There were times when I mother told me everything.
I knew about him loving and resting.
We went out and I saw it will be tempted by strangers.
I watched his life as under the table,
and I listened to it from my bed...
He took me into his arms and gave me his vision of the world. </ P>
August 23
In my family, we took a joint decision. </ P >
I feel like an adult.
You're kidding me.
Daddy, mom is on the left.
Yes, tie up your helper.
>
You imagine we live both together?
All the time?
How long?
I want to say something to him.
What?
That's personal.
This is between me and mother.
When did you decide that?
Damn, I don't have anything decided at all, okay?
He should be so announcing it himself.
Damn.
Mother
Waiting.
Hello dear.
Hi.
p>
Tom tells me a big loon.
What?
That I will stay with him full time now.
I mean , I love you.
But you imagine, even for a short time?
And then, I have something important to tell you.
Mother
Mother, open the door.
I can give you brochures and books if you want.
I will arrange the steps.
I will take hormones, masculine names...
Do you see my vest?
What's new?
He doesn't listen to you.
I understand.
>
You feel like a man You want to be a man.
You need space.
You don't need to do it leave immediately.
Can we sit and talk about it?
I understand mother. S okay. </ P>
You washed it? </ P>
I don't know. </ P>
Harry. </ P>
Harry? </ P>
You see my red vest? </ P>
Hi. </ P>
Cold weather
Give it to me. </ P>
Damn you. </ P>
Hot, now. </ P>
Did you know?
Everyone knows except me.
My sister must buy a dildo strap
Buy yourself a dildo belt, woman!
Let him go.
We have to talk to Billie.
Until your mother hair on the chest...
p>
He doesn't want you anymore in the area.
That's exactly what we want to say...
He sent you at the chef's house.
Yes, and you work late.
You have never been home.
I will do to succeed.
p>
How long?
Yes, how long, brother?
Chest surgery will be possible in nine months.
Maybe more .
Testosterone, it can take years.
With your father?
Yes.
One year.
I think about one year.
My mother always tells me
p>
it hurts to give me breasts.
I'm hungry, and I bite.
But he always tells me
he doesn't never had so much love someone in his life
that he did at this time.
I love my mother.
I want him to be happy.
You didn't put Harry outside?
This is an adult.
He is an idiot.
I need life < br /> simple now.
I'm not sure I can finish this now.
I will finish it later the next time you come.
Listen.
And if we have a promise?
And if every week,
we take time to together?
Only you and me?
You are pursuing your class, we put everything aside.
This will be our moment.
>
What do you think?
Every week?
The same time, every week, without fail.
Every Tuesday?
Promised?
Promised.
I should have talked a lot.
So many things not clear to me...
Defend the truth of love that grows in your eyes.
These are all that I should have said before.
You are my person < br /> heart can appreciate,
you and only you.
August 30
Because it is supported by health insurance,
and that the procedure has been approved,
a "Life Experience" Real (RLE ) "needed.
Do you know what that is, Billie?
Yes, I told him about that.
Well, so you have to understand
It's before hormones,
Your mother must keep coming. To see us evaluated.
This is the second session.
I think it will happens two or three months.
And six months later, we will look for surgery.
Reconstruction surgery of the torso woman to human.
Followed by a hysterectomy, if you want it.
What is a hysterectomy?
This is removal of the uterus.
Saya mengerti bahwa kamu telah mengambil nama maskulin.
What do you think of the new one your mother's name?
James, this is a good name.
Hello James.
Good morning.
Thank you.
I have to call you father now?
Which suits you best.
Daddy.
When was it I'll see you again?
Papa?
Father, father, father, father.
Papa?
Next week at the same time.
Eat with chopsticks, not with your finger.
It's better like that... dad. </ p >
That's rude... Billie.
Ouch, it's sick.
No. Eat right. </ P>
September 6
Tuesday 3
Mother
Harry? </ P>
Uncle Harry?
You can't miss school because of me.
This is not the goal.
I want to meet each other.
I have a previous appointment, and then I have to go to work.
Beautiful claws. </ P>
I don't want anymore that the school calls me
to tell me that you are dry. </ P>
I think we will do it more time together.
You have to follow the schedule.
From 4pm to 10pm?
Okay, 4pm to 10pm night
Promised?
Promise, please.
OK, it's promised.
And don't dig in my business .
September 13
Tuesday 4
What?
Why did you eat so fast?
What do you do other nights?
Tidak banyak. Saya bekerja.
You go out?
Not yet.
It will come.
September 20
Tuesday 5
Damn. Very cold in this cottage. </ P>
Another great night spending time together? </ P>
September 27
Tuesday 6
I'll return this that you don't want.
Dad doesn't care won't even see it.
Frida!
