1 00:00:00,533 --> 00:00:02,100 ( indistinct chatter ) 1 00:00:02,133 --> 00:00:05,237 Woman: Careful with all the pillows and all the art. 1 00:00:05,270 --> 00:00:08,407 Man: Once we approve frame, folks, we're all clear. 1 00:00:09,608 --> 00:00:11,076 Once again, check your cell phones. 1 00:00:11,109 --> 00:00:12,112 Thank you. 1 00:00:13,711 --> 00:00:14,780 Frame looks beautiful. 1 00:00:14,814 --> 00:00:16,048 Woman: You look great. 1 00:00:16,082 --> 00:00:17,516 Everybody needs to clear. 1 00:00:17,550 --> 00:00:20,253 Every single person. You too. 1 00:00:20,286 --> 00:00:22,554 Okay. How are you feeling? 1 00:00:22,588 --> 00:00:23,789 Demi Lovato: I actually had anxiety 1 00:00:23,823 --> 00:00:26,559 around this... interview. 1 00:00:26,591 --> 00:00:29,361 Why is that? 1 00:00:29,394 --> 00:00:31,463 Because the last time I did an interview this long, 1 00:00:31,496 --> 00:00:33,066 I was on cocaine. 1 00:00:33,098 --> 00:00:36,201 It was called "Staying Strong." 1 00:00:36,234 --> 00:00:37,302 ( bulbs flashing quickly ) 1 00:00:37,335 --> 00:00:38,804 I am Demi Lovato. 1 00:00:38,838 --> 00:00:42,207 ( music playing ) 1 00:00:42,240 --> 00:00:44,109 I'm 25. 1 00:00:44,143 --> 00:00:48,148 The last decade has taught me a lifetime of lessons. 1 00:00:50,582 --> 00:00:53,853 I've learned that secrets make you sick. 1 00:00:53,886 --> 00:00:56,589 I'm learning how to be a voice and not a victim. 1 00:00:57,890 --> 00:00:59,459 I've learned that sex is natural. 1 00:01:01,659 --> 00:01:04,296 I've learned that love is necessary. 1 00:01:04,329 --> 00:01:05,864 Heartbreak is unavoidable. 1 00:01:05,897 --> 00:01:08,634 And loneliness is brutal. 1 00:01:10,769 --> 00:01:12,371 I've learned that the key to being happy 1 00:01:12,403 --> 00:01:14,439 is to tell your truth 1 00:01:14,472 --> 00:01:16,542 and be okay without all the answers. 1 00:01:19,344 --> 00:01:21,280 This is my story. 1 00:01:21,313 --> 00:01:24,750 This... is "Simply Complicated." 1 00:01:24,783 --> 00:01:26,819 (music ends) 1 00:01:26,852 --> 00:01:28,588 Producer: I want you to hear the first three lines you just did. 1 00:01:28,620 --> 00:01:30,423 They were great. 1 00:01:30,456 --> 00:01:32,290 Okay. 1 00:01:32,323 --> 00:01:34,759 ♪ I see the future ♪ 1 00:01:34,793 --> 00:01:36,529 ♪ Without you ♪ 1 00:01:37,862 --> 00:01:40,500 ♪ The hell was I doing ♪ 1 00:01:40,533 --> 00:01:42,835 ♪ In the past? ♪ 1 00:01:42,867 --> 00:01:48,473 ♪ Now that I've learned all about you ♪ 1 00:01:48,507 --> 00:01:50,309 ♪ A love ♪ 1 00:01:50,341 --> 00:01:52,677 ♪ Just like ours wouldn't last. ♪ 1 00:01:52,710 --> 00:01:55,213 I think the first, um, line, 1 00:01:55,246 --> 00:01:56,882 the "you" on it isn't good. 1 00:01:56,915 --> 00:01:58,584 Producer: Okay, did you like line number three? 1 00:01:58,617 --> 00:02:00,585 - Did you like this one? - ( mouse click ) 1 00:02:00,618 --> 00:02:05,525 ♪ Now that I've learned all about you ♪ 1 00:02:05,558 --> 00:02:07,360 - Yeah, the "you" is great. - Yeah. 1 00:02:07,393 --> 00:02:09,829 And the "now," I think I can do a better "learned." 1 00:02:09,861 --> 00:02:11,496 ♪ I won't ♪ 1 00:02:11,530 --> 00:02:12,632 ♪ Fall ♪ 1 00:02:12,664 --> 00:02:15,467 ♪ For your games ♪ 1 00:02:15,501 --> 00:02:17,203 ♪ So don't ♪ 1 00:02:17,235 --> 00:02:18,304 ♪ Hate me ♪ 1 00:02:18,336 --> 00:02:19,604 ♪ When I say ♪ 1 00:02:19,638 --> 00:02:21,908 Okay, there's words that I like, 1 00:02:21,941 --> 00:02:23,475 but, overall, I don't like the whole take. 1 00:02:23,508 --> 00:02:26,344 Producer: Ah! Okay. 1 00:02:26,377 --> 00:02:28,713 Those first two lines made me feel something great, 1 00:02:28,747 --> 00:02:29,815 so whatever you're doing... 1 00:02:29,848 --> 00:02:31,384 I'll just keep doing it. 1 00:02:31,417 --> 00:02:36,722 ♪ That you... ♪ 1 00:02:36,754 --> 00:02:39,525 ♪ Don't do it for me ♪ 1 00:02:39,557 --> 00:02:42,662 ♪ Anymore ♪ 1 00:02:42,694 --> 00:02:45,298 ♪ No, you... ♪ 1 00:02:47,665 --> 00:02:48,967 ( taps keyboard, song ends ) 1 00:02:49,001 --> 00:02:51,236 I really like this take. 1 00:02:51,270 --> 00:02:53,773 Just that last "ooh" needs to be smoothed out. 1 00:02:53,806 --> 00:02:55,341 - ( taps keyboard ) - Yeah. 1 00:02:55,373 --> 00:02:57,442 I mean, in a perfect world, absolutely. 1 00:02:57,475 --> 00:03:00,680 Well, this should be a perfect world, it's my album. 1 00:03:00,712 --> 00:03:02,480 ( chuckles ) 1 00:03:02,514 --> 00:03:04,683 Let's go again. 1 00:03:04,717 --> 00:03:06,485 ♪ I won't ♪ 1 00:03:06,518 --> 00:03:07,586 ♪ Fall ♪ 1 00:03:07,620 --> 00:03:08,920 ♪ For your game. ♪ 1 00:03:08,954 --> 00:03:12,325 Oops. ( bleep ). 1 00:03:12,358 --> 00:03:14,659 ♪ Fall. ♪ 1 00:03:14,693 --> 00:03:16,395 - ♪ Fall. ♪ - ( producer talking indistinctly ) 1 00:03:16,427 --> 00:03:18,597 ♪ Fall. ♪ 1 00:03:18,631 --> 00:03:20,665 ♪ Stop feeling bad ♪ 1 00:03:20,699 --> 00:03:23,803 ♪ For yourself ♪ 1 00:03:23,836 --> 00:03:25,471 ♪ I won't ♪ 1 00:03:25,503 --> 00:03:26,671 ♪ Fall ♪ 1 00:03:26,705 --> 00:03:29,508 ♪ For your games ♪ 1 00:03:29,540 --> 00:03:30,876 ♪ So don't ♪ 1 00:03:30,908 --> 00:03:33,412 ♪ Hate me when I say ♪ 1 00:03:34,879 --> 00:03:36,781 I like that "me when I say." 1 00:03:36,814 --> 00:03:38,651 Producer: Yeah, I think, too. 1 00:03:38,683 --> 00:03:40,919 It's only the third take. 1 00:03:40,953 --> 00:03:42,354 Yeah, I don't know what to do. 1 00:03:42,388 --> 00:03:43,688 ( chuckles ) 1 00:03:43,722 --> 00:03:45,258 Well, I got to get the other stuff first. 1 00:03:45,290 --> 00:03:46,292 ( laughs ) Here we go. 1 00:03:46,324 --> 00:03:48,927 ♪ That you... ♪ 1 00:03:51,830 --> 00:03:54,367 ♪ Don't do it for me ♪ 1 00:03:54,400 --> 00:03:55,902 ♪ Anymore ♪ 1 00:03:57,336 --> 00:03:59,405 ♪ I'm sorry ♪ 1 00:03:59,437 --> 00:04:00,839 ♪ For honesty ♪ 1 00:04:00,872 --> 00:04:02,907 ♪ I'm well aware ♪ 1 00:04:02,941 --> 00:04:05,343 ♪ I lie to you ♪ 1 00:04:05,377 --> 00:04:07,814 ♪ When I lie with you ♪ 1 00:04:09,548 --> 00:04:14,854 ♪ You... ♪ 1 00:04:14,887 --> 00:04:17,023 ♪ Don't do it for me ♪ 1 00:04:17,055 --> 00:04:19,057 ♪ Don't do it ♪ 1 00:04:19,091 --> 00:04:20,526 ♪ For me ♪ 1 00:04:20,559 --> 00:04:23,429 ♪ You... ♪ 1 00:04:24,797 --> 00:04:26,866 ♪ Don't do it ♪ 1 00:04:26,899 --> 00:04:28,600 ♪ For me ♪ 1 00:04:28,634 --> 00:04:32,038 ♪ Anymore. ♪ 1 00:04:32,071 --> 00:04:33,506 ( taps keyboard ) 1 00:04:33,538 --> 00:04:35,307 - That last line was great. - Yeah. 1 00:04:35,341 --> 00:04:37,343 - ( mouse clicks ) - Hang on one sec. 1 00:04:37,375 --> 00:04:38,777 I mean thank you. 1 00:04:38,810 --> 00:04:41,713 ( laughter ) 1 00:04:41,747 --> 00:04:43,316 Yeah, I know I'm the ( bleep ). 1 00:04:43,348 --> 00:04:44,817 ( chuckles ) 1 00:04:44,850 --> 00:04:46,419 ( music playing ) 1 00:04:46,451 --> 00:04:47,519 Growing up, 1 00:04:47,552 --> 00:04:49,422 I had been bullied in school. 1 00:04:49,454 --> 00:04:50,423 And... 1 00:04:50,456 --> 00:04:51,891 I felt like an outsider, 1 00:04:51,923 --> 00:04:53,325 I felt like an outcast. 1 00:04:54,726 --> 00:04:56,895 At that time, I became friends with 1 00:04:56,928 --> 00:04:59,798 a girl who was popular. 1 00:04:59,831 --> 00:05:03,836 And, one day, I asked her, 1 00:05:03,869 --> 00:05:05,471 "How do you have all these friends?" 1 00:05:05,504 --> 00:05:06,806 And she was like, "Well, do you party?" 1 00:05:06,838 --> 00:05:08,074 I was like, "What do you mean?" 1 00:05:08,107 --> 00:05:10,443 And she asked me, 1 00:05:10,475 --> 00:05:11,776 "Do you drink?" 1 00:05:11,810 --> 00:05:13,946 We experienced a lot of stuff together, 1 00:05:13,978 --> 00:05:17,916 drinking, and using, and... growing up. 1 00:05:17,949 --> 00:05:21,387 Marissa Callahan: We started drinking fairly early. 1 00:05:21,420 --> 00:05:24,023 To me, it was like, "We're just having fun. 1 00:05:24,055 --> 00:05:26,524 We're kids. 1 00:05:26,557 --> 00:05:29,361 Everyone's doing it, so we're going to, too." 1 00:05:29,394 --> 00:05:30,862 Little did we know that 1 00:05:30,896 --> 00:05:32,899 there's was gonna be, like, this downward spiral. 1 00:05:34,867 --> 00:05:35,835 My first time 1 00:05:35,867 --> 00:05:37,135 doing coke, 1 00:05:37,168 --> 00:05:39,971 I was 17, 1 00:05:40,004 --> 00:05:42,574 working on Disney Channel, and... 1 00:05:42,608 --> 00:05:45,009 I was with a couple of friends. 1 00:05:45,043 --> 00:05:47,780 And they introduced me to it. 1 00:05:47,812 --> 00:05:50,483 I was scared because my mom always told me 1 00:05:50,516 --> 00:05:53,486 that your heart could just burst if you do it. 1 00:05:53,519 --> 00:05:55,588 But I did it anyways, 1 00:05:55,620 --> 00:05:57,423 and I loved it. 1 00:05:59,958 --> 00:06:02,428 I felt out of control with the coke 1 00:06:02,461 --> 00:06:04,097 the first time that I did it. 1 00:06:06,464 --> 00:06:07,432 My dad 1 00:06:07,466 --> 00:06:09,535 was an addict and an alcoholic. 1 00:06:09,567 --> 00:06:12,670 And... 1 00:06:12,704 --> 00:06:15,574 I guess I always searched for what he found in drugs and alcohol 1 00:06:15,607 --> 00:06:19,011 because it fulfilled him and he chose that over a family. 1 00:06:20,745 --> 00:06:22,046 Dianna De La Garza: Early on, 1 00:06:22,079 --> 00:06:24,149 Demi was very, very sad 1 00:06:24,182 --> 00:06:28,420 because of her issues with her dad. 1 00:06:28,454 --> 00:06:30,923 ( music playing ) 1 00:06:30,956 --> 00:06:32,792 We had been through a lot of the same things, 1 00:06:32,824 --> 00:06:36,127 kind of at the same time. 1 00:06:36,161 --> 00:06:39,697 Our parents were both divorced at a young age. 1 00:06:39,730 --> 00:06:42,600 She dealt a lot with her dad. 1 00:06:42,634 --> 00:06:45,204 And the times where he was brought up 1 00:06:45,237 --> 00:06:46,639 wasn't ever good. 1 00:06:46,672 --> 00:06:49,442 Like, he would tell them 1 00:06:49,475 --> 00:06:51,043 he had cancer when he didn't. 1 00:06:51,076 --> 00:06:55,713 Or he would tell them he's dying tomorrow 1 00:06:55,747 --> 00:06:58,718 when he wasn't. 1 00:07:00,918 --> 00:07:04,757 Dallas Lovato: Growing up, I was always really protective of Demi. 1 00:07:04,790 --> 00:07:05,790 I remember my dad 1 00:07:05,824 --> 00:07:07,927 was such a loving person, 1 00:07:07,959 --> 00:07:08,927 But, 1 00:07:08,961 --> 00:07:10,728 when he started drinking, 1 00:07:10,762 --> 00:07:13,499 he was very different. 1 00:07:13,531 --> 00:07:14,699 Dianna: Scary things 1 00:07:14,733 --> 00:07:16,035 began to happen. 1 00:07:16,067 --> 00:07:19,838 Dallas: He would rage, and yell, 1 00:07:19,872 --> 00:07:21,473 and throw things. 1 00:07:21,507 --> 00:07:22,641 And... 1 00:07:22,673 --> 00:07:25,076 Demi saw that. 1 00:07:25,110 --> 00:07:27,513 Dianna: At the time, I didn't understand it. 1 00:07:27,545 --> 00:07:30,682 I didn't know how to handle things. 1 00:07:30,716 --> 00:07:33,786 But I knew that 1 00:07:33,819 --> 00:07:35,788 he had a good heart. 1 00:07:35,821 --> 00:07:38,958 I never would've married him in the first place 1 00:07:38,990 --> 00:07:40,992 if he didn't. 1 00:07:41,026 --> 00:07:44,062 But sometimes, if you don't get help 1 00:07:44,096 --> 00:07:46,064 for what you're struggling with, 1 00:07:46,098 --> 00:07:50,735 a good heart sometimes isn't enough. 1 00:07:50,769 --> 00:07:54,807 It just became too much and I had to leave. 1 00:07:54,839 --> 00:07:57,075 ( music playing ) 1 00:07:57,108 --> 00:07:59,745 Dallas: From a young age, Demi, my mom, and I 1 00:07:59,778 --> 00:08:02,548 had this incredible bond. 1 00:08:02,581 --> 00:08:05,084 We called ourselves "The 3 Ds." 1 00:08:05,117 --> 00:08:09,588 It felt kind of like it was us against the world. 1 00:08:21,666 --> 00:08:22,868 Eddie's my dad. 1 00:08:24,702 --> 00:08:26,804 When I say my dad and I mean my birth father, 1 00:08:26,838 --> 00:08:28,874 I mention that it's my birth father. 1 00:08:28,906 --> 00:08:31,676 Dallas: Even though the dynamic in our family 1 00:08:31,709 --> 00:08:34,312 was always very loving and very open, 1 00:08:34,346 --> 00:08:38,616 on the other hand, we were also very closed off 1 00:08:38,649 --> 00:08:40,785 and secretive as well. 1 00:08:40,818 --> 00:08:43,021 We all had our own things 1 00:08:43,054 --> 00:08:45,590 hidden behind our own closed doors. 1 00:08:45,624 --> 00:08:47,158 There were some things that 1 00:08:47,192 --> 00:08:48,760 nobody knew. 1 00:08:48,793 --> 00:08:50,629 Demi: I was depressed 1 00:08:50,662 --> 00:08:52,697 at a very, very young age. 1 00:08:52,730 --> 00:08:55,801 Fascinated with death. 1 00:08:55,833 --> 00:08:58,870 Wondering what it would be like 1 00:08:58,903 --> 00:09:00,572 to have a funeral. 1 00:09:02,975 --> 00:09:04,677 I never knew why I would think 1 00:09:04,710 --> 00:09:09,114 so darkly. 1 00:09:09,147 --> 00:09:10,583 And it took me a long time to figure out 1 00:09:10,615 --> 00:09:12,150 what was actually going on. 1 00:09:15,988 --> 00:09:18,157 ( birds chirping ) 1 00:09:18,190 --> 00:09:20,793 ( indistinct chatter ) 1 00:09:22,927 --> 00:09:25,230 Look at how serious I am in this picture. 1 00:09:25,263 --> 00:09:28,167 I've got the head tilt and the "smize." 1 00:09:29,701 --> 00:09:31,269 We started modeling a little bit 1 00:09:31,302 --> 00:09:32,937 when I was, like, five. 1 00:09:32,971 --> 00:09:34,940 And by modeling, we didn't have an agent, 1 00:09:34,972 --> 00:09:36,007 we just took pictures. 1 00:09:36,041 --> 00:09:38,243 We didn't do anything... 1 00:09:38,275 --> 00:09:40,211 like, any actual jobs. 1 00:09:41,980 --> 00:09:43,282 Then we started doing beauty pageants 1 00:09:43,315 --> 00:09:45,384 and that's what got me into singing. 1 00:09:45,417 --> 00:09:47,219 Hi. 1 00:09:47,251 --> 00:09:48,753 My name is Demi. 1 00:09:48,787 --> 00:09:50,288 Dallas: Hi. I'm... 1 00:09:50,322 --> 00:09:52,024 I'm gonna be on "Jackass." 1 00:09:52,057 --> 00:09:53,325 ( laughter ) 1 00:09:53,357 --> 00:09:55,927 Dianna: We started off doing pageants 1 00:09:55,961 --> 00:09:59,230 and I started to realize that Demi, I guess, was... 1 00:09:59,264 --> 00:10:00,832 - gifted. - Was talented. 1 00:10:00,865 --> 00:10:03,336 Not human when it came to her voice. 1 00:10:04,870 --> 00:10:06,705 Dianna: When she was five years old, 1 00:10:06,738 --> 00:10:11,377 she... had the nerve to go up in front of the entire school 1 00:10:11,409 --> 00:10:14,812 to sing Celine Dion's 1 00:10:14,846 --> 00:10:16,280 "My Heart Will Go On." 1 00:10:16,313 --> 00:10:18,317 ( cheering and applause ) 1 00:10:18,350 --> 00:10:22,187 And it was beautiful. 