could have.
And I still try. I'm not lazy.
I've never stopped having goals.
Do you know when I knew how ill I was?
It was when I was first sectioned.
You looked disgusted.
Mum says that was the day
you went and had your topknot cut off.
She said that was the day she knew you would leave us.
Puli...
I'm so sorry.
I don't know why, but I need you to know how I feel.
You more than anyone, I think
because we are almost the same.
It's like...
...to be who... I really am...
...that must...
...be like flying.
- And why would you ask that? - Have you?
Would you like to tell us... - Yes, just show it off.
- OK. - Are you serious?
Laura.
Sathnam.
I just want to say congratulations.
I mean, I assume you got that promotion.
Sathnam, don't let Greg see you. Where's the Ferrari?
It's... it's outside.
They've reported it stolen.
And you've been sacked.
Congratulations again. You deserve it.
Hello. Alright?
Where you going?
Sit down, sit down.
Press play and watch the DVD.
Because I'm asking you to.
Dedi.
You understand?
Mum, have you watched it?
Yes, watched enough. - No, no, no.
Yes. - No, watch it all.
Watch all of it.
Come on, this is important. I made this for you.
Sit down.
And how much... it cost, this translate?
If you must know, £300.
Watch it. Watch it.
Waste of money.
You've seen it all now, right? - Hm. Yes.
So my girlfriend's name was...?
Mum, what was her name?
Laura.
Thank you.
But you have now split, huna?
No, no, no, Mum, Mum, listen...
Look at me.
I love you, Mum. I love you.
And I loved Laura.
I still do, I love her.
We were going to get married and have children.
But she's gone.
And she's gone because I wanted your blessing, Mum.
I needed your blessing.
We both did.
I just... I couldn't ask, I was too scared.
You know, I want to have
one joined-up life with no fear and no more lies.
I need you to be a part of that. Do you understand?
Yes.
She's a dentist.
She's so pretty.
She looks just like Kylie Minogue. - Right, I'm off.
Right, Dedi, I'm going. - Sathnam, Sathnam...
The train now standing
on platform 3 is the 18:03...
Sathnam Sanghera.
Hello?
- Hello? - It's me.
Laura. Hi.
How's it going?
Well, I'm... I'm up in Wolves and, erm...
I just... I just told my mum everything
and it was, erm...
I did it.
I actually did it.
And, erm, I'm sorry I wasn't brave enough sooner.
Sathnam...
Sathnam.
I, erm, found this in the office
and I saw my name.
Five times.
So, eventually guessed.
But it... it's all in Punjabi. - Oh, yeah, no.
I put it into Google Translate.
Which gives the gist.
Yeah. - Yeah.
I as, er...
I as good as run away, you know?
Cut my topknot off and left.
You were right. I was hiding.
You're back now, though.
I told my mum I'd wanted to marry you.
And I also said I wish she'd met you.
And since you're here, you know, maybe...
Do you fancy it?
Yeah.
"Just Like Heaven" by The Cure
By the way, we've exchanged on the flat.
I love you.