How long have you stayed? </ P>
Papa? </ P>
Just tonight Do you remember? </ P>
And then you come back tomorrow mom
I go home Mom tomorrow.
I sleep in your bed.
What is that?
Ingredients: scissors, crepe wool, glue, eyeliner, mascara? </ P>
This will be fun. </ P>
And he shouted: "Thief of salt water!"
"Sir, you a famous pirate!"
Others responded: "Don't insult me!"
Apple of Adam.
You still love women, don't you?
Of course.
But this is lesbian or straight guy?
I don't want to be with whoever it is for now.
When is that?
When will I become a man?
I thought you were <
Did you not eat?
No.
October 4
Hi. </ p >
Hi.
... because of nothingness, but it's quite peaceful.
There's also a good view.
Here , I lost weight.
For good?
Yes.
Saya memeriksa pengikat kami hari yang lain karena ...
I found one on the way.
October 11
Sorry.
Did you talk to someone?
No. Nothing. </ P>
Good. </ P>
I don't even know what is your name? </ P>
Josh. </ P>
Jasmin.
Josh and Jasmin?
Josh and Jasmin. Jasmin and Josh.
Damn you.
No. I think of my mother. </ P>
The name starts with J. </ P>
I always want that my name starts with J. </ P>
This is a better way to start the name.
With J rather than B.
Billie.
Petite, the only "Billie" that I know,
it's a dog.
You want to play?
Yes.
I'm very sorry. I don't see time gone by.
I'm fine, baby. Don't worry.
No, I'm very sorry.
What are you doing?
I'll be here half an hour. </ P>
If I see the time,
we only have a few hours together
before you're back.
Go directly to Tom's house.
Really? I'm on my way. </ P>
Don't worry. </ P>
If I take my job early, I will finish early. That doesn't matter. </ P>
Are you sure? </ P>
Yes, it would be good for me go to bed early. </ P>
See you next week?
See you next week. I love you
Me too, I love you. </ P>
I am very sorry. </ P>
October 18
You can't send me?
You don't want to play normally?
It should be fun, but you don't care to me.
You made me run in everything.
I tried to tell you something, there.
You never listen to me, damn it .
It's about last week?
You're the one who is late.
I think it will be more simple if we spend a week.
I'm very sorry.
I don't want to miss for a moment with you.
Never.
Okay.
So let's make sure that doesn't happen again.
OK.
Of course. Let's do that. </ P>
OK. </ P>
Good. </ P>
Well, do you want to play or not? </ P>
Ya.
October 25
Open your mouth.
Why?
Open your mouth.
Greater.
I have saliva whole mouth. </ P>
Disgusting. </ P>
And on the other side. </ P>
What is it like? </ P>
Mint freshness. </ P>
No, I mean... what sense does it have? </ P>
Why didn't you try? </ P>
Okay. </ P >
Damn, I have to go.
Is that true?
Yes.
No.
If.
If. p>
This is the last one once we see each other?
How do you do it?
There's a drama this weekend and first,
and then we are on vacation next week.
It's planned like that.
I really have to go.
You don't know what you missed.
November 1
Hi.
You have to go?
I can stay here forever.
No, I mean, I can't believe it.
Plan between day and two...
Give pleasure to beautiful women.
I might be able to give you the pleasure of one of these four.
I take all the fun.
But it makes me happy.
Enchanting.
You so beautiful surprise, that's all.
Hi.
Hi! I arrived in seconds.
Okay.
Look at this.
When I met a transgender child...
What are we talking about sometimes it's...
a good opportunity to find out
that our parents chose to live an authentic life.
What are you thinking about?
What is authentic life?
What is that? Authentic life?
>
November 8
"Look"
Cool. Your first testosterone dose. </ P>
- Yes, this morning. - Great. </ P>
It's time. </ P>
Champagne. </ P>
Champagne.
So the doctor said that everything was fine.
Finally, I mean, it's clear.
I passed all the exams , by the way.
That's it. I take T. </ P>
Let's drink to bigger clitos. </ P>
Damn you.
Harry, can you take it back tonight.
You eat, and you spend time together
You return to your other home.
Yes.
That's ridiculous.
This is ridiculous, damn it.
What time You have to leave Jane...
Damn, I mean James?
22 hours.
We have flushed it.
That doesn't matter. I say to midnight daddy.
November 15
There are some things that happen start right away.
What are the examples?
My muscle mass will increase.
And my hair will be harder and more abundant.
Even on its face ?
It will definitely be longer.
Open your eyes because it might be that I become bald.
Is this a good thing?
How do you do it?
If you become bald does that mean it works, right?
Is it there is a guy who is bald.
So that's how likes to be bald?
If I start to see, I have to tell you? </ p >
Or do you want me to speak only positive things?