1 00:10:22,220 --> 00:10:23,788 That was the first time I thought, "Okay, 1 00:10:23,822 --> 00:10:25,224 this is probably what she's gonna want to do 1 00:10:25,256 --> 00:10:26,257 the rest of her life." 1 00:10:28,092 --> 00:10:29,360 Demi: We tried really hard to get an agent 1 00:10:29,394 --> 00:10:30,863 We couldn't get an agent. 1 00:10:30,895 --> 00:10:32,830 It was auditions, like, all the time. 1 00:10:32,864 --> 00:10:35,033 Madison De La Garza: I just remember a lot of auditions 1 00:10:35,067 --> 00:10:36,435 and a lot of car rides. 1 00:10:36,467 --> 00:10:38,269 I have so many memories of 1 00:10:38,302 --> 00:10:39,437 Demi getting a phone call, 1 00:10:39,471 --> 00:10:41,874 and then not getting the job. 1 00:10:41,907 --> 00:10:43,208 We would be really upset 1 00:10:43,240 --> 00:10:45,811 for a few days, and then one day... 1 00:10:45,844 --> 00:10:46,945 Is the band here? 1 00:10:46,977 --> 00:10:48,046 Not yet. 1 00:10:48,080 --> 00:10:49,782 Dianna: She got "Barney." 1 00:10:49,815 --> 00:10:52,051 Demi: After I booked "Barney", 1 00:10:52,083 --> 00:10:54,219 I was constantly working on music and acting. 1 00:10:58,123 --> 00:10:59,291 I was taking lessons 1 00:10:59,323 --> 00:11:01,092 any chance that I could. 1 00:11:01,125 --> 00:11:02,927 Dianna: Demi, good luck! I love you! 1 00:11:02,961 --> 00:11:04,363 Have fun! 1 00:11:04,395 --> 00:11:06,164 We had been working really hard at it 1 00:11:06,197 --> 00:11:10,269 since the pageant days, and all of the headshots, 1 00:11:10,302 --> 00:11:11,704 and lessons. 1 00:11:11,736 --> 00:11:13,171 When Demi walked in the room, 1 00:11:13,205 --> 00:11:17,009 I knew that she was a flat-out entertainer. 1 00:11:17,042 --> 00:11:20,112 She was standing by my piano, 1 00:11:20,144 --> 00:11:21,212 and she said, "Can I sing for you?" 1 00:11:21,245 --> 00:11:23,115 And I said, "You bet you can." 1 00:11:23,148 --> 00:11:27,886 ♪ Hark the herald angels sing ♪ 1 00:11:27,918 --> 00:11:30,221 She started this song... 1 00:11:30,254 --> 00:11:32,957 ♪ The newborn king ♪ 1 00:11:32,990 --> 00:11:34,759 ♪ Peace on Earth ♪ 1 00:11:34,793 --> 00:11:35,994 ♪ And mercy mild ♪ 1 00:11:36,027 --> 00:11:38,129 I... I just said, "Oh, my gosh. 1 00:11:38,163 --> 00:11:39,431 where did she get this voice?" 1 00:11:39,464 --> 00:11:41,266 ♪ Glory to ♪ 1 00:11:41,298 --> 00:11:43,034 When I was very young, 1 00:11:43,067 --> 00:11:44,502 I wanted to be like Shirley Temple. 1 00:11:44,535 --> 00:11:48,005 Somebody that could sing and act 1 00:11:48,038 --> 00:11:49,073 at such a young age. 1 00:11:49,106 --> 00:11:50,775 ♪ Glory to ♪ 1 00:11:50,808 --> 00:11:52,310 I don't know how I knew I had it in me, 1 00:11:52,344 --> 00:11:54,113 but I knew that it was what I was supposed to do. 1 00:11:54,145 --> 00:11:55,146 ♪ King. ♪ 1 00:11:55,179 --> 00:11:56,147 ( static ) 1 00:11:56,181 --> 00:11:58,817 ♪ Looking out... ♪ 1 00:11:58,850 --> 00:11:59,985 I started playing guitar 1 00:12:00,018 --> 00:12:02,187 at around eight or nine years old. 1 00:12:02,220 --> 00:12:04,089 I was always playing music. 1 00:12:04,121 --> 00:12:05,957 She would be up all hours of the night... 1 00:12:05,990 --> 00:12:07,326 Singing my heart out. 1 00:12:07,359 --> 00:12:09,328 - ...writing. - Some real tough ( bleep ). 1 00:12:20,938 --> 00:12:23,174 Demi: Looking back, I think I realized that I had 1 00:12:23,207 --> 00:12:27,379 this outlet to... pour my emotions out 1 00:12:27,412 --> 00:12:29,514 and create something beautiful. 1 00:12:32,317 --> 00:12:34,485 After I had finished "Barney and Friends," 1 00:12:34,519 --> 00:12:38,056 what I ended up finding out is that there was actually a lot of pressure 1 00:12:38,089 --> 00:12:40,926 to find jobs. 1 00:12:40,958 --> 00:12:44,462 And the pressure didn't come from anybody but myself. 1 00:12:44,495 --> 00:12:47,098 I just wanted to succeed. 1 00:12:47,131 --> 00:12:48,900 ( bell on door jingles ) 1 00:12:48,933 --> 00:12:50,235 We started coming out to California 1 00:12:50,268 --> 00:12:52,104 for pilot season. 1 00:12:52,136 --> 00:12:54,839 I got guest-starring roles on TV shows, 1 00:12:54,873 --> 00:12:56,341 commercials, things like that. 1 00:12:56,374 --> 00:12:59,211 My stuff? I never heard of them. 1 00:12:59,244 --> 00:13:00,946 And then I ended up booking 1 00:13:00,979 --> 00:13:03,115 a TV show for Disney Channel 1 00:13:03,148 --> 00:13:04,449 - called "As the Bell Rings." - ( bell rings ) 1 00:13:04,481 --> 00:13:06,250 Okay, I think we have something. 1 00:13:06,283 --> 00:13:07,485 Let's put this together. 1 00:13:07,519 --> 00:13:09,855 And after "As the Bell Rings," 1 00:13:09,888 --> 00:13:11,590 I booked "Camp Rock." 1 00:13:11,623 --> 00:13:13,926 I was 15. 1 00:13:13,958 --> 00:13:14,926 Rock on. 1 00:13:14,960 --> 00:13:16,595 When I met Phil, 1 00:13:16,628 --> 00:13:18,363 he was managing the Jonas Brothers. 1 00:13:18,395 --> 00:13:19,897 Joe Jonas: We met Demi, I think, 1 00:13:19,931 --> 00:13:20,899 originally it was an audition 1 00:13:20,932 --> 00:13:22,967 of our TV show. 1 00:13:23,000 --> 00:13:25,269 We had a TV show called "Jonas." 1 00:13:25,302 --> 00:13:27,038 She didn't get it, but... 1 00:13:27,072 --> 00:13:30,174 - ( laughter ) - we... 1 00:13:30,207 --> 00:13:34,212 I think a year later, I think we met in rehearsals probably for "Camp Rock." 1 00:13:34,245 --> 00:13:36,848 - Demi was attached to the film already. - And I remember 1 00:13:36,881 --> 00:13:38,382 you went in 'cause you had to sing the duet 1 00:13:38,416 --> 00:13:40,219 with Demi's character. 1 00:13:40,251 --> 00:13:41,452 You had already laid down your part. 1 00:13:41,485 --> 00:13:43,388 - Mm-hmm. - I went in with Joe, 1 00:13:43,421 --> 00:13:46,057 and I heard her voice, I just had, like, goose bumps 1 00:13:46,091 --> 00:13:48,226 all over my arms. 1 00:13:48,259 --> 00:13:50,528 I was like-- I stepped out of the studio and I called Disney, I was like, 1 00:13:50,562 --> 00:13:51,996 "Who is this girl?" 1 00:13:54,231 --> 00:13:56,334 I saw what he did for the Jonas Brothers, 1 00:13:56,368 --> 00:13:59,538 and the fact that he wanted to manage me was a huge deal to me 1 00:13:59,571 --> 00:14:03,875 because he was with them through it all. 1 00:14:03,908 --> 00:14:06,912 Starring in "Camp Rock" was Demi's big break. 1 00:14:06,945 --> 00:14:10,215 It was just a massive franchise that Disney had put 1 00:14:10,248 --> 00:14:12,350 everything behind. 1 00:14:12,384 --> 00:14:14,418 And it just became a pop culture, 1 00:14:14,451 --> 00:14:15,921 sort of, sensation. 1 00:14:15,953 --> 00:14:17,088 To be able to 1 00:14:17,121 --> 00:14:18,089 get to do something 1 00:14:18,123 --> 00:14:19,424 as big as this, 1 00:14:19,456 --> 00:14:20,893 um, for my first project, 1 00:14:20,926 --> 00:14:22,261 it feels good. 1 00:14:22,293 --> 00:14:23,995 We really believed that "Camp Rock" 1 00:14:24,028 --> 00:14:27,099 was the vehicle to become a superstar. 1 00:14:27,131 --> 00:14:29,901 And it was like overnight, she became a household name. 1 00:14:29,934 --> 00:14:32,570 ( music playing ) 1 00:14:42,647 --> 00:14:44,182 I think Demi 1 00:14:44,215 --> 00:14:47,152 was cast in so many different Disney projects 1 00:14:47,184 --> 00:14:51,122 because there was a natural edge to her 1 00:14:51,155 --> 00:14:54,625 that made her... authentic 1 00:14:54,658 --> 00:14:55,660 and believable 1 00:14:55,693 --> 00:14:58,229 as an actress or as an artist. 1 00:14:58,263 --> 00:15:00,331 I think they needed her 1 00:15:00,365 --> 00:15:04,369 to make their projects cooler. 1 00:15:04,402 --> 00:15:05,937 Demi: Everything happened 1 00:15:05,971 --> 00:15:07,072 so fast. 1 00:15:07,105 --> 00:15:09,541 We officially signed, 1 00:15:09,573 --> 00:15:11,709 and the next day, I booked her a plane ticket 1 00:15:11,743 --> 00:15:13,512 to go on tour with the Jonas Brothers. 1 00:15:13,544 --> 00:15:15,313 ( cheering and applause ) 1 00:15:17,615 --> 00:15:18,616 All of a sudden, 1 00:15:18,649 --> 00:15:19,650 I was on tour, 1 00:15:19,683 --> 00:15:20,651 writing songs for my album 1 00:15:20,684 --> 00:15:23,020 with the Jonas Brothers. 1 00:15:23,053 --> 00:15:25,456 And then I was on a tour of my own. 1 00:15:27,759 --> 00:15:30,495 Looking back, I think that it was a lot 1 00:15:30,528 --> 00:15:32,965 for anyone, let alone, 1 00:15:32,998 --> 00:15:36,100 a kid. 1 00:15:36,134 --> 00:15:39,270 I think that Demi being on the Disney Channel, 1 00:15:39,303 --> 00:15:41,305 now looking back at it, I can connect the dots 1 00:15:41,339 --> 00:15:43,208 and say that there was an immense amount of pressure. 1 00:15:44,775 --> 00:15:47,245 I was now working on my music, 1 00:15:47,278 --> 00:15:51,416 and my TV show and movies 1 00:15:51,448 --> 00:15:53,051 all at the same time. 1 00:15:54,619 --> 00:15:55,754 That lifestyle's really crazy. 1 00:15:55,787 --> 00:15:57,522 Not a lot of people understand, 1 00:15:57,554 --> 00:15:59,357 like, the pressures, and the time, 1 00:15:59,390 --> 00:16:01,692 and the amount of work that it actually takes 1 00:16:01,725 --> 00:16:04,428 to have such a successful career 1 00:16:04,461 --> 00:16:05,563 in the entertainment industry. 1 00:16:07,532 --> 00:16:09,167 So many more expectations 1 00:16:09,200 --> 00:16:13,072 put on her than a normal 15, 16-year-old girl would have. 1 00:16:15,572 --> 00:16:17,375 Phil: She was living two lives. 1 00:16:17,408 --> 00:16:19,510 Here she was, she had to be squeaky clean 1 00:16:19,543 --> 00:16:21,579 on the Disney Channel, 1 00:16:21,613 --> 00:16:23,482 all types of moral clauses 1 00:16:23,514 --> 00:16:25,384 and just intensity around 1 00:16:25,417 --> 00:16:28,687 behavior, and, once the camera stops rolling, 1 00:16:28,720 --> 00:16:31,723 she's living another life; she couldn't really be herself. 1 00:16:31,755 --> 00:16:33,692 She couldn't be a normal teenager. 1 00:16:36,226 --> 00:16:37,361 I definitely felt 1 00:16:37,394 --> 00:16:41,600 the pressure increase when... 1 00:16:41,633 --> 00:16:44,636 the fame started to creep into my life. 1 00:16:44,668 --> 00:16:46,704 I started feeling pressured to 1 00:16:46,738 --> 00:16:49,241 look a certain way, to... 1 00:16:49,274 --> 00:16:51,243 sing music that I felt 1 00:16:51,275 --> 00:16:53,144 people would like, 1 00:16:53,177 --> 00:16:55,379 rather than sing music that I would like. 1 00:16:55,413 --> 00:16:58,450 There was more pressure to succeed, you know? 1 00:16:58,482 --> 00:17:00,084 Numbers and charts. 1 00:17:00,118 --> 00:17:02,153 And I was a perfectionist, 1 00:17:02,187 --> 00:17:04,088 and I really wanted to be the best of the best. 1 00:17:04,122 --> 00:17:06,591 ( music playing ) 1 00:17:06,624 --> 00:17:09,260 Phil: When you are carrying a franchise, 1 00:17:09,294 --> 00:17:13,165 there is a standard that everybody expects you to operate at. 1 00:17:13,198 --> 00:17:15,333 They were great to work with. 1 00:17:15,365 --> 00:17:16,567 Awful, awful. 1 00:17:16,601 --> 00:17:17,636 I think it caused 1 00:17:17,669 --> 00:17:20,472 a lot of, um, anxiety for her. 1 00:17:20,505 --> 00:17:23,642 Demi: And it didn't let up at all, it just... 1 00:17:23,674 --> 00:17:25,509 mounted more and more. 1 00:17:25,542 --> 00:17:27,344 All of a sudden, she had to be 1 00:17:27,377 --> 00:17:29,548 this role model, and I don't think she was ready for that. 1 00:17:31,548 --> 00:17:32,850 I think we started to notice, 1 00:17:32,884 --> 00:17:34,586 and, really, it was the Jonas Brothers 1 00:17:34,618 --> 00:17:36,320 kind of, like, waving a flag that 1 00:17:36,354 --> 00:17:37,823 Demi may be veering 1 00:17:37,855 --> 00:17:40,659 off the path. 1 00:17:40,692 --> 00:17:41,859 At that point, you could just feel 1 00:17:41,893 --> 00:17:45,663 that... things were getting wobbly. 1 00:17:45,696 --> 00:17:50,468 It was almost like the wheels were starting to fall off. 1 00:17:50,501 --> 00:17:53,771 Prior to that, I think, anything that was going on, 1 00:17:53,805 --> 00:17:55,340 would've been chalked up to... 1 00:17:55,373 --> 00:17:57,709 she's a teenage girl. 1 00:17:57,741 --> 00:18:00,111 That was, like, the easy answer, 1 00:18:00,144 --> 00:18:02,346 was just to say, "Well, she's a teenage girl 1 00:18:02,380 --> 00:18:03,381 and she's going through stuff, 1 00:18:03,413 --> 00:18:05,750 and she's being dramatic." 1 00:18:05,782 --> 00:18:08,385 John: She wasn't this sweet and lovely girl anymore, 1 00:18:08,419 --> 00:18:10,122 and it was kind of like a "Hey, 1 00:18:10,154 --> 00:18:11,889 ( bleep ) you." And, "I just want to be a kid 1 00:18:11,923 --> 00:18:14,759 and do what everybody else does. And, like, my friends in Texas 1 00:18:14,791 --> 00:18:17,628 want to, like, drink and party, so why shouldn't I drink and party?" 1 00:18:19,463 --> 00:18:21,700 Phil: Demi had real anger issues. 1 00:18:24,769 --> 00:18:27,271 John: Difficult, harder to be around. 1 00:18:27,305 --> 00:18:29,541 No, no, no, just show me, I have a photographic memory. 1 00:18:29,574 --> 00:18:31,543 Demi's pulling anyone that she could, like, 1 00:18:31,576 --> 00:18:34,278 manipulate and change. 1 00:18:34,311 --> 00:18:38,182 Phil: She was depressed, she would sleep all the time. 1 00:18:38,215 --> 00:18:42,286 I think she just-- it became obvious that she was struggling with... 1 00:18:42,319 --> 00:18:44,855 herself. 1 00:18:44,888 --> 00:18:47,391 And I didn't realize that it was actually signaling 1 00:18:47,424 --> 00:18:49,394 a larger issue. 1 00:18:51,563 --> 00:18:53,365 Nick Jonas: While we were on tour, 1 00:18:53,397 --> 00:18:56,400 Joe and Demi's relationship had become really complicated. 1 00:18:56,433 --> 00:18:58,603 So I was playing the bridge. 1 00:18:58,635 --> 00:18:59,637 And it became really good, 1 00:18:59,671 --> 00:19:02,474 you know, between she and I 1 00:19:02,507 --> 00:19:06,644 for a while, and growing closer than we'd ever been. 1 00:19:06,678 --> 00:19:08,380 And I remember thinking in my head, 1 00:19:08,413 --> 00:19:10,448 I felt, like, a bit of pride about it, 1 00:19:10,480 --> 00:19:13,684 like... selfishly, maybe. I was like, 1 00:19:13,718 --> 00:19:15,653 "I'm helping her back into, you know, 1 00:19:15,686 --> 00:19:18,222 coming back to being the Demi that we all know and love, 1 00:19:18,256 --> 00:19:19,891 and she's not gonna do anything crazy, it's gonna be fine." 1 00:19:19,923 --> 00:19:21,759 And then this episode happened. 1 00:19:21,792 --> 00:19:24,395 ( music playing ) 1 00:19:28,932 --> 00:19:30,835 Demi: I was in Colombia. 1 00:19:30,867 --> 00:19:33,270 I was on the "Camp Rock 2" Tour. 1 00:19:33,304 --> 00:19:37,375 And I invited a bunch of people to dinner, 1 00:19:37,407 --> 00:19:39,310 my band, 1 00:19:39,344 --> 00:19:42,581 and my background dancers. 1 00:19:42,614 --> 00:19:44,481 I paid for all the alcohol. 1 00:19:44,515 --> 00:19:45,884 Somebody ended up 1 00:19:45,916 --> 00:19:48,220 getting weed. 1 00:19:48,252 --> 00:19:49,486 I was on Adderall. 1 00:19:49,519 --> 00:19:51,623 And... 1 00:19:51,655 --> 00:19:52,957 we had trashed the hotel. 1 00:19:52,990 --> 00:19:56,228 The hotel was, like, threatening us. 1 00:19:56,260 --> 00:19:58,495 They went to some of the dancers and asked what had happened. 1 00:19:58,528 --> 00:20:00,598 And I think they told 1 00:20:00,632 --> 00:20:02,901 on me for using Adderall. 1 00:20:05,369 --> 00:20:07,871 Somebody told Kevin Jonas, Sr., 1 00:20:07,904 --> 00:20:10,341 and... Phil. 1 00:20:10,375 --> 00:20:13,612 and my dad. 1 00:20:13,644 --> 00:20:16,013 I was very upset. 1 00:20:16,047 --> 00:20:18,717 I couldn't believe what had happened. 1 00:20:18,750 --> 00:20:19,951 Now it was out 1 00:20:19,983 --> 00:20:21,653 that I was on Adderall. 1 00:20:23,654 --> 00:20:24,990 The next day, 1 00:20:25,022 --> 00:20:28,459 I was in a lot of trouble. 1 00:20:28,492 --> 00:20:31,829 I remember... 1 00:20:31,863 --> 00:20:33,431 going to Kevin, Sr. and saying, 1 00:20:33,463 --> 00:20:35,532 "Listen... 1 00:20:35,566 --> 00:20:38,502 I want to thank whoever told on me because 1 00:20:38,536 --> 00:20:41,972 I know they were just worried about me. 1 00:20:42,006 --> 00:20:44,875 And, you know, I just really want to know who told you." 1 00:20:44,909 --> 00:20:48,513 And I manipulated him into telling me who it was. 1 00:20:48,546 --> 00:20:50,715 And he said it was Shorty. 1 00:20:50,748 --> 00:20:53,884 Shorty and I had been really close 1 00:20:53,917 --> 00:20:56,787 through "Camp Rock" and "Camp Rock 2." 1 00:20:56,820 --> 00:20:57,955 So... 1 00:20:57,989 --> 00:20:59,923 when he said Shorty, 1 00:20:59,957 --> 00:21:01,893 I remember thinking... 1 00:21:01,925 --> 00:21:05,062 "I'm about to beat this bitch up." 1 00:21:05,096 --> 00:21:08,333 ( music playing ) 1 00:21:08,365 --> 00:21:09,968 John: I remember I was up in the front of the plane. 1 00:21:10,000 --> 00:21:11,735 She had already boarded the plane. 1 00:21:11,769 --> 00:21:14,005 John: Demi walks up onto the plane and 1 00:21:14,038 --> 00:21:15,006 I heard some commotion. 1 00:21:15,038 --> 00:21:16,540 I just went up to her. 1 00:21:18,576 --> 00:21:20,644 - And it was like a blur. - I turned around and Demi had 1 00:21:20,678 --> 00:21:23,048 punched her backup dancer in the face. 1 00:21:23,080 --> 00:21:24,782 Everyone was freaking out. 1 00:21:24,816 --> 00:21:27,318 She walked right past me without acknowledging me. 1 00:21:27,352 --> 00:21:29,387 I just remember going and sitting down. 1 00:21:29,420 --> 00:21:31,389 Just this angry look on her face. 1 00:21:31,422 --> 00:21:32,824 Texting my mom "I'm sorry." 1 00:21:32,856 --> 00:21:34,459 Put her head on her pillow 1 00:21:34,491 --> 00:21:36,327 and shut out the world. 1 00:21:36,361 --> 00:21:40,065 And I slept the whole day. 1 00:21:40,097 --> 00:21:42,866 That was when it dawned on me that 1 00:21:42,900 --> 00:21:44,869 this was probably a much bigger 1 00:21:44,902 --> 00:21:48,440 situation than just a kid who wanted to party. 1 00:21:52,743 --> 00:21:53,845 I just came to a breaking point. 1 00:21:56,980 --> 00:22:00,518 ( music playing ) 1 00:22:00,550 --> 00:22:01,752 Phil: The next 12 months 1 00:22:01,786 --> 00:22:02,854 were extremely difficult. 1 00:22:07,458 --> 00:22:09,928 Demi: I was 18 when I first went into treatment. 1 00:22:09,961 --> 00:22:12,130 Demi was diagnosed bipolar 1 00:22:12,163 --> 00:22:14,066 when she checked into treatment the first time. 1 00:22:15,732 --> 00:22:17,801 When I got diagnosed with bipolar disorder, 1 00:22:17,835 --> 00:22:20,005 it just made sense. 1 00:22:22,038 --> 00:22:24,541 When I was younger, I didn't know why 1 00:22:24,575 --> 00:22:26,978 I would stay up so late writing and playing music. 1 00:22:27,010 --> 00:22:30,414 And then I learned about episodes of mania. 1 00:22:30,448 --> 00:22:32,717 And I realized that that's 1 00:22:32,750 --> 00:22:35,953 probably what it was; I was manic. 1 00:22:35,987 --> 00:22:38,056 In a way I knew that 1 00:22:38,088 --> 00:22:40,023 it wasn't my fault anymore. 1 00:22:40,057 --> 00:22:42,861 Something was actually off with me. 1 00:22:42,894 --> 00:22:45,396 Phil: She had such a glow to her 1 00:22:45,430 --> 00:22:47,966 the first time I saw her when she came out of treatment. 1 00:22:47,999 --> 00:22:51,737 The glow started to fade each day that passed. 1 00:22:53,503 --> 00:22:54,938 Demi: I wasn't working my program, 1 00:22:54,971 --> 00:22:56,607 I wasn't ready to get sober. 1 00:22:56,641 --> 00:23:00,111 I was sneaking it on planes, 1 00:23:00,144 --> 00:23:01,779 sneaking it in bathrooms, 1 00:23:01,813 --> 00:23:02,980 sneaking it throughout the night. 1 00:23:03,013 --> 00:23:04,748 Nobody knew. 1 00:23:04,781 --> 00:23:05,849 Phil: This is an 18-year-old 1 00:23:05,883 --> 00:23:07,684 who's totally 1 00:23:07,718 --> 00:23:09,120 out-maneuvering adults. 1 00:23:09,153 --> 00:23:11,789 Demi: I went on, like, a bender of like 1 00:23:11,823 --> 00:23:14,192 two months where I was using daily. 1 00:23:14,224 --> 00:23:17,861 And... there was one night where 1 00:23:17,894 --> 00:23:20,064 I used a bunch of coke 1 00:23:20,096 --> 00:23:22,500 and I popped a few Xanax bars, 1 00:23:22,532 --> 00:23:25,536 and I started to... choke a little bit. 1 00:23:25,569 --> 00:23:29,173 And my heart started racing. 1 00:23:29,207 --> 00:23:30,742 And I remember thinking, 1 00:23:30,775 --> 00:23:33,778 "Oh, my God, I might be overdosing right now." 1 00:23:35,212 --> 00:23:37,147 I remember we were in New York, 1 00:23:37,181 --> 00:23:41,486 and she clearly was on something. 1 00:23:41,519 --> 00:23:43,188 And she was on air... 1 00:23:43,221 --> 00:23:45,222 promoting this new way of life. 1 00:23:45,256 --> 00:23:48,560 And I was like, "You're so full of it." 1 00:23:48,593 --> 00:23:51,229 I wasn't equipped to be able to 1 00:23:51,261 --> 00:23:53,964 handle that situation. 1 00:23:53,998 --> 00:23:57,235 And so I got a list of several recommendations 1 00:23:57,268 --> 00:23:59,203 of people that specialize in this. 1 00:23:59,237 --> 00:24:02,673 And I ended up connecting and speaking with Mike Bayer. 1 00:24:02,707 --> 00:24:04,976 Mike Bayer: Demi was on a road to, like, 1 00:24:05,009 --> 00:24:06,743 suicide. 1 00:24:06,777 --> 00:24:08,746 She'd have, like, bags of pills, 1 00:24:08,778 --> 00:24:10,080 and an eight-ball of coke. 1 00:24:10,114 --> 00:24:13,518 I was either craving drugs or on drugs. 1 00:24:13,550 --> 00:24:15,052 She was nasty. 1 00:24:15,086 --> 00:24:17,855 I was not easy to work with. 1 00:24:17,888 --> 00:24:20,657 I was using while I had a sober companion. 1 00:24:20,691 --> 00:24:23,027 And I went through about 20 different sober companions. 1 00:24:23,059 --> 00:24:25,864 It was really like she was two different people. 1 00:24:25,896 --> 00:24:27,965 Every day was like going to war. 1 00:24:27,999 --> 00:24:30,868 Mike: We were in Palm Springs, 1 00:24:30,902 --> 00:24:32,804 and she locked her bedroom door, 1 00:24:32,836 --> 00:24:34,204 she's just taken a bunch of pills, 1 00:24:34,238 --> 00:24:35,507 we kicked down the door, 1 00:24:35,539 --> 00:24:37,174 she gets taken to the hospital, 1 00:24:37,208 --> 00:24:39,844 the nurse is checking her in, the bottle of pills is there, 1 00:24:39,876 --> 00:24:43,514 she grabs the pills, she then downs all the other pills and says, "You ( bleep ) bitch. 1 00:24:43,548 --> 00:24:46,617 If I just tried to kill myself, why would you give me access to pills?" 1 00:24:46,651 --> 00:24:48,620 Demi: I didn't feel anything, I didn't feel guilty, 1 00:24:48,653 --> 00:24:50,521 I didn't feel embarrassed. 1 00:24:50,555 --> 00:24:52,789 Mike: Then she goes from there to a psych ward. 1 00:24:52,823 --> 00:24:54,592 None of that did anything. 1 00:24:54,625 --> 00:24:57,161 She still isn't going to get clean. 1 00:24:57,193 --> 00:24:59,062 She's so black and white. 1 00:24:59,096 --> 00:25:00,731 She really, one day, would want to get well, 1 00:25:00,765 --> 00:25:02,033 the next day, not want to get well. 1 00:25:02,066 --> 00:25:03,567 And when she didn't want to get well, 1 00:25:03,601 --> 00:25:05,003 she'd have to flip back-- it was just, 1 00:25:05,036 --> 00:25:06,638 for her, it was chaotic. 1 00:25:06,671 --> 00:25:08,640 It was completely exhausting, 1 00:25:08,673 --> 00:25:10,909 physically and emotionally. 1 00:25:10,942 --> 00:25:13,978 I would sneak out, get drugs... 1 00:25:14,010 --> 00:25:15,078 Manipulating. 1 00:25:15,112 --> 00:25:16,314 ...I would fake my drugs tests 1 00:25:16,346 --> 00:25:18,215 with other people's pee. 1 00:25:18,249 --> 00:25:20,751 Mike: She didn't care what the consequences were. 1 00:25:20,785 --> 00:25:22,921 Phil: A couple days sober and then she'd use. 1 00:25:22,953 --> 00:25:25,123 And I'd lie straight to their faces. 1 00:25:25,155 --> 00:25:26,957 Mike: She didn't care about her career. 1 00:25:26,990 --> 00:25:28,792 And we couldn't get momentum on our side. 1 00:25:28,826 --> 00:25:30,728 Mike: It was very difficult 1 00:25:30,760 --> 00:25:32,696 to work off that very small part of her 1 00:25:32,730 --> 00:25:33,998 that did want to get well. 1 00:25:34,030 --> 00:25:35,265 It's embarrassing to look back 1 00:25:35,298 --> 00:25:37,134 at the person that I was. 1 00:25:40,037 --> 00:25:42,073 The very last night that I drank, 1 00:25:42,105 --> 00:25:43,674 I was at a hotel, 1 00:25:43,708 --> 00:25:46,044 and I invited two random people. 1 00:25:46,076 --> 00:25:49,647 And, basically, just drank with them. 1 00:25:51,082 --> 00:25:52,817 I got really, really drunk, 1 00:25:52,849 --> 00:25:56,353 until it was time to get on a flight. 1 00:25:56,386 --> 00:25:59,057 And I was so drunk that I threw up in the back of the car service 1 00:25:59,089 --> 00:26:01,259 on the way to the airport to perform on "American Idol." 1 00:26:01,291 --> 00:26:03,860 Ladies and gentlemen, Demi Lovato. 1 00:26:03,894 --> 00:26:05,128 ( cheering and applause ) 1 00:26:05,162 --> 00:26:09,667 ♪ When your lips are on my lips ♪ 1 00:26:09,700 --> 00:26:13,304 ♪ And our hearts beat as one ♪ 1 00:26:13,336 --> 00:26:15,239 Phil: Here she is, she goes to "American Idol", 1 00:26:15,271 --> 00:26:18,809 she's hung-over, she has total disregard for it. 1 00:26:18,843 --> 00:26:20,345 It was a horrible feeling. 1 00:26:20,377 --> 00:26:22,145 I felt like that was a moment in my career 1 00:26:22,179 --> 00:26:23,848 where I, I didn't care. 1 00:26:23,881 --> 00:26:27,218 Phil: Demi was clearly in a bad place. 1 00:26:27,250 --> 00:26:29,119 Demi: I just knew that I needed to be high 1 00:26:29,153 --> 00:26:33,825 to get through what I was going through at that point. 1 00:26:33,857 --> 00:26:35,792 Phil: I remember asking Mike, 1 00:26:35,826 --> 00:26:37,662 "When is it time 1 00:26:37,694 --> 00:26:39,364 to step away?" 1 00:26:39,396 --> 00:26:41,765 And Mike said to me, 1 00:26:41,798 --> 00:26:43,000 "When she stops trying." 1 00:26:45,702 --> 00:26:47,238 At that moment, 1 00:26:47,270 --> 00:26:51,142 I was fully intending to... 1 00:26:51,174 --> 00:26:53,176 drop her. 1 00:26:53,210 --> 00:26:54,979 You hear about interventions 1 00:26:55,011 --> 00:26:57,414 or families laying ultimatums and saying, like, 1 00:26:57,448 --> 00:26:59,984 "You either change or you're out." 1 00:27:00,017 --> 00:27:01,786 Change has to happen, 1 00:27:01,818 --> 00:27:03,320 now. 1 00:27:03,354 --> 00:27:05,390 Mike: The most important thing to Demi 1 00:27:05,423 --> 00:27:06,923 is losing people, 1 00:27:06,957 --> 00:27:08,860 is losing people that she cares about 1 00:27:08,893 --> 00:27:10,060 and that loves her. 1 00:27:10,094 --> 00:27:12,930 That's the most important thing to Demi. 1 00:27:12,962 --> 00:27:15,899 I had developed a plan where I got 1 00:27:15,932 --> 00:27:18,368 everybody on the team, business manager, 1 00:27:18,402 --> 00:27:20,904 attorneys, agents, everybody, 1 00:27:20,938 --> 00:27:23,841 to say, "If Phil walks, we walk." 1 00:27:23,874 --> 00:27:27,010 This was the showdown of all showdowns. 1 00:27:27,044 --> 00:27:28,680 Demi: It wasn't a matter of 1 00:27:28,712 --> 00:27:30,815 if they were going to leave, it was, 1 00:27:30,847 --> 00:27:32,783 "We are leaving. 1 00:27:32,817 --> 00:27:34,919 There's no more that we can do for you." 1 00:27:34,951 --> 00:27:37,888 Mike: I remember her crying, 1 00:27:37,922 --> 00:27:39,390 "Well, what the ( bleep ) do I need to do? 1 00:27:39,423 --> 00:27:41,259 What do I need to do?" 1 00:27:41,291 --> 00:27:43,026 - Phil: And Mike said... - Mike: Give us your cell phone. 1 00:27:43,059 --> 00:27:45,395 And I think he said, "Like, now." 1 00:27:45,429 --> 00:27:47,131 And she picked up the plate. 1 00:27:47,163 --> 00:27:48,365 And she literally was grabbing this thing 1 00:27:48,398 --> 00:27:51,034 and smashing it, screaming crying, 1 00:27:51,067 --> 00:27:53,037 like-- and the ugly cry. 1 00:27:53,069 --> 00:27:54,471 Phil: And I said, "That's not good enough." 1 00:27:54,505 --> 00:27:57,041 Phil said, "Put it in the water." 1 00:27:57,074 --> 00:28:00,845 Phil: And so she dunked it in the vase of water that was on the table. 1 00:28:02,813 --> 00:28:04,849 It's wild. 1 00:28:04,882 --> 00:28:06,049 This was the gateway to everything. 1 00:28:06,083 --> 00:28:08,319 This was... 1 00:28:08,352 --> 00:28:10,221 the wrong people, it was drug dealers, 1 00:28:10,253 --> 00:28:12,889 it was-- it was a lot of... 1 00:28:12,923 --> 00:28:14,925 the negative influences in her life 1 00:28:14,959 --> 00:28:16,326 were coming through the cell phone. 1 00:28:16,359 --> 00:28:19,096 I think that approach worked for me because, 1 00:28:19,130 --> 00:28:22,734 it sounds silly, but it was the beginning of 1 00:28:22,767 --> 00:28:24,201 the process of surrendering. 1 00:28:24,234 --> 00:28:27,104 At the end of the day, it was my decision. 1 00:28:27,137 --> 00:28:30,774 Meanwhile, she's a judge on "X-Factor," 1 00:28:30,807 --> 00:28:33,744 She's 19 years old, 1 00:28:33,778 --> 00:28:37,048 and she's in her first year of sobriety. 