If you pay attention to something, you tell me, okay?
That's the sound I'm with testosterone.
After a week.
There, here I am.
I found a picture of from the person I met ,
and there are types that like I am born as a woman,
but they take testosterone.
So...
All this is logged. take testosterone?
Yes.
That's it.
It doesn't even appear.
No.
Not bad, huh?
It's there.
Walk straight forward.
Harry, can I open my eyes?
No.
Now open.
Dear God.
Don't go crazy and don't don't climb on the roof.
Okay
What is this history, by the way?
Drinking party with friends? </ P>
No.
So what? </ P>
You arranged a virtual party? </ P>
Did you take a crack?
You want me to tell you provide something?
I don't need anything.
What is that?
With high school friends, we have need a hangout. </ P>
You want me to tell you deliver every Tuesday? </ P>
Yes
Yes.
Please
It will be very good.
That will be our secret.
November 22
Have you noticed something?
I don't know.
That should change in a week?
I don't know.
Here?
Yes. Right in front of the camera. </ P>
Okay. </ P>
You can sit there. </ P>
Josh, come on too. </ P>
No, Josh will pass.
First, yourself.
What will you ask me?
You go together?
Like a boyfriend / girlfriend ?
No.
This is quite exciting.
Are you a man now?
I am almost a man.
That's not entirely with petals on the bed
listening to Barry White.
That's not like that.
That's good?
Yes.
No, actually, no.
That one.
What do you do as a sound?
Quality clothing.
I have a beard.
I walk with determination.
>
You are a man. You're cool, man. </ P>
Have you ever drank cunni? </ P>
Yes. </ P>
What is it like? </ P>
Tart. </ P>
Is that good?
Tart.
That's not good.
Tart.
Do you like me filming you?
That doesn't bother me.
What do you think is that?
I thought that... interesting.
November 29
I see myself every day so...
Is your voice more serious?
December 6
I started shaving.
His face?
Yes. For thicker hair. </ P>
Does that work? </ P>
Looks like an ass baby but...
Tic tac. Time. </ P>
Wait. </ P>
For more. </ P>
You are more like your mother or father ?
I don't know my father...
And I don't want like my mother.
Jas, open your shirt.
>
Lips.
Don't put your hand on it.
You can kiss them.
Don't lick them.
But you can bite them. </ P>
Breasts. </ P>
But you can take it in your hand.
And ejaculate on it.
December 13
I have to start again.
>
What?
I showed this to my daughter, you know.
I met your brother.
I know, he lives with me.
But you didn't speak from me to your daughter?
No.
This is the right time to introduce yourself.
Hi Billie. My name is Lisa...
Oh shit.
I sleep with... your mother.
December 20
You look brown this week. </ P>
Are you unconscious? </ P>
No.
You look older. </ P>
p>
It starts again. I hear a sound.
A sharp scream?
Like a snail that we will cook.
I upset you. </ P>
If the snail approaches, we can hear it. </ P>
What is the function? </ P>
I don't know. </ P>
Like hot breadcrumbs.
December 27
Wake up.
Merry Christmas, baby.
Merry Christmas.
>
How is that?
We don't go there.
We live at home.
My parents are not happy to have it new son 38 years old. </ P>
Oh no, no. </ P>
A girl is missing, a son is found. </ P>
It's like James has married himself.
He already looks like embankment to them.
That has taken them time to accept that.
The bastards.
You have to wake up.
You smell cigarettes.
I think I feel the print.
Billie, wake up.
I don't sure I can leave you tonight.
Because of me... I... ruined...
And I want to stay like that.
I will tell James your secret.
It's okay, it's okay. I wake up. </ P>
I wake up. I wake up. </ P>
What? </ P>
I play in all posts: drummer, pitcher, catcher
I play for the opposing team...
I always know what I want. Unlike your mother.
That's the problem.
I have to tell you something very important.
What?
Don't do it like your mother.
Because you really admire it. < br /> You can't be like him.
Like a man?
No.
What can you do be stupid sometimes.
I mean...
Except this whatever you want.
I don't know.
How do I can you know?
Try to go with it report beforehand.
You don't need to do it to wait for inspiration.
You are not Rembrandt. </ P>
You don't care and you you roll the painting. </ P>
Promised. </ P>
OK, okay. </ P>
Now, Harry, come out and let me sleep. </ P>
Okay. </ P>
Hei, si juru masak!
Merry Christmas, bastard!
Hi.
- Hi. - Are you ready?
Yes.
For more.
Merry Christmas, Billie.
Merry Christmas, ma'am.
For more much.
For more, goodbye.
Christmas food and curls...
Christmas Merry is Stupid! I hate that!
I hate that.
Christmas is nonsense.
Damn!
I can bite them but don't lick them?
And I don't have the right to do that to put your hand on it?
That's what I said.
January 3
I'm sorry
you're not for nothing.
Then what's wrong?
You are bad mood today.
That's because of testosterone.
What? Bad mood? </ P>
No.
There are some complications. </ P>
What is it like? </ P>
Like... like that. p>
Like this
S why
Hurry up your girl story.
I'm waiting for the results analyze and we will see.
January 10
What's wrong?
Damn, hello to you too.
You never call and you know I will sleep...
What is that?
Jane?
I have to stop testosterone.
Because of overproduction < liver enzymes.
You see me.
You will definitely stop the treatment?
Very rare, but there another case.
If I continue testo, I will die.
I'm very sorry, J.
I don't know how announce to Billie.
Damn it.
That's what I have /> think first...
How to announce it to him?
He will want it reset with you.
Do you know that? p>
I can't... Not yet. I beg you. </ P>
I need time to think. </ P>
Tom? </ P>
I am waiting for your decision. </ P>
You should consult another doctor. </ P>
You can't be proud of one opinion ,
there must be another solution. </ P>
No
No.
I don't know.
And now?
I know this has happened it's hard for all of us.
I need time to think.
I think we... I like let's hold on to our Tuesday.
I always survived for my mind, my maturity.
My ability to adapt. </ P>
But that's not true. </ P>
We have no choice? </ P>
January 17
... 200 kilometers to North Adelaide
in 1880 before his father was unable to find work in Sydney.
January 24
Hi.
Do you want me preparing dinner tonight?
Release your top.
Here.
Release your top.
January 31
It's time to wake up!
To get up!
To get out of bed!
Small hula-hoop clock.
Hi.
Is everything okay?
Yes.
February 7
Mother
Damn, ma'am.
Where are you ?
February 14
On the way to school.
A beautiful day.
Yes.
So
Look at this.
We are on a mission of Isle of Pin glaciers
west of Antarctica.
Through the peephole , we observed a fairly wide gap
on a cooler platform.
It happened quite regularly
in the Arctic and Antarctic but it's far from trivial.
We want to record this as much process as possible.
That happens so much things in a year.
This planet...
Civil war in Syria, Libya, and...
And in Antarctica, glaciers New York size breaks. ..
Or maybe not.
Damn.
I don't remember not a good party.
But we oppose the door,
>
because there is no key.
He took panties.
Can I do it?
No.
Like this?
More brutal.
To show me how much he wants me
Go. When is my turn? </ P>
Josh, wait a minute. </ P>
Maybe it's because was Valentine's Day
and that her boyfriend was in the next room.
He wants to do that fast.
I let him do it.
You know, he told me immediately filled in.
Here... take my foot.
Put your finger there.
How are you doing?
He doesn't stop turn your head.
I take it and I get it forced to kiss me.
We go there. </ P>
Wait, I'll do it. </ P>
Please. </ P>
You must be more brutal. </ P>
Okay. </ P> p>
Okay.
Suit, you don't wear jeans.
Not easy.
OK.
Hold my feet.
OK, okay.
Billie... what are you saying?
Do you like it?
>
I don't know.
Come on, Billie.
We've told you everything.
You have to give us something.
p>
February 21
I don't remember what you told me.
Don't worry. It will come. </ P>
One way or another. </ P>
This will require more space. </ P>
Harry is here? </ P>
He never been there.
I hit my butt broken soap...
I fell in the bathroom.
I didn't faint because that I hit my head,
but because I believe that I cut my ass.
And you took your naked bicycle?
Yes. It's true
Or disguised as a spermatozoa. </ P>
You are a brother and a sister? </ P>
This is my niece. </ P>
You can be his brother.
He could easily to be good to my brother.
I treated him as if it were my sister.
Make sure you don't do it to hurt my little Billie.
Do you take care of him?
Do you protect yourself?
You don't use < your mother's dildo?
If so, I hope that you wash this thing.
It's not hygienic.
Nothing...
There is no string between us.
Your mother is lesbian?
What are you doing here, Harry?
Are you hanging around here? Are you talking about... your things? </ P>
What will you do without
this beautiful place that I found you?
Where are you going?
I imagine you will go at your mother's house, right?
James is still in /> works now
so he won't know.
Who is James?
Okay.
February 28
I have consulted a psychiatrist.
So usually...
Given changes in international standards,
I think I can have my chest operated.
Without taking hormones.
>
I want to ask if... do you want to come?
During surgery?
In the psychiatrist.
For authorization in a few weeks.
You would rather not be here?
Of course, mom. You can count on me.
Great, right? </ P>
Yes. Very strange. </ P>
What? </ P>
Harry, this is Tom. </ P>
The cook. </ P>
Billie is here? He answered more to my call. </ P>
Where are they?