1 00:28:37,080 --> 00:28:39,182 Phil: What nobody knows is that, while she was a judge, 1 00:28:39,215 --> 00:28:43,353 she's living in a sober apartment, 1 00:28:43,386 --> 00:28:47,090 with roommates, she is having to do chores, 1 00:28:47,124 --> 00:28:48,425 she has no cell phone, 1 00:28:48,459 --> 00:28:52,230 she is completely and totally... 1 00:28:52,262 --> 00:28:54,898 submitted to the process of recovery. 1 00:28:54,932 --> 00:28:56,267 You really have to lean into 1 00:28:56,299 --> 00:28:59,069 the people that are trying to support you. 1 00:28:59,103 --> 00:29:01,038 Like my family, 1 00:29:01,070 --> 00:29:03,173 like Mike and Phil. 1 00:29:03,207 --> 00:29:05,109 You know, you really have to... 1 00:29:05,142 --> 00:29:08,046 surrender because that's when the change is gonna happen. 1 00:29:10,513 --> 00:29:13,117 ( music playing ) 1 00:29:21,025 --> 00:29:23,094 When you're in the studio, 1 00:29:23,126 --> 00:29:25,028 and you're recording... 1 00:29:25,061 --> 00:29:27,365 "a hit song," 1 00:29:27,397 --> 00:29:29,399 there are times where the energy in the room 1 00:29:29,432 --> 00:29:31,501 - is just insane. - Go! 1 00:29:31,535 --> 00:29:34,038 - ♪ Lucky for you ♪ - Man: Whoo! All right. 1 00:29:34,070 --> 00:29:36,840 ♪ I got all these daddy issues ♪ 1 00:29:36,874 --> 00:29:38,910 ♪ What can I do? ♪ 1 00:29:38,942 --> 00:29:41,311 ♪ I'm going crazy when I'm with you ♪ 1 00:29:41,345 --> 00:29:43,881 ♪ Forget all the therapy ♪ 1 00:29:43,913 --> 00:29:46,083 ♪ That I've been through ♪ 1 00:29:46,115 --> 00:29:47,384 ♪ Lucky for you ♪ 1 00:29:47,417 --> 00:29:49,286 - When that beat kicks in, - Man: Yeah. 1 00:29:49,319 --> 00:29:51,321 like, no matter what you're doing, you have to dance. 1 00:29:51,355 --> 00:29:52,957 ( laughter ) 1 00:29:58,162 --> 00:29:59,130 When can I sing? 1 00:29:59,163 --> 00:30:00,597 I'm ready to go. 1 00:30:00,631 --> 00:30:02,500 - Man: Here it comes. - ( bleep ) yeah, you are. 1 00:30:02,532 --> 00:30:04,267 - Let's do it. - You know who else is ready to go? 1 00:30:04,300 --> 00:30:06,604 - Let's do it. ( laughs ) - Me. 1 00:30:06,636 --> 00:30:08,338 - You set her up for me, bro? - Yeah, yeah, yeah. 1 00:30:13,076 --> 00:30:14,846 You standing or sitting, Demi? 1 00:30:14,878 --> 00:30:16,112 I think I'm gonna sit first. 1 00:30:16,145 --> 00:30:17,147 All right. 1 00:30:19,182 --> 00:30:20,317 All right, mic check? 1 00:30:20,351 --> 00:30:22,186 ( echoing ): Mic check. 1 00:30:22,219 --> 00:30:23,587 ( sighs deeply ) 1 00:30:23,621 --> 00:30:25,156 - You ready? - Yeah. 1 00:30:25,189 --> 00:30:27,592 ( music playing over speakers ) 1 00:30:32,195 --> 00:30:35,098 ♪ I've been thinking 'bout the future ♪ 1 00:30:35,132 --> 00:30:38,169 ♪ And I've been thinking 'bout the now ♪ 1 00:30:38,201 --> 00:30:41,172 ♪ I know we're gonna be together ♪ 1 00:30:41,204 --> 00:30:44,241 ♪ But I just don't know how ♪ 1 00:30:44,275 --> 00:30:46,410 ♪ You know when we get close ♪ 1 00:30:46,442 --> 00:30:49,247 ♪ Can't deny the tension between us both ♪ 1 00:30:49,279 --> 00:30:51,883 ♪ And I don't want to pressure you ♪ 1 00:30:51,915 --> 00:30:54,317 ♪ But I think you need to make a move ♪ 1 00:30:54,351 --> 00:30:57,955 ♪ I've been waiting ♪ 1 00:30:57,988 --> 00:31:00,157 ( distorted ): ♪ I've been waiting ♪ 1 00:31:00,190 --> 00:31:04,128 ♪ And I keep waiting ♪ 1 00:31:04,161 --> 00:31:06,998 ( distorted ): ♪ And I keep waiting ♪ 1 00:31:07,030 --> 00:31:09,432 ♪ Only forever ♪ 1 00:31:09,465 --> 00:31:12,936 ♪ Only forever ♪ 1 00:31:12,970 --> 00:31:15,038 ♪ Only forever ♪ 1 00:31:15,071 --> 00:31:18,942 ♪ Only forever ♪ 1 00:31:18,976 --> 00:31:21,412 ♪ Only forever ♪ 1 00:31:21,444 --> 00:31:23,980 I've been really using my emotions 1 00:31:24,013 --> 00:31:28,652 and, basically, just adding more soul into it. 1 00:31:28,685 --> 00:31:31,521 I think it comes out in my music today. 1 00:31:31,555 --> 00:31:33,391 - Whoo! - Ooh! 1 00:31:33,423 --> 00:31:34,625 - That was crazy. - Fire. 1 00:31:34,657 --> 00:31:36,259 That was a good one. Two seconds. 1 00:31:36,292 --> 00:31:38,528 Oak is just incredible. 1 00:31:38,561 --> 00:31:40,096 This song's ( bleep ) awesome, man! 1 00:31:40,130 --> 00:31:41,198 It's so good. 1 00:31:41,230 --> 00:31:43,200 ( laughs ) 1 00:31:43,232 --> 00:31:44,234 We're like... 1 00:31:44,268 --> 00:31:45,670 what, six for six now? 1 00:31:45,702 --> 00:31:47,337 - Oh, my God. - So exciting. 1 00:31:47,371 --> 00:31:48,673 ♪ Only forever... ♪ 1 00:31:48,705 --> 00:31:50,540 We have been putting in 1 00:31:50,574 --> 00:31:53,144 endless hours in the studio, 1 00:31:53,176 --> 00:31:55,178 and all of the songs that we've done together 1 00:31:55,211 --> 00:31:57,280 I've really been excited about. 1 00:31:57,314 --> 00:32:00,183 ♪ Only forev... ♪ 1 00:32:00,217 --> 00:32:03,621 - Let's try it. - ♪ I'll give you one more chance ♪ 1 00:32:03,653 --> 00:32:05,455 ♪ But it only lasts ♪ 1 00:32:05,489 --> 00:32:08,927 ♪ Only forever... ♪ 1 00:32:14,064 --> 00:32:15,700 - ( laughs ) - One more. 1 00:32:15,732 --> 00:32:18,068 ♪ Who doesn't leave me on the shelf? ♪ 1 00:32:18,102 --> 00:32:20,137 She's just gonna nail it every time. 1 00:32:20,170 --> 00:32:21,372 Man: I know. 1 00:32:21,404 --> 00:32:24,040 ♪ But it only lasts ♪ 1 00:32:24,074 --> 00:32:27,111 ♪ Only forever... ♪ 1 00:32:33,217 --> 00:32:35,319 ♪ Only forever. ♪ 1 00:32:35,352 --> 00:32:38,489 I mean, they're all varying degrees of perfection. 1 00:32:38,521 --> 00:32:40,323 - ( laughter ) - So... 1 00:32:40,356 --> 00:32:43,293 - Thanks. - But I like the ending of this one more. 1 00:32:43,326 --> 00:32:45,730 I like the beginning of the one you did previous to this one more. 1 00:32:45,762 --> 00:32:46,997 Okay, cool. 1 00:32:47,030 --> 00:32:48,732 So, I have a comp in mind, too, 1 00:32:48,766 --> 00:32:51,002 if we need to. I mean, I-- but we got it. 1 00:32:51,035 --> 00:32:52,470 We definitely got it. 1 00:32:52,502 --> 00:32:54,170 It sounds awesome, homie. 1 00:32:54,203 --> 00:32:57,140 As long as the vibrato is consistent on that. 1 00:32:57,173 --> 00:32:59,210 I can see your vibrato waves. 1 00:32:59,242 --> 00:33:01,345 You have no idea how uniform they are. 1 00:33:01,377 --> 00:33:03,013 - Oh, dope. - Like, look at this ( bleep ), you see it? 1 00:33:03,047 --> 00:33:04,781 It looks like a caterpillar, look at that. 1 00:33:04,815 --> 00:33:06,150 Man: It is a caterpillar! 1 00:33:06,182 --> 00:33:07,684 ( laughter ) 1 00:33:07,718 --> 00:33:09,720 Look at how ( bleep ) consistent these waves are, right? 1 00:33:09,752 --> 00:33:11,554 And you can actually hear it. Listen, man. 1 00:33:11,587 --> 00:33:13,624 ♪ Ever...♪ 1 00:33:13,656 --> 00:33:15,558 Like, you can hear that vibrato. 1 00:33:15,592 --> 00:33:17,128 I think it's important to have a vision. 1 00:33:17,161 --> 00:33:19,497 And I feel like 1 00:33:19,529 --> 00:33:20,631 he's really helped me find my sound. 1 00:33:20,663 --> 00:33:22,333 - ( laughs ) - Thank you. 1 00:33:22,365 --> 00:33:23,366 You killed that ( bleep ), homie. 1 00:33:23,400 --> 00:33:24,668 - Thanks, - Good Lord. 1 00:33:24,701 --> 00:33:27,305 ( music playing ) 1 00:33:31,842 --> 00:33:33,344 Texas! 1 00:33:40,217 --> 00:33:42,787 I'm so... tired. 1 00:33:46,722 --> 00:33:49,292 ( laughter ) 1 00:33:49,326 --> 00:33:51,595 So unamused with that comment. 1 00:33:51,627 --> 00:33:53,830 Demi, did you know that you sleep with one eye open? 1 00:33:53,864 --> 00:33:55,332 - No, I don't. - Yes, you do. 1 00:33:55,365 --> 00:33:56,700 - No, I don't. - Yes, you do. 1 00:33:56,732 --> 00:33:58,769 I swear to God. 1 00:33:58,801 --> 00:34:00,670 Wow, that's so weird. 1 00:34:00,703 --> 00:34:03,240 Who did you piss off that you got to sleep with one eye open? 1 00:34:03,272 --> 00:34:06,810 ( laughter ) 1 00:34:06,844 --> 00:34:08,345 It's the first time in awhile 1 00:34:08,378 --> 00:34:11,115 that we've all been in Texas together. 1 00:34:11,148 --> 00:34:13,150 I think since, like, the last Christmas, 1 00:34:13,182 --> 00:34:15,385 - that we spent here. - Dianna: Yeah. 1 00:34:15,418 --> 00:34:17,554 Or, no, a funeral. 1 00:34:17,588 --> 00:34:19,690 ( music playing ) 1 00:34:19,722 --> 00:34:21,192 Dianna: Which funeral was that? 1 00:34:21,224 --> 00:34:23,460 It was my mamaw, my mamaw. 1 00:34:23,494 --> 00:34:27,264 I used to call her "my world" because she was just 1 00:34:27,297 --> 00:34:29,632 the sweetest woman, and she was funny. 1 00:34:29,666 --> 00:34:31,102 and sassy. 1 00:34:31,135 --> 00:34:33,537 I love you. 1 00:34:33,570 --> 00:34:35,206 - Hmm? - I love you. 1 00:34:35,239 --> 00:34:36,507 - I love you, too. - I love you more. 1 00:34:36,539 --> 00:34:39,110 - No, you don't. - Yes, I do. 1 00:34:39,143 --> 00:34:40,845 ( laughing ): Yes, I do. 1 00:34:40,878 --> 00:34:42,847 ( sniffles ) 1 00:34:44,447 --> 00:34:46,216 What are the odds that we're all back here? 1 00:34:46,250 --> 00:34:48,552 - Yeah. - On this day. 1 00:34:48,585 --> 00:34:51,856 Almost exactly a year later. 1 00:34:51,889 --> 00:34:54,291 ( crying ): I miss her so much. 1 00:34:54,324 --> 00:34:55,326 ( crying ): Mama! 1 00:34:55,358 --> 00:34:56,494 Sorry. 1 00:34:59,896 --> 00:35:03,867 And then it's also been a year since... 1 00:35:03,900 --> 00:35:07,437 Wilmer and I broke up. 1 00:35:07,471 --> 00:35:11,641 I've never loved anybody like I loved Wilmer. 1 00:35:11,675 --> 00:35:14,711 And, like, I still love Wilmer. 1 00:35:14,744 --> 00:35:18,248 ( music playing ) 1 00:35:18,282 --> 00:35:19,383 When I first met Wilmer 1 00:35:19,416 --> 00:35:21,352 he was 29. 1 00:35:21,385 --> 00:35:23,653 I met him on January 11th 1 00:35:23,686 --> 00:35:25,889 of 2010. 1 00:35:27,490 --> 00:35:29,693 And it was at a PSA shoot 1 00:35:29,726 --> 00:35:30,928 at his house 1 00:35:30,960 --> 00:35:32,328 for the 2010 1 00:35:32,362 --> 00:35:33,630 census forms. 1 00:35:33,664 --> 00:35:35,499 Before 1980, 1 00:35:35,532 --> 00:35:38,235 Latinos weren't even considered a separate ethnic group 1 00:35:38,268 --> 00:35:39,436 on the census form. 1 00:35:39,469 --> 00:35:40,704 This is an opportunity for us 1 00:35:40,737 --> 00:35:41,838 to assert ourselves, 1 00:35:41,871 --> 00:35:43,339 to define ourselves. 1 00:35:43,373 --> 00:35:44,708 To be honest, I only did it 1 00:35:44,740 --> 00:35:46,777 because I heard it was at his house 1 00:35:46,809 --> 00:35:49,179 and I thought he was really cute. 1 00:35:49,213 --> 00:35:51,782 I didn't really care about the census forms. 1 00:35:51,815 --> 00:35:55,385 But when I met him and I laid eyes on him for the first time, 1 00:35:55,418 --> 00:35:56,586 I was in hair and makeup 1 00:35:56,619 --> 00:35:58,454 and he came and sat down and I was like, 1 00:35:58,487 --> 00:36:01,491 "I love this man. 1 00:36:01,525 --> 00:36:05,262 And I have to have him." 1 00:36:05,295 --> 00:36:07,764 But I was only 17. 1 00:36:07,797 --> 00:36:10,833 And so he was like, "Get away from me." 1 00:36:10,867 --> 00:36:13,903 After I had turned 18, 1 00:36:13,936 --> 00:36:15,838 we began dating. 1 00:36:15,871 --> 00:36:18,442 I think it was love at first sight. 1 00:36:18,474 --> 00:36:20,610 And I don't really believe in that, 1 00:36:20,643 --> 00:36:23,613 but I believe that it happened. 1 00:36:23,646 --> 00:36:26,250 ( music playing ) 1 00:36:28,751 --> 00:36:31,487 We connected on a level that 1 00:36:31,521 --> 00:36:34,825 I've never connected with anybody before. 1 00:36:34,858 --> 00:36:38,295 He... was just my rock, 1 00:36:38,327 --> 00:36:40,931 my everything. 1 00:36:40,963 --> 00:36:43,433 Producer: Why do you think you broke up? 1 00:36:43,467 --> 00:36:47,905 It had nothing to do with falling out of love. 1 00:36:47,938 --> 00:36:49,974 We decided together that 1 00:36:50,007 --> 00:36:52,376 we're just probably better as friends. 1 00:36:55,978 --> 00:36:58,581 I haven't seen Wilmer in over six months. 1 00:36:58,614 --> 00:37:01,818 And when he showed up at the Gay Pride party at Mike's 1 00:37:01,851 --> 00:37:03,453 my heart ached. 1 00:37:06,356 --> 00:37:09,893 It's hard enough dealing with a breakup... 1 00:37:09,925 --> 00:37:14,364 but, you put it in the public eye, 1 00:37:14,398 --> 00:37:15,900 and it feels violating. 1 00:37:18,635 --> 00:37:22,006 I do have moments where... 1 00:37:22,039 --> 00:37:24,041 it's late at night, and I'm lonely, 1 00:37:24,074 --> 00:37:26,644 and I wonder if... 1 00:37:26,677 --> 00:37:28,879 I made the right decision. 1 00:37:28,911 --> 00:37:30,513 Because love is a gamble. 1 00:37:32,882 --> 00:37:35,885 I don't know if I'll lose him for the rest of my life. 1 00:37:37,853 --> 00:37:40,056 Wilmer: Is it this one? 1 00:37:40,090 --> 00:37:42,293 My arm looks so big. 1 00:37:42,326 --> 00:37:43,460 You're flexing. 1 00:37:43,492 --> 00:37:44,795 Hey! 1 00:37:44,827 --> 00:37:46,396 ( laughs ) You're so stupid. 1 00:37:46,429 --> 00:37:48,431 I get it. 1 00:37:48,465 --> 00:37:50,601 I get it, that's all I'm saying. 1 00:37:50,634 --> 00:37:52,902 I think my heart's always with Wilmer. 1 00:37:52,936 --> 00:37:54,672 I think it... 1 00:37:54,704 --> 00:37:57,574 was with Wilmer, I think that it is with Wilmer, 1 00:37:57,606 --> 00:37:59,509 and I think that it will be. 1 00:37:59,543 --> 00:38:01,010 'Cause you don't share six years with somebody 1 00:38:01,043 --> 00:38:03,813 and not... give them a piece of your heart. 1 00:38:03,847 --> 00:38:05,416 And vice versa. 1 00:38:05,449 --> 00:38:06,617 Woman: Yeah. 1 00:38:06,650 --> 00:38:08,318 Like, I'm pretty sure 1 00:38:08,351 --> 00:38:10,586 that I'm not gonna meet anybody that compares to him, 1 00:38:10,619 --> 00:38:12,588 but... 1 00:38:12,621 --> 00:38:14,657 I'm trying to keep an open heart and an open mind 1 00:38:14,690 --> 00:38:16,359 when it comes to that. 1 00:38:16,393 --> 00:38:19,596 Mike: I love Demi and Wilmer together. 1 00:38:19,628 --> 00:38:22,965 But I've seen Demi grow a lot 1 00:38:22,998 --> 00:38:26,436 as a person in the last year. 1 00:38:26,469 --> 00:38:29,772 Demi: The sparks never faded. 1 00:38:29,806 --> 00:38:32,775 But there are issues that I haven't conquered yet 1 00:38:32,809 --> 00:38:36,947 that I know I won't conquer if I'm relying on somebody else 1 00:38:36,980 --> 00:38:39,483 to take care of the loneliness. 1 00:38:39,516 --> 00:38:42,086 Where there is a will, there's a way, yeah. 1 00:38:42,119 --> 00:38:43,687 No, where there's a... 1 00:38:43,719 --> 00:38:46,789 Both: Wilmer, there's a way. 1 00:38:46,822 --> 00:38:48,725 I just wasn't ready 1 00:38:48,759 --> 00:38:50,793 and I-- there was so much of my life 1 00:38:50,827 --> 00:38:52,496 that I hadn't explored yet. 1 00:38:55,599 --> 00:38:56,800 ( music playing ) 1 00:38:56,833 --> 00:38:58,869 I wanted a house now 1 00:38:58,902 --> 00:39:01,905 because I'm on my own, 1 00:39:01,938 --> 00:39:04,541 and I'm independent now. 1 00:39:07,010 --> 00:39:10,514 This is the first time Demi's ever really been on her own 1 00:39:10,547 --> 00:39:12,782 in her life. 1 00:39:12,815 --> 00:39:14,751 It also falls at a time, 1 00:39:14,784 --> 00:39:16,819 as she's turning 25, 1 00:39:16,853 --> 00:39:20,657 where she's trying to figure out who she is. 1 00:39:20,690 --> 00:39:22,793 And so I think that she's taking the time 1 00:39:22,826 --> 00:39:24,594 to put that into her art 1 00:39:24,628 --> 00:39:27,932 in probably the most meaningful way she's ever done. 1 00:39:29,733 --> 00:39:31,969 I'm growing up by myself, 1 00:39:32,001 --> 00:39:35,972 and... to have my own place, 1 00:39:36,005 --> 00:39:38,641 designed the way that I want it to look, 1 00:39:38,675 --> 00:39:39,777 with my dog. 1 00:39:39,809 --> 00:39:41,577 ( babbling ) 1 00:39:41,610 --> 00:39:44,547 I wanted to know what it's like to be on my own. 1 00:39:44,581 --> 00:39:48,852 And this is where I finally feel like I can be... 1 00:39:48,885 --> 00:39:50,653 grown up. 1 00:39:50,686 --> 00:39:53,589 ♪ Standing on the front lines ♪ 1 00:39:53,623 --> 00:39:56,460 ♪ Staring at the sunrise ♪ 1 00:39:56,492 --> 00:39:59,163 ♪ Over the hill ♪ 1 00:39:59,195 --> 00:40:01,565 ♪ Waiting for the kill ♪ 1 00:40:01,597 --> 00:40:04,967 ♪ Sweet anticipation ♪ 1 00:40:05,001 --> 00:40:07,871 ♪ Every conversation ♪ 1 00:40:07,903 --> 00:40:10,541 ♪ Tears in her eyes ♪ 1 00:40:10,574 --> 00:40:13,844 ♪ From holding too tight ♪ 1 00:40:13,876 --> 00:40:16,179 ♪ Wait until the demons come ♪ 1 00:40:16,213 --> 00:40:18,582 ♪ Wait for us to see them run ♪ 1 00:40:18,614 --> 00:40:22,652 ♪ In our direction ♪ 1 00:40:24,855 --> 00:40:27,858 ♪ Now they're staring at us through the trees ♪ 1 00:40:27,891 --> 00:40:30,461 ♪ Got us falling to our knees ♪ 1 00:40:30,494 --> 00:40:32,829 ♪ To teach us a lesson ♪ 1 00:40:35,699 --> 00:40:39,202 ♪ Darling, I have been afraid ♪ 1 00:40:39,235 --> 00:40:41,771 ♪ I could only call your name ♪ 1 00:40:41,804 --> 00:40:45,175 ♪ Thank the heavens that you stayed ♪ 1 00:40:46,208 --> 00:40:47,877 ♪ Ooh ♪ 1 00:40:47,911 --> 00:40:50,681 ♪ But if I'm telling you the truth ♪ 1 00:40:50,713 --> 00:40:53,115 ♪ When I cut the tether loose ♪ 1 00:40:53,148 --> 00:40:55,485 ♪ It was me ♪ 1 00:40:55,518 --> 00:40:59,088 ♪ Saving you... ♪ 1 00:41:01,992 --> 00:41:03,060 I haven't relapsed 1 00:41:03,092 --> 00:41:04,927 in drugs and alcohol. 1 00:41:04,960 --> 00:41:07,029 That's something that I'm very proud of. 1 00:41:07,063 --> 00:41:11,568 I'm coming up on five and a half years of sobriety, 1 00:41:11,601 --> 00:41:15,771 and that's something that's been difficult at times, 1 00:41:15,804 --> 00:41:17,640 but one thing that I haven't fully conquered 1 00:41:17,673 --> 00:41:18,809 is my eating disorder. 1 00:41:24,547 --> 00:41:25,582 Phil: You having trouble right now? 1 00:41:29,152 --> 00:41:31,088 What's going on? 1 00:41:31,121 --> 00:41:35,259 It's so weird to talk about this on camera. 1 00:41:35,291 --> 00:41:40,898 I... relapsed with... throwing up. 1 00:41:42,865 --> 00:41:44,735 Binging and purging. 1 00:41:44,768 --> 00:41:46,135 When? 1 00:41:46,168 --> 00:41:47,270 A couple nights ago. 1 00:41:50,306 --> 00:41:53,209 The less I have to think about food, 1 00:41:53,242 --> 00:41:55,144 the easier it is for me to go about 1 00:41:55,177 --> 00:41:57,880 having a normal life. 1 00:41:57,914 --> 00:42:01,051 And I don't want to let anybody down. 1 00:42:01,083 --> 00:42:02,719 So when I do have moments where I slip up... 1 00:42:04,286 --> 00:42:07,323 I feel very ashamed. 1 00:42:07,356 --> 00:42:09,759 What started the relapse 1 00:42:09,793 --> 00:42:11,996 was missing Wilmer. 1 00:42:14,063 --> 00:42:17,333 This is the longest you've gone without being in a relationship. 1 00:42:17,367 --> 00:42:19,903 You're not the only one to have been through 1 00:42:19,936 --> 00:42:22,338 a six-year relationship, and break up, and question it, 1 00:42:22,371 --> 00:42:24,273 and then not know how to be alone. 1 00:42:24,306 --> 00:42:26,576 Well, like, that's one of the reasons why 1 00:42:26,610 --> 00:42:28,345 we broke up, 1 00:42:28,378 --> 00:42:31,148 was 'cause I've never been alone. 1 00:42:31,181 --> 00:42:33,349 When I was in a relationship with Wilmer, 1 00:42:33,382 --> 00:42:36,586 I went three years without purging. 1 00:42:36,619 --> 00:42:38,654 And when we broke up, 1 00:42:38,688 --> 00:42:41,925 that's one of the first things I did. 1 00:42:41,958 --> 00:42:43,594 And when I... 1 00:42:43,626 --> 00:42:46,195 feel lonely... 1 00:42:46,228 --> 00:42:47,931 like, my heart feels hungry. 1 00:42:47,963 --> 00:42:49,032 Phil: Right. 1 00:42:49,065 --> 00:42:50,701 And then I end up binging. 1 00:42:52,235 --> 00:42:54,905 And I don't know how to figure out... 1 00:42:54,938 --> 00:42:56,307 how to be alone. 1 00:43:00,043 --> 00:43:03,814 What do you think came first for you in terms of chasing the high? 1 00:43:03,847 --> 00:43:06,083 Was it the drugs and alcohol or was it the food? 1 00:43:06,115 --> 00:43:08,085 The food came first. 1 00:43:08,117 --> 00:43:09,619 When I was about eight years old 1 00:43:09,652 --> 00:43:11,253 and my little sister was born, 1 00:43:11,286 --> 00:43:13,122 a lot of the attention was taken off of me 1 00:43:13,155 --> 00:43:14,657 and onto my little sister. 1 00:43:16,726 --> 00:43:19,061 I had started working at that time, 1 00:43:19,094 --> 00:43:21,197 so I was under a lot of stress. 1 00:43:21,231 --> 00:43:24,635 So I would bake cookies for my family 1 00:43:24,668 --> 00:43:28,172 and I would eat all of them, and nobody would have any to eat. 1 00:43:30,106 --> 00:43:33,810 That was my first memory of food 1 00:43:33,842 --> 00:43:37,714 being... that medicine for me. 1 00:43:40,115 --> 00:43:43,420 When I was 12, 1 00:43:43,452 --> 00:43:45,188 I was bullied. 1 00:43:45,221 --> 00:43:50,027 I... developed a social anxiety 1 00:43:50,059 --> 00:43:53,230 where I didn't trust other girls my age. 1 00:43:53,262 --> 00:43:58,701 Then, one day, this girl who was popular 1 00:43:58,735 --> 00:44:01,938 started saying, "Demi should kill herself. 1 00:44:01,971 --> 00:44:04,840 She should slit her wrists." 1 00:44:04,873 --> 00:44:09,245 And it resulted in a suicide petition 1 00:44:09,278 --> 00:44:12,715 that got passed around. 1 00:44:12,748 --> 00:44:17,053 And she had other classmates sign it. 1 00:44:17,086 --> 00:44:20,257 I mean, there was this core group of girls 1 00:44:20,289 --> 00:44:24,094 who were, honestly, in my eyes, pure ( bleep ) evil. 1 00:44:25,728 --> 00:44:28,297 Demi: And, when I asked them why, 1 00:44:28,331 --> 00:44:30,099 nobody could give me a specific reason 1 00:44:30,132 --> 00:44:32,201 why they were treating me the way they were. 1 00:44:33,936 --> 00:44:35,938 I had no friends, 1 00:44:35,972 --> 00:44:38,375 I was alone. 1 00:44:38,407 --> 00:44:40,911 So I went off of what they were calling me, 1 00:44:40,943 --> 00:44:45,882 which was a whore and being fat. 1 00:44:45,914 --> 00:44:48,217 I called my mom on my cell phone and I said, "I'm done, 1 00:44:48,251 --> 00:44:49,987 I can't do this anymore, pick me up. 1 00:44:52,222 --> 00:44:54,091 She picked me up from school 1 00:44:54,123 --> 00:44:56,292 and that's when my eating disorder developed. 1 00:44:58,862 --> 00:45:00,463 One day, 1 00:45:00,496 --> 00:45:04,300 I found a copy of her diary. 1 00:45:04,333 --> 00:45:08,504 Demi had drawn a picture of what she perceived herself 1 00:45:08,538 --> 00:45:10,306 to look like. 1 00:45:12,074 --> 00:45:13,843 "Heavy." 1 00:45:13,876 --> 00:45:15,911 And then she drew a picture on the next page, 1 00:45:15,945 --> 00:45:19,316 and said, "This is what I need to look like 1 00:45:19,349 --> 00:45:21,284 to be... 1 00:45:21,317 --> 00:45:23,019 a star." 1 00:45:23,052 --> 00:45:26,990 This was, like, a collage that I made 1 00:45:27,023 --> 00:45:30,026 when I was younger. 1 00:45:30,059 --> 00:45:32,028 And it's actually kind of sad for me because 1 00:45:32,061 --> 00:45:36,133 a lot of the people in here are underweight and... 1 00:45:36,166 --> 00:45:38,535 I wanted to be so much... 1 00:45:38,568 --> 00:45:41,338 I wanted to be like them. 1 00:45:41,371 --> 00:45:44,840 That was kind of the chic look back then. 1 00:45:44,873 --> 00:45:47,409 Yeah, I've got Amy Winehouse in there that I looked up to 1 00:45:47,443 --> 00:45:49,413 and I wanted to be so badly. 1 00:45:52,114 --> 00:45:54,850 I wanted to be as thin as her, I wanted to sing like her, 1 00:45:54,884 --> 00:45:57,086 I wanted to be just like her. 1 00:45:59,121 --> 00:46:02,158 The collages on her wall, and the pictures, 1 00:46:02,192 --> 00:46:03,492 and the models, 1 00:46:03,525 --> 00:46:05,861 this isn't what you need to 1 00:46:05,894 --> 00:46:08,264 aspire to be like, this is not healthy. 1 00:46:08,297 --> 00:46:10,399 I never thought to say those things to her 1 00:46:10,432 --> 00:46:13,135 because I didn't know myself. 1 00:46:13,168 --> 00:46:15,237 My desire for perfection, 1 00:46:15,271 --> 00:46:16,539 I think I've always been that way. 1 00:46:16,572 --> 00:46:20,342 But I felt I had to be thin 1 00:46:20,376 --> 00:46:22,512 to be beautiful, and successful, 1 00:46:22,545 --> 00:46:25,282 and that this is what you need to look like 1 00:46:25,315 --> 00:46:28,083 in order to be perfect. 1 00:46:28,117 --> 00:46:31,054 I may have passed that along to my kids, 1 00:46:31,086 --> 00:46:33,556 that wanting everything to be perfect, 1 00:46:33,590 --> 00:46:36,526 and need to be 1 00:46:36,559 --> 00:46:39,863 thin and beautiful to be successful. 1 00:46:39,896 --> 00:46:42,332 Demi: Food is still the biggest challenge in my life 1 00:46:42,364 --> 00:46:45,968 and it controls... 1 00:46:46,001 --> 00:46:47,503 I don't want to give it the power to say that 1 00:46:47,536 --> 00:46:50,039 it controls my every thought, 1 00:46:50,072 --> 00:46:54,476 but... it's something that I'm constantly thinking about. 1 00:46:54,510 --> 00:46:58,348 Body image, what I'm gonna eat next, 1 00:46:58,380 --> 00:47:00,951 what I wish I could be eating, 1 00:47:00,983 --> 00:47:02,918 what I wish I didn't eat. 1 00:47:02,952 --> 00:47:04,287 You know, it's just constant. 1 00:47:04,320 --> 00:47:06,556 It's exhausting. 1 00:47:06,588 --> 00:47:08,391 Like, I get envious towards 1 00:47:08,423 --> 00:47:13,329 people that don't struggle with an eating disorder 1 00:47:13,362 --> 00:47:14,364 just because I feel like 1 00:47:14,396 --> 00:47:18,235 my life would be so much easier. 1 00:47:18,268 --> 00:47:20,336 Everybody has their own path in recovery. 1 00:47:20,369 --> 00:47:23,072 For me, it's about going to therapy, working my program 1 00:47:23,106 --> 00:47:25,375 and having an honest relationship with myself 1 00:47:25,407 --> 00:47:27,143 and the other people around me. 1 00:47:27,175 --> 00:47:31,514 I had come across Jay Glazer and Unbreakable Gym. 1 00:47:31,547 --> 00:47:35,952 And I felt like it would be great for her. 1 00:47:35,985 --> 00:47:39,256 Because Demi had just broken up with Wilmer 1 00:47:39,289 --> 00:47:41,925 and she didn't have a lot of friendships, 1 00:47:41,958 --> 00:47:44,059 she didn't have a community. 1 00:47:44,092 --> 00:47:45,661 The workout before that was super tough. 1 00:47:45,695 --> 00:47:48,064 - Yeah. - You hear a girl crying, it's me. 1 00:47:48,097 --> 00:47:49,233 ( laughs ) Okay. 1 00:47:50,465 --> 00:47:53,168 The gym really helps. 1 00:47:53,202 --> 00:47:56,373 And I know that I... 1 00:47:56,405 --> 00:47:58,375 would be in a very dark place without it. 1 00:48:01,710 --> 00:48:04,146 When you're getting one, I'm coming right back. 1 00:48:04,179 --> 00:48:06,181 - Come on. Nice, that's it. - ( grunting ) 1 00:48:06,215 --> 00:48:09,619 Good, good, good. Where's your kick? There it is. 1 00:48:09,652 --> 00:48:11,454 Demi: You know it's Monday when you get punched in the face 1 00:48:11,487 --> 00:48:14,190 by Randy Couture. 1 00:48:14,222 --> 00:48:15,659 Randy Couture? 1 00:48:15,692 --> 00:48:19,695 Only, like, MMA legend. 1 00:48:19,728 --> 00:48:22,598 ( music playing ) 1 00:48:22,632 --> 00:48:25,501 Mike: At the time she loved kickboxing. 1 00:48:25,534 --> 00:48:27,503 And I was really hoping that she would 1 00:48:27,536 --> 00:48:29,172 fall in love with jiu-jitsu. 1 00:48:33,608 --> 00:48:35,011 Insist. 1 00:48:38,181 --> 00:48:41,117 Mike: It would give her some pride in having her own thing. 1 00:48:41,150 --> 00:48:42,652 It's empowering. 1 00:48:42,684 --> 00:48:44,922 And I watch her light up. 1 00:48:46,356 --> 00:48:48,291 Mike: It's a physical chess game. 1 00:48:48,324 --> 00:48:49,459 It makes her think. 1 00:48:49,492 --> 00:48:51,260 Demi: Any time I'm able to 1 00:48:51,293 --> 00:48:52,996 take my mind off of... 1 00:48:53,028 --> 00:48:55,130 any of my addictions, um, 1 00:48:55,164 --> 00:48:57,467 it's very beneficial to me. 1 00:48:57,500 --> 00:49:01,137 Because you're constantly thinking about... 1 00:49:01,170 --> 00:49:04,240 what the next move is. 1 00:49:04,273 --> 00:49:06,409 The technique, 1 00:49:06,442 --> 00:49:08,077 the strategy, 1 00:49:08,110 --> 00:49:10,547 And also, there's a reward system 1 00:49:10,579 --> 00:49:13,717 that takes many, many, many years to get through. 1 00:49:13,750 --> 00:49:15,085 Excellent. 1 00:49:15,117 --> 00:49:16,418 Back up. 1 00:49:16,452 --> 00:49:18,054 In jiu-jitsu, we start with a white belt. 1 00:49:18,086 --> 00:49:20,422 Every time you get a promotion, it's a stripe. 1 00:49:20,456 --> 00:49:22,057 We do four stripes on each belt, 1 00:49:22,090 --> 00:49:24,027 and then we move to the next belt. 1 00:49:24,059 --> 00:49:25,695 One goal that I haven't reached is a black belt. 1 00:49:25,728 --> 00:49:27,630 Being able to work towards that 1 00:49:27,663 --> 00:49:31,034 is something that I'm passionate about. 