I don't know.
I called Jane later.
Bad idea.
Why?
I have to talk to Billie. I had a scooter accident.
Siallah. How are you doing? </ P>
Thank you. </ P>
It's okay. </ P>
I want to do it beautiful and I fall...
... and I scratched myself left side.
But I have to talk to Billie because...
... I don't know if I'm going to be at home.
I'll call Jane.
Bad idea.
Don't stop saying that.
p>
He will come back here from all so I can tell him.
What happened, damn it?
And shit.
Well, here's topo...
Billie.
Sit down .
Why didn't you not answer me?
Harry persuaded me to call your mother
to tell her that I looking for you.
But he has to tell me why.
Why don't you want to tell me you hang out with your friends?
We will fix it, you and me.
I will not tell your mother.
Good. I don't want not because he knows. </ P>
He will know that. </ P>
We say "he". </ P>
We don't care, Bill.
That's something that you will solve everything alone.
March 6
I don't use so much lately.
It's your birthday.
You can just come out I try something else.
Okay.
I think it will be more good if I start seeing people.
- Actually, I... - Need help?
No thanks.
I have a colleague who... seems interested.
Did you meet someone?
No, that's not what I said.
And this one? </ P>
You can us to leave for a moment? </ P>
No problem. </ P>
I don't like anything. Can we go?
Do you want us to go somewhere else?
No, take me home.
When we come here...
>
This place...
That makes sense, a secret and separate place.
That's worth it.
That's mine.
March 13
Tuesday 30
Tell your mother, Bill.
Tell him.
Where is the mother?
Not far away.
Not enough to enter pictures with children
No, he's not far away.
It's nice to meet you again here.
We talk on the phone,
but it's been a long time since that your mother hasn't arrived yet.
And you, Billie, it's a eternity that I don't see you anymore.
Seven months. It's been seven months. </ P>
Good. So how are you? </ P>
Despite that setback, everything works fine. </ P>
And you two? </ P>
How are you doing? when are you together?
Very good.
Yes, it went well.
Besides that?
I lied to my mother every week
said that I would enter in Tom at 10 pm...
So, alright.
In fact, I hang out with friends.
I am a gland without no one knows where I am.
So... it's OK.
And my mother doesn't know anything until... now.
So this great, isn't it?
James dated someone work, I thought.
But it must be asked the question because...
I don't know anything. </ P>
Maybe you Can you tell me about that? </ P>
I have a job. </ P>
That can't be trusted. In front of a psychiatrist.
Billie can do everything screw up today.
Don't worry.
I'm sure he saw a stupid family all the time.
Can't wait? I have a job.
No. We have to solve this. </ P>
This is between you and Billie. </ P>
No. It's very badly managed. He lied to you too, you know? </ P>
What did you think left it
until midnight working day?
You asked him what did he do?
Because he refused to tell me.
Don't worry a little?
>
We're talking about our daughter.
Every Tuesday This is your daughter, yes.
But not all the time.
No You decide what Billie does
after 22 hours. </ P>
This is back under my responsibility. </ P>
That's your idea, Do you remember?
You have to assume.
For some reason,
You decided to become his mother only 6 hours a week.
Twenty-four hours per month.
A day.
The last six months, you have What is his mother for?
6 days?
Six days. That's all
You don't have a voice. </ P>
March 20
Is everything okay? </ P>
I don't mind when it's a bit brutal...
Stop.
I have my period.
I hate that. That hurts, damn it.
For me too. Like for many women. </ P>
Before I think of it it's the hormone. </ P>
I don't understand. </ P>
What? </ P >
That I hate it
because it reminds me that I'm a woman.
This body is still...
There.
I don't know you <
Billie thought we were dating together for months.
He thought I was lying to him.
He smart.
Tom and I split up when Billie was one year old.
But we live always together,
like family < a little apart.
Until it's clear that I love women.
He said in front of Billie
that he hated me for having find out so late who I am.
And when he moved,
he demanded that share Billie.
Then my little sister < br /> Harry moved.
How messy.
That's too much
changes to a girl.
Great, isn't it?
I'm happy being a lesbian.
But there is something else.
April 10
And one night it was very simple, I was dressed,
I decided to take a risk.
What kind of disguise?
I put some men's clothes,
I drew myself a beard, and that's it.
In the mirror, I < br /> finally recognized and...
I am a handsome man.
I want to see that.
No, I don't think so. p>
That was liberation but I was scared.
I was having fun with Billie and Tom...
I decided to burying all that.
It was announced very complicated...
That doesn't matter.
Billie matters.
And ten years later, that's what I earn on my face.
If you can't manage live with yourself...
then disappears too.
Are you happy to be born a man?
What will happen if I have keep delaying the deadline?
The best kid and loves the world.