1 00:49:31,067 --> 00:49:35,137 And I hope to God to see her into her 30s and to... 1 00:49:38,673 --> 00:49:40,978 ( voice breaking ): ...put a black belt around her waist one day. 1 00:49:43,079 --> 00:49:44,414 Good job. 1 00:49:44,447 --> 00:49:45,548 ( exhales ) 1 00:49:45,581 --> 00:49:48,151 - Get a drink. - Okay. 1 00:49:48,184 --> 00:49:50,487 Working out is a form of meditation to me 1 00:49:50,519 --> 00:49:53,690 because I'm not focused on anything in my head. 1 00:49:53,722 --> 00:49:55,557 It can transport you to 1 00:49:55,590 --> 00:49:57,594 a totally different place. 1 00:49:57,626 --> 00:50:00,230 ( music playing ) 1 00:50:10,338 --> 00:50:12,808 I'm on a journey to discover 1 00:50:12,842 --> 00:50:15,612 what it's like to be free of all demons. 1 00:50:37,233 --> 00:50:38,635 Man: Her first stripe on a belt. 1 00:50:40,536 --> 00:50:42,105 Demi, before, you couldn't talk about weight. 1 00:50:44,440 --> 00:50:48,445 We literally couldn't use the term "working out." 1 00:50:48,478 --> 00:50:51,748 And... now... 1 00:50:51,780 --> 00:50:53,049 she loves it. 1 00:50:55,217 --> 00:50:56,752 I, like, don't want to know 1 00:50:56,786 --> 00:50:59,088 what it's like to get really punched in the face by... 1 00:50:59,121 --> 00:51:02,192 By Randy Couture? Man, it's like playing basketball with Michael Jordan. 1 00:51:02,224 --> 00:51:03,492 ( static ) 1 00:51:03,525 --> 00:51:05,127 All of my bags. 1 00:51:07,295 --> 00:51:08,731 And now my vanity. 1 00:51:11,634 --> 00:51:13,735 Feeling my extensions. 1 00:51:13,768 --> 00:51:16,305 Kelsey Kershner: Hey, Demitria, can you come here and approve these TV spots? 1 00:51:16,338 --> 00:51:17,239 Demi: Yup. 1 00:51:21,309 --> 00:51:24,413 It was an exhausting night as an assistant. 1 00:51:24,447 --> 00:51:26,782 - It was mid-summer. - ( woman chuckles ) 1 00:51:26,815 --> 00:51:28,518 Producer: Which night was this, though, what are we describing here? 1 00:51:28,550 --> 00:51:31,320 Uh, it was Anaheim. ( chuckles ) 1 00:51:31,353 --> 00:51:34,756 Um... there were four suitors in the crowd. 1 00:51:34,789 --> 00:51:37,559 ( laughter ) 1 00:51:37,592 --> 00:51:40,896 All in separate places throughout the crowd. 1 00:51:40,929 --> 00:51:43,298 Which I strategically placed. 1 00:51:43,331 --> 00:51:46,235 Again, hard assistant work. ( laughs ) 1 00:51:46,268 --> 00:51:48,337 They all wanted to visit her in the dressing room. 1 00:51:48,371 --> 00:51:50,539 All at different times, obviously, 1 00:51:50,572 --> 00:51:53,375 so we had to, you know, coordinate, 1 00:51:53,409 --> 00:51:54,811 make sure some came before the show, 1 00:51:54,844 --> 00:51:56,612 some came after the show. 1 00:51:56,646 --> 00:51:58,581 ( laughing ): So they didn't run into each other. 1 00:51:58,614 --> 00:52:01,284 Luckily, all went well. 1 00:52:01,317 --> 00:52:04,219 I feel like it wasn't four, I feel like it was only two. 1 00:52:04,253 --> 00:52:06,456 It was... 1 00:52:06,489 --> 00:52:11,161 it was N, and then L, but they had guests, 1 00:52:11,193 --> 00:52:13,496 and then there was... 1 00:52:13,528 --> 00:52:15,565 Was there an O? 1 00:52:15,597 --> 00:52:17,699 - No. - No, it wasn't that night. 1 00:52:17,733 --> 00:52:20,336 ( laughter ) 1 00:52:21,836 --> 00:52:23,672 My theory is, 1 00:52:23,706 --> 00:52:25,807 you can't win if you don't play the game. 1 00:52:25,840 --> 00:52:27,509 ( laughter ) 1 00:52:27,543 --> 00:52:29,179 ( static ) 1 00:52:29,211 --> 00:52:31,480 I matched with somebody on Raya just now. 1 00:52:31,514 --> 00:52:33,583 You did? Can I see? 1 00:52:33,615 --> 00:52:36,853 I am on the dating app with both guys and girls. 1 00:52:36,885 --> 00:52:40,523 I am open to human connection. 1 00:52:40,556 --> 00:52:42,858 So whether that's through a male or a female, 1 00:52:42,891 --> 00:52:44,426 it doesn't matter to me. 1 00:52:44,460 --> 00:52:45,695 Avo Yermagyan: She is so cute. 1 00:52:45,728 --> 00:52:47,363 Mm-hmm. 1 00:52:47,396 --> 00:52:50,365 Liking somebody and then... 1 00:52:50,398 --> 00:52:54,336 like, them texting you and... 1 00:52:54,369 --> 00:52:57,239 you waiting for their text back, 1 00:52:57,273 --> 00:52:59,909 and them liking your picture on Instagram, 1 00:52:59,942 --> 00:53:01,344 um, all these, like, feels-- 1 00:53:01,376 --> 00:53:04,213 and first dates, oh, my God. 1 00:53:04,246 --> 00:53:05,949 I need looks for this weekend. 1 00:53:05,981 --> 00:53:07,583 You do? Date night? 1 00:53:07,617 --> 00:53:10,486 How many? Is there a story? Is there a theme? 1 00:53:10,518 --> 00:53:11,954 I'm going to a soccer game. 1 00:53:11,987 --> 00:53:13,889 Jumpsuit, dress...? 1 00:53:13,922 --> 00:53:16,258 Jumpsuit. 1 00:53:16,291 --> 00:53:17,460 Cleavage? 1 00:53:17,492 --> 00:53:18,728 Always. 1 00:53:18,760 --> 00:53:21,898 First dates are... so nerve-racking. 1 00:53:21,931 --> 00:53:24,867 I didn't have that before. 1 00:53:24,900 --> 00:53:26,668 I mean, not in so long, 1 00:53:26,702 --> 00:53:28,871 and... the butterflies of that, 1 00:53:28,903 --> 00:53:30,873 the sweat on my hands, 1 00:53:30,905 --> 00:53:33,409 the ( bleep ) sweaty palms, 1 00:53:33,442 --> 00:53:37,413 like, all that is fun, it's so much fun. 1 00:53:37,445 --> 00:53:38,947 This is like a close-the-deal dress, 1 00:53:38,981 --> 00:53:40,917 do you want to close the deal? 1 00:53:40,949 --> 00:53:42,484 - Hell yeah, I want to close the deal. - Okay. 1 00:53:42,518 --> 00:53:43,885 'Cause you're in escrow right now. 1 00:53:43,918 --> 00:53:45,887 ( laughs ) 1 00:53:45,920 --> 00:53:47,322 I thought you said, "You're an escort." 1 00:53:47,356 --> 00:53:48,458 No. ( laughs ) 1 00:53:48,490 --> 00:53:49,492 Don't you think? 1 00:53:49,525 --> 00:53:50,927 Should we try a new deal? 1 00:53:50,960 --> 00:53:53,295 - No, we don't need to do that. - Yeah, no, okay. 1 00:53:53,329 --> 00:53:55,565 And, I think, don't tape it down 1 00:53:55,597 --> 00:53:57,532 because, like, feeling that danger, 1 00:53:57,565 --> 00:53:59,268 like, is sexier to do. 1 00:53:59,302 --> 00:54:00,870 Okay, cool. And then... 1 00:54:00,902 --> 00:54:02,971 - Do I let the nipples show? - Let the nipples show. 1 00:54:03,005 --> 00:54:04,773 - Really? - Yeah. 1 00:54:04,806 --> 00:54:07,476 Yeah. 1 00:54:07,510 --> 00:54:08,745 It's, like, really see-through. 1 00:54:08,777 --> 00:54:10,045 It's the female bulge. 1 00:54:10,079 --> 00:54:12,015 It's like letting the guy know who's boss. 1 00:54:12,047 --> 00:54:14,750 - I don't know if I can do that. - Do it. 1 00:54:14,784 --> 00:54:16,986 When I'm comfortable in my own skin, 1 00:54:17,018 --> 00:54:18,520 I feel confident. 1 00:54:18,554 --> 00:54:19,922 And when I feel confident, 1 00:54:19,954 --> 00:54:21,391 I feel sexy. 1 00:54:21,423 --> 00:54:23,925 And when I feel sexy... 1 00:54:23,958 --> 00:54:25,060 watch out. 1 00:54:25,094 --> 00:54:27,764 ♪ Baby, be my ♪ 1 00:54:27,797 --> 00:54:29,865 ♪ New addiction ♪ 1 00:54:29,898 --> 00:54:31,733 ♪ Intoxicate me gently ♪ 1 00:54:31,766 --> 00:54:34,736 ♪ With your loving ♪ 1 00:54:34,769 --> 00:54:35,938 ♪ You ♪ 1 00:54:35,971 --> 00:54:38,775 ♪ Got me so hot ♪ 1 00:54:38,807 --> 00:54:40,643 ♪ Pull me closer into you ♪ 1 00:54:40,675 --> 00:54:43,512 ♪ And watch our bodies intertwine ♪ 1 00:54:43,545 --> 00:54:44,513 You don't know this Demi. 1 00:54:44,547 --> 00:54:46,081 Single Demi is fun. 1 00:54:46,114 --> 00:54:48,317 She's a single girl, if she wants to go out to a club 1 00:54:48,351 --> 00:54:50,353 and dance, so be it. 1 00:54:50,385 --> 00:54:51,721 ♪ Got me dreaming 'bout that ♪ 1 00:54:51,753 --> 00:54:54,089 ♪ Sexy, dirty love ♪ 1 00:54:54,123 --> 00:54:56,492 ( distorted voice ): ♪ Sexy, sexy, yeah ♪ 1 00:54:56,525 --> 00:54:58,728 ♪ Sexy, dirty love ♪ 1 00:54:58,760 --> 00:54:59,929 And we definitely talk about boys a lot, 1 00:54:59,961 --> 00:55:02,565 we're both single. 1 00:55:02,597 --> 00:55:03,733 Obviously, everyone wants to date her. 1 00:55:03,766 --> 00:55:05,001 She has a lot of suitors. 1 00:55:06,902 --> 00:55:08,070 It's fun to hear her 1 00:55:08,103 --> 00:55:10,539 when she shares her stories. 1 00:55:10,572 --> 00:55:13,542 He's so ( bleep ) hot. 1 00:55:13,576 --> 00:55:15,010 - Avo: Really? - Yes. 1 00:55:15,043 --> 00:55:16,511 Have you talked to him since? 1 00:55:16,545 --> 00:55:18,614 No, I was waiting for him to text me. 1 00:55:18,646 --> 00:55:20,115 If it happens, um, I'm gonna be your best man. 1 00:55:20,148 --> 00:55:22,451 ( laughs ) 1 00:55:22,485 --> 00:55:24,086 Did you make it up to his suite? 1 00:55:24,119 --> 00:55:25,954 Yeah. 1 00:55:25,987 --> 00:55:27,823 ( laughs ) 1 00:55:27,856 --> 00:55:29,625 No, I did not. 1 00:55:29,657 --> 00:55:33,762 There's like a certain... stigma around 1 00:55:33,795 --> 00:55:37,132 a woman having casual sex. 1 00:55:37,166 --> 00:55:39,869 And, for me, I just feel like 1 00:55:39,902 --> 00:55:41,804 it's my body and it's my choice, 1 00:55:41,836 --> 00:55:45,375 and it's exciting, and it's a connection with somebody. 1 00:55:45,407 --> 00:55:46,476 And it's fun. 1 00:55:47,909 --> 00:55:49,045 ♪ You ♪ 1 00:55:49,077 --> 00:55:51,980 ♪ Got me so hot ♪ 1 00:55:52,014 --> 00:55:53,782 ♪ Pull me closer into you ♪ 1 00:55:53,815 --> 00:55:56,985 ♪ And watch our bodies intertwine ♪ 1 00:55:57,018 --> 00:56:01,022 ♪ I feel so alive ♪ 1 00:56:01,056 --> 00:56:03,393 ♪ You're the one I'm thinking of ♪ 1 00:56:03,425 --> 00:56:05,061 ♪ Got me dreaming 'bout that ♪ 1 00:56:05,094 --> 00:56:07,563 ♪ Sexy, dirty love ♪ 1 00:56:07,596 --> 00:56:09,898 Guess there's not really any common theme 1 00:56:09,931 --> 00:56:11,900 with the people that I've dated. 1 00:56:11,934 --> 00:56:13,636 ( distorted voice ): ♪ Sexy, sexy, yeah ♪ 1 00:56:13,668 --> 00:56:15,937 I do like athletes. 1 00:56:15,971 --> 00:56:18,507 There's something really sexy about 1 00:56:18,541 --> 00:56:22,111 somebody putting in all of their physical strength into their passion. 1 00:56:22,143 --> 00:56:23,846 ( distorted voice ): ♪ Sexy, sexy, yeah ♪ 1 00:56:23,878 --> 00:56:25,714 ( distorted ): ♪ Dirty love. ♪ 1 00:56:25,748 --> 00:56:27,849 I know, I know, I... ( laughs ) 1 00:56:27,882 --> 00:56:29,785 I was like, "There's no common theme," 1 00:56:29,818 --> 00:56:32,755 but really it's totally athletes. 1 00:56:32,788 --> 00:56:34,123 ( water running ) 1 00:56:34,155 --> 00:56:35,590 So we'll do the ends of my hair, 1 00:56:35,623 --> 00:56:36,925 like, more on the straighter side. 1 00:56:36,958 --> 00:56:37,993 Hairdresser: Straight, yeah, yeah, yeah. 1 00:56:38,027 --> 00:56:40,028 Just straighten. I don't go wavy. 1 00:56:40,061 --> 00:56:42,030 Demi: Yay, he texted. 1 00:56:42,063 --> 00:56:43,532 - ( chuckles ) - Yay! 1 00:56:43,565 --> 00:56:45,033 Four hours and two minutes. ( laughs ) 1 00:56:48,637 --> 00:56:50,106 What'd he say? 1 00:56:50,139 --> 00:56:51,874 Well, I can't check it, I've got foil on my ( bleep ) 1 00:56:51,907 --> 00:56:53,543 Anticipation. 1 00:56:53,576 --> 00:56:55,577 The anticipation is killing me. 1 00:56:55,610 --> 00:56:57,879 Woman: Was it you who texted or he had texted? 1 00:56:57,913 --> 00:56:59,481 It was me. 1 00:56:59,514 --> 00:57:01,417 Oh, sounds desperate. 1 00:57:03,251 --> 00:57:05,855 It's good you have foil on your hands right now. 1 00:57:05,887 --> 00:57:07,923 No, for sure. I'm still gonna wait. 1 00:57:07,956 --> 00:57:09,192 I'm not gonna text right away. 1 00:57:11,626 --> 00:57:12,762 ( laughter ) 1 00:57:14,929 --> 00:57:16,065 Well... 1 00:57:18,199 --> 00:57:20,636 ( laughs ) I know. 1 00:57:21,971 --> 00:57:24,940 It's a... sticky situation. 1 00:57:24,974 --> 00:57:26,576 If you text right away 1 00:57:26,608 --> 00:57:29,511 and you make yourself seem available all the time, 1 00:57:29,545 --> 00:57:31,880 then he's not gonna be interested anymore. 1 00:57:31,914 --> 00:57:33,749 Like, not as interested. 1 00:57:33,782 --> 00:57:36,251 He... ( stammers ) 1 00:57:36,284 --> 00:57:37,953 It's a thing. 1 00:57:37,987 --> 00:57:40,056 Phil, you're married, you don't have to deal with this, 1 00:57:40,088 --> 00:57:41,556 you don't get it. 1 00:57:41,590 --> 00:57:43,759 Producer: What are some of the turn-offs? 1 00:57:43,791 --> 00:57:45,193 I don't like douchebags. 1 00:57:45,226 --> 00:57:47,128 ( robotic voice ): ♪ Stop playing games ♪ 1 00:57:47,161 --> 00:57:48,730 ( distorting ): ♪ Games, games, games, games, games ♪ 1 00:57:48,764 --> 00:57:52,001 And I have dated some in this single era. 1 00:57:52,034 --> 00:57:54,871 ♪ Text on "read" ♪ 1 00:57:54,903 --> 00:57:56,873 ♪ And it ain't no accident ♪ 1 00:57:56,905 --> 00:57:58,574 ♪ Boy, I ain't gonna ask again ♪ 1 00:57:58,606 --> 00:58:02,143 ♪ Now you got me in my head ♪ 1 00:58:02,177 --> 00:58:03,778 ♪ Waiting by the phone at night ♪ 1 00:58:03,811 --> 00:58:05,514 ♪ That... that I don't do ♪ 1 00:58:05,547 --> 00:58:09,217 ♪ And I just can't explain what's happening ♪ 1 00:58:09,251 --> 00:58:11,120 ♪ Sending all these messages ♪ 1 00:58:11,152 --> 00:58:13,121 ♪ Alone at night ♪ 1 00:58:13,155 --> 00:58:15,291 ♪ On Patron at night, ah ♪ 1 00:58:15,324 --> 00:58:17,092 I don't like guys that play games. 1 00:58:17,126 --> 00:58:19,729 Like, life is too short for games. 1 00:58:19,762 --> 00:58:21,664 ♪ Two can play, yeah, two can play, yeah ♪ 1 00:58:21,697 --> 00:58:22,664 ♪ Oh, oh. ♪ 1 00:58:22,697 --> 00:58:25,033 Hold on, one more time. 1 00:58:25,067 --> 00:58:27,103 ♪ Two can play, yeah, two can play, yeah ♪ 1 00:58:27,135 --> 00:58:30,038 ♪ Two can play, yeah, oh, oh ♪ 1 00:58:30,072 --> 00:58:32,742 I'm kind of a confrontational person. 1 00:58:32,775 --> 00:58:34,777 so if there's something up, I want to be like, 1 00:58:34,809 --> 00:58:36,978 I want to figure out, like... 1 00:58:37,012 --> 00:58:40,016 are we-- what's going on? What's happening here? 1 00:58:40,048 --> 00:58:41,784 ♪ Two can play, yeah, two can play, yeah ♪ 1 00:58:41,817 --> 00:58:44,686 ♪ Two can play, yeah, play these games ♪ 1 00:58:44,719 --> 00:58:46,121 First of all, 1 00:58:46,155 --> 00:58:48,557 he was supposed to come to my concert in Dallas... 1 00:58:48,590 --> 00:58:49,724 - He bailed. - ...and he bailed. 1 00:58:49,757 --> 00:58:50,960 Yeah, yeah. 1 00:58:50,992 --> 00:58:52,862 And I was, like, pissed off about that. 1 00:58:52,894 --> 00:58:54,996 Maybe it was just like, I didn't text him, 1 00:58:55,030 --> 00:58:56,566 I was waiting for him to text me, 1 00:58:56,599 --> 00:58:58,067 we were playing games, like, 1 00:58:58,099 --> 00:58:59,802 you know what? 1 00:58:59,835 --> 00:59:02,137 Text the ( bleep ) boy. 1 00:59:02,170 --> 00:59:03,705 I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt. 1 00:59:03,739 --> 00:59:06,909 ♪ Honey, I don't need no friends ♪ 1 00:59:06,942 --> 00:59:08,110 And I was like, "Okay, well, I'm, you know, 1 00:59:08,143 --> 00:59:09,644 I have a free weekend, 1 00:59:09,677 --> 00:59:12,047 like, I'm thinking of coming to Dallas. 