I don't want to blame him.
I need time.
Are you happy to be born of a man?
Yes.
But then won't have Billie.
No.
I'm tired of walking on eggs.
But I don't want more... do that.
And if you come back to stay here?
No.
April 24
Hi, this is Billie. Leave a message.
For more.
Hi, this is mother. It's past 5 PM
I wonder will you come? </ p p>
I have no news about you I will be at home.
Call me.
May 1
Hi, this is Billie.
Leave a message.
For more.
I think we should do it at least talk.
I don't know if you're listening to my message and
Tom isn't cooperative at all. </ P>
Can we discuss? </ P>
May 8
Sorry for the delay. I'm busy.
Thank you for coming. Sit down.
Okay.
Apart from some cases last year's attendance,
we have never had a problem with Billie.
For us, this incident is not not in the habit.
We are everything as surprised as you are.
It's all new for us too,
that's the reason Our presence here.
We are here for find the solution.
What really happened ?
Billie sent a message from a girl from another class, Jasmin Miller,
during class.
Jasmin's teacher was discovered and
he confiscated his cellphone.
He noticed that the message was a picture
Billie was naked.
For good?
Trust me, this is very serious.
I want you to understand even if you are underage,
your photo is bare
can be considered child pornography.
Usually, I will call the police.
But not this time.
I just want to warn you.
A family like you, in your situation...
I want you to understand the consequences. </ P>
Our situation? </ P>
You have a design < more complicated lives,
with family like yours.
For couples who are divorced?
He has a vision very clear,
if that's what you mean.
We allow it to understand life
better from most other parents.
This period must be destabilizing for Billie.
I am not looking for in his business.
May 15
You can see it for hours,
he won't move.
He doesn't do much, but even less on Tuesdays.
This is his favorite TV party.
Soap operas are followed by NCIS.
Now there is The Voice. He likes watching that. </ P>
He lives here alone? </ P>
He has two children. A girl and a boy.
And if they are all at home, they watch The Voice.
He hates dating.
He never sets foot outside.
Child protection services in don't know nothing about that?
They cover it up.
They create excuses if you ask.
They avoid problems in school
if not school call parents.
He can't move.
Do you have brothers?
Younger
Now...
What happens to you lives and you don't tell us?
And in your hands? You can do what you want.
Damn...
You don't understand what -What.
My mother is sick.
I'm tired of being your toy.
Damn you.
May 22
It's 5 o'clock and half morning,
I'm full time difference. </ P>
Maybe it's because from the drunk downstairs.
Do you see it?
Anyway...
San Francisco is amazing.
I've met...
... very trans interesting and...
I hope you see that See you later.
I identified myself with a man trans for years.
I consider myself as "strange sex".
I do not know what is a man.
I thought I was good before to realize it.
I did not know I was trans until I was two twenty six.
Son, I have a twin brother
so it's easy I understand
what it's like to be a female , and I'm not like that.
I wonder without taking T,
how to be that guy what I imagine myself?
For what I took years of sabbatical? </ P>
I have taken it for 18 years,
and I don't think it is necessary
for gender identity.
I didn't take it but I underwent surgery
16 days ago and I I feel satisfied.
I married a man, I have a 7-year-old child
and I switch before birth. </ P>
So he always has me known as his father. </ P>
But I still have to explain to him
and tell him I'm a different father.
May 29
It takes a lot of time long
feel good, Accept me as a man
and even after 11 years, there sometimes when...
This is so crazy.
That's not what I am Feels like a woman...
I'm afraid of claiming this identity.
Father I became a woman.
14 years ago when I was 17 years old.
And that changed our relationship.
Initially when my father got him out
I said I loved him after all.
Everything will be fine.
A month later later,
I go I'm sad.
I told my mother I feel weird.
He asked me whether it was because of my father?
June 5
Thank you.
You want Harry give me back your camera?
Yes.
Because...
He stole it from me and he wants not return it to me.
What's in it?
Nothing, I just need for school.
Why did he steal it? </ P>
I don't know. </ P>
He was afraid there had some things in it,
who can burden him, or I don't know.
Can you take it or not?
Tom still leaves you hanging out with your friends ?
Daddy allows me to grow up.
I can make my own choices.
Well, send a picture of yourself naked
to the unknown is not for me is not a very good choice.
Can you release it?
Okay.
Why don't you come and can we chat together?
What's the difference with you? who sent us your video
your adventure fag in San Francisco?
It's different. You're a small child.
But in a year, I won't be one more?
One year long, especially at your age.
I know that a bad idea.
You can't even make my damn camera.
Where are you going? Sit down. </ P>
Don't do that. </ P>
June 12
... everything is saved this remote controlled robot. </ P>
That's so funny.
You're a naughty person.
I'll take James's car
to pick him up when he come out.
I will take it home.
But after that, it takes all to reach out.
Who should we contact in an emergency?
Nobody will die.
There is a risk of death for any operation.
How do you know who contact in an emergency?
Promise me that you will be in home when he comes out.
Yes, I will be there, sponge in your hand.
I will not drive shift, I hate this.
And your car?
He is dead.
If I am an emergency contact, I must take the car.
Take a bicycle, make love.
>
I will find the information.
Dad, can we go?
One time, my heart.
Excuse me.
You don't say a word. </ P>
Don't make me. </ P>
I can't do it, I really can't. </ P>
He will leave service for a while.
I can't use this family myself.
Why am I the only one who can be relied on by James?
Give me a scooter key.
Am I an emergency contact?
No.
Lisa.
June 19 </ p >
Will you turn it off? It hurts me.
It's not like that speaks to the nurse.
I do other things > in normal time.
Will you put it out?
Forcing me.
It must have been infiltrates by me a wound to poison me.
p>
He's here, you don't have just to reach out.
You are terrible.
How annoying! I need a break.
p>
Where is your girlfriend?
Busy.
Busy?
Is there any water in the gas?
Billie doesn't < br /> should it be there?
What?
Why did you not at your mother's house?
I thought I was being punished.
Not when I had to help your mother in this country.
James doesn't need me.
I'm sure he did it very well with Harry.
There are many more.
Don't try to taunt me again...
By moving me and recovering me at school.
To control me come and go.
Pak cook on a scooter.
Do you smoke?
Damn, Billie.
Go.
Okay. </ P>
I only did this which he always wanted. </ P>
I took my distance. </ P>
My patience has limits, Bill. </ P> p>
What are you looking for?
Give me a double sentence?
He should be here.
You are responsible from each other.
Like you with Frida? </ P>
You are a cow. </ P>
We get along very well. </ P>
Because you see it only once a month. </ P>
And we get along always good too. </ P>
Because you made your life when you heard it,
he was grateful that you respect him with your presence. </ P>
p>
I need a cigarette.
Fix your problem with Billie,
and save us you tell me.
Great.
It's not me. It must be still fusing.
Very funny.
Drop one tone.
June 26 </ p p>
No, I just want to make sure.
No. Fifteen hours is very good. </ P>
Before I arrive...
You know I was called James today? </ P>
Yes, it shouldn't be < br /> does not surprise me...
Everything always ends with knowing.
See you later.
For more.
How are you doing? </ P>
S okay. </ P>
Billie. </ P>
Don't consider it bad...
But your father made me fins. </ P> >
I don't want to make him angry.
We don't care.
We don't have to obey it.
Do you have news from Jas?
>
No.
He did not answer me.
I thought he blocked you.
If I give you a message, will you gave it to him?
To apologize...
I don't know.
July 3
Tuesday 46
You said that you were needed tonight.
Yes. </ P>
How much is there? </ P>
Only one. </ P>
I understand why Harry stole it from you. </ P>
He doesn't protect me. </ P>
This...
... something. </ P>
Why record this? </ P>
Why did you register < br>> your transition?
Your trip to the United States?
To be able to return there.
To see what I looked at at that time...
minor changes.
To show you.
You have not changed.
That's right?
You have spent this year to be a man.
I know.
You said you would take testosterone.
That you will have a male body.
I had surgery and that's good but
without testosterone it's fine take time.
I accept it.
Because I thought about that you will become a man.
This is what happened.
This is the case .
When will you change?
Not only physical.
There is no end.
No.
That's why I still have need to adjust items. </ P>
I've heard that somewhere...
You need another year? </ P>
Do you have still satisfied? </ P>
You. </ P>
I have to solve the problem with you. </ P>
Can I get it back?
Do you want it for school? Your artistic project
That's important?
It's dangerous.
That's not what you think.
It doesn't matter what I believe in.
You shouldn't have these pictures. </ P>
Do you know what I have to do? </ P>
I have to burn it. </ P>
I have to search all of your items and burn them all. </ P>
If you touch this recording,
I will leave here and will not talk to you never again said that.
If it's leaked...
I beg you.
Don't do that.
Sorry .
July 10
Tuesday 47
When we live there...
This place...
Everything makes sense.
This is my mother.
That's how her back is.
July 17
Tuesday, 48
There are many things I should have said before.
That I should have told you...
I feel stuck < br /> and can't talk about it.
Damn.
That's a sacred thing to hide from your daughter.
Then Tuesday becomes /> our moment for us.
There are all these things... important.
That happens all the time.
Jasmin?
Still eating if you are hungry.
July 24
Tuesday 49
This year, the population of has reached 7 billion.
And in Antarctica glaciers New York sizes have been released.