1 00:59:12,081 --> 00:59:13,716 Like, do you have any free weekends available?" 1 00:59:13,748 --> 00:59:15,183 He was like, "Yeah, I'm open that weekend, too." 1 00:59:15,217 --> 00:59:16,686 I was like, "Dope, let's hang out." 1 00:59:16,719 --> 00:59:18,086 ♪ Alone at night ♪ 1 00:59:18,119 --> 00:59:19,855 ♪ On Patron at night ♪ 1 00:59:19,887 --> 00:59:21,824 ♪ Ah ♪ 1 00:59:21,856 --> 00:59:23,858 We decide to go into the club. 1 00:59:23,891 --> 00:59:25,327 He was like, "Yeah, come to my table. 1 00:59:25,360 --> 00:59:27,629 And I was like, "Okay, like, that's pretty cool," 1 00:59:27,663 --> 00:59:29,898 - 'cause I had my own separate table... - Yeah, so far, so good. 1 00:59:29,931 --> 00:59:31,766 He was like, "Yeah, like, have your friends come to the table." 1 00:59:31,800 --> 00:59:33,169 And I was like, "Okay, cool." 1 00:59:33,202 --> 00:59:36,305 ♪ Careful when you play these games ♪ 1 00:59:36,338 --> 00:59:38,641 Right when we got there, right as I was standing there, 1 00:59:38,673 --> 00:59:41,110 I was next to him. He did a line of coke, 1 00:59:41,143 --> 00:59:43,112 - the bottle service girl comes up, - No. 1 00:59:43,144 --> 00:59:45,280 - and he goes... like this to her boobs. - ( gasps ) 1 00:59:45,313 --> 00:59:47,148 - Girl. - Bye. 1 00:59:47,181 --> 00:59:48,149 Are you ( bleep ) kidding me? 1 00:59:48,182 --> 00:59:49,684 And then he starts pouring vodka 1 00:59:49,717 --> 00:59:51,186 down other girl's throats. 1 00:59:51,219 --> 00:59:52,988 ♪ You might find out the hard way ♪ 1 00:59:53,021 --> 00:59:55,056 ♪ That two can play, yeah, two can play, yeah ♪ 1 00:59:55,090 --> 00:59:56,726 ♪ Two can play, yeah, two can play, yeah ♪ 1 00:59:56,759 --> 00:59:58,226 I wanted to tell him straight to his face 1 00:59:58,260 --> 00:59:59,829 that I'm a ( bleep ) catch, 1 00:59:59,862 --> 01:00:01,697 and that he needed to treat me like a queen. 1 01:00:01,730 --> 01:00:02,965 ♪ Winning, winning, winning ♪ 1 01:00:02,998 --> 01:00:05,001 ♪ And I'm tired of keeping score ♪ 1 01:00:05,034 --> 01:00:07,403 I was half-joking, but, like, 1 01:00:07,436 --> 01:00:09,171 half-serious, like, "Go ( bleep ) yourself." 1 01:00:09,204 --> 01:00:11,374 He asked why and I said, 1 01:00:11,407 --> 01:00:14,242 "Well, these are the reasons why, 1 01:00:14,275 --> 01:00:16,678 these are the things that you did, 1 01:00:16,711 --> 01:00:18,780 right in front of me, 1 01:00:18,813 --> 01:00:21,783 and I'm not going to be disrespected like that." 1 01:00:21,817 --> 01:00:24,786 And he ended up sending a bunch of text messages, 1 01:00:24,820 --> 01:00:27,023 apologizing, wanting to talk. 1 01:00:27,056 --> 01:00:30,393 ♪ Maybe I can be yours ♪ 1 01:00:33,362 --> 01:00:34,864 He texted me, "You good?" 1 01:00:34,896 --> 01:00:37,032 And I texted back, "New phone, who dis?" 1 01:00:37,065 --> 01:00:38,933 Oh, I saw your-- did you see on Instagram? 1 01:00:38,967 --> 01:00:41,170 That's my ( bleep ) girl. 1 01:00:41,202 --> 01:00:42,771 ♪ Games ♪ 1 01:00:42,804 --> 01:00:44,806 ♪ Come on now, say what you want ♪ 1 01:00:44,840 --> 01:00:46,142 - It's Kelsey I'm pretty sure. - Oh. 1 01:00:46,175 --> 01:00:47,910 She's... 1 01:00:47,943 --> 01:00:49,979 ( laughing ) 1 01:00:50,012 --> 01:00:51,747 ♪ Might find out the hard way ♪ 1 01:00:51,780 --> 01:00:53,816 ♪ That two can play, yeah, two can play, yeah ♪ 1 01:00:53,849 --> 01:00:57,353 ♪ Two can play, yeah, whoa, oh... ♪ 1 01:01:00,389 --> 01:01:01,691 I think that's the one. 1 01:01:03,092 --> 01:01:04,093 Okay, I love it. 1 01:01:04,126 --> 01:01:05,861 Yeah, that one's really good. 1 01:01:05,893 --> 01:01:08,963 Emo Night is a throwback event in L.A. once a month 1 01:01:08,996 --> 01:01:10,965 that brings together fans of the emo scene 1 01:01:10,998 --> 01:01:13,001 to relive the past. 1 01:01:13,034 --> 01:01:14,369 ( music playing ) 1 01:01:14,402 --> 01:01:17,172 I try to go as often as I can. 1 01:01:17,206 --> 01:01:18,874 It's so much fun. 1 01:01:18,907 --> 01:01:20,476 Emo Night, part two, the sequel! 1 01:01:20,509 --> 01:01:21,711 Demi: Looking back on my past, 1 01:01:21,744 --> 01:01:23,312 I see just how influential 1 01:01:23,344 --> 01:01:24,913 this music was on my life 1 01:01:24,947 --> 01:01:27,383 and my own musical journey early on. 1 01:01:27,416 --> 01:01:29,785 Morgan Freed: Hey, let's give it up for ( bleep ) Todd from 303. 1 01:01:29,818 --> 01:01:32,188 ( cheering and applause ) 1 01:01:32,221 --> 01:01:36,958 I want to introduce you guys to somebody very, very, very, very, very, special to me, 1 01:01:36,992 --> 01:01:39,361 Demi Lovato. 1 01:01:39,393 --> 01:01:41,763 Tell them what the ( bleep ) Emo Night is about. 1 01:01:41,797 --> 01:01:44,199 ( music playing ) 1 01:01:47,802 --> 01:01:51,239 ( all singing along ): ♪ Whoa, I never meant to brag ♪ 1 01:01:51,273 --> 01:01:53,309 ♪ But I got him where I want him now ♪ 1 01:01:53,342 --> 01:01:56,945 ♪ Whoa, it was never my intention to brag ♪ 1 01:01:56,978 --> 01:01:59,914 ♪ To steal it all away from you now ♪ 1 01:01:59,947 --> 01:02:02,317 ♪ But, God, does it feel so good ♪ 1 01:02:02,351 --> 01:02:05,019 ♪ 'Cause I got him where I want him now ♪ 1 01:02:05,052 --> 01:02:08,190 ♪ And if you could, then you know you would ♪ 1 01:02:08,222 --> 01:02:11,126 ♪ 'Cause, God, it just feels so ♪ 1 01:02:11,159 --> 01:02:15,330 ♪ It just feels so good ♪ 1 01:02:15,364 --> 01:02:18,134 ♪ Second chances they don't ever matter, people never change ♪ 1 01:02:18,166 --> 01:02:19,902 - ( music stops ) - ♪ Once a whore, you're nothing more, I'm sorry ♪ 1 01:02:19,934 --> 01:02:21,137 ♪ That'll never change. ♪ 1 01:02:21,170 --> 01:02:23,038 Oh, ( bleep ). 1 01:02:23,070 --> 01:02:24,940 I went to, like, slide it down, and then slide it back up 1 01:02:24,972 --> 01:02:26,442 so everyone would sing it, 1 01:02:26,474 --> 01:02:28,076 - and then it stopped. - Oh, is that what happened? 1 01:02:28,110 --> 01:02:31,113 Yes, and I was like... "Oh, ( bleep )." 1 01:02:31,146 --> 01:02:33,315 ♪ And about forgiveness, we're both supposed to have exchanged ♪ 1 01:02:33,347 --> 01:02:36,284 ♪ I'm sorry honey, but I passed out, now look this way ♪ 1 01:02:36,318 --> 01:02:38,454 Matthew: I thought someone hit, like, the power cord 1 01:02:38,487 --> 01:02:40,021 or, like, the audience or whatever. 1 01:02:40,054 --> 01:02:41,289 We're gonna go with that. 1 01:02:41,322 --> 01:02:42,824 Matthew: Yeah. ( laughs ) 1 01:02:42,858 --> 01:02:44,226 I don't want to be on record. 1 01:02:44,259 --> 01:02:45,860 Wait! 1 01:02:45,893 --> 01:02:47,962 We're gonna ( bleep ) rock this ( bleep )! 1 01:02:47,996 --> 01:02:51,834 ♪ Whoa, well, I never meant to brag ♪ 1 01:02:51,867 --> 01:02:53,936 ♪ But I got him where I want him now ♪ 1 01:02:53,969 --> 01:02:57,472 ♪ Whoa, it was never my intention to brag ♪ 1 01:02:57,505 --> 01:03:00,375 ♪ To steal it all away from you now ♪ 1 01:03:00,409 --> 01:03:03,211 ♪ But, God, does it feel so good ♪ 1 01:03:03,244 --> 01:03:06,147 ♪ 'Cause I've gotten what I wanted now ♪ 1 01:03:06,181 --> 01:03:09,083 ♪ And if you could, then you know you would ♪ 1 01:03:09,117 --> 01:03:11,487 ♪ 'Cause, God, it just feels so... ♪ 1 01:03:13,956 --> 01:03:15,457 Woman: Yes, queen! 1 01:03:15,489 --> 01:03:20,362 ♪ It just feels so good. ♪ 1 01:03:22,030 --> 01:03:24,432 ( music playing over speakers ) 1 01:03:26,201 --> 01:03:27,836 ( bleep ) yeah! 1 01:03:27,869 --> 01:03:29,538 ( clapping ) 1 01:03:29,570 --> 01:03:31,239 Yay! 1 01:03:31,273 --> 01:03:32,408 I'm glad we just recorded that. 1 01:03:32,440 --> 01:03:34,242 - I know, me, too. - ( laughs ) 1 01:03:34,275 --> 01:03:36,377 - Man: Yeah, check it out for us. - Yeah, right? 1 01:03:36,411 --> 01:03:38,012 So I can stay until-- for another hour and a half, 1 01:03:38,045 --> 01:03:39,480 what do you want to do? 1 01:03:39,514 --> 01:03:41,483 Let's definitely get that clean out of the way. 1 01:03:41,516 --> 01:03:43,351 - Yeah. - Let me pull it up. 1 01:03:43,385 --> 01:03:45,020 Man: Sometimes you would take, like, 1 01:03:45,052 --> 01:03:47,355 about a day or so to work on vocals. 1 01:03:47,389 --> 01:03:48,423 Yeah. 1 01:03:48,456 --> 01:03:50,326 Like, it's crazy that-- 1 01:03:50,358 --> 01:03:52,527 - what was that, like, an hour or so? - I know, right? 1 01:03:52,561 --> 01:03:55,097 - Well, you're so fast. - ( laughs ) 1 01:03:55,130 --> 01:03:56,898 I was being so "meticulate..." 1 01:03:56,931 --> 01:04:00,001 - "Meticulous"? - "Meticulous"? 1 01:04:00,034 --> 01:04:01,302 Home-schooled. 1 01:04:01,335 --> 01:04:03,538 - ( laughter ) - Oh, ( bleep ). 1 01:04:03,572 --> 01:04:06,208 She's very witty, which people might not notice 1 01:04:06,240 --> 01:04:08,443 because I feel like you can't fully show your personality 1 01:04:08,476 --> 01:04:11,547 when you have to do a press tour or something like that. 1 01:04:11,579 --> 01:04:13,315 Look at me on the toilet. 1 01:04:13,347 --> 01:04:15,284 That's the cutest ( bleep ) I've ever seen... 1 01:04:15,317 --> 01:04:16,452 literally. 1 01:04:16,485 --> 01:04:18,019 So, she's pretty hilarious, 1 01:04:18,052 --> 01:04:20,021 and she cracks ridiculous jokes. 1 01:04:20,054 --> 01:04:21,056 Want to see my jab? 1 01:04:24,358 --> 01:04:25,927 ( laughing ) 1 01:04:25,960 --> 01:04:28,096 Let's see the whale call. 1 01:04:28,130 --> 01:04:29,465 ( imitates whale call ) 1 01:04:29,498 --> 01:04:30,432 ( laughter ) 1 01:04:32,434 --> 01:04:35,604 She has a very interesting sense of humor. 1 01:04:35,637 --> 01:04:37,072 I'm always on my toes. 1 01:04:37,105 --> 01:04:38,606 - Ya! - Oh, my God! 1 01:04:38,639 --> 01:04:41,009 See? She gets me every... 1 01:04:41,043 --> 01:04:44,012 Just trying to drive, but... 1 01:04:44,045 --> 01:04:46,547 Oh, well. 1 01:04:46,581 --> 01:04:48,617 It's a dam. 1 01:04:48,650 --> 01:04:50,019 Dam. 1 01:04:50,052 --> 01:04:52,421 ( chuckles ) Dam! 1 01:04:52,454 --> 01:04:54,423 - Dam! - Dam, son! 1 01:04:54,456 --> 01:04:56,557 ( laughs ) I just got it! 1 01:04:56,590 --> 01:04:58,326 She's lovable. 1 01:04:58,360 --> 01:05:00,028 ( lip syncing to child's voice ): I'll take a nap! 1 01:05:00,061 --> 01:05:01,563 ( lip syncing to man's voice): You want to take a nap? 1 01:05:01,596 --> 01:05:03,032 I'll take a nap here. 1 01:05:03,065 --> 01:05:04,333 Okay, take a nap right there then. 1 01:05:04,365 --> 01:05:05,701 Good night! 1 01:05:05,733 --> 01:05:07,268 Or super inappropriate. 1 01:05:07,302 --> 01:05:09,005 Marissa said ( bleep ). 1 01:05:13,175 --> 01:05:16,077 She's always been witty and funny. 1 01:05:16,110 --> 01:05:18,246 Sometimes I'm like, "What did you just say?" 1 01:05:18,280 --> 01:05:21,483 Somebody commented at me. 1 01:05:21,516 --> 01:05:24,086 And I-- calling me, like, a coke head, 1 01:05:24,119 --> 01:05:26,622 and I go, "I prefer the term 'former crack whore.'" 1 01:05:26,655 --> 01:05:29,124 ( laughter ) 1 01:05:29,157 --> 01:05:30,459 Yeah, just little moments like that, 1 01:05:30,492 --> 01:05:32,127 she doesn't give a ( bleep ). 1 01:05:32,159 --> 01:05:34,562 Like, she will say anything that's on her mind. 1 01:05:34,596 --> 01:05:35,731 You are very annoying. 1 01:05:35,764 --> 01:05:37,231 Because a lot of people hold back. 1 01:05:37,264 --> 01:05:38,467 How's that? 1 01:05:38,500 --> 01:05:40,235 - How's that? - Well, you are. 1 01:05:40,268 --> 01:05:42,036 - You can be a bit of an ( bleep ). - I know. 1 01:05:42,070 --> 01:05:43,105 - How's that? - I'm used to it. 1 01:05:43,137 --> 01:05:44,672 ( cheers and applause ) 1 01:05:44,706 --> 01:05:46,208 Can you deal with that? 1 01:05:46,240 --> 01:05:49,545 She definitely has... 1 01:05:49,577 --> 01:05:52,047 a unique personality. 1 01:05:52,079 --> 01:05:54,549 I know that you all... 1 01:05:54,583 --> 01:05:56,385 love Nick Jonas. 1 01:05:56,418 --> 01:05:57,987 ( audience laughing ) 1 01:06:00,155 --> 01:06:02,091 But I actually have 1 01:06:02,123 --> 01:06:03,558 a bigger ( bleep ) than he does. 1 01:06:03,592 --> 01:06:05,260 ( cheering ) 1 01:06:09,030 --> 01:06:10,398 Don't ( bleep ) with me. 1 01:06:14,036 --> 01:06:16,238 Cue the sunglasses and the joint. 1 01:06:16,271 --> 01:06:18,507 ( man laughs ) 1 01:06:18,539 --> 01:06:22,411 ( traffic noises ) 1 01:06:22,443 --> 01:06:24,413 Phil: So fill us in. 1 01:06:24,445 --> 01:06:26,248 Open up your mind, like, what are your thoughts? 1 01:06:26,280 --> 01:06:27,315 Where's your head at? 1 01:06:27,349 --> 01:06:29,418 My thoughts are 1 01:06:29,451 --> 01:06:32,153 it's always been about heartbreak 1 01:06:32,186 --> 01:06:34,422 or struggles. 1 01:06:34,456 --> 01:06:36,358 And, when they think of my music, 1 01:06:36,391 --> 01:06:38,159 they think it's heavy. 1 01:06:38,193 --> 01:06:41,163 And I just want to, like, break that mold. 1 01:06:41,195 --> 01:06:43,297 "Sorry, Not Sorry" is lighter, 1 01:06:43,331 --> 01:06:46,168 and I think that's a part of me nobody's seen before. 1 01:06:46,201 --> 01:06:47,702 I just want you to feel supported 1 01:06:47,735 --> 01:06:50,538 to make the decision that you feel best about. 1 01:06:50,572 --> 01:06:53,075 I feel like coming out with a song that's fun 1 01:06:53,108 --> 01:06:54,710 that I'm passionate about. 1 01:06:54,742 --> 01:06:56,744 It just feels right to me. 1 01:06:56,777 --> 01:07:00,415 ( music playing ) 1 01:07:00,449 --> 01:07:03,585 I follow my gut. 1 01:07:03,617 --> 01:07:05,420 My gut told me to choose "Sorry, Not Sorry" 1 01:07:05,454 --> 01:07:08,123 as my first single, and I did. 1 01:07:08,155 --> 01:07:10,224 And I believed in it from day one 1 01:07:10,257 --> 01:07:13,261 when other people thought that it shouldn't be 1 01:07:13,295 --> 01:07:15,197 the first single. 1 01:07:15,230 --> 01:07:16,731 But I knew that it should. 1 01:07:23,771 --> 01:07:26,141 Ah! It is go time. 1 01:07:26,173 --> 01:07:30,612 Gonna perform "Sorry, Not Sorry" live for the first time ever. 1 01:07:30,644 --> 01:07:31,847 And I'm so excited. 1 01:07:31,880 --> 01:07:33,315 ( audience cheering ) 1 01:07:33,347 --> 01:07:35,817 Tonight is a very big night for me. 1 01:07:35,851 --> 01:07:40,355 ( cheering ) 1 01:07:40,387 --> 01:07:42,423 Because I released a song called... 