There are Arab Spring.
And Occupy Wall Street and Egypt.
You passed the terminal.
Josh was encouraged three different beards,
and my mother became a boy.
It all happens... important things.
And that happens all the time.
How do you know this? who is right really important?
At first I didn't know not how to be.
You know, how did he give me my support,
My anger, my worries...
You seem to know, both of you...
what you like and what you feel. </ P>
Not me.
And sex...
It's still complicated but it's good and weird...
At least I'm not feel it unlike the girl
that James tried to get rid of.
I feel myself.
I don't want talking about my mother.
And how much more it's easy for him if I'm not there.
Or if I have ever been.
I want you to get to know you and Josh.
July 31
Tuesday 50
Look at this. It is clear that they make love.
This is very explicit.
And how many images of this type are circulating?
This should be an art project. What is that?
I agree that it is...
You have to get rid of it.
If that happens on the Internet...
Why is that? will arrive on the Internet?
You make love in front of the camera.
meant for nothing else.
I can't believe you did that.
But you understand why you have to get rid of it? < /p>
No .
We can show that to the police.
But it will attract them for all the problems.
Billie doesn't have the majority of sex.
You made us sing?
Not at all, I just say that
take it to the police will destroy their lives.
So you have to convince Billie > to destroy the video.
Even if he accepts it, how to trust him about his words?
I'll make sure, okay?
We should have here, to be sure.
I mean, we don't can never be sure.
You mean you don't don't trust me
I mean we in an inseparable situation.
Listen...
When it's over,
you will not hear from me, I swear to you.
I will come out of your life if is what you want.
But if you continue like this, you won't have anything left.
You only have returned to Jasmin. </ P>
How can you see it? </ P>
Because I showed it to him. </ P>
What am I supposed to do it?
I don't know what to do with it, so I show it to my mother.
And he finally calls us.
Something worse than having a mother who wants to be someone. </ P>
Trust me. </ P>
I want to go time with you. </ P>
I like the camera. </ P>
But I don't want anyone else not seeing that. </ P>
August 7
Tuesday 51
Tape. </ P>
Tape.
Again.
Tape.
Slap
Continue. < /p>
Tape.
Did you find your butt plan?
I destroyed everything.
So , no more child pornography?
Really?
Do you think he still images?
Frida!
Say to me.
Why are you worried?
You are out business now.
Stop your nonsense, Harry.
When it's all over,
it won't be cool. Stay a little? </ P>
Let them go make love by themselves. No one knows. </ P>
Why are you doing this?
Frida, stop!
What do you want me to say to you?
What if you say you have nothing?
Whatever I say, you won't believe me.
You are right.
That's why we have to go immediately
for you note that you don't have anything.
I can't, even if I want it.
I am stuck with Frida,
then I have to do that balance, then concert.
Go home and check.
I don't care. </ P>
You know James will be here. </ P>
Then? </ P>
I don't go there alone. </ P> >
Will you avoid it all your life?
Why? You made it not believe it? </ P>
You? </ P>
You have to go there and to find it yourself. </ P>
I can't go away
I will not go.
I have to work.
You have to go?
Yeah damn, I have to work, Bill.
They don't do without me.
I'm late with that nonsense.
Sorry.
I'm tired. I leave. </ P>
I will leave after work. </ P>
But don't wait for me. </ P>
Watch a movie, or read a book...
p>
Take care of yourself.
Billie.
You are here.
I'm not sure.
Lord me.
Of course.
August 14
Tuesday 52
This is Tuesday.
I am not can stay without limits.
I will be fast, history is not too embarrassing.
You watched your child grow up and you know he changed but,
You don't know how, what and when.
It's hard to do it know when, isn't it?
But you're smart enough to know how, when and when.
It's much better than me.
So... .
I hope you will like that there will be a longer time
to keep giving me information.
With cheese, it makes it like that.
It balances sides cream and broth.
Sir, it's up to you.
Please coffee with milk.
Yes, no problem.
How to go to school?
James has passed a little earlier.
He looks good.
It takes time, but it's happening.
He has delayed the deadline so much.
He will listen to me too for my good.
You love Jane.
Without a reservation. You idolize it.
What mother wants to change that?
However, you, you don't want
Most people are animated < br /> best intentions,
and sometimes it doesn't work.
Problems occur.
You make a bad decision...
You don't pay attention. </ P>
You have a scooter accident. </ P>
This is life, Bill. </ P>
It hurts too. </ P>
That must be
You don't want what you have before...
Just knowing that someone's party.
James menunjukkannya padamu, Bill. Dia tidak menyembunyikan apapun.
You have the opportunity to know who your mother is.
That's when you will be able to love this man.
Or not.
You can make this choice every day if you want.
But there's no other way.
OK, I'm ready.