1 01:07:42,456 --> 01:07:45,460 Audience: "Sorry, Not Sorry"! 1 01:07:45,494 --> 01:07:47,696 What if we do another tour 'cause it was so much fun? 1 01:07:50,164 --> 01:07:52,367 How we did on the "Cool for the Summer" Tour, 1 01:07:52,400 --> 01:07:55,704 we went to, like, pool parties. 1 01:07:55,737 --> 01:07:58,373 And we get massive houses in different cities. 1 01:07:58,405 --> 01:07:59,608 Phil: Do the House Party Tour. I love it. 1 01:07:59,641 --> 01:08:01,343 Demi: Do the House Party Tour. 1 01:08:03,411 --> 01:08:05,414 ♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪ 1 01:08:05,447 --> 01:08:06,849 ♪ I'm not sorry ♪ 1 01:08:06,882 --> 01:08:08,817 ♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪ 1 01:08:08,849 --> 01:08:10,585 ♪ I'm not sorry ♪ 1 01:08:10,619 --> 01:08:12,754 We woke up in, in Boston, 1 01:08:12,786 --> 01:08:14,122 and then we went to Alabama 1 01:08:14,155 --> 01:08:15,657 for, like, an hour and a half. 1 01:08:15,690 --> 01:08:17,426 Hey, Birmingham, what up, girl? 1 01:08:17,458 --> 01:08:19,193 Here in Nashville, um, 1 01:08:19,226 --> 01:08:20,662 kind of, like, flying by the seat of our pants, 1 01:08:20,694 --> 01:08:21,829 but it's been amazing. 1 01:08:21,863 --> 01:08:23,365 I said to them, 1 01:08:23,398 --> 01:08:25,367 "Gosh, she sounds like Aretha Franklin." 1 01:08:25,399 --> 01:08:26,835 Oh, my God, thank you! 1 01:08:26,868 --> 01:08:28,704 Matthew: Billy Ray Cyrus is here tonight, 1 01:08:28,737 --> 01:08:30,739 like, you don't even know who's gonna be there tomorrow. 1 01:08:30,771 --> 01:08:31,873 Yo! 1 01:08:31,907 --> 01:08:33,375 ( doorbell rings ) 1 01:08:33,408 --> 01:08:34,810 Ludacris: Gives me great pleasure 1 01:08:34,842 --> 01:08:36,677 to be sorry that I'm not sorry 1 01:08:36,711 --> 01:08:39,148 - ( cheering ) - to introduce my great friend. 1 01:08:39,180 --> 01:08:42,550 My friend, your friend, Miss Demi Lovato! 1 01:08:42,583 --> 01:08:45,653 Audience: Demi! Demi! Demi! 1 01:08:45,686 --> 01:08:49,657 Demi! Demi! Demi! Demi! 1 01:08:49,690 --> 01:08:51,559 Demi! Demi! 1 01:08:51,592 --> 01:08:52,927 You guys ready to party? 1 01:08:52,961 --> 01:08:54,762 ( cheering ) 1 01:08:54,796 --> 01:08:57,298 If you know the words, please help me sing along! 1 01:08:57,332 --> 01:08:58,800 ( music playing ) 1 01:08:58,832 --> 01:09:01,502 ♪ Now I'm out here looking like revenge ♪ 1 01:09:01,536 --> 01:09:02,938 ♪ Feelin' like a ten ♪ 1 01:09:02,970 --> 01:09:04,672 ♪ The best I ever been ♪ 1 01:09:04,706 --> 01:09:07,708 ♪ And, yeah, I know how bad it must hurt ♪ 1 01:09:07,742 --> 01:09:09,411 ♪ To see me like this ♪ 1 01:09:09,444 --> 01:09:10,846 ♪ But it gets worse ♪ 1 01:09:10,878 --> 01:09:12,180 ( distorted ): ♪ Wait a minute ♪ 1 01:09:12,213 --> 01:09:13,681 ♪ Now payback is a bad bitch ♪ 1 01:09:13,715 --> 01:09:15,384 ♪ And, baby, I'm the baddest ♪ 1 01:09:15,417 --> 01:09:17,219 ♪ I'm playing with a savage ♪ 1 01:09:17,252 --> 01:09:18,820 ♪ Can't have this, can't have this ♪ 1 01:09:18,853 --> 01:09:19,954 ♪ Ah ♪ 1 01:09:19,988 --> 01:09:21,289 ♪ And it'd be nice of me ♪ 1 01:09:21,323 --> 01:09:23,325 ♪ To take it easy on ya ♪ 1 01:09:23,358 --> 01:09:24,760 ♪ But nah ♪ 1 01:09:24,792 --> 01:09:26,694 ♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪ 1 01:09:26,728 --> 01:09:27,895 ♪ I'm not sorry ♪ 1 01:09:27,929 --> 01:09:29,797 ♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪ 1 01:09:29,831 --> 01:09:31,500 ♪ I'm not sorry ♪ 1 01:09:31,533 --> 01:09:34,636 ♪ Being so bad got me feelin' so good ♪ 1 01:09:34,668 --> 01:09:35,871 Bad bitch. 1 01:09:35,904 --> 01:09:37,940 Baby, I'm... 1 01:09:37,972 --> 01:09:39,774 ♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪ 1 01:09:39,807 --> 01:09:40,775 ♪ I'm not sorry ♪ 1 01:09:40,809 --> 01:09:42,277 Wait, what's ( bleep ) dope 1 01:09:42,310 --> 01:09:44,479 is getting police escorted in my hometown. 1 01:09:44,511 --> 01:09:46,280 Woman: Yeah. 1 01:09:46,314 --> 01:09:48,584 Should I go for the high note or play it safe? 1 01:09:48,617 --> 01:09:50,985 I think you go for the win tonight. 1 01:09:51,019 --> 01:09:54,523 ♪ Better walk, better walk that walk, baby ♪ 1 01:09:54,555 --> 01:09:57,792 ♪ If you talk, if you talk that talk, baby ♪ 1 01:09:57,826 --> 01:10:00,828 ♪ Better walk, better walk that walk, baby ♪ 1 01:10:00,862 --> 01:10:01,930 ♪ Oh! ♪ 1 01:10:01,962 --> 01:10:03,465 ♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪ 1 01:10:03,497 --> 01:10:04,865 ♪ I'm not sorry ♪ 1 01:10:04,899 --> 01:10:06,702 ♪ Baby, I'm sorry ♪ 1 01:10:06,734 --> 01:10:08,269 ♪ I'm not sorry ♪ 1 01:10:08,302 --> 01:10:11,506 ♪ Being so bad got me feelin' so good ♪ 1 01:10:11,538 --> 01:10:14,842 ♪ Showing you up like I knew that I would ♪ 1 01:10:14,876 --> 01:10:17,346 The benefit that I have over some artists 1 01:10:17,378 --> 01:10:18,980 is my connection with my fans. 1 01:10:19,014 --> 01:10:21,682 And I thought, "What better way to get my fans involved 1 01:10:21,716 --> 01:10:24,353 and to have intimate performances 1 01:10:24,386 --> 01:10:26,655 than to throw the House Party Tour?" 1 01:10:26,688 --> 01:10:28,623 Things like that 1 01:10:28,657 --> 01:10:30,958 can turn into awesome memories. 1 01:10:30,992 --> 01:10:32,027 ( audience cheering ) 1 01:10:32,060 --> 01:10:33,562 And that's what it's all about. 1 01:10:33,595 --> 01:10:35,364 Like, I wouldn't have the career 1 01:10:35,396 --> 01:10:37,265 that I have today, I wouldn't be alive today 1 01:10:37,298 --> 01:10:38,300 without my fans. 1 01:10:38,332 --> 01:10:40,735 And I want them to be involved 1 01:10:40,769 --> 01:10:42,003 in any way they can 1 01:10:42,037 --> 01:10:44,240 because it just means so much to me. 1 01:10:46,440 --> 01:10:48,844 ( music playing ) 1 01:10:58,019 --> 01:11:00,989 ♪ Oh, no, here we go again ♪ 1 01:11:01,021 --> 01:11:03,492 ♪ Fighting over what I said ♪ 1 01:11:03,524 --> 01:11:05,993 ♪ I'm sorry ♪ 1 01:11:06,027 --> 01:11:09,030 ♪ Yeah, I'm sorry ♪ 1 01:11:09,064 --> 01:11:12,634 ♪ Bad at love, no, I'm not good at this ♪ 1 01:11:12,667 --> 01:11:15,003 ♪ But I can't say I'm innocent ♪ 1 01:11:15,036 --> 01:11:17,806 ♪ Not hardly ♪ 1 01:11:17,838 --> 01:11:20,641 ♪ But I'm sorry ♪ 1 01:11:20,675 --> 01:11:23,612 ♪ And all my friends, they know and it's true ♪ 1 01:11:23,645 --> 01:11:26,615 ♪ I don't know who I am without you ♪ 1 01:11:26,648 --> 01:11:29,583 ♪ I got it bad, baby ♪ 1 01:11:29,617 --> 01:11:31,420 ♪ Got it bad ♪ 1 01:11:31,453 --> 01:11:35,423 ♪ Oh, tell me you love me ♪ 1 01:11:35,457 --> 01:11:37,993 ♪ I need someone ♪ 1 01:11:38,025 --> 01:11:40,394 ♪ On days like this, I do ♪ 1 01:11:40,427 --> 01:11:42,997 ♪ On days like this ♪ 1 01:11:43,030 --> 01:11:46,967 ♪ Oh, tell me you love me ♪ 1 01:11:47,001 --> 01:11:49,738 ♪ I need someone ♪ 1 01:11:49,770 --> 01:11:52,573 ♪ On days like this, I do ♪ 1 01:11:52,606 --> 01:11:54,710 ♪ On days like this ♪ 1 01:11:54,743 --> 01:11:56,678 ♪ Oh, can you hear my heart say ♪ 1 01:11:56,711 --> 01:11:59,315 ( singers vocalizing ) 1 01:12:01,750 --> 01:12:04,685 ♪ No, you ain't nobody 'til you got somebody ♪ 1 01:12:04,719 --> 01:12:07,456 ♪ You ain't nobody 'til you got somebody ♪ 1 01:12:07,488 --> 01:12:08,456 ♪ My heart's like ♪ 1 01:12:08,489 --> 01:12:10,893 ( singers vocalizing ) 1 01:12:13,395 --> 01:12:16,131 ♪ No, you ain't nobody 'til you got somebody ♪ 1 01:12:16,163 --> 01:12:20,101 ♪ You ain't nobody 'til you got somebody ♪ 1 01:12:20,135 --> 01:12:22,070 ♪ Everything I need ♪ 1 01:12:22,103 --> 01:12:23,404 ♪ Oh ♪ 1 01:12:23,438 --> 01:12:24,706 ♪ Is standing in front of me ♪ 1 01:12:24,738 --> 01:12:26,073 ♪ Oh ♪ 1 01:12:26,106 --> 01:12:29,411 ♪ I know that we will be all right ♪ 1 01:12:29,444 --> 01:12:31,980 ♪ All right, yeah ♪ 1 01:12:32,012 --> 01:12:33,814 ♪ Through the ups and downs ♪ 1 01:12:33,847 --> 01:12:34,983 ♪ Oh ♪ 1 01:12:35,015 --> 01:12:36,484 ♪ Baby, I'ma stick around ♪ 1 01:12:36,518 --> 01:12:37,819 ♪ Oh ♪ 1 01:12:37,851 --> 01:12:41,622 ♪ I promise we will be all right ♪ 1 01:12:41,655 --> 01:12:45,594 ♪ Oh, tell me you love me ♪ 1 01:12:45,627 --> 01:12:47,929 ♪ I need someone ♪ 1 01:12:47,962 --> 01:12:50,966 ♪ On days like this, I do ♪ 1 01:12:50,998 --> 01:12:53,434 ♪ On days like this ♪ 1 01:12:53,467 --> 01:12:57,471 ♪ Oh, tell me you love me ♪ 1 01:12:57,505 --> 01:13:00,108 ♪ I need someone ♪ 1 01:13:00,140 --> 01:13:02,877 ♪ On days like this, I do ♪ 1 01:13:02,911 --> 01:13:05,046 ♪ On days like this ♪ 1 01:13:05,078 --> 01:13:06,847 ♪ Oh, can you hear my heart say ♪ 1 01:13:06,881 --> 01:13:07,949 ( singers vocalizing ) 1 01:13:07,981 --> 01:13:09,083 ♪ Hear my heart say ♪ 1 01:13:10,551 --> 01:13:11,920 ♪ Hear my heart say ♪ 1 01:13:11,953 --> 01:13:14,856 ♪ You ain't nobody 'til you got somebody ♪ 1 01:13:14,889 --> 01:13:18,460 ♪ You ain't nobody 'til you got somebody... ♪ 1 01:13:18,493 --> 01:13:19,928 When I look back at my life, 1 01:13:19,961 --> 01:13:23,431 I feel like, if I didn't have music, 1 01:13:23,465 --> 01:13:25,534 I don't know what I would have. 1 01:13:25,567 --> 01:13:28,170 I have my friends and my family, 1 01:13:28,203 --> 01:13:31,673 but music gave me a purpose when I was bullied in school, 1 01:13:31,706 --> 01:13:34,074 it gave me the motivation to keep going, 1 01:13:34,108 --> 01:13:38,212 and proved to everyone that didn't believe in me 1 01:13:38,246 --> 01:13:40,481 that I was gonna be something someday. 1 01:13:40,515 --> 01:13:42,050 I look back and I look at someone 1 01:13:42,082 --> 01:13:44,952 who slept 18 hours a day, 1 01:13:44,985 --> 01:13:46,988 used drugs every day. 1 01:13:47,020 --> 01:13:49,590 And then you see someone today who's 1 01:13:49,623 --> 01:13:52,193 inspired to make better music, 1 01:13:52,226 --> 01:13:54,528 to talk about her own story, 1 01:13:54,561 --> 01:13:56,730 to help other people, 1 01:13:56,764 --> 01:14:01,136 and to make the world a better place. 1 01:14:01,168 --> 01:14:02,604 And that's a miracle. 1 01:14:02,636 --> 01:14:05,606 She has lived through a lot of stuff, 1 01:14:05,640 --> 01:14:08,643 and she tries to put that stuff into her art 1 01:14:08,676 --> 01:14:11,246 because she's so authentic, and that's why people love her. 1 01:14:11,279 --> 01:14:13,482 She doesn't come in and go, "Well, I need a hit." 1 01:14:13,515 --> 01:14:15,115 She comes in with a passion for, 1 01:14:15,149 --> 01:14:16,685 "This is how I'm feeling right now 1 01:14:16,717 --> 01:14:18,220 and this is how the people that 1 01:14:18,252 --> 01:14:19,854 I know listen to my music are feeling." 1 01:14:19,887 --> 01:14:21,689 There's other great singers out there, 1 01:14:21,722 --> 01:14:24,059 but, like, Demi's voice is Demi's voice, 1 01:14:24,091 --> 01:14:26,527 and Demi's attitude is Demi's attitude. 1 01:14:26,560 --> 01:14:28,028 ♪ Everything I need ♪ 1 01:14:28,061 --> 01:14:29,530 ♪ Oh ♪ 1 01:14:29,564 --> 01:14:30,899 ♪ Is standing right in front of me ♪ 1 01:14:30,931 --> 01:14:32,266 ♪ Oh ♪ 1 01:14:32,300 --> 01:14:35,837 ♪ I know that we will be all right ♪ 1 01:14:35,869 --> 01:14:38,105 ♪ All right, yeah. ♪ 1 01:14:38,139 --> 01:14:40,742 ( cheering and applause ) 1 01:14:42,543 --> 01:14:43,545 Thank you. 1 01:14:46,146 --> 01:14:48,015 I know what music can get you through. 1 01:14:48,048 --> 01:14:50,752 I know what music can... 1 01:14:50,784 --> 01:14:52,753 do emotionally for somebody 1 01:14:52,787 --> 01:14:54,588 because I've experienced it myself. 1 01:14:54,622 --> 01:14:56,525 And I wanted to create that for other people. 1 01:14:56,557 --> 01:14:58,592 There's nothing more beautiful than being able to 1 01:14:58,626 --> 01:14:59,761 connect with people through music, 1 01:14:59,793 --> 01:15:01,061 in my eyes. 1 01:15:01,095 --> 01:15:06,167 ♪ Stone cold, stone cold ♪ 1 01:15:06,199 --> 01:15:08,537 ♪ You see me standing ♪ 1 01:15:08,569 --> 01:15:11,572 ♪ But I'm dying on the floor ♪ 1 01:15:11,605 --> 01:15:14,141 ♪ Stone cold ♪ 1 01:15:14,175 --> 01:15:16,778 ♪ Stone cold ♪ 1 01:15:16,810 --> 01:15:19,213 ♪ Maybe if I don't cry ♪ 1 01:15:19,247 --> 01:15:21,917 ♪ I won't feel anymore ♪ 1 01:15:21,949 --> 01:15:24,618 ♪ Stone cold ♪ 1 01:15:24,652 --> 01:15:26,988 ♪ Baby ♪ 1 01:15:27,020 --> 01:15:28,322 ♪ God knows I ♪ 1 01:15:28,355 --> 01:15:30,992 ♪ Tried to feel ♪ 1 01:15:31,024 --> 01:15:33,761 ♪ Happy for you ♪ 1 01:15:33,795 --> 01:15:34,762 ♪ Know that ♪ 1 01:15:34,796 --> 01:15:36,264 ♪ I am ♪ 1 01:15:36,296 --> 01:15:37,298 ♪ Even if ♪ 1 01:15:37,332 --> 01:15:41,336 ♪ I can't understand ♪ 1 01:15:41,368 --> 01:15:43,871 ♪ I'll take the pain ♪ 1 01:15:43,904 --> 01:15:46,608 ( harmonizing with track ): ♪ Give me the truth ♪ 1 01:15:46,640 --> 01:15:47,775 ♪ Me and my ♪ 1 01:15:47,809 --> 01:15:49,010 ♪ Heart ♪ 1 01:15:49,042 --> 01:15:50,344 ♪ We'll make it ♪ 1 01:15:50,377 --> 01:15:52,980 ♪ Through ♪ 1 01:15:53,014 --> 01:15:54,248 ♪ If ♪ 1 01:15:54,282 --> 01:15:59,186 ♪ Happy is her... ♪ 1 01:15:59,220 --> 01:16:00,188 ♪ I'm happy for you ♪ 1 01:16:00,220 --> 01:16:02,089 ( girls laughing ) 1 01:16:05,859 --> 01:16:08,630 ♪ Stone cold ♪ 1 01:16:08,662 --> 01:16:10,864 ♪ Baby ♪ 1 01:16:10,898 --> 01:16:14,868 ♪ God knows I tried to feel ♪ 1 01:16:14,902 --> 01:16:17,238 ♪ Happy for you ♪ 1 01:16:17,270 --> 01:16:19,873 ♪ Know that I am ♪ 1 01:16:19,907 --> 01:16:21,141 ♪ Even if ♪ 1 01:16:21,175 --> 01:16:22,644 ♪ I ♪ 1 01:16:22,676 --> 01:16:25,112 ♪ Can't understand ♪ 1 01:16:25,145 --> 01:16:27,782 ♪ I'll take the pain ♪ 1 01:16:27,814 --> 01:16:30,184 ♪ Give me the truth ♪ 1 01:16:30,217 --> 01:16:32,753 ♪ Me and my heart ♪ 1 01:16:32,787 --> 01:16:36,757 ♪ We'll make it through ♪ 1 01:16:36,791 --> 01:16:40,596 ♪ ( intercut ): If happy is her ♪ 1 01:16:42,863 --> 01:16:44,164 ♪ I'm happy ♪ 1 01:16:44,198 --> 01:16:47,902 ♪ For you ♪ 1 01:16:47,935 --> 01:16:51,940 Demi: ♪ Don't wanna be stone cold ♪ 1 01:16:51,972 --> 01:16:54,175 ♪ Stone ♪ 1 01:16:54,207 --> 01:16:56,877 ♪ I wish I could mean this ♪ 1 01:16:56,911 --> 01:17:02,216 ♪ But here's my good-bye ♪ 1 01:17:02,250 --> 01:17:06,186 ♪ Oh, I'm happy for you ♪ 1 01:17:06,220 --> 01:17:08,957 ♪ Know that I am ♪ 1 01:17:08,989 --> 01:17:11,291 ♪ Even if I ♪ 1 01:17:11,324 --> 01:17:15,195 ♪ Can't understand ♪ 1 01:17:15,229 --> 01:17:20,335 ♪ If happy is her ♪ 1 01:17:20,368 --> 01:17:23,672 ♪ If happy is ♪ 1 01:17:23,704 --> 01:17:25,407 ♪ Her... ♪ 1 01:17:29,210 --> 01:17:32,346 ♪ I'm happy for you. ♪ 1 01:17:57,471 --> 01:18:00,074 ( song ends )